If this sweet shell is destined to be peeled off by you

"happiness……?"

Unable to believe his ears, Irie stood there in a daze.

"Maybe... I think that should be happiness. This kind of feeling also makes me very unbelievable. When I saw him for the first time, my heart seemed to be washed clean suddenly, and there was nothing left. My first This is the first time I meet such a person, and I am fascinated by him."

"..."

"So, Shinichi, Xueyue is not a substitute for you. Xueyue is very special, in my eyes, he is irreplaceable. Maybe I should say, I love him. It is such a happy thing to like someone, But when I think I'm in love with him...it's calm."

Narrating quietly, Maeda looked at the dark night, but always felt in a daze that Xueyue seemed to be right in front of him.

Irie, who had been silent all the time, lowered his head and let the tears pour out and drip onto the floor, the tears on his face were always wet.

"Is he that special? I can't...then why..."

I don't know whether this sentence is asking Maeda or myself, but Irikawa's heart that sank to the bottom of the valley only feels lonely and cold.He really wanted to cry like this, but he wanted to hold back desperately.Unwillingness and remorse are very unbearable.

"It's very late, you can stay here today, you can use everything in this room, I'm going out to live, good night."

After that, he turned around and picked up the key to go out.He had exchanged keys with Xueyue earlier, but this was the first time he actively used them.Normally, he wants to give Xueyue enough respect and privacy. If Xueyue didn't take the initiative to get close, he would not easily open the lock of 410 by himself.

The silence of the night amplified the sound, and Irie fell to the ground, listening to Maeda turning the key, and then closing the door, feeling that he couldn't find his heart for a moment.

Room 410 was still so clean, and the air-conditioned room was very cold. Maeda saw Xueyue sleeping on the bed very rarely.

"Ugh……"

With a sigh, he took off his clothes, took a simple shower, and then lay down next to the sleeping Xueyue.

There is no light, there is no moon and stars outside, only a dark night.

"What should I do, Xueyue, I love you so much..."

Putting his forehead on Xueyue's shoulder, gently hugging his thin body, feeling the other's body temperature, Maeda was so tired that he couldn't sleep.

He recalled the tears on his face when he entered the river just now, and the grief expression on his face made him dare not face it directly.

I also thought of Irie countless times, and he left all his love to him. At the moment of leaving, he could only turn around decisively, warning himself that it was impossible to turn back.

What I can't forget is not only the joy of being together, but also the appearance of Irie's mother sobbing and crying in front of him.

I can still remember what that woman said.

…………

"Maeda-sensei, as Shinichi's mother, I beg you, please let go..."

"I only have one son, and Shinichi's father left early. I only hope that he can live a complete life in the future, study hard, work, marry and have children after graduation. As a mother, there is only one requirement..."

"He's still young. You should know better than me what his feelings for the teacher are. It's not good for anyone to delay each other."

"I'm sorry, Mr. Maeda, I apologize to you on behalf of my son..."

"He is ignorant, and he dragged you to do a lot of excessive things. As a mother, I didn't take good care of it. This is my fault. I'm really sorry for causing you so much trouble..."

"Teacher's future has been delayed by Shinichi, I don't know how to face your parents now..."

…………

At that time, I couldn't say anything, but I was suffering from despair, and at the same time I had to hold on to apologize to that woman.That woman was not wrong, after all, what was wrong was that she followed into the river.

"Xueyue... Xueyue..."

Constantly calling softly to the person in her arms, the sleeping Xue Yue couldn't give any response.

But listening to the sound of even breathing, I always feel that my heart is not so uncomfortable.The kind of home that seems to be able to accommodate all his exhaustion should be by Xue Yue's side.

The sky outside suddenly began to change, and the dark clouds gathered together in an instant, with lightning looming from time to time.

Lying on Maeda's bed, Irie shrank his body in response to being frightened by the room illuminated by lightning.

In just two or three seconds, huge thunder followed.

"Uh,"

She covered her ears in fear and closed her eyes at the same time.

"Teacher, you said that you would be by my side when there was thunder... eh!"

"Crack-"

Another thunder seemed to explode above his head, and Irie, who was always afraid of thunder, buried his head in the quilt.

"...you are next door, I am not afraid, no...not afraid, you are next door, teacher..."

As if constantly hypnotizing myself, I pressed my ears hard, smelling the strange and familiar smell belonging to Maeda on the quilt, sadness gradually replaced fear, and the stubbornness that had been propped up secretly collapsed.

"But the teacher... I'm so scared, the thunder is so scary... But I really like when it rains on a date... Then you will hug me, and you will cover my ears..."

At this moment, Maeda repeated that familiar movement.He lightly clasped Xueyue's ears, and the person in his arms was not disturbed by the thunder, and was still soundly asleep.

This night, Xueyue didn't even have a dream in her coma.

Maeda hugged the ignorant Xueyue with complicated mood and insomnia.

Irie hid himself in Maeda's quilt to hypnotize himself.

Nakajima lay in the hospital hanging from water until dawn before waking up in a daze.

After Jero got home, he was thinking about something in the bathtub and kept going from R* to limb paralysis.

