Yesterday was like Death

The recording of the first episode of "Big Brand Farmhouse Music" ended, everyone disbanded on the spot, and we will meet again next time.

I didn't tell Xi Zonghe clearly about the child, and I really couldn't find a chance to talk properly, so I had to return with a feather.

The first year of Xi Zonghe's leg injury, and not long after I signed the contract with him, a man once came to the hospital to see him. He was in his 30s, and he was somewhat similar to Xi Zonghe in facial features, and he was clearly from the same family.

That day I happened to go to the hospital to see Xi Zonghe with a bouquet of sunflowers. As soon as I walked to the door of the ward, I heard a not-so-peaceful conversation between the two inside.

"How long are you going to make trouble? Is it hard to be soft? You just need to admit your mistake to grandpa, and he will forgive you. Xiaohe, grandpa has missed you very much these two years, go home."

Xi Zonghe's voice sounded after a while: "He wants me to bow my head and admit my mistake because of my own sexual orientation. Will you admit your mistake to others because you like women?"

"How can this be the same?"

"It's the same for me! I didn't do anything wrong, I just fell in love with the same sex, and you took me as a family shame, threatened me with severing ties, and forced me to submit. We are family members, blood relatives. But When I was lying on the hospital bed, wandering between life and death, suffering from illness, you still cared whether I was gay or not??" At this point, his tone became slow, unbelievable, and extremely transparent, "My sexuality, To decide whether my loved ones hate me or love me..."

The man didn't expect him to be so emotional, he was a little anxious: "It's not like Xiaohe..."

But Xi Zonghe no longer wants to listen to his sophistry, once he decides on one thing, he will not change his opinion easily.

"I may not be able to stand up again, but you only care about whether I will admit my mistake to grandpa. In this family, pleasing him is the most important thing. My life and feelings are not that important, are they?" There was the sound of shattering glass, "I don't need your forgiveness!"

The man was thrown out by him directly in a state of embarrassment, and met me at the door.

He took out his handkerchief and wiped the water stains on his body. He glanced at me and the sunflower in my arms, with a moment of sadness on his serious face.

"Take good care of him." With that, he strode away along the corridor.

I entered the ward with flowers in my hands, only to see glass shards all over the floor. Xi Zonghe was sitting on the bed, looking out of the window motionless, with a drip in his hand.

I stepped on the broken glass and inserted the sunflower in my hand into the blue glass vase beside it.

I can't talk too much about other people's housework, so I can only take the broom in the bathroom and clean up all the debris on the floor.

During this process, Xi Zonghe remained silent, and never even looked cheaply, like a lifeless and lifeless sculpture.

"It's me... am I asking too much?"

I paused, looked up at Xi Zonghe, and he happened to look over, our eyes met, and I was sure that he was indeed talking.

"Uh...it depends on what you want." Actually, I'm not very good at persuading people. In the past, guests came to me crying and complaining. way.

He thought for a while, and then gave me two words: "To love."

I suddenly found it a little funny. In terms of emotions, he doesn't just refer to love, he is unexpectedly innocent in all aspects of emotions.It's black and white, there is no trace of impurities, love is love, hate is hate.

After being disappointed in love, he now has doubts about family affection.His love for others is passionate, completely dedicated, and unconditional, but not everyone can repay him the same love.

Most people's love is full of selfishness in the name of love, as well as various additional conditions.

I love you, you must love me.There is no such reason in the world.

I lowered my head again and swept the broken glass into the dustpan: "Everyone in the world wishes to live up to their affection, but not everyone has such good luck."

My mother didn't, and neither did Xi Zonghe.

After cleaning the glass, I rubbed a hot towel from the bathroom and applied it to his hand holding the water.The indwelling needle has been injected for a long time, and the back of his hand is blue.

Xi Zonghe leaned against the head of the bed, looked at me and said, "I will never forgive them."

I wouldn't be too cheeky to think he was telling me, he was just reminding himself.

No matter who it is, he will never forgive someone who has failed his affection.

If my mother had been as decisive and cruel as he was back then, she would not have died in depression in the end.

I can't judge whether his personality is good or bad. After all, everyone has different standards for feelings. Not everyone who is hurt is willing to endure silently and repay grievances with virtue.

Later, I accidentally chatted with Tang Li, and I learned that Xi Zonghe's parents died early, and he was brought up by his grandfather since he was a child.Mrs. Xi has two sons and a daughter, and gave birth to two grandsons and a granddaughter respectively. The person who visited Xi Zonghe in the hospital before should be his cousin.

The old man didn't expect Xi Zonghe's character to be so stubborn, he wouldn't bow his head if he didn't bow his head, and he wouldn't admit his mistake if he didn't admit it.In the past five years, he wanted to make peace with Xi Zonghe, and sent many relatives and friends to persuade him, but none of them were able to persuade him.

It is easy to hurt someone, but it is not so easy to mend the wounded heart after regretting it.

"But it's not without a turnaround." Tang Li said, "If the Xi family hadn't been behind the escort for so many years, Xiaohe's career would not have developed so smoothly. He feels that he has left the Xi family and will no longer be interfered by his family. But the aura of the family is not the clothes, you can take them off if you say so, and everyone will see his surname as Xi, so it is more convenient for him."

"Xiaohe's eldest aunt's maiden name is Feng, and his younger uncle's surname is Guan. Who do you think Feng An and Guan Dan are? They are both in-laws of the Xi family. As long as they keep in touch, his relationship with the Xi family will never be broken."

No wonder these two people are always very close to Xi Zonghe, which is different from ordinary friends.

