like the abyss

Lu Yuan drove around the neighborhood twice, calmed down, and then made a reservation for Qin Suzheng's house.

He is not 5 years old, not 15 years old, he is 25 years old.In the past few years, I have seen all the bad things in the news. The words naivety and fantasy have nothing to do with him. Lu Yuan drove the car and thought, what happened to the fragile emotions just now is really inexplicable. Maybe Qin Suzheng is too good, so give The subconscious self chose to rely on it-this is ridiculous.

Qin Suzheng lives in a high-rise near the CBD.Lu Yuan opened the door with the password and dialed Qin Suzheng's video.Qin Suzheng should have just come out of the bathroom. His hair, which was neatly combed during the day, was loose and dripping water. The water dripped across his protruding collarbone and sank into the pajamas on his chest.

Lu Yuan didn't remind him to wipe his hair with a towel, in fact, he was dying of cold now.He was in a hurry to go out and didn't wear a coat. Qin Suzheng's house was different from his house in that he didn't turn on the floor heating regularly.The cold air spread from the floor, and Lu Yuan's teeth were shaking.

He turned the camera to the rear and asked Qin Suzheng to pick out the clothes to bring.

Qin Suzheng was not polite.Lu Yuan packed the clothes he wanted in the box, thinking that Qin Suzheng might be relying on him.

It was nearly 11 o'clock in the evening when I got home.Qin Suzheng sat on the sofa waiting for him, his hair half dry.Lu Yuan brought out the packed rice porridge in a bowl, and took out the hair dryer from under the washstand and gave it to him.

Qin Suzheng squinted at him and refused to answer: "Hand hurts."

Lu Yuan took a deep breath, it really depends on him.He wanted to ask his self two hours ago which nerve was wrong to bring him back.

He threw the hair dryer on the sofa, compromised: "Then you eat first."

He took his house clothes and went to wash up.There was still steam in the bathroom, and the mirror was still foggy.It was the same shower gel, but Lu Yuan seemed to smell something else—the cold tobacco smell from Qin Suzheng's body.

When he cleaned up, Qin Suzheng had already finished eating, so he consciously put the bowl in the dishwasher, sat on the sofa and waited for him to come out.This is what Lu Yuan saw when he came out.Qin Suzheng stared at the bathroom door with scorching eyes, looking expectant, looking rather cute in contrast.

Lu Yuan picked up the hairdryer and dried it for him.Qin Suzheng's hair was very stiff, his temples were flattened, and his fingers felt numb when he brushed it.It was Lu Yuan's first time blowing someone's hair, and he didn't know what strength was appropriate, so he could only try to be as light as possible.After blowing for a while, it felt almost dry, so Lu Yuan stopped the blower and tried it with the heel of his palm.He was about to take his hand away when he suddenly felt pulled, and Qin Suzheng's hot hand wrapped around his wrist.

Qin Suzheng's eyes were a little dark, and he grabbed his hand and touched it down.Lu Yuan's skin is very thin, his hands are very soft, his phalanges are covered with a thin layer of flesh, so thin that the blue blood vessels underneath can be seen through the skin, the translucent texture is like polished jade.Qin Suzheng was aroused by his soft movement when he was blowing his hair just now, and decided that action is worse than heartbeat, and he needs him to help him now.

Lu Yuan looked at his pale lips and felt amused, thinking that he looked like a serious person but he was actually a pervert, so he pulled out his hand and coaxed him: "We'll talk about it when your hands don't hurt."

Qin Suzheng immediately refuted him: "Those who have been given anesthesia, it doesn't hurt anymore."

Lu Yuan didn't speak, just looked at him and smiled.

Qin Suzheng thought of the excuse he had given Lu Yuan to blow-dry his hair 10 minutes ago, and his face hurt badly.

Lu Yuan drove Qin Suzheng to bed, took cigarettes and ashtray to the balcony and called Zuo Li.

Zuo Li listened to the recording and roughly understood what happened in the afternoon.Lu Yuan told him again in detail.

Zuo Li remained silent.

Lu Yuan lit a cigarette and took a puff.He opened the window a little, and the cold wind threw the smoke in his face.

