Life is like a journey

The fifteenth day of the first lunar month is the peak period of returning home during the Spring Festival travel tide.

Pulling the suitcase, Qin Xuan managed to get through the long security check line. There was also a long line at the boarding gate, and the seats were crowded with tired passengers.

It was still early before the departure time, and she was idly swiping her phone. Except for the noisy work group on the social software, everyone else was quiet.

There are young couples whispering next to each other, children running around with drinks, and business people in suits and leather shoes turning on their computers to work.

The night outside the window gradually deepened, the plane landed on the tarmac with flashing lights, and the terminal hall was brightly lit.

She suddenly felt a little lonely, and her finger continued to slide down. Lu Qingshi's profile photo hadn't been lit up for a long time, and the status was still on the photo he posted that day when he was shooting targets with Gu Yanzhi.

Qin Xuan saw that his comment was still hanging there: "Xiu En's love is so fast."

The ridicule among friends, but she quietly blushed, wishing to poke herself to death, so she quickly backed out.

Sliding her finger down, she passed a dark profile picture with the note "Xiang Police Officer". She remembered that her profile picture used to be a picture of herself in a police uniform, but now she clicked on it and it was empty.

Oh yes, they already blocked each other.

Qin Xuan narrowed his eyes, but saw only one sentence left on her pitch-black homepage: "The mountains and the seas that you love, can be flattened by mountains and seas."

The crowd began to squirm slowly, she was carried forward and walked out of the boarding gate, the cold air on the bridge rushed towards her face, Qin Xuan wrapped her down jacket tightly, and she was getting farther and farther away from the brightly lit waiting hall.

The passenger who arrived on the opposite side was getting off the plane. Because of her occupation, Xiang Nanke used to walk at the end. She pulled the suitcase and got out of the cabin with her colleagues. She glanced through the window and was dazed for a second. In the coat pocket, wearing high-heeled shoes, she has an outstanding temperament, standing out from the crowd.

"Qin Xuan..." she murmured, as if something was blocked in her throat.

"What? What did you say?" The colleague followed her gaze and looked puzzled.

Xiang Nanke came back to his senses, took a few steps forward, and wanted to chase after her, but thought that she had already started boarding the plane, so it was probably too late.

"No...it's nothing." She managed to gather herself together, took out her mobile phone but found that there was no signal, and immediately bit her lower lip tightly.

"Well...you can help me ask for two more days off from the director. I still have some things to deal with at home. Please help me get my luggage back to the office first, please!".

After the woman finished speaking, she didn't care about other people's answers, and ran away through the crowd with her mobile phone in her hand, leaving her colleague with a depressed face behind.

Fifteen days after the operation, Peipei woke up in the ICU. Her vital signs were stable and she was recovering well. Everyone breathed a sigh of relief. At the same time, Lu Qing issued a second critical illness notice.

Today is a day for family reunion. The head nurse cooked glutinous rice balls on the induction cooker in the lounge, and each person ate a bowl. Everyone joked while eating: "If the medical department finds out, the department's bonus will be deducted."

But no one will care about that, everyone's face is beaming.

Except Yugui.

The young man ate two or three and lost his appetite, so he picked up the case and carried it to the rooftop.

The wind on the roof was a bit strong, she put on a down jacket over her white coat, and her fingers were red from the cold, flipping through pages of Lu Qing's medical records from the time he was diagnosed to the present, including the operation that was recorded in detail.

Different from the official copy handed over to the hospital, this is her own personal information, printed and handwritten, all filled with notes, large and small.

She flipped through the pages, filtering in her mind, then clenched her fingers tightly, her nose sore, and tears swirled in her eyes.

Why...why the operation was successful...she still didn't wake up...

Which step did you do wrong?

Guilt, self-blame, and remorse came overwhelmingly.

She hardly dared to face Gu Yanzhi these days, even though she didn't say anything.

Footsteps sounded behind him, Yu Gui wiped the corners of his eyes, picked up the case and stood up, Victor held a disposable lunch box containing a few Lantern Festivals, he was not used to eating with a toothpick with chopsticks.

"Oh my beautiful lady, I guess you must be worrying about Lu's surgery".

Being poked at the center, Yu Gui's dejected expression said it all.

Victor stuffed a soft glutinous dumpling into his mouth, freed his hand and patted her on the shoulder: "It's not your fault baby, I heard that Lu suffered too many organ injuries in an accident before, and a series of large Surgery is too much for normal people, let alone her, we must believe in the existence of miracles."

