so far speechless

Cheng Ze grabbed his phone, not knowing how to reply.

【What's wrong?Can you tell me something? 】

【I am worried about you. 】

The last thing I sent out to play was 【It’s good that you’re fine. 】

Putting down the phone, Cheng Ze no longer felt sleepy.He opened his eyes and looked at the empty dormitory, from pitch black to illuminated by the rising sun.He sat up, thinking about going to work today and moving house.

As long as Lin Jiuyan is fine, what are you thinking about.

When Cheng Ze was washing his face, he patted his face violently, trying to drive away his decadence.

He packed all his luggage together and called the shipping company.Cheng Ze looked at the time and was a little nervous.He opened WeChat and found Gu Cen.

Although he didn't know if the paralyzed face would reply, Cheng Ze explained and said that he would try not to be late.Sure enough, Gu Cen didn't reply to him, and Cheng Ze didn't send any more.

After boarding the truck, Cheng Ze kept checking the time.He didn't have much luggage, and he and his master moved it all in one trip.Cheng Ze was still worried about what he would do if he moved in so early in the morning and met that roommate he had never met.When he opened the door and saw the same scene in the room as it was a few days ago, Cheng Ze knew that his worries were unnecessary.

Putting all the luggage in his room, Cheng Ze saw that there were still 15 minutes left, and quickly thanked the master, locked the door, went out of the community, picked up a public bicycle, and rode towards Ruichen Building.

Cheng Ze arrived at the company at the last minute and registered his card. The front desk informed him to ask the management department to get a custom-made suit today.

Cheng Ze put down his things and went to the management department with the requisition list.When the person in charge handed him the two suits, he felt a pain in his heart, they were all worthless money.

Unsurprisingly, Lin Jiuyan did not come to work in Ruichen today.On the way, the assistant of the personnel department sent some materials. Seeing that Lin Jiuyan was not there, he asked Cheng Ze to sort them out and send them to her in Excel.

Cheng Ze's computer is not bad, so it didn't take much time to make a form.

At noon, he went downstairs alone to find a restaurant and ordered a bowl of beef noodles.

【have you eaten? 】

He didn't hold back and sent a message to Lin Jiuyan, although the message seemed to have disappeared and there was no reply.Looking at the darkened mobile phone, Cheng Ze sighed. In his daily life, he suddenly lost an important person, and he would feel uncomfortable putting it on anyone.

Counting the days, it was less than two days.But in just two days, Cheng Ze felt like he hadn't seen Lin Jiuyan for several days. In his free time, he would inevitably think of Lin Jiuyan's voice and everything Lin Jiuyan had said to him.His fingers slid across the screen of the phone, looking at the WeChat messages Lin Jiuyan sent him one by one.

[Little goldfish, wake up! 】

[Has the little goldfish eaten?If you haven't eaten, go and eat. 】

[Do you want to eat this, I will take you there tonight. 】

Cheng Ze couldn't help being a little sad, why did it suddenly become like this?Who can bear the fact that his lover disappears for no reason?

In the afternoon, Cheng Ze saw that familiar paralyzed face in the office.

Gu Cen walked in without knocking on the door. Cheng Ze was the only one in the office, so he came to look for him.

Cheng Ze thought that the sun came out from the west, and this man would actually come to him.

"I'm going to M city next week, you can go to the affairs department to handle the handover." After Gu Cen finished speaking, he still turned around and wanted to leave.

"Wait a minute!" Cheng Ze stopped him, "What about Jiuyan?" He thought, if he asked Gu Cen, he might be able to find something.

Gu Cen stopped in his tracks, turned to look at Cheng Ze, "You don't care about his affairs."

"..." His words suppressed all Cheng Ze wanted to say. Cheng Ze's temper is not small, and Gu Cen suddenly dumped him with such a sentence, which made him a little angry. "Thanks."

After Gu Cen left, Cheng Ze sat back in his chair.He's not a fool, he can see Gu Cen's attitude towards him, Cheng Ze won't care about it.But Gu Cen's words still echoed in his mind.

What do you care about his affairs.

What do I care, Lin Jiuyan is my boyfriend!Cheng Ze hammered the chair angrily, but this was just a way to vent, and it couldn't solve any problems.

After work, Cheng Ze packed a lunch box and returned to the house arranged for him by the company.After a hasty meal, he began to tidy up his new home.

That mysterious roommate never came back, and Cheng Ze lived alone like this for a week.

During this week, he sent Lin Jiuyan a WeChat message every day, reporting his lunch and dinner, and would tell him what happened, but Lin Jiuyan never replied to him.

On the first weekend Cheng Ze moved into his new home, he met Yu Guci.The two walked around the city center and had a meal. Yu Guci complained to him about some messy things in the unit, and Cheng Ze listened to him vomit bitterness while drinking a drink and smiling.

"Idiot Ze," Yu Guci's expression suddenly became serious, "tell me honestly, what's going on with you recently."

Cheng Ze felt guilty, he didn't tell Yu Gu about his resignation from Lin Jiuyan.

