To my dear Mr. Meng

I met his father at Wen Zhuo's house.

I don't know why, but I think he is almost the same as Meng Qiansheng's father.

He asked me who I was and what I was here for, and I said I was here to pick up something, but he said arrogantly that it was impossible for me to give me either a house or a car, and told me not to be delusional.I just packed the blankets and other gadgets used by Wen Baorong. He asked what those were, and I said they were Wen Zhuo's cats, which had been given to me, and he had no right to take them back.

He said lightly, you can take it away anyway, it is garbage to be thrown anyway.

I asked when Wen Zhuo's funeral was, and he seemed to have heard something inconceivable, saying that it was impossible to hold a funeral for him.He was useless, didn't even have a serious job, and committed suicide, what face would I have to hold a funeral for him?

I walked out without looking back.

Thinking that this was the last time I came here, it was snowing outside, but no one asked me to drink with me anymore.

When I was on vacation after the new year, I suddenly developed a high fever in the middle of the night, and my throat hurt so bad that I had to gasp for words.Meng Qiansheng took me to the emergency room overnight. The hospital took my temperature to [-] degrees, but the water didn't come down, so I was given two antipyretic injections.Meng Qiansheng said that it must be because I have been running outside in the snow for the past few days. I wanted to agree with him, but I couldn't speak, so I nodded.

He has been too busy these two days. He has to go to the company to apply for a job, he has to take care of me in the hospital, and he has to go home at noon to feed the cat. A few times he was late, and Wen Baorong was so hungry that he meowed, and the food bowl was brought home At the door, circle around him.I asked Lao Zhou for leave, and he came to see me in person, holding a bouquet of lilies. I was so flattered that I almost thought he wanted unspoken rules in the workplace.Seeing that I couldn't speak, he smiled and said, "I haven't made you tired yet, why are you so sick? You can't do it with such a small body."

I nodded like pecking rice.

He put Lily on the bedside table and said, "My mother-in-law is also hospitalized in this hospital, so I will stop by to see you."

I typed it on the screen of my mobile phone and showed it to him: "Mr. Zhou, in fact, these flowers are left over from your mother-in-law."

Lao Zhou made a haha, saying he will recover soon, and I still have something to do.

I can’t eat anything, let alone the box lunch in the hospital. Meng Qiansheng cooks porridge and sends it to the hospital every day, red bean barley porridge, walnut black rice porridge, mushroom and lean meat porridge. I can’t eat it for three days. , As soon as I saw him take out the porridge, I subconsciously wanted to vomit.

He smiled and said, "Don't put on such an expression, I'll take you to the restaurant when you're done." He sat down beside my bed, and kissed my left hand where the needle was inserted, "Why do I think you've been sick for a few days? Thin."

I said hoarsely, "I was starved and skinny by you."

He laughed and said I was talking nonsense.

After staying for three days, he was discharged from the hospital and went home to raise him.After dinner, I lay on the bed and read a book. I don’t know when I fell asleep. When I woke up, I was sweating all over. I lay down well. It was already dark outside. Meng Qiansheng sat on the small sofa and watched the computer. On the arm of the sofa next to him.The lamp was so close that it shone brightly on his face, and the hair on his temples was as white as frost.

I was startled for no reason and blurted out to call him.

He raised his head in response, closed the computer, sat down on the edge of the bed, and touched my forehead: "I sweated a lot."

"what time is it?"

"It's past ten o'clock." He asked, "You were coughing two nights ago, but you didn't cough much just now. Have you slept well? Get up and take a shower before going to bed."

I stared at his black temples, and couldn't help saying: "I thought just now..."

"what?"

"Nothing." I smiled, "I was wrong."

After I came out of the shower, I couldn't sleep again, and Meng Qiansheng was lying on the bed discussing with me about buying a house.The new real estate near the third ring road has a lot of greenery. What he likes is the atrium, a large apartment of 180 square meters, quiet, and good lighting.I coughed twice and asked, "Why buy such a big one?"

He said naturally, "Let's live together, plus Wen Baorong."

I hesitated for a while and asked, "Do you want to raise it? I mean, it might not be convenient..."

He looked into my eyes, waited for a while, but didn't wait for the next sentence, so he said: "I want to adopt it. Can I?"

I was stunned and realized: "Yes. Thank you."

"Thank me for what?"

"After all, my friend left it behind. I think you may have agreed because of me. Taking care of small animals is troublesome and expensive."

"I can't even afford this amount of money, and I'm just thinking about finance for nothing." He said in a light tone, teasing, "Besides, don't you know if I like animals or not?"

I thought about it for a while, and after thinking about it, I couldn't help laughing: "I know what a fart! You are so annoying."

He smiled and came up to kiss me.I didn't dodge, and said angrily, "Contagion!"

