Improvisation

After giving birth to Yu Song, for a period of time, he felt that he would not love this child who was left behind because of his selfishness, and even felt that he did not love Yu Shiyao in this dull pain like gouging out flesh for a long time—with With Yu Song's birth, his ridiculous love also ended.

When he was receiving psychological counseling at home, everyone avoided mentioning Yu Song and his father, as if time could help him forget the past year.

No one can help Jian Ran deal with this relationship with no future, but fortunately, Jian Ran broke free from the vortex of self-pain faster than anyone expected, as long as she leaves Yu Shiyao, his strange and powerful self The system is restored.

He went to school as scheduled, and went on with his life as usual—he always comforted himself with numbness.

Now when Yu Shiyao was standing in front of him, Jian Ran blinked lightly. The clips of looking through the photos sent by Yu Shiyao in the middle of the night and waiting for him to call, flashed in his heart in a hurry, like countless sleepless nights sinking into the inhuman silence.

Yu Shiyao and him looked at each other for a few seconds, as if sighing, he took a step forward and hugged him, wrapping his thin body in his arms: "Let me hug you."

He pressed on Jian Ran as if he was very tired, his gentle body temperature and resonant heartbeat, none of which gave Jian Ran unspeakable throbbing.

"I went to the hospital before, and your brother didn't let me see you, and they didn't let me see you off. When you went to school, I went to the airport, but I didn't see you."

How could Yu Shiyao be so pitiful? Jian Ran knew that he said that on purpose, but she couldn't help feeling sore and uncomfortable in her heart: "It's me who doesn't want to see you, not my brother and the others."

Yu Shiyao choked on his bluntness: "Now? Without Yu Song, you still don't want to see me? I miss you very much, every day, but I promise to give you some time."

Jian Ran didn't speak, she looked down at Yu Shiyao's hand, which was slender and vigorous, and there were still some scars on the back of the pale hand that hadn't faded away.He was distracted thinking that at that time he was patronizing himself to be sad, and he didn't ask whether Yu Shiyao's injury was serious or not, or whether it hurt.

With some difficulty, Jian Ran suppressed her true thoughts, nodded her head restrainedly, hugged Yu Shiyao back as if she was reciprocating, and then secretly smelled Yu Shiyao's body.

Yu Shiyao twitched his brows, not knowing what this hug meant, he took Jian Ran to the nursery to see Yu Song.

Yu Song's daily task, besides crying, is to sleep and breastfeed. Now that he is tired from crying, he is sleeping on the small bed, with tears in the corners of his eyes, and a small pink fist on his mouth.

Jian Ran stood outside the baby's room for a while, and wanted to leave, but Yu Shiyao pressed his shoulders and whispered in his ear, "He only makes trouble at night, and he sleeps well during the day, so he won't be noisy now." Him. Go and see, he lost his temper just now and scratched his face. "

Jian Ran was dubious, and saw that there was indeed a red scratch on Yu Song's white and tender face.

"He wanted to hit me and caught himself." Yu Shiyao was quite proud.

Jian Ran checked it herself, and the child at this time didn't have much strength and consciousness, and was not as clever as Yu Shiyao said, but he still wanted to laugh.

In front of the confinement wife before, he was still a restrained stranger, and all the feelings he should have were strictly hidden.

Now that Yu Shiyao is sticking behind him, his body temperature and voice pried open the confinement box in Jian Ran's heart, as if a dull feeling was awakened by Yu Shiyao's few words, now he couldn't move his eyes when looking at Yu Song, suddenly Tears flowed silently.

At the beginning, he didn't want to see Yu Song himself, and chose to give up in the contradiction and pain of self-positioning, but now he seems to know guilt and discomfort.

Jian Ran's sudden tears seemed to burn Yu Shiyao's heart.

He knew what Jian Ran was thinking, and along Jian Ran's trembling back, comforted him softly in his ear: "Don't be sad, you have to go to school, no one blames you, and he can't blame you for working so hard before."

If you want to blame, you can only blame Yu Shiyao himself for not giving Jianran any time before, just blindly forcing Jianran to go on according to his ideas, without carefully thinking about what kind of mood Jianran will be facing him.

Jian Ran has seen him hugging others, and he has also ignored him. He heard the promises he made, all of them were shackles, and every word was killing Jian Ran's feelings for him.

Jian Ran restrained her sobs a few times, and said, "No, the doctor said before that I hope I don't miss you."

Yu Shiyao's heart tightened: "What doctor?"

It was all over a month ago.

Jian Ran was able to read books by herself to relieve stress, prevent depression, and quickly get out of abnormal emotions.

