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All the preparations have been done, and at the moment when Su Yu wanted to do it, he suddenly thought of what he said to Jiang Chen, "I promise you, I will not give up my life easily."

Yes, he still owes Jiang Chen an explanation. Even though he is so broken that he can no longer put it together again, he still wants to tell Jiang Chen that there is no pain in his leaving, only relief.

"Dear Jiang Chen, my love, this is the first time I call you that. I used to feel that any sweet words are disgusting, but in fact, I have called you this countless times in my heart.

This is also the last time I call you this way. I chose to leave with my mother. This is a decision I made after careful consideration. You don’t have to be sad, but you should be happy for me, because at this moment I feel the long-lost happiness. And happiness, when I get closer to death, I feel that I am getting closer to my mother's arms.

I have reviewed my life countless times, most of the time it was boring and blank, only when I was with you, I once felt the happiness like fireworks, forgive me for not having a better word to describe it, this Already the most beautiful words my broken heart could find.

Every piece of it is laughing now, laughing at how naive it is, fooling everyone and itself like a clown, making us all think that the future can be looked forward to.

Now I finally don't have to struggle again and again, don't have to be afraid anymore, oh, I haven't told you what I'm afraid of.

I’m actually afraid of everything. When I wake up, I’m afraid of the feeling of my feet stepping on the ground. When I go out, I’m afraid that people will look at me. I just want to shrink myself into a ball. When I came out, I couldn't even take the money he gave me.

I am such a useless person, so you don't have to be sad about my departure, there is only one less person in the world who shouldn't exist. "

There were people coming and going at the airport in a hurry, but only Su Shaoqing felt that everything had stopped. He read the messages on his mobile phone over and over again, and then dialed Su Yu's number tremblingly.

The ringtones from the mobile phone hit his heart one after another, until a female voice came from inside, Su Shaoqing's face became even paler, and he called again unwillingly, but no one answered.

"Where's Su Yu?" Su Shaoqing called Jiang Chen and asked anxiously.

"He's at home, what happened?" Jiang Chen suddenly had a bad premonition when he heard Su Shaoqing's stern and nervous tone.

"Now, you immediately, immediately, go home!"

"What happened..." Before Jiang Chen finished asking, Su Shaoqing had already hung up the phone.

"What's wrong?" Zhang Chi asked hurriedly seeing Jiang Chen's pale face.

Jiang Chen didn't care about what to say to Zhang Chi, he stood up in a hurry and ran outside, his heart was very flustered, and the wind whistling in his ears made a storm in his heart.

Speeding all the way, Jiang Chen's hand pressing the combination lock suddenly stopped when he reached the door. He trembled uncontrollably, as if he couldn't find the number on the door.

The room was very clean, but it was also scary empty. Jiang Chen called Su Yu's name twice but no one answered. He walked to the door of the bedroom, took a deep breath, and suddenly opened it, but no one was there.

There was a piece of white paper on the tidy bed, and the words "juebi" were extremely dazzling. Jiang Chen's eyes were a little blurred, and he couldn't see what was written below. He held the letter left by Su Fu tightly, and suddenly As if thinking of something, he rushed out of the bedroom.

The door of the bathroom was locked from the inside, Jiang Chen slammed the door open, a large swath of red came into view, dazzling and gorgeous, this is the color of life, it is slowly flowing out of Su Yu's body.

Su Fu lay pale in the bathtub, his hands limply resting on the edge of the white bathtub, blood oozed from his wrists, pulling out long silk ribbons in the water, smudged like ink painting go.

How much blood does a person have in their body?Jiang Chen leaned against the door with his legs limp, a thought inexplicably popped into his head, the water in the bathtub turned bloody, is he still alive?

After being stunned for a moment, Jiang Chen stumbled over and hugged Su Fu in a hurry. He was very light, like a ball of soul being held in the palm of his hand.

Outside the emergency room, Jiang Chen lowered his head and was in a daze unconsciously. At this moment, there was nothing in his mind, and his world seemed to be crumbling. For a moment, he thought, if he was really in such pain, maybe Just let him go like this, and now he doesn't know whether what he did is right or wrong.

Accompanying Su Yu every day and night, he felt that Su Yu was often as desperate as a terminally ill patient, and even more unbearable. The spiritual pain was more terrifying to him than death.

A gust of wind came over with a strong momentum, Jiang Chen was pulled up and reached the wall.

"That's how you take care of him!" Su Shaoqing's eyes were red, and she glared fiercely at Jiang Chen, the anger seemed to tear him apart.

Jiang Chen dejectedly let Su Shaoqing hold him down, without saying a word, if being scolded like this would make him feel better, he really wanted Su Shaoqing to scold him.

