Life is like a journey

"Captain Gu" Fu Lei was wearing a hospital gown, and with Jiang Jing's support, he found her in the corridor.

Gu Yanzhi glanced at the two of them, without any fluctuation in his eyes, and calmly moved his gaze away.

"Quietly" Fu Lei turned his head, Jiang Jing handed him a card, he took two steps closer, and stuffed the card into her hand.

"Sorry, I can't do anything for her, I think it's time for you to spend money, please accept any kindness."

A gold card is worth a lot if you think about it. He was right. Qing Shi spent tens of thousands of dollars a day lying in the ICU. Besides, it was what she deserved. Gu Yanzhi didn't refuse or thank you. He just kept it simple. Nodding his head, he passed them by.

Now she doesn't want to blame anyone anymore, her only wish is to hope that Qingshi can wake up early, even if it's just to take a look at her.

Knowing that Yu Gui didn't go to see her off on the day she left, the two of them left the house and said goodbye peacefully downstairs with their suitcases.

One said "thank you" and one said "goodbye".

Fang Zhiyou took a step forward, wanting to brush her hair that was scattered by the wind behind her ears.

Yu Gui took a step back and shook his head: "I know, I wish your dreams come true."

Fang Zhiyou also smiled with tears in his eyes: "You too".

What else did she want to say, Yu Gui couldn't hold back her tears, she had cried too many times in front of her these days, only at this moment she didn't want to expose her weakness.

So he turned around, waved his hand pretending to be smart, and signaled her not to see him off, and let her come and leave quietly by herself.

Fang Zhiyou's lips muttered twice, but she didn't have time to say what she wanted to say. She saw her back disappearing into the sea of ​​people, and she would eventually run in the opposite direction.

Crowds are surging, cars are honking, traffic lights are on, and people line up on the zebra crossing.

Yu Gui followed each step, she never looked back, and heard someone beside her whispering: "What's wrong with her? That woman cried so badly, didn't something happen?".

She reached out to touch it, only to realize that her face was covered with tears.

Yu Gui moved back to the dormitory of the hospital again, Hao Renjie helped her tidy up her things, seeing that she was silent and just buried in her work, he softened his heart and persuaded her.

"If the old one doesn't go, the new one won't come. Don't take it too seriously, the next one will be better."

Yu Gui's hands froze for a moment while making the bed, and murmured: "Ten years".

Hao Renjie didn't hear clearly: "What?".

"We've been together for ten years."

She lowered her head and clenched the bed sheet tightly, tears streaming down her face.

"Ten years, no one will be better than her".

The plane slid slowly towards the runway, Fang Zhiyou kept looking out of the porthole, as if someone would rush over there and fall into her arms in the next moment.

She remembered a lot, a lot of little things.

Yu returned the homework she had copied.

Yu attributed the notes she took for her.

Yu Gui's doodles in her textbook.

Dusk together.

A blackboard newspaper drawn together.

Get scolded together in the office.

Kittens fed together.

Her embarrassed profile when confessing.

The fingers that clutched his clothes when he kissed her for the first time.

Her flushed face after first sex.

……

The moment the plane took off, I knew that I had left the best ten years in Jinzhou forever.

After Lu Qingshi's situation stabilized, Qin Xuan also finished dealing with the matters of the old house, and was about to fly back to Shanghai for work. Before she left, she still had something to hand over to her, so she knocked on the door of Lu's house.

To her surprise, it was Lu Xucheng who opened the door: "Old Lu...".

The old man gave up half of his body: "Xiao Qin, come and sit down."

Gu Yanzhi poked his head out from the kitchen: "Here we come, let's have dinner together."

Qin Xuan changed his shoes: "Okay".

Because of the addition of one more person, Gu Yanzhi cooked a few more dishes. When the meals were served on the table, several people chatted while eating. Compared to the last time I saw the relationship between Lu Xucheng and Gu Yanzhi, not to mention the happy relationship, at least they treated each other as guests.

If you can see it when you are young, you should be very gratified.

After eating almost, Lu Xucheng got up on crutches and went back to his room, leaving the venue to the young people.

Only then did Qin Xuan take out the document from his bag and hand it to her.

"This is……?"

"Qingshi's will has already been notarized by me."

Gu Yanzhi's heart tightened, her eyes turned red, and she held the thin folder without saying a word for a long time.

No need to think about it, her name must be in the column of heirs.

If it was in the past, she would definitely not accept the stubborn one, but now, Gu Yanzhi just smiled lightly: "Thank you, I will keep it for her."

