Social phobia

After the sports meeting, large slogans began to be hung in the school, Hou Zhan's college entrance examination in early June.The tense atmosphere in the third year even spread to the second year, which made people feel a sense of urgency unconsciously.During the two days of the college entrance examination, the sophomores who were lucky enough to get two days off couldn't help but imagine what it would be like sitting in the examination room a year later.

"Chu Ze, what major do you want to apply for in the future?"

Gu Ai was lying on the dining table, looking at a steaming dish next to him, and remained motionless in one position for a long time.

"I don't know, I haven't thought about it."

Chu Ze brought another dish and answered without hesitation.

"what happened?"

Chu Ze held up Gu Ai's head, told him to sit up, and then gave him a pair of chopsticks.Gu Ai just shook his head, didn't say anything, and started to pick up the rice in his bowl with his head down.

Maybe everyone who is about to face the college entrance examination will have this kind of mood, confused and helpless, uneasy and fear, all kinds of feelings are intertwined, as if a boulder is pressed on the body, want to escape, but do not have the courage to really put down the boulder, want to move forward, But it was difficult.

Gu Ai is not in such a tangled mood now, but it is inevitable that he will worry about the future. He knows that his character will not be able to achieve any major events. If it is not because of Chu Ze, he may not have any thoughts, and he may be a silent person like before. People without interest can choose a university at random, choose a major at random, find a stable job, and live their lives in a mediocre or boring way.

But now, he wants to live a different life. He had no friends before, but after having Chu Ze, he no longer wants to live alone. He had no expectations for the future before, but now the future seems to be the same. Some different colors.

Gu Ai always thinks that people are animals with a lot of desires, wanting to have them when they don’t have them, and wanting more when they have them.

He wanted to be with Chu Ze, wanted to be together forever.But he also hopes that Chu Ze can have a good future.

"Haven't you thought about what you're going to do in the future?"

Gu Ai tilted his head and asked Chu Ze. Chu Ze reached out and took off the rice grains hanging from Gu Ai's mouth, and began to think about this question.

"I don't know, I don't like anything in particular, and I don't even know if I can go to university. Maybe I'll just hang out in the future. Go to junior college, or don't go to school at all, and then spend a lot of time drinking and drinking every day. If I have no money, I will find a family Yes, haha, probably like this."

Chu Ze was still joking, and the more he talked, the worse he became.

"You, you, how can you do this!"

Gu Ai puffed up his face, his face turned red with anger.Although he didn't know what he was going to do in the future, and he had even thought about it before, he felt very angry when he heard Chu Ze's self-defeating remarks.

"Hey? Don't be angry, don't cry! My mother, don't cry!"

Seeing the tears in Gu Ai's eyes, Chu Ze panicked all of a sudden, not knowing how to coax him in a hurry.In fact, Gu Ai didn't want to cry, but when he realized it, the tears had already flowed out. Gu Ai felt that he was not up to date, so he wiped away the tears vigorously as if angry, and turned his head to the other side, not looking at Chu Ze.

Chu Ze became even more panicked in an instant, wishing he could blew himself up on the spot.

"Gu Xiaoai, I was wrong, don't cry, eat, it will be cold if you don't eat any more."

However, Chu Ze didn't know why Gu Ai was crying. Apologizing was just a habit, and it really didn't have the principle of attacking!

"Humph!"

Gu Ai snatched the tissue from Chu Ze's hand, wiped away his tears and snot, then continued to eat, eating half a bowl more than usual.

After eating, Chu Ze was washing the dishes in the kitchen, glancing at Gu Ai from time to time, fearing that he would cry again, so he was cowardly.Fortunately, Gu Ai sat on the sofa and flipped through college entrance examination volunteer magazines, with a flat face.

After Chu Ze finished washing the dishes, he huddled next to Gu Ai and read magazines with him.The densely packed words on the magazine analyzed the pros and cons of various universities and majors, as well as various things that Gu Ai and Chu Ze had never thought of.

When two people look at each other professionally, they are really serious about the future.

"how about this?"

"Not very good, it's not interesting."

"what about this?"

"No future."

"This score is low."

"This major is rotten!"

……

"That's good, pilot."

Gu Ai pointed to a block of tofu in the magazine, feeling a little excited.Chu Ze glanced at it. It was the introduction of the pilot's pre-approved special recruitment. It seemed to be very suitable for his own conditions. The score requirement only needs to pass the second line, and he doesn't have to worry about finding a job after graduation. It is a good choice.

Chu Ze imagined the feeling of flying in the sky, thinking that it must be good.

Chu Ze remembered that when he was a child, he always liked to lie on the grass and look at the blue sky. Sometimes the sky was clear and clear, and sometimes it was cloudless.He likes to count the clouds in the sky, an elephant, a flower, or a car. The sky is boring but full of interest, as if it can accommodate everything.Little Chuze opened his arms, pretending that he could fly.

"I want to try it."

For the first time, Chu Ze felt yearning for the future and found something he wanted to do instead of being whipped and plowed like a cow.

"Ok!"

"You're happier than me."

Gu Ai smiled and continued to read the magazine.

"Is there anything you want to do?"

"No……"

Gu Ai pouted.

"Is there nothing you like? Isn't there something that makes you happy?"

Chu Ze tried to guide him.

"Do the questions! Just do the questions, very happy!"

How was your senior year in high school in your last life?Smile from a scumbag.

"Favorite, mathematics, every time, very happy!"

Gu Ai's eyes were a little bright, reminding Chu Ze that when Gu Ai gave him a lecture, he was meticulous and patient, with a confidence that he didn't usually have, and his whole aura was different.

"You might be—fit to be a teacher."

"What, what a joke!"

Gu Ai was startled, as if Chu Ze had said something earth-shattering.

"I'm not kidding. You are so good at math. Even I can understand the lecture questions. What's wrong? You like it anyway, don't you? Instead of studying other majors, you might as well learn what you like."

Chu Ze's tone was a little loose, which sounded very casual, but Gu Ai felt that what he said made sense.

"Look, there are many schools with good mathematics majors. After graduation, you can stay in school and become a teacher directly!"

Chu Ze enthusiastically drew up a blueprint for Gu Ai, and Gu Ai became motivated after hearing it.Gu Ai thought that in the future, he could go to a university that was closer to Chu Ze and see him every day.

Thinking about it, Gu Ai rolled his eyes with a smile.

If there is still you in the future, no matter what, it should be good.

The author has something to say: Gu Ai: Is there anything you like to do?

Chu Ze: Do, love.

Gu Ai: ...