Yu Gui stared at the void through his shoulders. There were many tall buildings and buildings, and the gloomy sky could not see a ray of sunshine.

She pulled her lips and smiled, and the smile was a little pale: "Miracle...does such a thing really exist?".

"Of course, how could Pepe's operation be successful?" The tall Russian doctor shrugged.

Yu Gui's expression was slightly cold: "That's not a miracle, it's the result of my teacher Lu's hard work all his life."

"Oh, it seems I said the wrong thing again." Victor subconsciously covered his mouth, Yu Gui ignored him, turned and went downstairs, and was stopped again.

The always frivolous doctor rarely showed a trace of seriousness on his face: "After the operation here, I will fly back to Toronto tomorrow, so it doesn't make much sense for you to stay here, unless you want to do some chores that anyone can do." , There will never be a bright future in the old and decaying Chinese medical system, Yu, come with me to the University of Toronto, join my medical team, I can teach you what Lu can teach you, even money, reputation, status... "

Yu Gui turned around and looked at him, the young man had already learned a kind of silence: "Is this an invitation as a friend or as a doctor?"

Victor approached her and held out his hand: "Of course it's an invitation from a world famous doctor."

Yu Gui stared at him for a while, the Russian doctor's eyes were rare blue, full of admiration and affirmation.

The young man bent his lips and smiled, and held his hand: "Thank you, but I want to stay here, this is where I really need me."

"Why?" Victor no longer insisted, and let go of her hand with a light squeeze, more like a ritual.

Yu Gui smiled, turned and left with a wave: "So that one day, the Chinese can independently complete large-scale man-machine surgery like Pepe's."

"Dr. Victor, I wish you the best of luck."

Victor was startled, and turned to look downstairs. This land has a history of 5000 years.

Although his time in China was short, he also deeply felt the self-improvement engraved in the bones of the Chinese nation.

Victor also scratched his head and smiled, and said to himself: "Then... I should work harder, I can't be overtaken by these young people."

The first thing Qin Xuan did when he got off the plane was to visit her in the hospital. Gu Yanzhi has been staying in the hospital these days, and occasionally went home to get a change of clothes. The glass door looked at her.

Lu Qingshi lay quietly inside, his vital signs were stable, but there was no sign of waking up, as if he was asleep.

The doctor said that if this state lasts for more than three months, the possibility of waking up in the future is unlikely.

Qin Xuan looked at her side face, her hair was unkempt, it grew a little longer, and fell to her shoulders, looking a little messy.

His eyes are also dull, except for the soft and sad feelings when looking at Lu Qing, they are empty at other times.

A person who was originally cheerful and sunny suddenly became like this, and she felt unspeakably uncomfortable in her heart.

Qin Xuan put his hand on her shoulder: "It will be fine, she survived the difficulty last time, and it will be the same this time."

Gu Yanzhi looked back at her, but actually didn't care what she said at all, he just thanked her mechanically.

She never cried in the hospital, and she had heard similar words countless times, and she always answered the same way.

Qin Xuan knew that it was useless to talk too much, as a friend, she could do too little.

"Then I'll leave first, and I'll come to see you some other day. Don't keep holding it in your heart. I'm afraid that when Qingshi wakes up, you'll have something wrong again. You should cry or cry."

After hearing this, Gu Yanzhi turned around as if returning to his soul: "Are you leaving...then I'll see you off."

Qin Xuan waved his hand: "No, you can accompany Qing Shi, see you next time."

Gu Yanzhi managed to pull himself together: "Okay, see you next time."

"This is?" Backstage before the start of the game, Papa An stuffed her with a thick photo album.

"Ran Ran's Relic".

Fang Zhi opened it, it was a screenshot of the game, she flushed it out, flipped through it page by page, the past was vivid in her memory.

There are those who go to the battlefield together, watch the stars together, set off fireworks together, and there are also people in the powerful who play together...

The Internet is really a magical thing, bringing together people from all over the world.

The lonely are no longer lonely, the humble are no longer humble, even small and insignificant lives have blossomed.

She remembered what she once said to her: "I want to become a professional e-sports player. The e-sports industry is developing in full swing abroad, but there is still a blank in China, and even "playing" games is regarded as a kind of unprofessional behavior. , I understand that I can’t do anything like this now, but I just want to prove to more people that professional e-sports is not just a plaything, and I am also looking forward to the day when Chinese local e-sports teams can stand on the world’s highest stage.”

