Life is like a journey

"Thank you" Yu Gui came out of the operating store with a new mobile phone card and mobile phone. This time, she was reinstated to the medical department and not only got two months' salary back, but also the department's bonus from the previous quarter, as well as the bonus from the previous skills competition. to her.

Her mobile phone was broken a long time ago, even though it was a lot of money, she still chose the cheapest one, and the rest of the money was used to pay rent and buy clothes for Zhiyou.

Yu Gui walked towards the rental house with a big bag of vegetables and snacks, and called Fang Zhiyou. The first call was unsuccessful, and the second call was unanswered. She took out the key to open the door, and put the shopping bag on the table. The dial key was pressed again.

After a long time, a tired and heavy "Hello?" came from the receiver

"It's me, Xiaogui"

The moment I heard her voice, tears couldn't stop falling down, I realized that you could not speak while leaning against the peeling paint wall of the hospital, and sobbed while covering your lips.

"What's the matter, Zhiyou? Zhiyou?" Yu Gui stood up from the bed and squeezed the receiver tightly.

There was no talking over there, only weak sobs came into the receiver. She has always been a strong, independent and assertive person. Even when her mother who failed the college entrance examination got into a car accident, she had never seen her cry so sadly. Panic.

"You... don't cry... where are you... I'll go find you..."

One minute later, Yu Gui stopped the taxi at the intersection and called Liu Qingyun: "Senior brother, I want to ask you for a vacation."

After a short rest in the morning, Liu Qingyun returned to his post to conduct ward rounds: "What's the matter, how many days please?"

"Home... something happened at home... I have to go back... three days... three days... I will come back as soon as possible..."

Liu Qingyun agreed without much hesitation: "Okay, you go, I will take care of Director Xu's side for you."

Before hanging up the phone, she asked again: "Is Teacher Lu awake?"

A long sigh came from over there: "No, the anesthetist and the supernatural person have already gone to the consultation."

Yu Gui's heart skipped a beat: "Okay, thank you, brother."

24 hours after surgery.

The First Affiliated Hospital of Renji Medical University held the first general consultation for Lu Qingshi who was still awake after the time of anesthesia.

Lu Xucheng was listening. Although the old man seemed to be sitting upright and not looking sideways, the hand holding the cane trembled slightly, and the tea on the table quickly ran out.

The human spirit Liu Changsheng quickly added it, and the professor who was out of the box finished expressing his opinion, and the film was passed to him: "Mr. Lu is also an authority in the medical field, let's take a look too."

The old man's beard was shaking: "Just tell me, is that worthless little bastard in my family unable to wake up!"

It really doesn't save Director Lu any face...

The professor of brain department wiped the sweat from his forehead: "That... not necessarily... we'll wait and see... wait and see... The pathological puncture result is benign, mainly because Director Lu's body has been damaged by multiple organs this time. The hematoma in the brain is too close to the nerve, we really dare not take it rashly..."

Meng Jihua bowed and apologized to him without saying a word: "I'm sorry Mr. Lu, we really tried our best."

Lu Xucheng stood up tremblingly while supporting the nanny's hand, snorted coldly, and slammed the door away: "Of course I know that you have tried your best, otherwise my old man would not be so easy to talk to!"

After being in a coma for 48 hours, Lu Qing was fitted with an ECMO artificial heart-lung system. Dark red venous blood flowed out of the body through the catheter. After artificial oxygenation, it was pumped into the body through the artificial heart.

The medical staff were busy in front of her bed, and Lu Xucheng stood outside the door and watched her quietly. Ever since her parents passed away, there had been a rift between her grandfather and grandson. He never gets in touch with each other.

The last time I saw her like this was the day she and Fu Lei got married.

The old man turned his back and wiped the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand wrinkled like orange peel.

The nanny persuaded him to go back to rest: "Let's go, master, you can't help here, the lady is lucky, she will be fine."

"The complete success of the flood fighting and emergency rescue is inseparable from everyone's hard work. Tonight, we have a banquet at the Furong Restaurant, and I ask all the leaders to appreciate it, appreciate it."

"Hey, Captain Gu, aren't you going?"

