male god effect

108.

"You killed her, didn't you?"

Ji Mi's head drooped, and he didn't lift it up for a long time.Chai Jiu inserted/inserted his fingers into his curly hair, and stroked it inch by inch from the root to the tip. He had long discovered that Ji Mi liked to straighten and dye her hair black, and paired it with a dark invisible Glasses.But recently, I don't seem to be in the mood to dye my hair anymore, so the new brown hair and some faded black hair are mixed together, looking messy.

"no no……"

Ji Mi's voice was muffled, with a strong nasal tone, and he covered his face with his arms while sobbing.

--elder brother?elder brother?

In the void, a brown-haired boy was playing the piano, and a blond girl holding a doll appeared behind him, calling him with a childish voice.

The boy stopped and turned his head, only to face a bloody face.

—Brother... Brother... Did you see my eyeballs that fell on the ground?

The blond girl covered her eyes with her small blood-stained hands, and asked in a hollow and emotionless voice.

109.

Ji Mi and Vivian came to this world almost at the same time.

They are never confused because they are fraternal twins who look completely different.

Ji Mi takes her father's surname, and Vivian takes her mother's surname.

Ji Gu's hair is dark brown and curly, while Vivian has straight golden hair.

Eight months later, Vivian spoke for the first time, and the first word was "Mummy"

Sixteen months later, Ji Mi spoke for the first time, and the first word he uttered was "Vivian".

So fate gave them their own arrangements.

"Mummy—brother is sick again!"

"Mummy—brother fell down again!"

"Mummy—it's time for my brother to take his medicine again!"

That's the most Vivian has said since she can remember

"Vivian - no more sugar."

"Vivian - stop pulling my arm."

"Vivian - stop messing around."

This is what Ji Mi has said the most since he can remember.

Ji Mi, who is weak in constitution and the eldest son, is the object of the whole family's special care.Thin and kitten-like, he emerges from the visible glass enclosure of the hospital and enters a larger, invisible glass enclosure called family.He was covered by his parents in the greenhouse like a little girl, delicately, and grew into a little flower that couldn't be frozen.

He has a docile and harmless personality, and he is surprisingly quiet when he doesn't cry or make trouble. Even when he speaks, he speaks softly and slowly. He has almost no temper and is always kind.

On the contrary, Vivian is as lively as a rabbit, always full of curiosity about the world, and can never stay in the house.

Ji Gu played the piano and Vivian played the violin.

Ji Mi is reading, and Vivian is watching TV.

Ji Mi raises flowers, and Vivian raises dogs.

Ji Mi played chess, and Vivian...was in charge of disrupting the game?

"Oops."

Four-year-old Ji Mi looked at the chessboard and spread his hands, admitting defeat.

"I lost."

"No! No! No!"

Vivian, wearing little red leather shoes, jumped onto the table and disrupted the whole chess game, clapping her hands and shouting.

"Okay! Now brother has won! Long live brother!"

"Don't mess around." The young Ji Mi rubbed his temples with a helpless tone.

"It doesn't matter! It doesn't matter—" Vivian threw herself into Ji Mi's arms, and kissed the boy on the cheek, "Brother is the best! Long live brother!"

What can Ji Mi do?All he could do was hug the little bastard and kiss her forehead dotingly.

Therefore, until the very end, their brother and sister never played a game of chess well and completely.

Many years later, at the World Youth Chess Championship, his opponent asked unwillingly.

"Have you never lost a game of chess since you were born?"

After winning the championship, Ji Mi, who was full of spring breeze with the trophy in his hand, suddenly lost the smile on his face, as if riding the wind back to the middle of winter in a moment.

"..."

He seemed to be burdened with an invisible pain, and whispered in an inaudible voice.

"no."

——Brother won!Long live my brother!

The girl with blond hair who had finished playing foolishly threw herself into his arms, put her arms around his neck, raised her head and kissed his cheek and chin.The red leather shoes stained with the wet mud in the garden left footprints all over his trousers.

——Brother is the best!

But he knew that he had never really won her a few times.

"She's smarter than me... so much smarter."

Ji Mi's eyes protruded from the gap between his palms, his eyes drifted away, and he stated to Chai Jiu in a hoarse voice.

"When we... were young, adults gave us some tests."

——How many points did brother get?

asked the blond girl.

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——Brother is great!

——Where is Vivian?

The girl hid the report card behind her back and rolled it up, smiling at him with her hands behind her back.

