Actors and husbands are open

It was Jiang Chen who sent Su Fu to the mutual aid group for the first time. Standing at the door and looking at Su Fu's back, he instantly felt nervous like an old father sending his son to school for the first time.

For example, will Su Yu arouse everyone's special attention and curiosity?Will he not adapt to strangers?

Jiang Chen knew in his heart that Su Yu was able to come out and do this because he overcame the great fear in his heart. The two of them are people who live under the spotlight. If any little thing is known to the outside world, it will be infinitely magnified. How would you evaluate Su Yu?

The two hours of waiting were stretched out. Jiang Chen was absent-mindedly dealing with the issue of setting up a studio while checking the time. Finally, when Su Fu came out, Jiang Chen was relieved when he saw his expression. in one breath.

"How do you feel?" Jiang Chen put away the computer and asked.

Su Yu said in a little confusion: "It's not the same as I thought."

In Su Yu's imagination, if he walks into the group, everyone will look at him in surprise, and then they may sigh behind their backs that a person in a funny variety show will suffer from depression?What kind of self-confidence does he use to think that he can bring everyone happiness?

Can a person who seems to have dark clouds above his head and is full of gloom around him make others happy?

However, none of this happened. When Su Yu walked in, the organizer of the mutual aid group introduced him to everyone. Everyone didn't have any curiosity or prying thoughts, but just looked at him with love and sympathy.

Su Fu realized at that moment that he belonged here, that these people were in the same sickness as him, and they were people who could truly understand his own feelings. He didn't need to explain over and over again why he didn't want to get up, why he was full of anxiety all day, and why Life is so hopeless.

Everyone in the mutual aid group will share their completion of the tasks in the group for a week, and talk about their emotional disorders.

"I dare not tell my relatives and friends that I am depressed. I am afraid that they will think that I just want to get attention and moan without illness. I even dare not face this emotion myself."

"Yesterday, I felt that I was in a better mood. I have been doing some work in a planned way recently. I forced myself to record the results of my work every day. When I sorted it out yesterday, I felt a sense of accomplishment."

There are eight people in the group including Su Yu. Su Yu came for the first time and did not speak, but different people's changes in their own moods and ways to get rid of anxiety allowed Su Yu to gain a sense of identity and at the same time find Some new hope.Later, everyone also read and discussed scientific research on health together, which further confirmed Su Yu's determination to join the mutual aid group.

The mutual aid group meets twice a week. Usually, everyone will keep in touch and urge each other to complete special tasks for their own problems.

One of Su Yu's tasks is to build his own circle of friends and restore contact with his original friends.

After struggling for many days, Su Fu and Li Mingyu had a phone call.

"Honey, you are finally willing to contact me! I heard that you are sick? How are you doing now? I have called you several times but no one answered!" Li Mingyu answered the phone quickly, pouring beans cracklingly as soon as he opened his mouth generally.

Su Yu didn't participate in the recording of the program last time. He didn't know how Zhao Zhengyang asked for leave from the program group, so he could only say: "It's still in the recovery stage."

"What's wrong? Is it because you didn't eat well? What did the doctor say?" Li Mingyu asked again.

Su Fu's hand holding the phone was as tight as possible, but he still couldn't speak. He paused for a moment before saying, "I didn't say much, just take a good rest."

Li Mingyu seemed to realize that Su Yu didn't want to say more, so he quickly changed the topic, and told Su Yu about the recent gossip in the entertainment circle, and then talked about Jiang Chen for some reason.

"I think it must be that Shan Feng stole Jiang Chen's role, but the crew said that Jiang Chen was playing big names, and he just stopped acting after the filming started. Tell me, who would stop acting in Li Chengyi's movie?" Li Mingyu's voice was very angry, as if It is the same as myself who is said to be playing big cards.

Li Mingyu didn't care whether Su Fu was listening or not, and started to talk about Jiang Chen's hard work. As a fan of Jiang Chen's career, he almost cried at home because Jiang Chen missed this opportunity.

"Su Yu, you don't know how important this opportunity is. I heard that Director Li is full of confidence in this movie, and he even wants to apply for the Golden Palm Tree Award. It may be a grand slam for the actor."

Li Mingyu didn't know what the truth of the incident was. As a fan and a person in the circle, he understood Jiang Chen's evaluation in the circle very well, and what he saw was Jiang Chen's high standards for himself all the way, so he thought about Jiang Chen. It is impossible for Chen to act like a big name, let alone how Jiang Chen was picky about the script on the spot in the news, and he changed his lines many times, and he was honest and arrogant to Li Chengyi.

But Su Yu knew clearly in his heart that although the news was a bit exaggerated, Jiang Chen did stop acting, and the reason was him.

In the end, Su Yu didn't know how he hung up the phone. He felt like a sinner in his heart. The sinner who blocked Jiang Chen's future was even more of a burden. He pressed himself heavily on Jiang Chen.

