out of print lover

Lin Xing lived in Feng Yu's small apartment for ten days, and he didn't make a single call to Xu Xiwan during these ten days.

Every night, she would dream of Xu Xiwan, of the years when she grew up beside Xu Xiwan, and of Xu Xiwan saying to her: "I don't like you at all, you are such a fool." Bottle." Every time when it was almost dawn, I was frightened and woke up, my back was covered with cold sweat, and I couldn't fall asleep anymore.

Both Feng Yu and Zhou Xiaohui are still sleeping. It is the most critical year for them. Sleep is very important. Lin Xing can't disturb them. After waking up, in order to pass the time, he has to check the news with his mobile phone, and wait for Feng Yu and Zhou Xiaohui to wake up. , she also got up together.

Xu Xiwan reads financial newspapers 360 days a year, every day. Lin Xing followed her to read financial newspapers since she was a child. Now, she is not used to not reading them some days.

One hour before waking up is just enough for Lin Xing to finish reading the latest financial news today. The app she often browses, the headline on the front page today is Xu Xiwan. Fortunately, Lin has not contacted Xu Xiwan for a long time, so he still read the headlines , I just found out that she had already gone to Europe two days ago. It is said that she was negotiating a large-scale cooperation project. Lin Xing knew that she had participated in a small part of it when she was an intern at the company, and the project was still under planning at that time. Now that Xu Xiwan has personally gone to Europe, it is estimated that the project has officially started.

Lin Xing hadn't seen Xu Xiwan for more than ten days, so he was thinking so hard, he was so fascinated by Xu Xiwan's side face shaking hands with others on the headlines, he didn't even notice that Zhou Xiaohui walked into the living room after washing.

Zhou Xiaohui originally wanted to greet Lin Xing directly, but Lin Xing stared blankly at the palm-sized phone screen, completely unaware that she was standing beside her. Zhou Xiaohui made a fool of herself and went around behind the sofa bed where Lin Xing was sleeping. Reaching out from behind her suddenly, he pulled out her mobile phone while she was not paying attention.

"What are you looking at so fascinated? I have been standing behind you for a long time and you don't know. I must be looking at something good. Let me see it too." Zhou Xiaohui looked at Lin Xing's phone screen glance.

It's nothing special, it's just an ordinary piece of financial news, it's not celebrity gossip, and it's not a major case news, Zhou Xiaohui was a little disappointed, "What, it's nothing special." She was about to return the phone to Lin Xing, Glancing at the picture again, he realized something, "Hey, isn't this sister Xu? Oh my god, she's really amazing."

"Xiaohui, return the phone to me." Lin Xing lifted the quilt and sat up.

"I won't." Zhou Xiaohui was playful, "Unless you tell me why you are staring at Sister Xu's photo in a daze, oh--I see, you must be missing Sister Xu, right?"

Lin Xing's ears turned red all of a sudden, and he said angrily, "Who misses her? I don't miss her, return the phone to me!"

"I just said it casually, what are you doing so loudly?" Zhou Xiaohui was taken aback by Lin Xing's excited attitude, and returned the phone to her, "Lin Xing, what kind of conflict are you having with sister Xu? There are so many God is still in the cold war, why don't you go and admit your mistake to Sister Xu and be soft, Sister Xu is so kind to you, if you have a cold war with her, she must be very sad."

Lin Xing looked at her like he was looking at a monster, and teased, "Hey, why is our stupid student Zhou Xiaohui so considerate of others now?"

Zhou Xiaohui gave her a push, "Go! You're just learning nonsense from Feng Yu, and it's not formal at all. I'm telling you something serious."

"Okay, let's talk about business." Lin Xing said with a straight expression, "The business is, Xiaohui, the relationship between me and her is not just a simple quarrel, the involvement is very complicated, anyway, I can't go back now, whether it's for face or for other reasons. What, I can't even go back, you know?"

"I don't know. What do you mean by something else? Could it be that you and Sister Xu are not simply at odds, but are there other reasons?"