Hey, it turned out that it wasn't that he couldn't go back, it was just that he didn't want to go back.

I was woken up by a sudden ringing of the phone, Mimi opened her eyes, touched the phone by the bed, picked it up without looking at it.

Tang Li's anxious voice came from the opposite side: "Xiao Gu, it's not good! Xiaohe, Xiaohe just got into the mailbox somehow and found out about the child. He even called me to question me and asked me what's going on !"

I suddenly came to my senses and sat up on the bed.

"How did you answer him?"

"I said he did it secretly from everyone before he lost his memory, and I didn't know, and then he asked me if you knew too..."

I picked up the clothes on the ground and quickly put them on with one hand, so anxious that I could give birth to ten hands.

"I didn't know how to answer for a moment, so I was stunned for two seconds. He...he guessed it all, saying that I teamed up with you to lie to him, and hung up the phone angrily." Tang Li was anxious and scared, "Why? Do it? Gu Tang."

Ask me what to do at this time, what can I do?

I got dressed, took the car keys and went out: "Don't panic, don't panic, I'll go find him, and I'll contact you when I have news."

After hanging up the phone, I started the car and drove quickly to Hengyue Mountain Villa.I don't know if God was sincerely looking for faults. Halfway through the journey, there were lightning flashes and thunder, and the sky suddenly rained heavily.

The wiper wiped the rainwater on the windshield uninterruptedly. It took me half an hour to drive to the foot of Hengyue Mountain Villa. I walked slowly on the mountain road, and it took another half an hour to finally climb to the top of the mountain.

The rain is getting heavier and heavier, and it will not stop, and it will come to the world in a torrent.

Parking the car outside Xi Zonghe's villa, I rushed out in the rain, and was drenched in water within a short while.

Pressing the doorbell quickly, the villa was silent, and no one answered the door.

I was afraid that if I was one step too late, the child would die in the hands of Xi Zonghe, so I didn't care whether it was against the law or not, so I took two steps back, sprinted with my hands and feet at the same time, climbed over the iron courtyard gate, and staggered to the other side.

I happened to have a rock that was bigger than my fist, so I grabbed it and left, thinking that if Xi Zonghe didn't open the door again, he would break the lock and invade violently.

The bean-sized raindrops hit my head and face, which was icy cold, and fell into my eyes so astringent that I couldn't open them.

"Xi Zonghe! Open the door!!" I slammed on the door vigorously. After one minute, I couldn't wait any longer, and I was about to drop the boulder while holding the doorknob.

A familiar electronic sound came, and the fingerprint lock read my fingerprint and opened the door for me.

I stayed for a while, then hurriedly threw away the stone and pushed the door open.

The room was quiet and motionless, not a single human voice.Apart from the uncomfortably creaking sound of my water-soaked shoes on the floor, the house heard no second sound.

I was about to pass through the living room and go upstairs to have a look, but I was caught off guard by someone sneaking up on me from behind. I felt a pain in my knee, and I fell to my knees on the ground.The other party still grabbed my hair and pressed me down. I struggled to turn around and hurriedly identified myself: "It's me! Xi Zonghe, it's me!"

Xi Zonghe was wearing a nightgown and smelled of alcohol. He didn't let go immediately when he heard my voice, but bent down and carefully scanned my facial features in the dark room.

I was caught and hissed in pain, and I was forced to raise my face to meet his scrutiny.

"So it's you..." He seemed to have finally recognized me, sprayed my face with the smell of wine, and then pinned me to the ground with some irritability, "What are you doing here?"

I got up from the ground and stopped in front of him: "My child... what did you do to that child?"

Xi Zonghe frowned slightly, and the corners of his lips raised at the same time, forming a strange expression that was half a smile, half annoyed.

"I knew that you came here for this matter. Do you think that having a child with me will change your status and you can please me again? Let me tell you, stop dreaming!"

He draws slowly, full of the unreasonable and imaginative of a drunk.I didn't have time to coax him, so I kept asking him if he had called the reproductive center to make sure the baby was safe.

He grabbed my wrist, bullied me, and said coldly: "Dead!"

I froze there, my drenched body trembling uncontrollably.

"What did you say?" His body temperature seemed to have dropped to freezing point, and he couldn't even speak fluently.

I hope he is lying to me, I pray he is not telling the truth.

But he cruelly broke my silly dream.

"I said I already had them dispose of that baby!" He looked at me amusedly, "You think I'll let him be born? You think I'm going to have a baby with your genes? Stop kidding!"

How could he... be so cold?

"That's your child too." Some hot things overflowed from the wide-open pupils, and they ran across my cheeks, almost burning my skin in the desperate cold, making me want to tear my hair and scream and howl.

He doesn't know what a stupid thing he's done, and I try to convince myself it's all because he's lost his memory, that he doesn't know what he's doing, but I can't help but blame him for it all.

Anger swept over me, urging me.I grabbed Xi Zonghe's bathrobe and punched him hard in the face.Due to inertia, both of us fell to the ground.He snorted, not knowing where he hit.

My heart was full of anger and pain, and I just wished I could die with him.

I quickly straightened up and raised my fist again, but everything, the ferocious face, the rationality ignited by anger, and the exhausted body and mind, all froze for a moment after seeing his eyes, which made the punch delayed. fall.

"You are all liars...I hate this place..." There was a little blood on the corner of his lips, and he looked at me through his messy hair, "This place doesn't belong to me..."

He closed his eyes, full of resentment and grievance: "I'm in so much pain...I hate you...you kill me, I don't want to see you again."