"What's wrong with me?" He tried to make his voice sound normal, but his eyes betrayed him.

"As I said, you can't hide it from me." Yu Guci picked up a French fries, dipped some ketchup into his mouth, "Your previous circle of friends posted ten posts a day, and you haven't seen each other in the last three days You swipe one, and you still say you are fine?"

Cheng Ze didn't say a word, his thoughts were all on Lin Jiuyan during this time, so he didn't have time to take care of Moments.

Seeing that he was silent, Yu Guci continued, "Did Lin Jiuyan dump you?"

"No." Cheng Ze quickly denied.

"Yeah, you're quick to deny it." Yu Guci took out a piece of paper to wipe his hands, "What's the matter?"

Under his persecution, Cheng Ze finally told the story from the beginning to the end, but put aside what Gu Cen said.After listening to Yu Guci, he thought for a while.

"It is certain that something happened around him, but what is suspicious is why he didn't tell you?"

"He said he disappeared for a while," Cheng Ze finally found a chance to talk about the things buried in his heart, and Cheng Ze became more and more emotional as he spoke, "But he doesn't know that the more he behaves like this, the more worried I become?"

"When he shows up, you must ask."

Yu Guci's residence is in the west of the city, and the Central Ring Road is prone to traffic jams at night, so the two went back to their respective homes early.On the way home, Cheng Ze saw a newly opened dessert shop. He went in and bought an egg waffle.

When he got home, Cheng Ze sat on the sofa and ate egg waffles. He habitually opened WeChat and glanced at the news. Lin Jiuyan's chat box was still dead silent.

At this moment, the sound of a key turning came from the door.

Cheng Ze was stunned, could it be that mysterious roommate finally came back?He got up quickly and walked towards the door.

The door was opened, and Cheng Ze and Lin Jiuyan who was standing outside met their eyes.

At that moment, it was like pressing the pause button.Cheng Ze had been thinking about Lin Jiuyan for so long, and suddenly saw Lin Jiuyan, who was actually a little strange.

"Ozawa." It was Lin Jiuyan who had disappeared for a long time who broke the tranquility.Cheng Ze looked at his lover in front of him, his dark circles had increased a lot, and he hadn't had a good rest recently.

"You... where have you been..." Cheng Ze finally asked him, his voice was neither high nor low, but trembling slightly.

Lin Jiuyan sighed, walked up to him, and wanted to raise his hand to stroke Cheng Ze's face, but paused for a while, and made no further movements.

"Something happened to one of my friends." Cheng Ze heard Lin Jiuyan's hoarse voice.

"Why didn't you say anything?" Cheng Ze looked into his eyes, but Lin Jiuyan didn't avoid it.

"Ozawa, I don't want you to worry."

"Aren't I going to worry if you do this?" Cheng Ze finally couldn't help venting his anger. He was still holding a half-eaten egg waffle in his hand, but he didn't have any appetite at this moment.Cheng Ze put the food on the table heavily, "You don't say anything for a week, do you think I won't worry?"

"I'm sorry," Lin Jiuyan stepped forward to hug him, "I made you worry."

Cheng Ze shook off his hand, this was the first time he lost control of his emotions towards Lin Jiuyan.He turned around and wanted to go back to his room.

"Ozawa!" Lin Jiuyan stepped forward and grabbed his arm.

"What are you doing?!" Cheng Ze turned his head and stared at him, but his vision began to blur. He didn't want to blink, shed tears in front of Lin Jiuyan, or look embarrassed in front of him.

Regardless of his struggle, Lin Jiuyan held him tightly in his arms.Cheng Ze was hugged by him like this, but his body trembled with anger.He was so worried about Lin Jiuyan some time ago, but Lin Jiuyan lightly dismissed it with a reason.

Don't want him to worry.

Once bad emotions find an outlet, they cannot be suppressed.

Cheng Ze struggled, but to no avail.Lin Jiuyan's strength is much greater than his, and he can't earn it.It was this familiar embrace again, the embrace that made Cheng Ze linger.Full, he calmed down and was hugged by Lin Jiuyan just like that.

He returned to Lin Jiuyan's arms again, but Cheng Ze felt that something had changed.

"I didn't expect this to happen," Lin Jiuyan gently rubbed Cheng Ze's cheek, "I was negligent."

Cheng Ze grabbed his clothes, and finally buried his face in Lin Jiuyan's chest.

Even though the atmosphere between the two had eased, Cheng Ze still had a straight face towards Lin Jiuyan.He thought of the egg waffle, and when he went to get it, he found that the ice cream inside had already turned into sugar water.Cheng Ze picked up the remaining egg waffle, threw it into the trash can, and walked into the bathroom without looking back.

He didn't want to talk to Lin Jiuyan yet.

I don't want to speak, and I don't know how to speak.

Cheng Ze just wanted to take a shower and lie down on the bed.After hanging around for a week, Cheng Ze finally let go. He took a bath towel and a set of pajamas, took off his clothes and turned on the faucet.