Turning to the last page of the album, it was a group photo. Outside the ward that day, she was the one who held up the phone. The people in the ward and those outside the ward lay down and stood. The people in the front row squatted down, and An Ran tilted her head. Looking at the camera, he showed a smile like a spring breeze.

It would be great if time could freeze at this moment.

Fang Zhi had tears in his eyes, pulled out the photo, stuffed it into his left breast pocket, and buttoned it up.

The host began to announce: "Now we invite a team from the Glory Wilderness server—to stop killing with killing."

The young man wore a brand new red jacket with his team's logo embroidered on the back, and he knew that he was making great strides onto the star-studded stage.

It doesn't matter, Ran Ran, I will inherit the dream you didn't have time to fulfill.

After leaving the hospital, Qin Xuan took a taxi straight to Jinzhou City Prison, but was told that someone was already visiting and he had to wait for a while.

The woman looked in through the half-covered door, and there was a fat woman sitting on a chair, and in the glass window opposite was an old man with a shaved head and a gray-black prison uniform.

The two of them were talking with the microphone, and Lao Bao even smiled. He was sentenced to death and will be executed in the spring, but there was no fear, decadence, or madness of a dying person on his face... On the contrary, he was calmer. .

After the hostility faded away, he began to look like a refined middle-aged businessman.

Qin Xuan warned the prisoner farewell: "Here are some daily necessities brought for him, please pass them on to him."

"Okay, we will hand it over to him after we check it." The prison guard seemed a little strange, and left before he saw what was going on.

Qin Xuan just smiled, turned and left the prison without answering.

She was standing by the side of the road smoking and waiting for the bus. Jinzhou City was drier than Shanghai, and the cold air and the smell of smoke choked into her lungs. She coughed twice.

Turning around, she saw her old friend. She took a step back alertly, but Zhao Hui didn't come forward.

It was she who spoke first: "Why don't you go in and see him?"

With a cigarette in his mouth, Qin Xuan turned on the lighter, and the flame flickered, making the smoke look charming.

"No fun."

Her mouth has always been very vicious, Zhao Hui didn't want to make fun of herself, so she was going to turn around and leave. At the end of the day, she thought of the money that would be credited into her account on time every month, and the night of the train accident.

The middle-aged woman turned around again: "Thank you...".

Qin Xuan opened the car door and sat in the back seat: "Master, drive faster, go to xxx".

She gave a random list of place names, Zhao Hui shook her head when she saw the taxi disappearing on the road, sure enough, she was asking for trouble.

But now, a "thank you" can't change anything, at most it just makes my soul, which is disturbed by guilt, feel a little better.

In the past when Lao Bao was here, the two women were at odds with each other, but now that he is about to leave, those resentments seem to have disappeared.

I have to sigh that human nature is such a complex and changeable thing.

"He's about this tall, good-looking, wearing high heels, and has a very faint beauty spot on his brow..." It's unimaginable that she described Qin Xuan's features so accurately, and asked Nan Ke Lianbi After the leader communicated with the guard for a while, the answer she got made her both happy and sad.

Qin Xuan came to the prison, but left soon.

How fragile modern social life is. For two people in the vast crowd, if they lose their phone numbers, they lose everything.

From then on, we kept meeting each other and passing each other, but in the end we never heard from each other again.

When she won the national championship, she was not as excited as she imagined. When the host put the heavy trophy into her arms, she knew that there was a feeling that the dust had settled.

There was even a moment when she felt that it was An Ran who was standing here to receive the award.

After the game, she bid farewell to the team members one by one. The daddy has to concentrate on going home to nurse the children, Lao Fan has to study hard to prepare for the high school entrance examination, and the others have their own paths and lives.

People who get together because of the Internet will one day be separated because of the Internet.

But we know that this is not the end, but more like the beginning of an unknown journey.

She is full of expectations and ready to say goodbye to the past.

She bought two catties of seasonal fruit downstairs and carried them up, the door opened in response, and Yu Gui's smiling face appeared behind the door.

"Come back, the meal is ready, prepare to wash your hands and eat."

"Okay" She put down the fruit and went to wash her hands as usual.

The faucet rattled.

"Why did you come back so early today?" she asked.

Yu Gui placed the bowls and chopsticks: "It's the holidays today, the boss sees that I'm too tired these days, so I'll be excused from the night shift."

"So" she nodded, and Yu Gui was speechless for a while, and he fell into an embarrassing situation where he had nothing to say unless he found a topic.

She played a game she knew nothing about, and her medical books were bliss to her.

Eight poles can't be hit together, not to mention An Ran is inserted in the middle.