Squeezing a cigarette, he tapped it lightly on the edge of the ashtray, afraid of disturbing Qin Suzheng, Lu Yuan said in a low voice, "Brother Li, we can still dig this thing."

Zuo Li's voice was lower, and he sounded a little fluttering: "This is enough now." He suddenly became anxious, and spoke very fast, as if he had typed many times, or he was afraid that he would regret it if he said it slowly, "Enough is enough." It’s too dangerous to investigate further, they’ve been here for a long time, you and I don’t know how much energy they have, there are only two of us, it’s too dangerous.”

Lu Yuan repeated his words: "It's too dangerous."

Zuo Lixiang was irritated, and his voice became louder: "Do you think everyone is like you! I still have a wife and children to raise!" After a pause, he felt that this was inappropriate, and his voice lowered again, " Xiao Lu, I... have to change careers."

Lu Yuan put out the cigarette butt in the ashtray, put the phone on the windowsill, lit a new one, and picked up the phone again.

Zuo Lixiang was explaining: "...a lot of people have left the agency recently, I thought I would take this opportunity to mention it to the editor-in-chief."

Lu Yuan didn't say anything.Zuo Li knew he was listening: "You know, what we do, the salary is so little. Two days ago, your sister-in-law told me that Dad was sick and almost had money...I owe your sister-in-law too much these years , the parents on both sides are taken care of by her, and she usually takes care of Yunyun, and your sister-in-law is also paying the mortgage..." Zuo Li sniffed, "Stop talking, the more I talk, the more I feel that I am not a man."

Lu Yuan asked, "How much is the difference?"

Zuo Li didn't understand: "How much?"

Lu Yuan added: "Uncle, how much is the difference between seeing a doctor?"

Zuo Li seemed to laugh: "Your sister-in-law borrowed some from someone, that's enough."

Both sides were silent for a while, Zuo Li continued: "There will be no results if we dig this matter. Do you still remember the matter of Tang Xu?"

Of course Lu Yuan remembered.That was the first news he had with Zuo Lipao when he first entered the industry.Zuo Li found information from the railway police that Tang Xu Logistics used containers to transport coal.He and Lu Yuan checked all the relevant laws and administrative regulations, and the General Railway clearly stipulates that coal is a prohibited item in China Railway Containers and self-provided containers.Zuo Li guessed that Tang Xu's background was inside the system, and led him to avoid the system, and searched from the transportation company.They quietly touched a freight yard of Tang Xu, went around, walked through the drain and turned in, took a good photo, and went deep tentatively, but was spotted by the guard dogs and fled.After the manuscript was released, Tang Xu was investigated for a period of time, but soon, the iron boss issued new regulations, and coal was withdrawn from the list of prohibited items.

Tang Xu was safe and sound.Lu Yuan remembered that on the night when the new regulations were released, Zuo Li got drunk in the living room of Lu Yuan's house.Lu Yuan had just entered the industry at that time, so he was only curious about these things, and he was also a little bit angry at the inaction of public institutions.Thinking about it now, maybe Zuo Li was disappointed from that incident.

Zuo Li knew he still remembered: "Last night I thought about it all night and searched Tang Xu's news. They were investigated again, but it wasn't the Iron Boss, but the Securities Regulatory Commission. They were fined 55 times for manipulating new shares with multiple accounts and huge leverage. Billion. The more I think about it, the more I feel bad, what do you mean by doing these things?"

Lu Yuan thought for a while and replied, "You said, 'I'm not like you, I'm aboveboard'."

This is Zuo Li's favorite line.Lu Yuan still remembers the way Zuo Li told him these words in high spirits when he first entered the industry.

Zuo Li sighed deeply: "How much is ideal worth?"

It was silent again.Lu Yuan didn't know when Zuo Li hung up the phone, he put the phone away, his hands were a little stiff from the cold wind.

This day's emotional ups and downs, Lu Yuan felt that his mind went blank, and he just wanted to sleep now.

Qin Suzheng was already asleep.Lu Yuan opened a corner and got in, the bed was hot from Qin Suzheng's sleep.

Lu Yuan closed his eyes and leaned against him.Qin Suzheng wrapped his arms around his waist and embraced him.

Lu Yuan thought, Qin Suzheng is really warm.