"I can't tell you clearly now, but you will know in the future." Lin Xing glanced at the time, "Xiaohui, if you don't hurry up, you will be late."

Zhou Xiaohui also took a look, it was already 07:30, they were going to start their morning self-study at 10:[-], and now there were only [-] minutes left before being late, Zhou Xiaohui yelled, hurriedly went back to her room to change clothes and pack her bags, At this time Feng Yu had packed up, walked out of her room, and sat in the living room waiting for her.

Feng Yu is not like Zhou Xiaohui's gossip, just playing with her mobile phone without saying a word, but Lin Xing couldn't help but ask her: "Is there anything you want to ask me?"

"If I ask you, will you tell me?"

"will not."

"That's it." Feng Yu smiled, "You can say it when you want to, and I won't force you to say it when you don't want to. In short, don't think too much about it now, just live with me at ease and then talk. When the boat reaches the bridge, it will come naturally. Straight, things always turn around."

Lin Xing knew that there was no chance of a turning point. Xu Xiwan's words were so absolute that they blocked all the paths between them.

Today is Saturday, and Lin Xing is going to teach piano lessons to Feng Yu's cousin at three o'clock in the afternoon. Her cousin is Fang Sizhen, a very smart little girl, and Lin Xing likes her very much.

Lin Xing is good-looking, and her voice is gentle and melodious in class. The good upbringing she has cultivated over the years has made her never lose her temper in front of outsiders. She always has a smile on her face in class. With a little smile, the eyes will bend involuntarily. She is very kind and kind, and is very attractive to children. The little girl was very friendly with her when she was in the first class. Go, let her live with me at night.

Fang Sizhen's parents were very troubled by Fang Sizhen's specialties, and hired several teachers, but they were all driven away by Fang Sizhen's mischief. This young teacher who looked like a big boy was given by Feng Yu. They recommended it, saying it was free and no money, so they agreed to let her try it. Unexpectedly, the effect was quite good. It aroused Fang Sizhen's interest in learning the piano. When the two were happy, they were afraid that Lin Xing would not pay for it. It was too low, so I quit after I found another job. I took the initiative to raise Lin Xing's salary from 5000 an hour to [-] an hour. Now Lin Xing has an income of almost [-] yuan a month. A lot, but she earned it with her own hands, and she is already very satisfied.

"Sister, teacher, I've been waiting for you for a long time!" At three o'clock in the afternoon, Lin Xing arrived at Fang Sizhen's little friend's house on time. Before he rang the doorbell, the door was already opened. He hugged her waist.

Lin Xing was unprepared, and was thrown back half a step by her. He quickly stabilized his body and subconsciously caught her, fearing that she would fall down, "Xiao Hao, I didn't come yesterday, did you seriously practice the piano? "

"Yes! Sister teacher, I played really well yesterday. Come in quickly, and I'll play for you later." Fang Sizhen liked Lin Xing very much, and didn't want to call her teacher, so he simply added "teacher" after her title. A sister, call her "teacher sister".

"Okay, I knew that Xiaoyu is so smart, he must learn very fast." Lin Xing led Fang Sizhen into the living room.

Fang Siyu's parents run a restaurant, and they are usually not at home. She is very independent at a young age, and she can make noodles under fried eggs, and she is very polite. When Lin Xing goes to their house, she cooks The first thing to do must be to pour water for Lin Xing.

Fang Sizhen is eight years old this year. She studied early and is in the third grade this year. The piano is placed in her bedroom. Fang Sizhen let Lin Xing go directly to the bedroom, and she went to the kitchen to wash Lin Xing's cups and pour water.

Probably all parents who have daughters have a princess dream in their hearts. Fang Sizhen’s room is also mainly pink, with many dolls and Barbie dolls in the room. When Lin Xing sees this room, he thinks of his own small room in the past. It is pink and tender, and the main tone is roughly the same as Fang Sizhen's room, but she never lived in that room for two days. Until she was 13 years old, she slept in Xu Xiwan's master bedroom.