——Heh heh heh~ I won't tell you!

On the coffee table are shuffled checkers, under the table are test reports that have been scrambled, and in the trash can are torn university invitations.

In the arms of the little boy was a little girl sticking out her tongue and grimacing.

"She's just...just..." Ji Mi's face was leaning against Chai Jiu's arm, and her breathing was a little short, "...just messing around."

Gossiping, nonsense, humiliating her squeamish, mediocre, timid, and useless crybaby brother Bao.

But he always likes to tease him when he plays the piano.

110.

"Brother... Brother... Did you see my eyeballs that fell on the ground?"

The blond girl covered her eyes with her small blood-stained hands, and asked in a hollow and emotionless voice.

"..." Ji Mi's face turned pale in an instant, and before he had any reaction, the girl put her hands off her face, laughed and jumped up.

"I've been fooled! Idiot brother! Tell you not to play with me!"

While wiping off the paint on her face with a handkerchief, the girl grinned loudly with her mouth missing half of her front teeth. Halfway through her smile, she suddenly realized that something was wrong.

"Mummy—brother peed his pants again!"

Ji Mi's little face, which was not yet blood-colored, was flushed red, and her blue eyes were blinking, and she was about to cry.

Until many years later, he still has not got rid of the problem of incontinence when he is frightened, and because of this, he is played by a vicious little mole and whines again and again.

Young master Ji started to cry, but it was difficult for the nannies and servants to coax him well.He was sobbing, crying straight down without making a sound, which made people feel distressed and had a headache.

So later, whenever Ji Mi was about to cry, Vivian always rushed ahead of him, howling louder and harder than him.

When my sister cried like this, my brother couldn't cry anymore.Firstly, he felt that it was embarrassing, and secondly, he really couldn't learn the tricks of throwing and rolling.

Regardless of the past or the future, Ji Mi is not a boy who likes to cause trouble for others.

At first, I was made to cry by my sister's prank, but then I gradually got used to it.

Six-year-old Ji Mi thought that there was no other way to scare him.

So when his sister played various ghosts again, he was able to remain indifferent, playing the piano as if he was invisible.

"Hmph, it's so boring—" Vivian, who was ignored, sat on the table, shaking her two thin legs.When she saw the dim sum plate in her hand, her eyes lit up, and she raised her hand to grab the plate with a smile.

She's going to eat up all his favorite creme brulee before her brother finds out—who told him to ignore her first!

"..."

Ji Mi, who was sitting on the piano bench, heard a sharp sound of broken porcelain.

He turned his head abruptly, and found that the blond girl's face was flushed, she clenched her teeth and fell to the ground and rolled.

"Vivian?"

He hesitated and called out his sister's name.

111.

"I thought... I thought..."

Ji Mi covered her face with her palm again, sobbing choked up.

"..."

Chai Jiu guessed the ending.

The little boy sitting on the piano bench looked at the girl rolling in pain on the ground, shook his head indifferently, turned around, and continued to play the piano.

He probably thought it was another new prank by his sister, so he kept playing it until the end of a long piece.

——Vivian?Well, get up quickly.

Ji Mi said.It wasn't the first time he saw his sister lying motionless on the ground like this, and he didn't think much about it.

——Vivian? Vivian?

He tried calling again, but seeing that his sister still had no intention of getting up, he guessed that she might be really angry, so he decided to coax her.

— Well, well, well, just this once.

Ji Mi went downstairs and asked the maid in the hall for some candies left over from Halloween, then turned around and secretly went to the kitchen to get a small plate of ice cream.Before that, Vivian was restricted from eating sweets because of too much tooth decay, so she always hugged the doll pitifully and pestered him to eat.

He picked out a small bag of colorful candies and stuffed them into his pocket, carrying the ice cream and wanted to take it upstairs to please his sister.He expected that the little girl in the little red shoes who likes to secretly put on lipstick would have bright eyes and happily get into his arms, leaving a trail of lip marks on his cheeks.

——Vivian, get up and eat candy.

That was the last time he called his sister's name with such ease and joy.

the last time.

The unfinished chess game was still on the coffee table, and the doll sitting on the sofa watched all this quietly, but the blue eyes made of glass seemed to reveal a trace of human sadness in an instant.

The boy slumped on the floor and cried all night.

No one has ever tuned that bright red violin, no one has ever teased the set of poodles in the kennel downstairs with balls... the TV in that room has always stayed on that animation channel of the movie.

——Brother is the best!Long live my brother!