Su Shao gave Jiang Chen affectionately, and suddenly punched Jiang Chen again, hitting Jiang Chen on the face, he staggered and fell to the ground, and blood flowed from his nose in an instant.

"You're crazy!" Ning Lingyun saw this scene as soon as he rushed over, and hurried over to hug Su Shaoqing.

"I'm crazy! None of them want to live, do they want me to die with them?"

In one day, one loved one was lost, and the life and death of the other was unknown. No matter how strong he was, he couldn't bear such a blow.

Jiang Chen got up from the ground, and suddenly punched Su Shaoqing in the face. Su Shaoqing became anxious all of a sudden, and the two started fighting outside the emergency room. They didn't separate until the nurse came over and reprimanded them.

Two people with swollen noses, messy hair and clothes sat side by side at the door of the emergency room, with hope and despair in their eyes.

Suddenly Su Shaoqing lowered his head and covered his face, and said in a low voice: "Thank you." If he didn't vent it, he might really go crazy, and before his younger brother woke up, he couldn't bear it.

One day and one night, Su Yu finally woke up. Looking at the white wall and smelling the pungent smell of medicine, he realized that he was in the hospital again and he was still alive.

"Are you awake?" Jiang Chen's voice came from the side, and Su Yu turned his head.

Under the sun, Jiang Chen's face was a bit ugly, and his beard was unshaven, and his clothes were also a little wrinkled.

Seeing that Su Fu didn't speak, but just looked at him, Jiang Chen asked again: "What's wrong?"

Su Yu blinked, but still didn't speak, then closed his eyes again.

"His condition is very serious now. He doesn't want to talk about it. He can't eat or take medicine. We recommend an electroshock therapy." The doctor then talked about safety issues and some side effects, and Su Shaoqing and Jiang Chen fell silent for a while.

Of course, this kind of therapy is not a good choice, but now Su Yu's condition is serious enough to affect his body mechanism.

In the end, Su Shaoqing still signed. He didn't go to see Su Fu during his treatment, but walked around outside.

Jiang Chen stood guard at the door and couldn't hear the sound inside. The doctor said that he would use conventional anesthetics, so it wouldn't make people feel particularly uncomfortable, and he wouldn't have any memory of what happened after waking up.

He couldn't imagine how many times Su Yu would have to endure the treatment, and what he would have to do after this time to recover. He could only pray that he really didn't have to endure the pain at this time.

After the treatment was completed, Su Yu fell into memory loss for a period of time. He couldn't remember what happened to him at all, but he wasn't curious, he just lay on the bed and curled himself up.

"Su Yu didn't go to the mutual aid group twice, do you know?" Ning Lingyun called Jiang Chen out and asked him.

Jiang Chen was a little surprised. These two times, Su Fu insisted on going by himself. When he asked, Su Fu said that he wanted to try to be independent.

Seeing Jiang Chen's reaction, Ning Lingyun also guessed that Su Fu had been hiding Jiang Chen's knowledge.

"A person needs not only love, but also family, friendship, and his own career. When there is a small problem in one of them, other emotions will support him through sad moments, especially those like Su. A person like Qi who cannot control his state of mind."

After Ning Lingyun finished speaking, he looked at Su Shaoqing and said, "You have to learn to care about him. Don't always follow your father's example. It won't do him any good."

Su Shaoqing raised his eyelids tiredly, then lowered them again, "When are you leaving?"

"Tomorrow, will you... go?" Ning Lingyun wasn't sure if Su Shaoqing was going to attend her mother's funeral, or if she would stay here with Su Yu.

"Can he go? If you don't tell him, he will regret it for the rest of his life."

In the end, Su Fu still didn't have time to go to his mother's funeral. It was not until a month later that he left the hospital and went to Europe with Jiang Chen.

Su Wei stood in front of his mother's tombstone, looking at the smiling beautiful woman above, she was as warm as in memory, she once pulled him out of the abyss step by step, but now she was lying on the cold ground.

He brought over the guitar that Jiang Chen was carrying, and sat by the tombstone, playing one after another his mother's favorite tunes during her lifetime.

She used to be a talented woman. She has always dreamed of becoming a singer since she was a folk singer in elementary school, but she has not fulfilled her dream until now.

She always said that the most terrifying thing about people is hopelessness. When you stand in the abyss, everything around you is dark, but when you have desire, it will lead you out of the darkness.

At the beginning, Su Wei just played the guitar for his mother, and later he went to the street, and people slowly stopped to listen, and he suddenly felt a little motivated.

Slowly, he began to go to the street to play guitar every day, and sometimes people would chat with him and share his music stories, as if there was a microcosm of their lives in it.

Su Yu kept playing, from sunrise to sunset, he used music to describe his mother's life, with dreams, happiness, loss, and warmth, as if the woman was still alive with the music.