Social phobia

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With a plan for the future, life is tense and indifferent. Chu Ze can also feel peace and satisfaction from his study and life. He feels that there is a road in front of him, and he has stepped on it for the first time since he was born. No matter the scenery along the way, no matter the joy or sorrow at the end, it is the road I have really walked.

Chu Ze and Gu Ai still go in and out together every day, but feel that their eyes often fall on them. At first, they can only feel it occasionally, but later they feel that everywhere they go is their eyes and the eyes of the people around them. Whispering.Chu Ze found it strange, several times impulsively wanted to trouble others, but was stopped by Gu Ai.

Of course, Gu Ai didn't know what was going on in the campus. It seemed to be related to him. Those eyes were like needles piercing his body. He couldn't really pretend nothing happened, but Chu Ze seemed very calm, as if he was used to this kind of thing.

"Both of them are gay."

The rumor still spread to the ears of the person involved. At that time, Chu Ze and Gu Ai walked into the school gate together, and there were two blind elementary school students beside them. Hearing this, the person who only dared to sneak a glance at them heard this sentence, and unconsciously increased the volume. In an instant, the two of them were overwhelmed by all kinds of unbearable remarks.

Chu Ze's eyes were red and he grabbed the man's collar, held back and didn't make a move, but threatened viciously, making the man tremble in fright.Chu Ze looked around coldly again, and those people immediately fell silent.

Gu Ai's face had turned pale from just now, and his mind was full of images of being humiliated by a group of people, as if history would repeat itself in the next second.

Gu Ai took a deep breath, looked at Chu Ze, and told himself secretly that everything was different, different.

Gu Ai walked forward expressionlessly, followed by Chu Ze who still had a fierce expression on his face.

The matter of Chu Ze at the school gate spread to the class earlier than them, and those people who usually disliked Chu Ze began to discuss it without any scruples.Chu Ze even spoke louder on purpose when he entered the door.

At the beginning of the incident, it was because of the photo at the sports meeting. After running 5000 meters, Chu Ze threw himself on Gu Ai's body.The girl who accidentally took this photo was very excited, and immediately called a few of her good sisters to share it, and spread it to ten, ten to hundreds. It was originally just a joke, but in the end, it became a gossip.

In high school, teenagers are the most sensitive to feelings. A little rumor will make everyone know, and a small stain will be infinitely magnified, for example, homosexuality.

What is homosexuality?In this general environment, it is equivalent to a different kind, as if Gu Ai's father was a "bad guy" back then, they are different from others, so they should be excluded, even insulted.

These kids don't yet know the consequences of their actions, they're just doing what they think is "right".

Chu Ze's face darkened, and across a class, he asked a few people sitting in a corner, "What do you mean?"

"What do you mean? Do you need to ask? You two are gay and we are not allowed to talk about it? Isn't it?"

He tried to incite others, but there were actually people responding one after another, making Chu Ze's face even darker.

Gu Ai tugged at the corner of his clothes behind him, telling him not to be impulsive, but his fingertips stretching towards Chu Ze were also trembling.Looking at Gu Ai's appearance, Chu Ze felt inexplicably distressed, but at this moment, he couldn't hold his hand, or even give him a comfort.

The scene was deadlocked, and no one spoke for a while. It was the noise of the table moving from behind that ended the embarrassment.

"Some people are ashamed if they are uneducated. If you listen to the wind, it will rain. If I say you are pregnant today, will you have to change your gender tomorrow?"

At the back of the classroom, Gao Shuai was leaning on a chair, with his long legs resting on the table, looking like he drew his sword to help when the road was uneven.

The study committee member on the side pushed his glasses, "From a medical point of view, homosexuality is a normal phenomenon. Now 23 countries and regions have recognized the legality of same-sex marriage. And spreading news without factual evidence is considered defamation. "

After the study committee member finished speaking, voices of agreement gradually began to appear. Although there were not many voices, the words were sonorous and powerful, coupled with Gao Shuai's support, they were speechless and sat back in their seats resentfully.

Chu Ze and Gu Ai also returned to their seats while everyone was watching.The whole day, the two of them didn't say a word to each other, and no one talked about it anymore, but the atmosphere was surprisingly embarrassing.

Until they went home together at night, the two didn't even have the most basic communication.

At night, in the room, Gu Ai was quietly doing his homework. Chu Ze was leaning against the bedside and holding his mobile phone, but his mind was not on it at all. With his previous experience, he felt more and more powerless, and a sense of frustration filled his chest.

Was it a mistake for him to be by his side?

Chu Ze couldn't help thinking this way, he hadn't thought about love, even when he heard other people's evaluation of them today, he didn't think about it, he just didn't want to hurt Gu Ai.

"Gu Ai, I think it's better for us to keep a little distance recently."

After thinking for a long time, Chu Ze still said what he didn't want to say.

Although Gu Ai turned his back to him, he was actually paying attention to Chu Ze's every move. When he said this, Gu Ai's heart twitched violently. For a moment, he wondered if Chu Ze found out that he liked Chu Ze. He fell in love, but in the next second he realized that Chu Ze just didn't want to be discussed by others.

"Okay, okay, I'll move out tomorrow."

Gu Ai tried his best to say these words, not letting his voice tremble, and then continued to do his homework without saying a word, making Chu Ze swallow the phrase "I'll be fine after a while" .

Chu Ze didn't expect Gu Ai to be so straightforward, but he couldn't find a reason to let him stay, so he could only watch him finish his homework and start packing his things.

Every time Gu Ai took something, Chu Ze felt that he was stabbing the hearts of the two of them.He just sat there, watching Gu Ai erase little by little traces of the two people's life together, until it finally returned to the original state of Chu Ze's house.

Gu Ai said that he would leave tomorrow, but he left after collecting the things. Chu Ze wanted to see him off, but Gu Ai smiled and said no, Chu Ze stood there in a daze, watching Gu Ai leave.

Chu Ze didn't know how long he stood at the door, but when he looked back and saw some empty rooms, he felt that something was missing in his heart, but he didn't know what was missing, so he stood stupidly for a long time.

Obviously only a few cups and a few clothes are missing, why does it seem like the whole room has been emptied?After a long time, Chu Ze realized that Gu Ai had disappeared.

It's for his own good.

Chu Ze kept telling himself that he was trying to suppress his selfish desire to bring Gu Ai back, but he couldn't convince himself when he thought of Gu Ai's smile that was uglier than crying before he left.

But I can no longer push him to the forefront.

Chu Ze knew that Gu Ai couldn't bear another campus violence, he could beat those people back, but what about after that?It will only be endless cold violence. Only by keeping an appropriate distance can this matter be completely over, and Gu Ai will have a normal life.

Hope he won't be sad for too long.

Chu Ze sat on the chair, stroked the table that Gu Ai had just used, and pondered for a long time.