Why did I remember that Xu Xi came late again.Lin Xing shook his head, not letting his thoughts wander, and looked at Fang Sizhen's desk, and found that there was a book spread out on her desk. Looking at the cover, it turned out to be "Red and Black".

Lin Xing thought that he was also Fang Sizhen's age when he read this book. At that time, he swallowed jujubes at a young age and couldn't understand the content of the book at all. Now he can't remember what the book is talking about. Only the ending At that time, Mathilde kissed Julien's head in the cave. This scene left a deep impression on the young Lin Xing, and she still remembers it to this day.

What a sad story.Lin Xing put down the book.Fang Sizhen probably can't read it now, but such a scene will leave a shocking mark in her heart. People are like this, groping for a world they don't know, and growing up step by step.

Fang Sizhen likes Lin Xing to teach her how to play the piano. Lin Xing is not like those teachers who only teach her to read music and let her practice, which is not interesting at all. Write down the creative background of each piece, so that when Fang Sizhen is practicing the piano by himself, he can also feel the emotion in the song. The classroom driven by emotion, time flies very fast, always when Fang Sizhen is still unfinished, One class was over, and Lin Xing had to leave again.

"Sister teacher, can you not go?" Fang Sizhen reluctantly said, "My bed is big and soft, you stay here, play with me, and we sleep together, okay?"

"That can't be done." Lin Xing squatted down and touched Fang Siyu's head with a smile, "Teacher also has his own life, just like Fang Siyu has his own family and friends, right?"

"But my parents are very busy, they don't have time to accompany me at all, and they don't allow me to go out to play with other children." Fang Sizhen pouted, with a mournful face, and asked Lin Xing with some expectation: "Sister teacher, can I How about being your friend? This way we can have more time to play together. The teacher and sister are very kind to me, even better than my parents."

"Of course." Lin Xing promised her with a smile.

During the days when she was with Fang Sizhen, Lin Xing would always let her see him when he was a child. At that time, he was alone and in a much worse situation than Fang Sizhen. Suddenly, a Xu Xiwan appeared and took Lin Xing's young heart. It is full, and there is no room for a second person.

Lin Xing's life is inseparable from Xu Xiwan, and he agreed not to think about her anymore, but it's just a small point, and he can connect with Xu Xiwan in a roundabout way.

Since Lin Xing was not ready yet, the plan to go abroad was postponed until next year. Lin Xing was relieved when he heard the news, so that she would have more buffer time to prepare for going abroad.

She lived with Feng Yu for two months. At the end of the year, after excluding daily expenses, she saved thousands of dollars. She invested all these thousands of dollars in the stock market. This year, the stock market went down as a whole. There are profits and losses, but basically I still make some money. The interest rate is about [-]%, which is not much, but it is already very remarkable for novices.

Zhou Xiaohui is a small money fanatic. That day when she saw colorful broken lines on the black screen of Lin Xing's computer, she knew that Lin Xing could make money by trading stocks and sitting at home doing nothing. Give all the lucky money saved to Lin Xing, and ask Lin Xing to take her to make money together.

"I'm not a god. How can I only make money without losing money?" Lin Xing was very helpless. Although she had been exposed to the stock market two years ago, she had more theory than practice. She had never tried it herself, and now she buys more stocks. It was in the process of trying to learn, and it was still a while before she found out about her own way. If she lost her own money, she would lose it. At worst, she would make it back later, but Zhou Xiaohui's money, she dared not mess around with.

"It's okay, I believe in you." Zhou Xiaohui is a courageous person, "I have collected the New Year's money by myself since I was a child, and I have saved more than 3 yuan. Anyway, I put it in the card and wait for it to depreciate. Why don't you teach it to me?" Xiaoxing, you are here to take care of it, if you don’t worry, then I will pay you a commission from the head office, right? If there is any profit, I will share half of the profit with you!”