"It's okay, it's all over." Jian Ran couldn't control her tears as she said, he was always in such a mess in front of Yu Shiyao.

He also thought before that he could face this relationship calmly, even with ease like Yu Shiyao.

Just no progress.

He leaned on Yu Shiyao's shoulder with some self-abandonment, turned his head to look at Yu Song, and shed tears silently.

Yu Shiyao was still coaxing this ancestor, and the other ancestor who was recharging his energy also woke up at this time - as if he was disturbed by two irresponsible adults, his thin eyebrows frowned first, and he began to cry with strength.

Jian Ran had never seen Yu Song like this before, her arms and legs seemed to be exerting all her strength, and her face was flushed from holding back.Seeing that he was at a loss, Yu Shiyao felt helpless and distressed, hugged Yu Song and leaned over to kiss Jian Ran's forehead, saying: "He's scolding me, it will be fine in a while, don't be afraid."

Jian Ran stood aside, watching Yu Shiyao coaxing Yu Song with ease.

Fortunately, Yu Song soon stopped crying in Yu Shiyao's arms, and only had a pitiful face with wet eyes.

"Look, does he look a lot like you? He's very good-looking."

With red eyes, Jian Ran touched the soft little fist with her fingers, and whispered, "It's not like it at all."

"Yes, the eyes are exactly the same as yours. Every time I want to beat him, I can't help seeing his eyes. It's so pitiful to cry."

Jian Ran used to be a little bit uncontrollable towards Yu Shiyao. When she was sad, she would burst into tears. Later, she didn't want Yu Shiyao to cry because of this pity for him.

Hearing what Yu Shiyao said now, he was a little at a loss, squeezed the palm of his hand, and let out a dry "oh".

Looking from below, Yu Shiyao could still see his wet eyelashes, and his son's face also looked pitiful and cute.

Yu Song's position in the family is very strange. When his mother came back, he seemed like a golden bump in his father's hands. Everything related to him had to be confirmed by Yu Shiyao himself. If he didn't have time, it must be Yu Shiyao who took care of him himself. .

After his mother came back, he was like the "little soldier" who raised soldiers for thousands of days. His biological father involuntarily pushed him onto the battlefield of parental relationship, acting as a bait and a fat soldier.

Yu Shiyao taught Jian Ran how to take care of Yu Song, and silently helped Jian Ran make up for his apology to Yu Song.

Yu Song is as soft as a ball of fluffy cotton, and under Jian Ran's careful movements, he would laugh from time to time, revealing his tender gums.

He is not at all like Jian Ran, as if he knew how to please people by nature, making Jian Ran feel more and more unable to let go of Yu Song from the joy accompanied by the subtle pain.

When Yu Song was sleeping in his arms, he seemed to have returned to the time when he was taking tuition in Angrui. He took care of Yu Song who was still in the stomach so carefully. At that time, he said in a low voice: "You want Obedient, I will love you very much in the future."

Now he gently put Yu Song's little hand on his face, with late and clumsy emotions in his eyes, very lightly, like a sigh: "I'm sorry."

When Yu Shiyao gently opened the door, he saw Jian Ran curled up on the bed, Yu Song lying beside him with his eyes open, holding a strand of hair with his small hand.

The son was not raised in vain.

Yu Shiyao glanced at Yu Song, and then put his eyes on Jian Ran. His eyes were not as restrained as before, and he carefully looked at Jian Ran who seemed to have not seen him for a long time - he had quickly lost weight from the swelling caused by pregnancy. , pointy jaw, and skinny wrist bones, all seem to have just suffered a serious illness.

Yu Shiyao didn't know what doctor Jian Ran was talking about before, so his brows frowned slightly.

At that time, the Chen family hid Jian Ran tightly, which should also have something to do with Jian Ran's poor condition.

These all happened in places that Yu Shiyao didn't know about. Like all the previous things, they were all digested by Jian Ran alone, and became something that wasn't worth telling Yu Shiyao.

The only difference is that Jian Ran will not pick up her confidence and courage to face him again and again as before.

Yu Shiyao went to the other side and pulled Jianran's hair out from Yu Song's hand. Yu Song was grabbing soft and fun things by instinct, and was robbed of everything. Pick it up, and be comforted quickly in the stable and familiar embrace.

Then he was carried out by Yu Shiyao and handed over to the nanny who took care of him. Before Yu Song could recover from this deception, the person who carried him changed, and even the door of the room where he slept was closed.

Just as Yu Shiyao lay back on the bed, Jian Ran's thin arms wrapped around his waist and leaned on his shoulder.