Before going out, Qin Xuan looked back at her again: "Are you really okay?"

As a doctor's intuition, she felt that she was not in a good state, and she was so calm after the emotional ups and downs. Either she really took it easy, or she hid the pain too deeply.

Gu Yanzhi sent her to the door and shook his head: "It's okay, I've made up my mind, even if she becomes a vegetable, I will stay with her forever"

"Captain Gu, Captain Gu, here we come again." The number of times I went to the hospital was frequent, and most of the medical staff knew her, chatted occasionally, and patted her on the shoulder like a friend to comfort her.

Gu Yanzhi just smiled, put on the isolation gown at the door of the ward, entered the ICU with a book under his arm.

There is a fixed two-hour visiting time every day, and she is rain or shine from winter to spring.

There are many books on Lu Qingshi's bookshelf. In the past three months, she has read most of religious philosophy, cultural history, and biological science. Today, she is reading a collection of poems by Borges.

"What can I do to keep you?"

"Give you thin streets, desperate sunsets, and wild moons"

"I offer you the sorrow of a man who looked long and long at the lonely moon"

"I give you my loneliness, my darkness, the hunger of my heart"

……

She said slowly, Lu Qingshi listened quietly, this was their quiet time alone.

An hour later, Gu Yanzhi put down the book, scrubbed her body, put the changed clothes into a plastic bag, and took them home to wash.

When she was young, she loved to be clean, so she did these things every day.

When leaving, he lightly placed a kiss on her forehead and said goodbye to her: "see you tomorrow".

Back home, Lu Xucheng got up early to do morning exercises and bought some vegetables. Gu Yanzhi often complained: "Your legs and feet are not good, let the nanny do these things."

The old man was so angry that he wanted to hit her with a cane: "I can still move, and I'm fine!".

Gu Yanzhi smiled and ignored him.

She is good at cooking, so the old man couldn't help eating a few more bites, and then he sighed again when he thought of his granddaughter lying unconscious on the hospital bed.

"Are you going to be like this forever?"

Gu Yanzhi bit his chopsticks and answered vaguely: "Yes."

"I'm not talking about this." The old man's expression rarely became serious.

Gu Yan was startled, looked up at him, seemed to understand something, then quickly lowered his head.

"Well, I'm not looking for anyone else".

Lu Xucheng was old-fashioned and pedantic all his life, with a decent style. He never dreamed that his granddaughter would become a homosexual, but his partner was still a stubborn one.

The old man trembled his lips, as if there was nothing he could do with them, and quickly calmed down: "Don't you think it's unfair to you?"

"She loves me is the greatest fairness to me" she answered frankly, her eyes were clear and clear.

Lu Xucheng looked at her for a long while, his expression indisputable. People who have worked in the hospital for most of their lives have never believed in love. They are like paper in the face of natural disasters and man-made disasters.

But it happened to come out of her mouth, lightly but loudly.

Her forbearance these days, her pain, her tears, her care and concern for Qingshi...

The old man sees it in his eyes and knows it well.

"I'm going back to Beijing tomorrow, so I won't bother you in the future."

"Stay a little longer, when Qingshi wakes up..." Gu Yanzhi asked to stay.

Lu Xucheng shook his head: "How long can I live? I will return to my hometown after death. Besides, school will start soon. I have to rush back to teach the children."

These days, Lu Xu was able to stay in a hotel, but he stayed in the guest room under her persuasion. Thanks to him, the house was not so deserted, and thanks to him knowing her pain, both of them were almost lost. People who have lost their only relatives in the world depend on each other for life.

The existence of Lu Xucheng is another kind of warmth to Gu Yanzhi, even if he does nothing.

The same is true for Gu Yanzhi, she is the closest person to Lu Qingshi, and he heard a lot of interesting things about his granddaughter from her.

During the many years of his absence in Lu Qingshi's life, she has grown up and become an independent, strong, excellent doctor with excellent skills and always caring for patients.

And has a lover who always loves her, respects her, and supports her no matter when and where.

That's enough.

The only wish most elders have for their child is not to wish her to be successful, but to have a lover who will grow old together and live an ordinary life.

"Actually, sometimes I think, if I didn't teach Qingshi... to teach so..." He couldn't think of an adjective, picked up the wine glass on the table with his trembling fingers, and drank it down. His face flushed red.

"It would be great if she could be selfish."

Lu Xucheng's eyes were red, and Gu Yanzhi's eyes were also red. He filled a glass of wine for himself and brought it to his lips.

"The day before she came back from Beijing, she visited you."