Lin Xing was a little tempted, not because of what Zhou Xiaohui said about sharing half of her profits, but because 3 yuan is a lot of money. If he had 3 yuan, then Lin Xing would have more choices than now , she only has 5000 yuan now, and she has little room to choose stocks.

"Okay." Lin Xing agreed to her. Lin Xing is not going to ask for commissions or anything, but if there is a loss, he can find a way to make up for Zhou Xiaohui's loss, at least not to let his friends suffer.

Feng Yu knew about it and was also very interested in Lin Xing's stock trading. However, she did not directly hand over the money to Lin Xing for arrangement like Zhou Xiaohui did. Losing money, several stocks were falling when Lin Xing bought them. It took ten days and a half months before they rose slowly. After rising for a while, it really started to fall.

Every time Lin Xing buys and sells, it is not the highest point or the lowest point, but he can make money every time, which makes Feng Yu very puzzled, "How do you know which one will go up and which one will go down?"

"Who said I know?" Lin Xing couldn't laugh or cry, "I'm so good, I just put all my money in it and just buy one lot. There's no need to look at the market."

"I see that the stocks you buy and sell seem to make more money and less money to lose. Even if you made a loss when you first bought it, it will rise after a while."

"You said this." Lin Xing understood Feng Yu's meaning, "This... can only be estimated, there are many reasons that affect the stock market trend, whether the economic environment is up or down, national | policy support or suppression, and Corporate image, local situation, etc., as well as artificial malicious short-selling, these are all factors that affect the stock."

"What a hassle. No wonder so many people lose their fortunes in the stock market."

"It's not that exaggerated. The most important thing is not to be too timid or too greedy. Don't dare to buy when it falls, for fear that it will fall even worse. When it rises, you are reluctant to sell it. I hope it will rise even more. There is this kind of thinking. , of course it will be a loss."

Feng Yu was silent for a while, and then sighed, "I used to always have my eyes above the top, and I thought that among the three of us, I was the strongest."

Lin Xing smiled, "Originally, otherwise, I wouldn't have been recommended so early. This is the biggest proof for you."

"No, Lin Xing, you are the best."

Lin Xing was quite ashamed, this was the result of her being around Xu Xiwan for many years, not her own credit.

Lin Xing still went to Fang Sizhen's place as a tutor, but when she went there today, Fang Sizhen's eyes were red, as if she had cried.

"What's wrong with Fang Sizhen?" Lin Xing and Fang Sizhen have been together for a while, and they have developed feelings for Fang Sizhen. Seeing Fang Sizhen crying, she is also very concerned, "Arguing with a classmate?"

"No." Fang Sizhen wiped away tears, shook his head and denied.

"Is that a conflict with mom and dad?"

For a child as old as Fang Sizhen, there are several reasons why he is sad, such as failing the exam, quarreling with friends, and conflicting with parents. According to Lin Xing's understanding, Fang Sizhen has not taken an exam recently, and the conflicts between classmates have been ruled out. There is only conflict with the parents.

Lin Xing guessed right, sure enough, Fang Sitong didn't say a word, and acquiesced.

"What's wrong? Can you tell me?" Lin Xing asked softly.

Her voice was very reassuring, Fang Sizhen gradually calmed down, and complained to Lin Xing.

It turned out that Fang Siyu wanted to go to a winter camp for the winter vacation and go camping in the wild for three days, but her parents were afraid that she would have an accident when she was too young, so they didn't want her to go.

Saying that, Fang Situ cried again.

"Just crying over such a trivial matter?" Lin Xing wiped Fang Sizhen's tears, and hugged her to his lap, "I think your parents don't understand you. You are eight years old, and you can take care of yourself. They still treat you like a child, don't they?"

"Yeah." Fang Sizhen nodded.

"Yes, that's right, it's because Mom and Dad don't understand him too well. He is eight years old, so he can definitely handle it by himself."