What else did Jiang Chen not tell himself?How much did I drag Jiang Chen down?These cannot be measured by numbers, it is like a heavy mountain that suddenly weighed on Su Yu's heart, the only thing he can do now is to get better soon.

Getting better as soon as possible is as difficult as an insomniac trying to fall asleep as soon as possible.It will make people feel more irritable, and then sleepless, and finally form a vicious circle, but he can no longer tell Jiang Chen about all this, he has dragged him down too much.

Jiang Chen recently noticed that Su Fu's condition seemed to be much better, and he occasionally smiled at him when he saw him, and one day Su Fu even made him a dinner!

Jiang Chen didn't know how he happily finished his meal, there was nothing left.The originally depressed mood turned from cloudy to sunny because of Su Fu's surprising progress.

The progress of the studio was not going well. Jiang Chen paid a large sum of money due to the problem of the film. Now the team has basically been settled, but it has temporarily stalled due to the problem of capital turnover.

There are two other endorsements that have not been negotiated because of the news that has been raging on the Internet recently, and there are also problems with the film that was scheduled to be made later.

"I feel that my condition is getting better and better now." After dinner, Su Yu said while sitting on the sofa.

"What did you do today?" Jiang Chen is also learning to make Su Fu independent recently, and basically goes to meetings with the team during the day.

"Watched a movie, chatted with friends, went downstairs for a walk, and then cooked."

"Are you tired?" Jiang Chen asked Su Yu, holding his arms.

Su Wei froze for a moment, pushed Jiang Chen, and said, "I smell like cigarettes all over my body, go take a shower first."

Su Fu took a bath for a long time, so long that Jiang Chen couldn't help knocking on the bathroom door before Su Fu came out.

"Why is it so long?" Jiang Chen worriedly grabbed Su Yu's hand and asked, suddenly felt something was wrong, looked down, and saw that Su Yu's hand was wrinkled.

"What happened to your hand? Have you taken a bath? How long have you been soaking?" Jiang Chen's voice became a little irritable.

"Accidentally fell asleep inside, I didn't hear you until you knocked on the door."

"Don't take a shower next time when you're tired, it's okay to take a shower after waking up."

"You don't dislike me? I'm so decadent that I don't even take a bath, maybe I won't wash my face in the future."

Seeing that Su Fu was still joking, Jiang Chen felt relieved and urged him to go to sleep, then got up in the middle of the night to go to work.

After seeing Jiang Chen go out, Su Fu woke up, unable to express his feelings.He didn't know whether he should be thankful that he was able to perform such a scene, or feel sad. Even though his lover was close at hand, he couldn't share everything in his heart with Jiang Chen.

But Jiang Chen's difficulties, joys, sorrows, and joys, he didn't know anything about. Jiang Chen played an omnipotent superman in front of him, which made him feel deeply frustrated. He was of no value to Jiang Chen. .

Su Fu couldn't pour out his problems about Jiang Chen in the mutual aid group, and after hiding his feelings once or twice made him feel worse, so he had no choice but to stop going to the mutual aid group.

After losing this communication channel, Su Yu was so anxious that he almost drove himself crazy for several days. He picked up his mobile phone many times to ask his mother for help, but put it down again. He didn't want to bring his negative emotions to his mother. In the past two years, her living conditions have been very good, and her own affairs probably only worry her.

The last person to confide in was a psychiatrist. There were still two days before their appointment. Su Wei felt that he couldn't wait any longer. He hesitated and decided to call Ning Lingyun with his mobile phone.

Before turning to the contacts, the phone rang. It was a very common phone ringtone, but Su Yu felt that the name on it was flickering and frightening. He instinctively felt that he didn't want to get someone from the other side information.

But the phone was persistently beeping, urging him. After Su Yu pressed the connect button, he put it to his ear, his mind was buzzing, and he didn't want to understand what the person over there said at all.

But no, he stayed there for more than a year, and every word spoken by the person opposite was so clear.

Su Wei hung up the phone and began to tidy up the big and small places in the house. He would do this after being reprimanded by his father when he was a child. Cleaning the house clean would help him think.

He felt sober as never before, and he had found a solution to all his perplexities, but before he left, he couldn't leave these dirt behind, and couldn't add any more trouble to Jiang Chen.

Little by little, Su Fu wiped the table with his hands, and touched the escalator leading to the second floor. It was very clean. Then he remembered that the hourly worker had only cleaned it the day before, and now he did it repeatedly. There is no need to do cleaning work.

In fact, Su Yu had already thought of many ways to leave, jumping down from the top of the building, but this would bring trouble to others, right?

Or they took sleeping pills and fell asleep quietly, but this bed was shared by him and Jiang Chen.

But there is always a way for a person to end his life, isn't there?