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Cheng Ze really needed a good night's sleep. He was hugged by Lin Jiuyan last night and fell asleep not long after.Cheng Ze couldn't remember how many dreams he had in total, but there was one episode that left a deep impression on him.

Holding the ticket to M City in his hand, he stood on the platform, as if waiting for someone, until he boarded the train, no one came to see him off.

When he opened his eyes, Lin Jiuyan was lying beside him, not fully awake yet.This was the first time Cheng Ze saw Lin Jiuyan like this. Cheng Ze looked at his sleeping face and tiptoed out of bed without waking him up.

Cheng Ze glanced at the time, it was 09:30.After washing and changing his clothes, he went downstairs to buy some breakfast.On Sunday, the city feels relaxed and lazy.The aunt at the breakfast stand packed the fried dough sticks and handed them to him. Cheng Ze took it and gave the prepared banknotes to the aunt.

"I slept late today." The aunt looked at Cheng Ze and said with a smile.

"Yeah, it's a rare vacation."

The two chatted casually, and Cheng Ze went upstairs with breakfast.Lin Jiuyan just woke up, saw that he was not around, and was planning to call him to ask him.

"You used to prepare breakfast," Cheng Ze held up the paper bag in his hand, "Occasionally I have to take care of it."

Lin Jiuyan pressed his temples, "You should sleep more."

Cheng Ze went to the kitchen to get a bowl, and divided the fried dough stick buns, "I will have time to sleep in the future, let's eat first."

Lin Jiuyan went into the bathroom to wash up, and Cheng Ze heard the sound of water coming from inside.

I still live with Lin Jiuyan.He took a spoonful of sugar and stirred it into the soybean milk.

"Put so much sugar, be careful of tooth decay." Lin Jiuyan came from behind and sat down beside him.The new house is not as spacious as Lin Jiuyan's house, with the dining table next to the sofa, a standard two-bedroom and one-living room.

"After eating for so many years, the teeth would have been decayed long ago."

As if they had agreed, the two of them suddenly lost their voices.Lin Jiuyan quietly ate the breakfast bought by Cheng Ze, Cheng Ze lowered his head and said nothing.

It shouldn't be like this, we are obviously lovers.

"Gu Cen said he's going to City M tomorrow." It was Cheng Ze who finally broke the silence.

Lin Jiuyan nodded, "He's going to pass for a month, you will be a little busy during this month, but follow me."

"Is this house yours or the company's?" Cheng Ze thought for a while before asking this question.He really didn't want to live as if he was dependent on others, even if he was born pure, he was still a man after all.

Lin Jiuyan didn't expect him to ask, "I asked the company to arrange it." He put down the bowl and chopsticks, and quickly scratched the bridge of Cheng Ze's nose with his hand, "Don't worry, Ruichen provides accommodation, I'm Give it to your roommate."

"What a coincidence." Cheng Ze smiled strangely.

After the two finished breakfast, it was almost lunch time.Cheng Ze had enough food and sleep, lay on the sofa and turned on the computer, dealing with things in the company.

Lin Jiuyan sat down behind him and saw the file he had opened.

"Personnel records, did they leave this to you?"

"That's right," Cheng Ze clicked on the button, "I'm new here, of course, if you can send me, then send me."

"In the future, you pushed back, saying that you are very busy." Lin Jiuyan peeled a piece of candy for him, and put it in Cheng Ze's mouth.

"Then don't I become the top trustee in their mouth?"

Lin Jiuyan's arm passed through Cheng Ze's back and was fixed around his waist, "They can only rely on their mouths, you are different from them."

Cheng Ze felt the soft touch on his face, and he liked the feeling of Lin Jiuyan kissing him very much.He leaned into his arms, the temperature in the room was a little high, even so, Cheng Ze still missed Lin Jiuyan's warmth.It was a heat that came from within.

At this time, Yu Guci sent a WeChat message, and Cheng Ze logged into the computer version of WeChat. He opened it and saw that it was a message from a cafeteria.

[We've made our picks, see you here next Friday. ] Yu Guci also added a winking emoji.

"Do you want a party next week?" Lin Jiuyan approached him and saw the news of Yu Guci.