"No..." Gu Yanzhi took off his muddy uniform, took a clean uniform from the locker, put it on, washed his face hastily, and rode out on his motorcycle.

First go to the pet store to pick up the two siblings home, Hamburg really thinks the owner is thinking too hard, and as soon as they meet, they rush forward to make out, even the usually cold and unreasonable french fries hugged her thighs meow shouted.

Gu Yan's heart was about to melt, he stuffed the big one and the small one into the cage and brought them home, put a handful of cat and dog food into the food bowl, and hurried downstairs with the keys to buy vegetables and cook.

"Hey, I bought so much again, can I eat it all by myself?" The aunt in the vegetable market downstairs handed her the spare ribs.

Gu Yanzhi gave the change: "Here, I will eat with Dr. Lu."

"Really? It rained heavily a while ago, were you very busy? I haven't seen her shopping for vegetables for a while."

The smile on Gu Yanzhi's face faded: "Auntie, give me another crucian carp."

"Did you just catch it today?"

"That's right. My old man went to the fishing ground to fish before dawn, and these are the only ones left. Here, seeing how much you bought, Auntie will give you another bundle of lettuce. It's fresh!"

Gu Yanzhi couldn't refuse, but returned with a full load, ran upstairs and started cooking.

The milky white crucian carp soup was tumbling in the pot. She lifted the lid of the pot to taste the taste, then added snow-white tender tofu, and sprinkled a handful of chopped green onion before serving, the aroma was tangy.

Fearing that she would not be full, he cooked salted bone porridge in a casserole, washed the lettuce, put it in a lunch box and poured a spoonful of soy sauce on it.

Before leaving, I added water to the hamburger fries, and took a look in the mirror at the door. Except for the dark circles under my eyes from not sleeping well for several days and nights, everything was perfect.

Gu Yanzhi closed the door gently and left quickly.

"Hello, no matter who you are, for whatever reason, you are not allowed to enter the sterile ward"

"Why?! I'm Qingshi's friend..." Gu Yanzhi put the lunch box on the triage table.

The little nurse glanced at her: "You should take this back."

"What do you mean!" When she was about to quarrel with someone, Liu Qingyun pulled her away.

5 minute later.

At the corner of the hospital corridor, Gu Yanzhi walked up and down, wanting to smoke, crumpled up the cigarette pack and threw it into the trash can, then rushed forward and grabbed Liu Qingyun by the collar.

"It's been a fucking few days, you tell me she hasn't woken up yet! And she might become a vegetable, I..."

She wanted to swear, but her eyes were red silently, she let go of his collar, and supported her forehead with her hands.

"Captain Gu..." His lips moved, his face full of sadness.

Gu Yanzhi stretched out a hand to signal that he didn't need to say any more, so Liu Qingyun had no choice but to go out by herself, leaving her alone to digest the news.

"I'm also a doctor, please let me go in and take a look." Yu Gui took out her ID card, and the other party let her go in wearing a gown.

The conditions and equipment of the county hospital were not very good. Mother Fang was lying quietly on the bed wearing a ventilator. There was an unpleasant smell of excrement mixed with disinfectant in the room.

She lifted the quilt to take a look, and took a electric pen to shine on her pupils, and the light reflex had completely disappeared.

When she came out, the doctor in charge was talking with her: "It was already dead when it was delivered, and we tried our best to save it, but we couldn't make it through. Your friend has been unwilling to accept the reality of brain death, so please persuade her. Lying here is just a waste of money, and there are still outstanding bills to pay.”

"How much do you owe?"

"Plus the cost of rescue and follow-up treatment, twelve thousand"

"Okay, I'll hand it in later, sorry for your inconvenience"

"Actually, if he can be sent to a big hospital sooner, there may not be a chance of survival..."

The conversation over there vaguely echoed in his ears, and he knew that he was sitting on a mottled chair, holding his head with his hands.

Yu Gui took the wallet and went to pay the money. Except for the fare for the two of them, he had cleaned everything inside and out, and there was still a shortfall of two thousand.

In desperation, she hid in the corner and called Hao Renjie: "Good lady, lend me some money..."

Fang Zhiyou stood up: "I'm going to buy something to eat."