Yu Shiyao froze for a moment, and didn't think about what Jian Ran was trying to express by doing this. He immediately hugged him, and smelled the faint milky fragrance on Jian Ran's body - it was strange to say that Yu Shiyao had been with Yu Song for so long, and his body There is no such smell left by Jian Ran all afternoon.

Fragrant and soft feeling.

When Yu Shiyao was distracted, Jian Ran had difficulty considering what she wanted to say.

He woke up when Yu Shiyao came in, and he knew that he stood aside and looked at him for a long time, which reminded him of the night when he told Yu Shiyao that he didn't like him, Yu Shiyao went out and came in again, sitting by the bed as if silent all night.

When Jian Ran understood the meaning of these silences, when he recalled these memories and what he did to test Yu Shiyao before, he felt very uncomfortable.

He wanted to tell Yu Shiyao that he wasn't that sensitive or vulnerable. He had done so much and his goal hadn't changed from the beginning, he just wanted a Yu Shiyao.

The only thing that slandered him was Yu Shiyao's concealed sincerity.

He didn't want to see Yu Shiyao before, but he felt that Yu Shiyao would not love him, and he was just Yu Shiyao's trouble. Yu Shiyao had so many reasons to continue being with him, but he didn't have a "like" that Jian Ran wanted.

But it was Jian Ran who wanted to be with him, and because of all kinds of fears and worries, he ran away halfway, and Yu Shiyao was caught off guard.

Even though Jian Ran knew that it was not Yu Shiyao's fault, Yu Shiyao still took the blame for Jian Ran's immature mistakes. Those accusations and responsibilities were imposed on him by Jian Ran.

He really wanted to tell Yu Shiyao all this, but he didn't know how to speak, so he was bored for a while and said, "Yu Shiyao, I'm sorry."

Yu Shiyao didn't know what Jian Ran came up with after two months of thinking, but when he heard Jian Ran say this suddenly, his heart was half cold, almost like a sequela. Thinking of the previous few times, Jian Ran gave him a little sweetness, and said in the next second Say "that's it for us".

"I always make a mess of things, and I always let you accommodate me. I said that I don't blame you for what happened before. You are still guilty. I will feel very uncomfortable seeing you so tired."

What Yu Shiyao wanted to say was stopped by the sudden warmth in his chest, Jian Ran grabbed his clothes, crying more pitifully than Yu Song, and so quiet.

None of the ten Yu Songs cried so much that Yu Shiyao panicked. He followed Jian Ran's tense back and said, "I didn't feel tired, and I didn't do this because of guilt. You can't just let you pay by yourself. , if I don't try harder, you really don't want us anymore, right?"

Jane shook her head: "You are very nice. I'm afraid you won't like me, and I'm afraid you'll lie to me. I know it's wrong, especially when you've already made changes. "

He was frightened, and things that he hadn't considered before pressed him one after another, making him retreat in this fragile relationship and keep trying.

But when he is not as brave as before, why should he exchange Yu Shiyao's stingy sincerity?

"I will pursue you again, and with the right method, I will be more mature than before. You are as serious as you are now, okay?"

Yu Shiyao has always known what kind of relationship he is facing, and now he is still pierced in the heart by Jian Ran in an instant. The feelings that Jian Ran gave him made his chest swell and hurt, and Jian Ran in his arms became the closest thing in his heart. Soft and least fortified ribs.

Yu Shiyao moved his aching eyes, and said in a deep voice, "Okay."

To be honest, when Yu Shiyao calmed down amidst the complex emotions of being moved, he felt a little regretful.

After the child is born, it is really inappropriate for him to fall in love again.

If Jian Ran agrees, he can take his son to Jian Ran's school place to accompany others, but his reason tells him that if he needs to give Jian Ran time, he should also give time to solve certain problems.

Fortunately, there are still seven days of long vacation.

So when Jian Ran said that she was going to leave the next day, Yu Shiyao's eyes changed, and his fingers on the keyboard stopped, saying that he would go back to Chen's house with Jian Ran.

As long as Jian Ran lets go, there is no problem with the Chen family, and he has a way to make the Chen family accept him.

No matter how bad it is, there is still a Yu Song that can be used.

Jian Ran half-knelt on the ground, her back protruding from the soft fabric, her untied black hair scattered on her back, holding a toy to train Yu Song's sense of light and color in her hand, watching Yu Song follow his thin fingers with a little smile Turning his eyes: "I won't go back, brother and the others know that I'm here to look for you, I told them yesterday, but they didn't say anything." At the beginning, Jian Ran was in a bad state of mind and had never seen Yu Song, so Chen Yan comforted himself. Then just to see my son.