Lu Xucheng was startled: "When?"

"On New Year's Eve, you were still in class." Thinking of the past, Gu Yanzhi couldn't help but shed tears, and the pungent baijiu choking her throat couldn't make up for the pain in her heart.

"I also heard what you said, Qingshi...she has forgiven you a long time ago."

Lu Xucheng burst into tears suddenly, and wiped the tears with the back of his rough hand. Gu Yanzhi handed over the tissue. At this moment, he couldn't tell who was comforting whom.

"Up to now, although I am in pain, I am also proud of her. My lover is the best doctor in the world."

The next day, after going to the hospital to see Lu Qingshi, Lu Xucheng was about to leave. In the ward, the old man put down his crutches, sat down by the bed, took her hand and overlapped Lu Qingshi's.

"I am also proud that my Lu family has such an excellent doctor. After a hundred years, I can go to see her parents with confidence."

How long did Lu Qingshi wait for this confession when he was alive, and now he finally said it when his life and death were uncertain.

Lu Xucheng's face was a little relieved: "Perhaps I should have said this to her a long time ago, but with you by her side, I can rest assured."

Gu Yanzhi's eyes became hot, and he almost burst into tears again: "Old Lu..."

The old man immediately blew his beard and stared: "What should you call me in front of Qingshi?"

Gu Yanzhi wiped away his tears without being shy, and called out "Grandpa" crisply.

Flowers bloomed on the old man's wrinkled face: "Hey!".

In addition to Gu Yanzhi, Yu Gui often went to see her. Although the emergency department was separated from Shenwai by a building, the young man still found time to go to her ward.

Sometimes I go to her doctor in charge to discuss her condition, and sometimes I talk about it alone in the ward for a long time.

"Ms. Lu, the director praised me today, saying that my laparoscopy is very good, and asked me to show it at the general practice meeting..."

"Mr. Lu, I'm about to pass the medical exam. I should be able to pass this time. I have a hunch that if I pass, I will be able to stay in the emergency department..."

"Ms. Lu, Miaomiao, do you still remember? He's father and mother sent a silk banner. They are planning to have a second child. The child has not yet been born, but the name has already been chosen, and it is called He Ershui."

"All the patients we have seen before are almost recovered. Dai Yuchen has joined the school team again, and she is preparing to take the Beijing Sport University exam."

"There are also Wu Xinyu and Wu Xinyuan. One is a tutor in an online tutoring institution, and the other has published her own painting collection. Their lives are getting better and better."

Yu Gui leaned over and put the album in her hand on her bedside: "They heard that you were sick, and they always wanted to see you. This is a gift from Xinyu."

As she spoke, she lowered her head, clenched the fabric on her knees tightly, and the big teardrops hit the floor.

"Me, Sister Haoren, Senior Brother, Sister Chen, and...Captain Gu, everyone is waiting for you to wake up, Teacher Lu... When will you get better..."

Lu Qingshi's ward was quiet and peaceful, the window screens were gently lifted by the breeze, and the gardenias on the bedside were full of fragrance.

Everyone in the emergency department where she wasn't there was growing up like chicken blood. Yu Gui hadn't cried for a long time, including breaking up with Fang Zhi. She was so busy that she had forgotten her sadness.

Her secret base used to be the rooftop, but now it's her ward, and only here, and only by Lu Qingshi's side, can she be the little doctor who didn't know anything before, and expose her weakness unscrupulously.

To her, Lu Qingshi is faith, mentor, sister, and warmth.

On the tail of spring is Gu Yanzhi's birthday.

Lu Qingshi has been in a deep coma for more than three months, and the doctor said that the possibility of her waking up is very small.

Even so, she still goes to the hospital every day, every day.

The visiting time is only two hours at a time. After she finishes reading a book, she quickly changes her clothes and scrubs her body.

The last operation left a long, curved, centipede-like scar on the scalp. Every time I looked at it, Gu Yanzhi was shocked, and his eyes were slightly red.

The plaster for light scars that she asked for from the dermatologist melted little by little in her palm, and she gently applied it on, massaging her scalp along the way.

All of her hair was also cut off, and Gu Yanzhi's heart ached beyond measure, and every time he looked at it, he felt sorry for himself.

Two hours had passed, but she still didn't want to leave today, and the medical staff didn't come to urge her, so she lay down beside her bed again, held her hand, and looked at her quietly.

Tears flowed down silently, and she covered her lips to keep herself from crying.

"Qing Shi, today is my 30th birthday, I have never made any birthday wishes in the past years, only today I want you to get well soon"