But Yu Gui thought, now that An Ran is no longer alive, she is finally relieved, they can go back to the past, right?

But what she didn't know was that no one would stand still and wait for another person.

The world is like sailing against the current, even if you don't want to go, you will be carried forward by the torrent of fate.

Whether it's for her or her, it's the same.

Yu Gui chose to speak to break the silence: "Well... Today Dr. Victor invited me to be a resident doctor at the University of Toronto..."

Fang Zhi nodded, feeling a dull pain in his heart: "This is a good thing, let's go."

Yu Gui was startled, feeling lost for no reason: "I refused."

Fang Zhiyou was chewing on the vegetables, feeling dull: "Why?"

She remembered the bold words she said to Victor, which could never be uttered in front of her. Such a clumsy reason, the former her would definitely expose it mercilessly.

"Actually, you just want to stay by my side!"

Of course Fang Zhiyou didn't say that, put down his chopsticks, the corners of his lips were bitter: "Xiaogui, I'm going to Korea".

Yu Gui was shocked, and an indescribable panic surged in his heart: "Is...is that the e-sports club you've always wanted to go to?"

"Well, their people were also present today, and they directly signed a three-year agreement. I will conduct closed training and also serve for the L team."

Yu Gui was sincerely happy for her, but his eyes turned red silently: "Congratulations."

Fang Zhiyou touched her head as usual, and the soft hair slipped away from her fingertips. She was a little bit reluctant, but she knew that it was time to put an end to this long-distance love run that lasted for ten years.

She hesitated again and again, but still said: "Xiaogui, let's separate for a while..."

Yu Gui squeezed her chopsticks tightly, she didn't look up, she just stared at the dishes in the bowl: "I know, foreign countries or something, they will definitely be separated..."

"No, what I mean, you should understand".

Yu Gui looked up at her, tears streaming down his face: "I don't understand, and I don't want to understand...".

"Remember what you said when I asked you to go back to the countryside and be a little doctor?"

It's like going back in time, just swapping roles.

"You said you have a dream to fulfill, and so do I."

Yu Gui understood what she didn't say, and her mood at that time was a true portrayal of her now.

And Fang Zhiyou also understood how difficult it is to say this sentence: "I was also confused. After the pilot's dream was shattered, I didn't know what I could do, what should I do?"

"Now I have finally found the direction I want to work hard. I want to try and see how far I can go. Xiao Gui, just like you don't want to give up your career as a doctor, I don't want to give up the e-sports industry either. It's the only thing I can do and do well right now."

Yu Gui believed that the red corners of her eyes and the tears she shed were not fake, but he could not help complaining: "Then do you remember, you also said that the biggest dream is to stay with me forever".

Fang Zhiyou cried, his eyes softened, he looked into her eyes, and said word by word: "Of course I remember, and it has never changed."

"Three years, who knows what will happen, maybe you have a new love, maybe I have found a suitable partner, when that time comes, what should we do?"

"If that person is good enough, I quit."

Without even thinking about it, Yu Gui raised his hand, only to know that he subconsciously closed his eyes, but the palm wind didn't land on his face for a long time.

Yu Gui had already burst into tears.

She wanted to hug her, but since she made up her mind to cut off this fetter, she shouldn't give her any nostalgia.

Yu Gui was right, she shouldn't have given her empty promises.

"I often wonder, in the days when you just started regular training, or when we just lived together, if I had more money and ability, would we not be what we are today?"

"Xiaogui, you also understand that it's actually none of An Ran's business that we've come to this point, it's us who... had a problem."

One goes too fast, one goes too slow.

Without An Ran, the problems between them would only break out sooner or later.

"I'm too busy...I'm sorry..." Yu Gui cried and apologized to her: "I didn't take good care of your feelings and self-esteem, and I didn't understand your distressed heart after losing your mother...I'm sorry, I ignored your feelings too long".

Yu Gui grabbed her clothes, never had a quarrel made her feel so disheartened, and she still had a little thought left, hoping that she would not leave her.

"I... I will change it in the future... I will go home as soon as possible... No... I will support you... I will also learn to play games, I can play with you, I try to understand your inner world , I will take you home...my parents are your parents..."

She choked up as she spoke, tears streaming down her cheeks.

Fang Zhiyou finally hugged her slowly, but he stopped hugging her waist and put his hands on her back, like a hug between friends.

"Xiaogui, when you grow up, you should understand that sometimes a short separation is for a better reunion after a long absence."

She wiped away her tears: "I look forward to the you at that time, and you will become a better doctor. Let's work hard."