Yu Shiyao raised his eyebrows and said, "What's wrong with the school?"

He didn't receive any temporary tasks from Jian Ran's experimental team.

Hearing Jian Ran explain that she promised her classmates to go out to see some simulators together, Yu Shiyao took the computer away from his lap, walked over and said, "Who? Your new friend?"

Although he has been paying attention to Jian Ran's academic affairs, he really doesn't know what friends he made at school.

"I met you before."

Yu Shiyao has a good memory, especially some things he wants to remember. Hearing what Jian Ran said, he thought of the one who Jian Ran posted cute emojis on WeChat before.

"I asked you which major you chose before? Are you a major?"

"In the same department." If Jian Ran had chosen to go to the youth training camp during the summer vacation of her second year of high school, she would have been in the same class as Gu Jun, and of course she couldn't be with Yu Shiyao.

Yu Shiyao squinted his eyes, sat beside Jian Ran, wrapped his fingers around his hair, and asked a few more questions, knowing that he was going alone with that boy named Gu Jun, his fingers with black hair paused slightly.

Jian Ran said seriously: "You were right in wanting me to make more friends before. I'm also working hard to make friends in the new school."

Although the only thing he tried to maintain was the friendship with Gu Jun, it was still a little bit of progress.

"You don't have to change anything, and that's fine."

He turned his head to look at Yu Shiyao, and Yu Shiyao, who was already very close, pressed his forehead against him and said, "I'll go with you."

Although Jian Ran is emotionally clumsy, she is not slow, and even some nerves are delicate and sensitive, especially able to capture Yu Shiyao's emotions about herself.

He suddenly said dryly: "How old are you now, you can't just look at me alone, you have to have your own world, if there is something more suitable for you, even going abroad is okay, you have to think about yourself."

Yu Shiyao stared at Jian Ran's expressionless face for half a second and realized that this was a sentence he had said to Jian Ran before, which he remembered exactly.

Stuck for a few seconds, his tongue touched his lips, and Yu Shiyao pressed his narrow eyes: "Is this your attitude of chasing people?"

Yu Song, who had been staring at the toy in Jian Ran's hand, waited for a long time without seeing the thing move, and finally realized that he had been forgotten, and cried "wow" when Yu Shiyao was on the side releasing his charm.

Gee.

Yu Shiyao's chest rose and fell, and he let go of Jian Ran to hug his son.

Jian Ran still didn't dare to hug Yu Song who was crying, and carefully patted his arm a few times, but she didn't know what to do. Yu Shiyao had no patience with Yu Song, and just wanted to hug him to the nanny, and continue with Jian Ran topic of.

But Jane looked at him eagerly.

When Yu Song stopped crying, Jian Ran reached out to take her son, but she didn't ignore Yu Shiyao, and said, "I remember that you will be very busy on your birthday, and I don't want to waste your time."

Although some necessary entertainment is indispensable, as long as he doesn't want to, others can't make it up.

But Yu Shiyao didn't want to say that, he looked at one big and one small, and said, "It will be very busy, many people are looking for me."

Jian Ran and Yu Song looked at each other, feeling weak for a while, and said seriously: "Well, then I'll take him away, you can do your work."

Yu Shiyao stood aside and even began to suspect that his previous sugar-coated shells were just to take Yu Song away.

Jian Ran didn't notice Yu Shiyao's uncertain expression, and looked at Yu Song's aggrieved and tearful eyes, and said in a somewhat unfamiliar tone: "Piggy, do you want to come with me?"

Yu Shiyao didn't even care about the name Jian Ran gave Yu Song, and said, "Hiss, you're still in school, where are you taking him?"

Jian Ran didn't plan to bring Yu Song to find Gu Jun, but she was a little bit reluctant.

When going down to the airport, Yu Shiyao noticed that Jian Ran hadn't prepared anything, so he brought his documents, not even a bag.

Jian Ran said that she just came back to take a look, but she didn't bring anything back.

If Yu Shiyao didn't call him, he might just take a peek at Yu Song, and then continue to do what he should do.

Now is not the time to correct his bad habit, Yu Shiyao noticed another question: "What about your other things?"

"Gu Jun took it directly for me."

Jian Ran was about to get out of the car, but found that the door was locked, and looked back at Yu Shiyao.

In fact, he still didn't know what to do with Yu Shiyao. When Yu Song was around, he could tease Yu Song and peek at Yu Shiyao at the same time. Now that they were alone, he was a little embarrassed.

Yu Shiyao leaned over, put one hand on the back of the chair behind him, and said, "Just leave like this, it's not appropriate."

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