Lin Jiuyan didn't know what he was doing outside. While taking a shower, Cheng Ze thought of what Gu Cen said he had a roommate.

He suddenly had an idea.

When he walked out of the bathroom wiping his hair, Lin Jiuyan was waiting at the door of his room with a cup of freshly warmed milk in his hand.

"Have a glass of milk." Seeing Cheng Ze come out, Lin Jiuyan walked to him with a glass.

Cheng Ze stopped in his tracks, and after a while, he took the milk from Lin Jiuyan's hand, and then wanted to walk into his room.Lin Jiuyan turned sideways to make way.After he walked into the room, he followed.Taking the towel from Cheng Ze, Lin Jiuyan gently wiped his hair for him.

"Your dark circles have gotten worse," Lin Jiuyan said as he gently rubbed Cheng Ze's hair, "Take a good night's sleep today."

After Cheng Ze finished drinking the milk, he put the cup on the desk.He tilted his head, trying to break free from Lin Jiuyan's hands.Lin Jiuyan saw a trace of coquettishness in his movements, let go of his hand, let Cheng Ze lean to the side, and then hugged him all at once.

"Don't be angry." Lin Jiuyan hugged Cheng Ze from behind, resting his head on his shoulder.

This is the embrace that Cheng Ze has missed for a long time, and he doesn't want to leave.

"Let me lie down for a while."

Lin Jiuyan nodded and agreed to him.After Cheng Ze lay down, he leaned over and kissed his forehead.

"wait for me."

Cheng Ze heard the sound of water coming from the bathroom, and Lin Jiuyan went to take a shower.When he came back, Cheng Ze didn't speak, but rolled on the inside of the bed, Lin Jiuyan lifted the thin quilt, and lay down together.

"It's a friend of mine," Cheng Ze felt Lin Jiuyan hugging him gently from behind, and his whisper reached his ears, "Sudden depression."

"When I knew it, I almost couldn't control it...so I rushed over immediately." Lin Jiuyan's arms tightened.

"The situation at that time was very chaotic... a lot of people were there," Lin Jiuyan seemed to be talking to himself, but he knew Cheng Ze was listening, "I don't have time to read the news... Xiao Ze, don't be angry."

His tone softened, but the strength of holding Cheng Ze became tighter and tighter.

Cheng Ze clenched his fist, turned over, and faced Lin Jiuyan.

"I'm angry because," Cheng Ze looked at Lin Jiuyan, "you worried me for so long, but you said you didn't want me to worry."

"It won't happen again." Lin Jiuyan took his hand, put it to his mouth, and kissed it.

Cheng Ze smiled lightly, and he let Lin Jiuyan kiss himself lightly, "Then I can ask, was it your friend who had the accident?"

The lights in the room were not turned on, and Cheng Ze did not see Lin Jiuyan's slight pause.

"It's something you haven't seen before."

"I'm a little curious," Cheng Ze felt the warmth of Lin Jiuyan's palm, "After all, you left me for a week because of this friend."

Lin Jiuyan leaned forward and kissed Cheng Ze's lips from his forehead all the way. "Jealous? It's a very important friend of mine."

"On the first day of work, I waited for you at the company for a whole day." Cheng Ze said lightly, Lin Jiuyan's avoidance made him guess three or four points, and he chose to stagger the topic.

"In the future, I will accompany you to work and after get off work, and I will not go anywhere."

Cheng Ze didn't say anything more, Lin Jiuyan's kiss continued intermittently, but didn't stop.

"Forgive me, Ozawa?"

Cheng Ze didn't answer him immediately, Lin Jiuyan didn't give up, "Are you okay?"

"It's the last chance." Cheng Ze thought for a long time, and finally gave Lin Jiuyan the answer.

Lin Jiuyan laughed, he held Cheng Ze down and kissed him hard, and pressed him on the bed.Cheng Ze responded to him, feeling the long-lost intimacy.When Lin Jiuyan's hand wanted to go deeper, Cheng Ze stopped him.

"I'm so tired, let's all have a good rest today."

Indeed, because of worrying about Lin Jiuyan, Cheng Ze didn't have a good sleep this week.

"Okay." Lin Jiuyan put Cheng Ze on his arm, found a comfortable position, and kissed Cheng Ze on the forehead, "Have a good sleep."

Cheng Ze put his arms around his waist, and after a long time, he called softly, "Jiuyan."

"Huh?" Lin Jiuyan didn't fall asleep either.

"Gu Cen said I have a roommate."

"Well, there is one."

Cheng Ze rubbed his head against him, "Is my roommate named Lin Jiuyan?"

He heard Lin Jiuyan's soft laughter, "Yes, I was discovered by you."

The author has something to say: The character of the little goldfish, how should I put it, is to be cowardly when it should be fierce, and to be cowardly when it should be.He is always not weak, he can judge whether there is a problem with his lover, but his biggest weakness is that he takes the relationship too seriously, and the serious one is always hurt the most.