Cheng Ze smiled. He turned his back to Lin Jiuyan, not letting him see the flash of disappointment on his face.

"Yes."

Cheng Ze remembered that Lin Jiuyan said that he would celebrate his birthday with him.

"Are you going to drink again?" Lin Jiuyan rested his chin on his shoulder, "You don't drink well, drink less."

"Understood." Cheng Ze said softly, and then sent a message back to Yu Gu.

It seems he forgot.

In the following week, Cheng Ze took over Gu Cen's job, and Lin Jiuyan also returned to work.The two are in the same office, and now Lin Jiuyan has taken over a big project, and he needs to design drawings for a commercial building.Cheng Ze's workload gradually increased. He needed to help Lin Jiuyan contact the heads of various departments of the project, and he needed to call the venue.Fortunately, he is also from the Department of Architecture, so he can accumulate more experience after work.

Cheng Ze had just sorted out the materials with the project manager, and when he returned to the office, he saw Lin Jiuyan propping his forehead with a tired expression on his face.He poured a glass of water, walked over and put it by Lin Jiuyan's hand.

"Drink some water, and take a rest when you're tired." Cheng Ze saw the blueprints he was still making on his computer. Such a huge project was made by Lin Jiuyan alone.Lin Jiuyan opened his eyes, which were covered with bloodshot eyes.Cheng Ze felt a little uncomfortable, he reached out and hugged him.

Lin Jiuyan stretched out his hand and hugged him into his arms, and Cheng Ze sat on his lap as he surrounded him.

"Let me hug you like this for a while." Lin Jiuyan's voice was slightly hoarse, and he buried his head in Cheng Ze's shoulder, like a tired beast finding a support.

Cheng Ze hugged him, stroking his back over and over again.

He still has some feelings about Lin Jiuyan forgetting his birthday, but looking at Lin Jiuyan's current appearance, Cheng Ze feels a little guilty.

Does he only think about his own feelings and forget about others.

"What do you want for lunch, I'll bring it back for you." Cheng Ze wanted to stand up, but Lin Jiuyan restrained him.

"I'll go down with you."

Cheng Ze cupped his face, "You have a good rest."

Lin Jiuyan's palm covered Cheng Ze's, "You pack it up and eat with me."

Cheng Ze agreed to him, pulled Lin Jiuyan to the sofa and told him to lie down and rest, then ran downstairs to the small restaurant he often went to and ordered a few dishes to take away.He remembered that Lin Jiuyan liked to drink Starbucks caramel macchiato, and while he was still cooking, he went to a nearby Starbucks to buy a cup.

When he went back, Lin Jiuyan was on the phone. Seeing Cheng Ze came back, Lin Jiuyan hung up the phone and sat up after saying a few words.

"Don't forget to call when I let you rest." Cheng Ze complained to him jokingly, carrying the lunch box to the side of the sofa, and took out all the packed meals.

"How much do you like beef tenderloin with black pepper?" Lin Jiuyan couldn't help smiling when he saw the familiar dish.

"I also bought your favorite fish soup." Cheng Ze took out the last box, lifted the lid, and inside was hot tomato fish soup. "Come on, eat quickly, it tastes better when it's hot."

"Okay." Lin Jiuyan took the chopsticks he handed over, with a smile hidden in his eyes.

Cheng Ze didn't mention his birthday to Lin Jiuyan again. It happened that on Friday afternoon, Lin Jiuyan left the company early because of a new project.Cheng Ze picked up his things as soon as he got off work, and took the subway to the agreed place.

"Cheng Xiaoze!" It was time for dinner, and when we got to the store, it was full of people, Cheng Ze's eyes were dazzled, but fortunately, a boy saw him with sharp eyes.

"What are you doing? You're sitting here. I'm blinded." Cheng Ze walked over and saw that everyone except him had already taken several large plates of food, and their mouths were full of greasy food.

"For making you arrive so late, you'll punish yourself with three drinks before singing." Yu Guci picked up a piece of sashimi, dipped it in wasabi and put it in his mouth.

Cheng Ze put all the things he bought on the side locker, took a sip of a drink, and then ran to the food area.

Yu Guci looked at his back, greeted the others to eat, then stood up and walked towards Cheng Ze.