Some people are striving for it, while others are eager to miss it.Everything goes on after daybreak, and night is never a good excuse to hide.

Xueyue woke up from a coma, the moment she saw Maeda, her only thought was to escape.

Gently put Maeda's arm aside and put on his clothes very carefully.He was afraid of disturbing Maeda who was still sleeping, and afraid of facing him who was awake.I neither want to ask nor answer, I am just eager to escape at this moment.

Put on your shoes, hold your keys, mobile phone and other travel necessities, and take some change of clothes by the way, the moment you go out.There is no ease of relief, only self-blame brought about by timidity.

But at this moment Xueyue really has no way to face it, and even made preparations not to face Maeda in the near future.

Xueyue, who had no idea that it had rained in the middle of the night, looked at the street being washed clean, and didn't know where to go for a while.

"Forget it, let's go wherever we go..."

Thinking of continuing to work at night, Xueyue decided to choose a place near the shop to live.

Maeda was still sleeping in his own bed, apparently giving up his own house to Irie.Such an embarrassing situation escaped by herself first, the timid Xueyue didn't think about how to solve it until she rushed to the bar.

He knew in his heart that Irie liked Maeda, and the persistence that shot out from his eyes was full of scorching temperature.They used to love each other so much, but he was a fool who didn't even know if he really liked Maeda.

"It's so good... to be able to like someone so much. It would be great if one day I can understand..."

Hiding in the lounge and eating a sandwich, Jie Luo who pushed open the door was surprised when he saw Xueyue.

"Why is it so early, there are still two hours before the door opens."

While changing clothes, Jie Luo skillfully tied up his hair, and the original comfortable clothes were replaced by shirts and vests, and the spirit of the whole person was radiated.

"Ah... I'm fine, so I came early."

Lowering her head to eat, Xue Yue didn't say much.

"Hey? Is it... Don't you usually stay with that lover of yours? By the way, you are both together, and you still live next door. Why don't you move in together? You can save a lot of rent, don't you think it's more cost-effective? "

Originally, I just wanted to chat with Xueyue, and I muttered a lot, but found that Xueyue was silent.

"... Xueyue?"

Waking up from the daze, Xue Yue put down the sandwich wrapping in her hand.

"Ah, it's okay, I'm sorry I was a little dazed. What did senior say just now?"

"Ugh……"

Sighing helplessly, after changing his clothes, Jie Luo sat beside him and looked at him.

"I mean, why don't you live together. Did Xue Yue not wake up because she was too tired yesterday?"

"No, it's not...Maeda didn't take the initiative to mention this matter, and he is used to living alone, so he feels that he will not be used to living with two people."

He hesitated whether to tell the truth to Jie Luo, because the current relationship was already like this, and for him, everything he imagined now was just a thought.Besides, he was telling the truth.

"Eh? Is it? It's really not easy to change the habit of sleeping alone, but it should feel good to be hugged, or to have someone you like in your arms... But then again, Xueyue, you Do you go back to your own room to sleep with your lover? He has always agreed that you just had sex and then one of you must pull up your pants and leave?"

Asked about the embarrassment, Xue Yue lowered her head even lower.Because they are still in the final stage and have not made a breakthrough.

"Do...what...what does senior refer to..."

"Ah? Of course it's a ****. Could it be that he hasn't touched you all this time!?"

Jie Luo's surprised eyes at this moment are no less than seeing someone walking a crocodile on the street.In his understanding, it is perfectly normal to enjoy this kind of fun when you have desires, not to mention the relationship between the two of them is a relationship of lovers, it is as ordinary as people need to drink water every day.

Xueyue showed embarrassment and didn't know how to explain, so embarrassing that even her ears turned red.

"It's just that we have each other...but we didn't make it to the last step..."

Leaning on Xueyue, Jie Luo was surprised at first, but then became understandable.

"Uh... Xueyue, is it because you are too scared, or is he not very good?"

"No... He thought I was too scared, so he held back."

"So? So it's because you're afraid? What are you afraid of? Afraid of pain?"

Xueyue's appearance is so cute, Jie Luo even wanted to tease R with evil intentions.

"It's a little bit. But that's not the point. In fact, I...have never been in love, so I don't know if I like him as much as he likes me. Every time I face him, I will be because of this. I was upset by some kind of strange question, so I..."

"Oh? So that's the case. But..."

With his eyes closed and resting his mind, Jie Luo's tone of voice was soft and gentle, exuding a leisurely temperament all over his body, which made people feel inexplicably relaxed.

"Into each other's body, although for me it is just an act of seeking happiness, but it is different for you. Xueyue... If you want to find out whether you like each other, try Go to the end with him. If you are not as obsessed with sex as I am, then your body will tell your heart whether you really like him. If you don’t like him, then even your leg hair would turn him down. Trust me."

He gave Xueyue a look, and the originally dull atmosphere became less restrained.Xueyue has never wanted to face it, after all, no one can help him.But recalling what Irijiang said last night, Xueyue was not only shrinking back, she was shrinking back.

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This hits my pain point. . .It’s true, I’m sad while writing.