Only the girl's crisp childish voice echoed in the sunny empty room and the green grassy courtyard, lingering for a long time.

112.

"If it had been discovered earlier, if it had been discovered earlier, it would not have..."

Ji Mi trembled all over and spoke incoherently.

Doctors found a chunk of pudding in Vivian's windpipe, and she was eager to swallow it, not wanting to get stuck.

"She is obviously in such pain, I, I..."

But he didn't find out, and let her die in the pain of suffocation.

"It was me, I killed her."

Ji Mi closed her eyes, as if that desperate afternoon was being played out in her mind.

She must be suffering, right?She must be in pain, right?She must be very helpless and frightened, right?

In the few seconds before losing consciousness, he was struggling so hard, but his brother turned his back to her and did not turn his head back.Her soul left her body, she was lonely and frightened, but she was left alone in a cold room by her brother, letting her life disappear in the world bit by bit.

"I killed her, I killed her, I killed her."

That emotion was suppressed for too long, and it was only when it exploded that it was discovered that it was so intense.Many years ago, he sensibly endured the pain and tried his best to comfort the grief-stricken parents after losing their daughter with a mature attitude. After many years, he finally cried like a child.

"sorry Sorry sorry……"

Sorry for my stupidity.Sorry for my ignorance.Sorry for taking it for granted.Sorry for my self righteousness.

"She's obviously just, just wanting me to spend more time with her." Ji Mi's body was almost curled up into a ball, "Why? Why didn't you play with her? Why did you want to get angry with her? Why didn't you let her go?"

Obviously she has let him in so many times, what can he do in turn to let her in?

Those rough, childish pranks were nothing more than a small ploy by an unloving child trying to get his brother's attention.

She is also a little girl who needs to be cared for.

The focus of the whole family is on the frail and sickly eldest son. If she is not naughty, clever, or pestering, how can she get any attention?

Crying children have sweets.

Everyone dotes on elder brother, but elder brother only dotes on her.Only the elder brother would hold her in the palm of his hand, only the elder brother would let her act coquettishly, and only the elder brother would satisfy all her demands.

But what if her brother doesn't spoil her anymore?

What if my brother finds out that she is smarter than him, she is better than him, she is braver than him, she is stronger than him, and she doesn't need his protection at all?

So... So, she will let him go.

Give in to her squeamish, mediocre, and useless crybaby Brother Bao, and never let him find out the truth.

But my brother doesn't seem to need her anymore.

She worked so hard to get her brother's attention, but in the end...why did her brother leave in the end?

Does he hate her?

In Vivian's short life, the thing she fears the most is being alone, she must never be left alone, she must be accompanied by someone.Even when she was in the mother's womb, her brother was with her.

But in the end, the young girl died silently on the cold floor alone.

The lonely soul that has nowhere to rest, floats in the world and never knows its whereabouts.

"sorry Sorry sorry……"

The sinner, who is alive but seems dead, walks alone with the cross of guilt and pain.

Chai Jiu hugged Ji Mi's neck, and lightly brushed the back of his neck with her palm.

He is very good, but very flustered, like a cat that has just been bathed.

The little mole seems to understand why the masochistic Mr. Cat has a soft spot for suffocating PLAY.

113.

After the day his sister died, Ji Mi suddenly realized that from the moment he was born in this world, he was responsible for everyone around him.

That consciousness belonged to adults, but a child brought it back prematurely.

So at the funeral, he no longer cried like a child, but endured and restrained himself like an adult, and in turn comforted his parents who were emaciated due to grief.

He put on his sister's favorite Lolita skirt, secretly applied lipstick and mascara like his sister, and held his sister's doll in his arms without letting go.

"Vivian," he whispered to the little sister doll, "we're going on a field trip."

You will never be afraid of being alone again.

I will become like you and be with you forever.

114.

"I said, I will always be with her."

Ji Mi's voice became ethereal again.

"But, but..."

Chai Jiu touched his forehead, as if he had a low fever.

"But you broke your promise."

Ji Mi's eyes looked dazed, as if his consciousness had already left his body, he said slowly after a while.

"I don't want to either..."

The fire that filled the sky engulfed him, and there were countless cries and screams in the fire.

In the eyes of children, it was once the most terrifying Shura hell in the world.

The author has something to say: (⊙v⊙) I’m sorry, I’m going to go to Beijing in a while, I just wrote it here and posted it first, and I’ll continue to write the following part after I get to Beijing