"Fuck, you're scary!" Yu Guci suddenly appeared behind him, and Cheng Ze was so scared that he almost lost his grip on the plate.

"You are not guilty, what are you afraid of, where is Lin Jiuyan?" Yu Guci looked at Cheng Ze and asked.

"He's busy." Cheng Ze avoided Fa Xiao's gaze.

"So busy that you didn't accompany your partner's birthday?"

"He has a big project on his hands recently..."

"Cheng Ze, don't make excuses for him." Yu Guci had a cold face, completely different from his usual laughing and joking manner. "When you started to find a reason for him, you tacitly accepted a fact in your heart."

Cheng Ze didn't speak, he looked at the things on the plate.

"I can only remind you that everything is in your hands." Yu Guci patted him on the shoulder, "Don't let similar things happen again."

Yu Guci returned to his seat, while Cheng Ze was still standing there in a daze.It wasn't until someone behind him said something impatiently that he regained his consciousness.Cheng Ze and the people next to him apologized, and walked back with their plates.

He tried not to show disappointment, but Yu Guci's words echoed repeatedly in his mind.

When you started looking for reasons for him, you tacitly accepted a fact in your heart.

What is the fact? Cheng Ze doesn't want to think about it at all.

As he said, give Lin Jiuyan one last chance.

After dinner, a large group of boys blasted into the KTV next door.Not allowing Cheng Ze to refuse, two full boxes of beer were delivered to the box.

"You are not allowed to play tricks. I didn't drink much on the day of graduation. I saved it for today." A boy poured a glass of wine for Cheng Ze and stuffed it into his hand. "Come on, the birthday star has the first cup first!"

Just as Cheng Ze wanted to evade, a group of people glared at him.He had no choice but to shrink his head, holding the glass of wine and downing it.

"Come on, come on, the second cup, I'll punish you for being late!" As soon as he finished, the cup in his hand was snatched away, and they filled it up for him again. "Look, Guci didn't drive on purpose today, just came to drink!"

Cheng Ze was not good at rejecting others, so he drank all three glasses of wine they poured as ordered.

After drinking, he lay on the sofa beside him, no matter how others roared with the microphone.His head began to faint, and the volume in the box gave Cheng Ze a headache.

He heard someone singing.

At the beginning, every minute was always wonderful, and everyone thought that enthusiasm would never die. In short, in those few years, sensibility won the rational side...

They made an appointment a long time ago, and today is the graduation carnival.A group of elders drank so much that Cheng Ze couldn't keep his eyes open.Some conscious people were responsible for helping to call someone to clean up the mess. Yu Guci found Cheng Ze's phone, and saw that there was no missed call from Lin Jiuyan on the screen.He shook Cheng Ze, trying to wake him up.

"Idiot Ze, what is your lock screen password? You wake up or you will sleep on the street!"

"...1...13...0" Cheng Ze spat out four numbers while he was half asleep and half awake. Yu Guci unlocked the lock and opened it. He opened the address book, found Lin Jiuyan's phone number and dialed it .After waiting for a long time, Lin Jiuyan picked it up.

"Ozawa?"

"I'm Yu Guci," Yu Guci didn't have a good impression of Lin Jiuyan now, so his tone would not be much better. "Cheng Ze is drunk, come to the KTV on XX Road to pick him up, or I will throw him on the road."

"You send me the address, and I'll come over now." Lin Jiuyan hung up his phone.

Yu Guci rolled his eyes, opened Cheng Ze's WeChat, and saw "Jiuyan 1130" on the top at first glance.

"Damn, the password is actually his birthday." Yu Guci stretched out his hand, flicked Cheng Ze's forehead, and then sent a location to Lin Jiuyan.

At this time, the people in charge of ending came one after another, and each left with their roommates on their shoulders.Yu Guci waited until Cheng Ze's phone rang before helping the drunk and unconscious person to go downstairs.

Lin Jiuyan got out of the car and saw the person leaning on Yu Guci's shoulder. He stepped forward and took Cheng Ze from Yu Guci's hand.

"Thank you."

"You don't need to just tell me thank you," Yu Guci said to him coldly, "There are still two hours before his birthday ends, you should think about how to celebrate your boyfriend's birthday."

The author has something to say: The old man is awesome!