Yu Gui covered the receiver of the phone: "Hey, okay."

Two bottles of mineral water and a steamed stuffed bun were broken in half, and the two of them sat on the road in front of the hospital and ate.

Since she came, Fang Zhiyou didn't speak much, nor cried much, but just ate what was in his hand in silence.

Yu Gui was a little restless: "I'm sorry Zhiyou, I'm late"

Fang Zhiyou stopped chewing the steamed stuffed bun and shook his head.

It was she who was late, not her.

"I beg you... don't do this..." Yu Gui came down from the steps, squatted in front of her and looked at her, their eyes were bloodshot from staying up late.

Such a scene is really not beautiful, she is in a mess, and she is in a mess.

"No...don't be so silent...you can just talk to me...or...or..." Yu Gui patted himself on the shoulder: "You can cry on my shoulder, just cry out "

"Then we took Aunt Fang to Renji Medical University. There are the best medical equipment and doctors there. She will definitely..."

Before Yu Gui finished speaking, he was interrupted by someone: "Do you think I can afford this money?"

"It's okay, and I...I..."

"You? What are you?" Fang Zhiyou raised his head and looked at her: "What can you do as a poor student? My mother called you when the accident happened! Where have you been? You are doing this after the fact What! I tell you! She is fine now! No one is stopping us from being together anymore, are you happy?! I am also... very happy"

While talking, Fang Zhi shed tears, wiped off the dirty back of his hand, mixed with tears, chewed the buns and ran into the hospital.

"I know it! I know it!" Yu Gui raised his feet and hurriedly followed with red eyes.

If it is said that this matter has nothing to do with Yu Gui, there is still a slight relationship. If it is related to Yu Gui, we will know and understand. This excuse is a bit far-fetched.

Things are always so wrong.

She missed her mother's last phone call because she was looking for Yugui. Before the flood came, the People's Liberation Army had already moved the whole village out. It was her mother who secretly ran back with a few villagers because she missed the worthless things at home.

When they came out, the heavy rain had eroded the beams loosely, and the wooden structure of the house collapsed very quickly. When people came to their senses, Fang's mother was already under the pressure.

It is said that when it was dug out, it was smashed to the point where it was already ugly, and there was still an iron box containing money in its arms, and several certificates of awards from its daughter were pressed under the box.

Fang's mother didn't have much savings in her life. When she returned to the country from the city, she carried the thousands of dollars her father gave her for the miscarriage fee. There was no news, and when Fang's mother went to look for him with a big belly, the building was already empty.

The month is too big to induce labor, so she gave birth to Fang Zhiyou. Why did she name her? It was because the first and only love letter written by Fang's father to her began like this: " Cough cough, dear Shufen, since I met you in the factory, I know what it means to be like a rainbow, and I will know when I meet you."

Mother Fang was delayed by his words for the rest of her life.

Later, when she grew up a bit, people in the village began to point and point her fingers. Knowing that she had a stubborn temper, she got into a fight and pushed the other person into the rice seedling field and broke her nose. She will never forget how her mother did it in front of her Others whipped her with the soles of their shoes, scolding and crying.

Those dirty words "bitch", "shameless" and "little bastard" that others called her... When they were spoken by her biological mother, it seemed that countless knives were pierced in her heart.

Then she stopped crying, she was disheartened.

Fang's mother took her to transfer schools, and she still lived in the country, but went to school in the town.

I know that as you get older and bigger, you become more and more like her father. Every time you see her, you are reminding this woman how she had an unbearable past. In the past, she was extremely stupid, and only for a man and The family's grievances were severed, and after giving birth to his child, the standard of living plummeted, and the root cause of the disease was also left behind.

If you say love, it is also true love, but if you say there is no hatred at all, that is also impossible. We know that when he was young, he was often beaten, kicked, and swearing by her for no reason.

For a while, she always thought that she had done something wrong, that's why her mother was so unlike her mother.

When she was older and she understood the truth, Fang Zhiyou realized that she didn't beat her because she hated her, but because she saw the shadow of that man in her body.

She likes her cowardly, scared and helpless eyes, as if she saw the man kneeling in front of her and begging for mercy.

