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As the sky was getting darker, Su Yu looked at the tombstone with nostalgia, and gently stroked the outline of his mother in the photo, only feeling a coldness.

"Do you think she is satisfied with the way she died?" Su Yan asked suddenly.His beautiful and elegant mother just ended her life lying on the lawn at home.

Jiang Chen didn't speak for a while, but just hugged Su Fu's shoulders tightly.

"The biggest failure in her life is probably raising three unfilial children." Su Yu said again, if they loved her enough and gave her hope, how could she have come to such an end.

Jiang Chen thought of Su Yu's half-brother whom he saw in the morning, with heavy eye makeup and tattoos extending from his neck to his face, his eyes were full of contempt for everything, as if this could make him He looked unconventional, even raised his chin when he saw Su Yu, and went upstairs soon.

Jiang Chen could only comfort him, "It's not your fault, you've been sick all the time."

"Really? I can't remember when was the last time I talked to her. I don't even know when she started drinking." Su Yu said, if it wasn't for the unbearable pain in her heart, how could she know Alcohol would only make her worse and worse, but she was still inseparable from alcohol. In the end, because of alcohol poisoning, she lay outside overnight and died?

If it wasn't for the family accident, how could no one find out that she didn't come home at night, but she never told him about it, maybe in her heart, he is not a reliable son.

"Maybe she doesn't want you to worry, she loves you very much."

"Do you know how my father and my mother divorced?" Su Wei said suddenly.

"Su Yu, it's not your fault, let's go back, shall we?" Jiang Chen took Su Yu's hand, wanting to take him out of here, the gloomy and cold cemetery may make Su Yu's mentality even more uneasy.

"I was born, my dad didn't like me, my mom fell into postpartum depression, and then their marriage lasted seven or eight years in ups and downs, and they got divorced. She always wanted to put me first. One, her children are so important to her. But sometimes I feel that she has her own family, and I often alienate her. When we are closest, it is the days when she takes care of me, but it also makes ten Ellen, who was [-] years old, has always been neglected and has become so rebellious until now. I still foolishly thought that if I stayed away from her, she would be fine."

Jiang Chen recalled what Ning Lingyun had said to him. Su Yu was always stuck in the past and couldn't extricate himself. Most of it was because he didn't feel much warmth when he was a child, so that he especially longed for someone to love him. Make him miserable, because he will always try his best to love someone so that he can only hurt himself in the end.

"Su Yu, can I give you a home?" Jiang Chen said, even though this environment is not suitable, he still wants to speak out, he has thought about it countless times, but he still doesn't know whether it is the right time, but Now, he feels that Su Fu needs him to give him a family, to give Su Fu all the warmth he can enjoy.

"What?" Su Yu didn't seem to understand what Jiang Chen meant.

"I want to start a family with you. My parents actually like you very much. They often tell me to take you home to have a look." Under the night, Jiang Chen's words seemed so unreal.

"Your parents know me?" Su Yu asked incredulously.

"They are very open-minded, they have known you from a long time ago, and they often watch your shows."

"How is it possible?" Su Yu suddenly laughed self-deprecatingly, they hadn't even been together well before they separated.

Jiang Chen knew that Su Fu didn't believe it, no amount of explanations would be meaningful to Su Fu, and no matter how beautiful the language was, sometimes it couldn't touch people's hearts.

Su Fu's mother's funeral has been taken care of by his current husband, so Su Fu just came to pay homage and left soon.For this man who is also regarded as his stepfather in name, Su Wei just greeted him briefly, and probably the relationship between them was severed from then on.

In fact, you can imagine the problems between her mother and her husband. She always likes that kind of man. The first one is not patient enough for the family, from quarrels in small incidents to losing warmth every time I see each other, until finally the relationship is in jeopardy, and even the other party is dispensable.

After returning home, he continued to take medication, but it basically didn't have much effect on Su Yu. His state was always in depression, and occasionally he would get a little better, and most of the time he would be very depressed.

Su Shaoqing came to see Su Yu more often, but each time he sat down and left soon. Although they were two brothers, they rarely communicated with each other except for work. In fact, many brothers and sisters Most of them are like this, they love each other, the same blood flows in their veins, but they are like the most familiar strangers, I know everything about you since childhood, we have similar living habits, but we never know What else is on the other side's mind.