He called out to me and held my face, forcing me to stare straight at him.After a long silence, he said, "I'm sorry about your friend. I haven't said anything about it, for fear that it will hurt you."

I said softly, "I know."

"It sounds selfish, but I really don't want to see this kind of thing happen to you." He said, "I hope you can live well, not just for me. I've always wanted to say that to you, and I’m afraid that speaking out will make you feel too much pressure. I don’t want you to feel that you are living your life just to make others feel bad, so you force yourself to live.”

"I know."

"You have always been brave." He pressed against my forehead, "Brave than me. I envy you."

I couldn't help but smiled: "Don't praise me. I don't have any skills. I can't play a good hand of cards."

He kissed me and said with a smile, "Nonsense."

The snow is gradually receding, and occasionally it clears up, and the sun can shine on the living room floor.Wen Baorong lay peacefully on top of the two warm golden shadows, the ends of his smoky black fur shone like gold dust, and sometimes he turned his belly out for me to comb.As soon as 06:30, it was about to go to the door, squatting there, and soon heard the sound of Meng Qiansheng's key opening the door.

Meng Qiansheng came back from get off work and told me about going abroad.I asked: "Didn't you say that you will go abroad at the end of the year?"

"It's ahead of time." He was also a little embarrassed, "I have to leave in May or June at the latest."

"Wouldn't it be better to settle down on the house as soon as possible? I'm still busy with furnishing." I said, "I've also thought about buying a car. I don't usually go to work. The section of the overpass is jammed every day. I still have to drive to work." It’s troublesome to go out 10 minutes early. Just buy one, and buy a better one.”

Meng Qiansheng had no objection, so it was decided.

The full payment for buying a house, I joked that you will be worth millions in just a few years, he transferred the online bank account to me, and said that he had discussed with Wei Qiao to buy futures for a period of time.I asked him why he didn't continue to speculate, and he said: "My heart can't bear it. Every day I dream that I lose nothing."

I laughed and fell on the sofa.

Because of Meng Qiansheng’s big head when buying a house, when I bought a car, I took out all the more than 40 that I bought for financial management in one go, made up a little change, and chose an A6.When picking up the car, I told Meng Qiansheng: "According to statistics, the A6 is the car with the highest vibration rate."

Meng Qian pursed his lips and smiled for a long time, and said, "Is this why you like it?"

I said frankly: "Yes."

He laughed so hard he couldn't speak.

Not long after buying the car, Meng Qiansheng put a thick blanket on the back seat, which became Wen Baorong's special seat when going out.That day we went to see the renovation and brought Wen Baorong with us. Meng Qian said in a low voice, "Remember to buy chicken breast for Wen Baorong on the way back."

I joked: "You just remember it, do you remember what I want?"

He smiled and said: "You promised not to drink alcohol this year, and when I come back at the end of the year, I will bring you a good bottle."

"If you don't bring it later, I won't give you the keys to the new house." I turned to look at the big cat in the back seat, "If Wen Baorong scratches randomly, I'll be the first to throw it out."

Meng Qiansheng glanced in the rearview mirror and said with a smile, "Wen Baorong doesn't make trouble, does he?"

When Wen Baorong heard it being called, he raised his head, shook his tail, and meowed lazily.

The car was a bit stuffy, I lowered the window, the sun like clouds and the wind dyed blue by the clear sky all came in, blowing my mind clean, I didn't think about anything, only the endless road ahead.

This is everything I have done with Meng Qiansheng for 29 years.

Meng Qiansheng came back for a week, we picked out furniture for a few days, and it was time to leave again.I took him to the airport, and before he got out of the car, he said, "Bring you wine at Christmas."

I laughed and said, "You have a really good memory. You still remember it after half a year. I'll celebrate your birthday with you when you come back."

He hugged me and pushed the door to get out of the car.

It didn't turn out to be a birthday.Due to the continuous bad weather, the flight was either delayed or canceled. By the time the plane landed, it was already the night of the 26th.Guan Ting just came back from Singapore to see her father, and shook her head: "Meng Qiansheng is too miserable, at least he turned 30, and his birthday was spent alone at the airport under a snowstorm."

I looked down at the time on my phone and said with emotion, "Maybe Cowherd and Weaver Girl are in this mood."

Guan Ting laughed and suddenly pushed me: "Your Weaver Girl has come out."

Because I was preparing to move, the house was a mess, and many things were packed and piled up in the living room.Wen Baorong seemed to know that he was heavy, and he didn't like to climb to places that were too high. Half-height cardboard boxes became his favorite, and he jumped up and down all day long. Once a cardboard box was not full and was dented by him.Guan Ting screamed in fright when he saw it for the first time, but now he loves it so much that he buys canned food for it every time he comes to my house, and hugs him first when he enters the door.Wen Baorong knew that she liked him. As soon as Guan Ting said "Wen Baorong, hug", it stood up, put its two front paws on Guan Ting's shoulders, and hugged her like a human.It already weighed eighteen catties and was still growing. No one would want to lift it unless it was absolutely necessary.