The truly cowardly and incompetent rural women can only vent their resentment in this way.

But every time after beating her, Mother Fang would also bring her a bowl of sugar water. When she was a child, the other children in the poor family drank coke and soft drinks...

Knowing that she also wanted to drink it, her mother had no other choice, so she weighed two taels of sugar from the canteen and mixed it with water to drink. This was one of the few happiest times in her childhood.

But after drinking each time, the next time he hit her, he was still relentless and even worse...

Fang Zhiyou gradually grew up in this kind of deformed, somewhat perverted tugging.

Later, she learned to fight back. When she pushed her mother onto the cabinet for the first time, Fang's mother looked at her in disbelief, with tears in her eyes.

Fang Zhiyou held a kitchen knife and yelled: "You fucking touch me again! I'll chop you up!!!"

At that moment she saw fear from the depths of her soul.

I don't know why, I am a little proud, but also a little sad to the point of sore nose.

Fang's mother stopped beating her, but she couldn't beat her, so she changed to cold violence.

What can be finished in one sentence between mother and child will never be said more than two sentences.

Mother Fang worked in the fields during the day and worked as a tailor at night to subsidize the family. She went to school early and returned late, wandered the streets after school early, and did not return home until late at night.

The dishes left on the dinner table were cold, so she went to study after a few mouthfuls, and knocked on the door of the next room when she wanted money.

"Mom, I want five yuan to buy tutoring materials"

There will always be voices shouting and cursing in the house, greeting the eighteen generations of her ancestors.

When I wake up the next morning, the money will be neatly folded on the table.

Knowing that you go to school, buy a pack of cigarettes for two yuan, hide in the toilet and smoke, and give the rest of the money to the teacher, sit in the last row every day drowsy, do not write homework, do not memorize texts, and occasionally climb over the wall Go out and surf the Internet.

This situation didn't start to change until Yu Gui met.

It was the second year of high school, and she wanted to be admitted to the same university as Yu Gui, so the two of them studied hard together, and after working hard for half a semester, they got their first certificate of merit.

She ran home excitedly: "Mom, I won the prize!"

She will never forget the suspicious and contemptuous eyes she looked at her: "Honestly speaking, did you copy it? Or did someone copy it?"

Fang Zhiyou was so angry that he tore the certificate in half and rushed out the door: "You will never believe me!!!"

Looking at the wooden door that was still shaking, Mother Fang hesitated for a while, got down from the kang, picked up the scraps of paper and put them on the table, put on reading glasses and used glue to smooth them one by one with the help of a kerosene lamp, and collected them into her savings Put it in the iron box.

She had long thought that the things thrown into the trash can were well preserved, the tape was firmly pasted, and the outside was wrapped with a layer of plastic film, and there was no crease except for the fuzz on the corners.

In fact, she won many awards later, but she never took them home.

At that time, although she didn't say anything, she must be very happy in her heart.

Fang Zhiyou squatted down and let out a whimper from the depths of his throat: "Mom..."

Yu Gui leaned his back against the wall and burst into tears with her.

"Pull out the tube." On the third day of the artificial heart-lung system's operation, Lu Xucheng rushed from the hotel to the hospital early in the morning, and entered the ward in isolation gowns accompanied by members of the medical office.

Lu Qingshi lay quietly on the bed with an endotracheal tube inserted in his mouth, a ventilator, electrodes attached to his chest, and an infusion tube attached to the back of his hand. It is maintained by instruments.

He couldn't see his granddaughter suffering like this, so he turned his attention away: "If you have anything to sign, I'll sign it, and we don't want any compensation, let's donate it all to the Medical Association."

"Our Lu family's ancestors have been doctors for generations, I don't want her to be so useless..." At this point, the old man's eyes were slightly red, and he quickly restrained himself, and his tone returned to his coldness: "That's how it is, I guess she His organs are no longer suitable for donation, the remains..."

The old man paused for a moment, turned his face, and supported the nanny's hand: "Just donate it to the medical school for research... It's good to make some contributions even after you're gone... Hurry up and go through the formalities... I'll pay you back when I'm done." I have to go back to Beijing to teach the children”