"How are you today?" Su Shaoqing repeated the monotonous opening remarks every time.

"It's okay." Su Yu said.

"Can you still participate in variety shows?" Su Shaoqing asked.

Zhao Zhengyang, who just came out of the kitchen, looked at Su Shaoqing in disbelief. Is this going to let Su Yu go to work?

This seems to have happened a long time ago. Su Yu recalled the last time he participated in the show. He just started to have some symptoms of depression. In fact, he didn’t know what was the reason at that time. Maybe it was because he was not used to the assistant who had just changed, maybe It was because he was worried about gains and losses after being with Jiang Chen, or maybe it was because he was in a state of tension during the long-term travel. At that time, he felt that there was a dark cloud covering his head without warning.

"It should be possible." Su Yu said, in fact, he himself was not sure, but he didn't want to live a meaningless day after day like now, as if it would never end.

Su Shaoqing looked at Su Yu's appearance, and actually wanted to say something in his heart, but he couldn't say it. He hoped that Su Yu could find something to do, which might help him recover, but he couldn't express his concern. , and was afraid that Su Yu might misunderstand that he didn't care enough about him.

"Let Zhao Zhengyang arrange it. If you can't go, forget it. It's just that the show has been absent for a long time. It's really not good to go on like this."

Su Shaoqing, who is used to ordering Su Yu to do things, still doesn't feel the slightest warmth in what he said.

Su Fu finally agreed, and Su Shaoqing left soon.

Zhao Zhengyang was dumbfounded watching from the sidelines. He opened his mouth to speak a few times, but held back. The boss must be too cruel to his younger brother, but when he said it, it seemed like he was provoking brotherhood. Normally, he could complain casually, but now he felt that Su Yu As fragile as a piece of paper, it might shatter when touched.

"When is the next shooting?" Su Yu suddenly asked, he had already seen Zhao Zhengyang beside him, but he didn't want to explain, this was probably the only way he could understand how Su Shaoqing cared about him.

"Next week." Zhao Zhengyang said.

"Okay." Su Yu said, thought for a while, and then said, "What do you think a star is?"

"Uh, this, generally speaking, is a job, but at a good point, it is art, and at a bad point, it is a walking advertising space... Selling yourself, selling a story, selling products."

"You really have an idea." Su Yu said thoughtfully. He actually doesn't like to stand in the crowd, so he never likes fans to pick him up, and he doesn't like to stand under the spotlight. Sometimes he even Lost himself, he couldn't tell the truth from the fake, so he locked Weibo and everything that could communicate with the outside world.

"Well, haven't I picked up newcomers recently? I didn't have this kind of thought before. Recently, I always feel like I am selling my own products, soliciting connections everywhere, helping them read scripts, and even doing publicity. In today's society, You can't do without popularity, so you have to sell people, for example, this one is suitable for a domineering president, and that one is suitable for an innocent boy..."

Su Yu was a little dazed, what were they like at that time?He didn't seem to think about anything, just because he likes it. He is a director. When he was looking for Su Shaoqing, he happened to be seen by the director, so he made a movie.

Then his life became like this, is it good or bad?He thought about it countless times, and had many ifs, but there was no result. He never dared to try other things. It seemed that he would walk as God arranged for him to walk.

"Are you saying that what those people see on the Internet is the real me?" Su Yan asked suddenly.

Zhao Zhengyang was eloquent, when he was suddenly asked by Su Yu, he really thought about it, and said carefully: "No matter what you say on the Internet, you must not take it seriously, and they don't know you, and all they see is you on the screen. You know this! When you are making a show, you are also looking for everyone’s position? For example, your appearance may suit this aspect, and the program team will magnify this aspect, and then the personality traits will also be magnified. That’s where there is conflict.”

In fact, Zhao Zhengyang didn't understand the specific meaning of Su Yu. He knew that there were a lot of news on the Internet about Su Yu's withdrawal from the show. this matter.

"I feel like I'm fake recently." Su Fu recalled that he saw himself on the show the day before. It was a masked person, not him, because he knew the sadness and helplessness deep in his heart. Couldn't relate to the man with the superficial smirk.

Zhao Zhengyang suddenly didn't know how to answer the conversation. Su Yu's current state might be a thought every day, and he was desperately looking for a breakthrough.