It began to snow again at the end of the year. I went to the pet hospital to pick up Meng Qiansheng and Wen Baorong. Today is the day for his physical examination.Sitting in the car was really boring, so I opened WeChat and looked around.

In the past two years, WeChat has become popular, high school classmates and college classmates have popped up all at once, and it is full of enthusiasm all day long.Guan Ting said to me, can you be more serious about it?Not even an avatar.I took a picture of Zhang Wen Baorong's big, fluffy tail and set it up as a profile picture. She called it cute and excitedly wanted to make a video call with it.

In the group of high school classmates, the boys talked about politics, the stock market, and who became the boss and bought a big villa; the girls talked about the children, the tutors, and who married a husband with a luxury car. Xu Miao was discussing this with the two of them. During the two-year financial crisis, he said: "You must ask our high-achieving students about the financial and stock markets. He is an expert." He named Meng Qiansheng, "I just bought ×× shares yesterday, and someone on the Internet said that a policy was introduced... "

The group of college classmates suddenly became lively. I clicked on it, and someone pushed a news, saying: "Congratulations to Professor Cha Pengyi for being awarded the honorary title of Changjiang Scholar!"

Countless "Congratulations", "Professor Zha is amazing", "Honor of the Faculty of Arts" flashed before my eyes.Suddenly, I saw an article saying: "I remember that he sexually assaulted female students?"

No one answered, and this line was quickly drowned in the overwhelming congratulations.

I typed a few words, but after a long time, Guan Ting's message popped up again: "I'm so mad, I just came out of the hospital, and Xiao Chen's husband was beaten into the hospital."

I was taken aback and quickly asked, "Is it serious? What's going on?"

"It's out of danger. Didn't the news say a few days ago that a male student hanged himself, and the suicide note said that because he was harassed by the teacher, the school threatened him not to speak out? Xiao Chen's husband couldn't see it, so he provided legal aid, free of charge. Helped the male student's family with a lawsuit, but was beaten by a group of people on the way back from school today, and his head was covered in blood. Fuck, what kind of world is this?"

I comforted her a few words, and a little emotion that I hadn't wanted for a long time surged in my heart.

The unsent draft was still saved in the dialog box of the university group, I clicked on it again, looked at it again, and sent it out.

"The morality of the teacher is corrupt, and he deserves it."

Then quit the group chat.

The group of high school classmates was still talking, Meng Qiansheng replied to Xu Miao, saying that the market is really bad, and suggested that they should liquidate their positions and get out as soon as possible. Ahh, the loan, you are urged to come every month, if you don’t speculate, you will starve to death?” Everyone joked, saying that the middle class has a lot of money, but they are always anxious and panic. We only have these two in our pockets, so we are not afraid.

Meng Qiansheng didn't speak any more.

Life is still moving forward, I sometimes think of Wen Zhuo, I don’t know which one is the real brave, me or him.Meng Qiansheng said that toleration is not the same as acceptance, and toleration is a silent struggle.I ask, do you endure life or accept life?He didn't answer, just smiled at me.

On the last day of the Gregorian calendar, Meng Qiansheng and I went to see a movie.There is nothing new about a hero saving the world, but the two little girls sitting next to her were moved to tears by the love between the protagonists.On the way home, I asked Meng Qiansheng: "If you don't succeed in saving the world, aren't you considered a hero?"

Meng Qiansheng covered the scarf tightly for me, stared into my eyes, and said with a smile: "I don't know if he is a hero, but if he is willing to do it knowing that he has failed, he may be braver than a hero."

I suddenly remembered my birthday a few days ago.

Guan Ting gave us a set of champagne glasses, but I couldn't think of any toast words when opening the wine.Guan Ting said that it should be more simple, and I wish you two a long time.Under the light, Meng Qian shook the glass in his hand and said, "Today is your birthday. I respect He Yujun."

— respect myself.

This world may not be just and flawless, love is secular, and it is hard to find a lover with interlinked souls. I don't think everything has much meaning.What is meaning and who defines meaning may be nonsense in itself.I don't force myself to smile for someone, I'm not a character with a bright future in the script, even though I only have a mediocre life, it doesn't stop me from going on.

As long as I am still alive, I am willing to live bravely.

The author says:

Meng Qiansheng's vacation in the second half was followed by Chapter 9 on the timeline.The full text timeline is now-memories-now.

It’s over here, there will be extras in the next few days (don’t abandon me for now), the idea of ​​the story and the inspiration of the characters will also be explained in the postscript, thank you for your continued support~

Weibo@航航戴林间, welcome to exchange thoughts, it’s best to give suggestions, and it’s okay for all kinds of dissatisfaction to come to me (I will reply hahaha).It's finally over, can I get a long review?