With Lin Xing standing by his side, Fang Sizhen's mood was greatly encouraged. He tilted his head back, with tears still hanging from the corners of his eyes, and smiled at Lin Xing, "Teacher sister, only you understand my mood."

"Yeah, we are good friends. I know 曚曚 best. Although there are many snakes in the field with dense grass, 曚曚 is so powerful. When a snake wraps around your foot and bites you, you will kill it with one kick." If you step on it to death, if the snake climbs onto you, you can catch it with your bare hands, right?"

Fang Sizhen's expression changed, "Snake?"

"Yes, besides snakes, there are also leeches and centipedes. Have you ever seen leeches? It's the kind of soft, sticky thing that sucks human blood. It makes a hole in your leg and gets into your butt. In the skin, by the time you find it, it may have penetrated half of its body..."

"Hmm..." Before Lin Xing finished speaking, Fang Siyu shivered.

"There are a lot of interesting things, what kind of scorpion, mouse, have you never seen a mouse in the wild? But it is big, and the eyes will glow green. You are camping in the wild, right? If you want to go to the toilet, you have to go outside. When you get up at night to go to the toilet, you can find a big tree and squat down. When you look up, a big mouse with green eyes is facing you, it’s fun.”

"Don't talk about sister teacher." Fang Siyu was about to cry again, this time he was frightened, "I understand, why don't I go?"

"That's good." Lin Xing touched her little head in satisfaction, "Remember, it's not that mom and dad don't understand you, it's just that they are adults, and they think more and more comprehensively than you. I wanted to go to winter camp, but I only saw it was fun and interesting, but my parents saw the danger behind it, so they didn't want you to go."

"I'm eight years old! I've grown up!"

"It's still early." Lin Xing couldn't help laughing at Fang Siyu's unconvinced defense, but the next second, she couldn't laugh again.

Why is this sentence so familiar?As if she had said it herself, and said it more than once.

"I am already, I am an adult."

Lin Xing always hated Xu Xiwan for treating her like a child. Thinking about it now, Lin Xing in Xu Xiwan's eyes is probably no different from Fang Sizhen in Lin Xing's eyes. Lin Xing was even more capricious and rebellious. Xi Wan said so many outrageous things, and yelled at her to leave her alone.

What was Xu Xiwan's mood at that time?

Lin Xing felt guilty for no reason.

He keeps saying that he is already an adult, but he doesn't behave like an adult at all. He acts as he pleases, without considering the consequences or whether it will hurt Xu Xiwan's heart.

In the end, he was still just a spoiled, naive and ignorant child, completely unworthy of being called an adult.

Xu Xiwan probably only regarded Lin Xing's confession as a whim of capriciousness, so she rejected herself so unhesitatingly. That's right, with her bad personality now, how could Xu Xiwan dare to accept her? How can she guarantee that her love is not overheated, and how can she guarantee that the relationship between them can go on for a long time?

Lin Xing was silent.There was a desire in her heart to go back to Xu Xiwan and apologize to her.

But this is also... too embarrassing!Lin Xing struggled to think, then he vowed not to let Xu Xiwan take care of himself, and now he is going to study abroad, so he ran back to admit his mistake and apologize, probably Xu Xiwan would think that he couldn't live outside, so he had to compromise, right?Lin Xing really wanted to prove himself to Xu Xiwan, to prove that he had grown up and was capable of taking responsibility for his own actions. The first thing was to start earning his own tuition fees.

But after several months, Lin Xing's income, plus Zhou Xiaohui's profit, was less than [-] yuan, which was far from a year's tuition fee.

I really want...I really want to go back and apologize to Wanwan, and I really want to see Wanwan.

No, I can't let her look down on me.

Lin Xing struggled until the end of the year.

At the beginning of the twelfth lunar month, she didn't save enough tuition fees, but Xu Yiqing came to catch her first, "Lin Xiaoxing, young adult, I really want to pry your little head open to see if your brain is full of paste, Let me ask you, how long are you going to be awkward?"