male god effect

119.

"But you broke your promise."

Ji Mi's eyes looked dazed, as if his consciousness had already left his body, he said slowly after a while.

"I don't want to either..."

Ji Mi's voice became ethereal again.

"But, but... I..."

Chai Jiu suddenly realized that everything he saw was going out of control without warning.

"……vomit……"

Ji Mi's body fell to one side, her head hit the floor heavily, and she retched without warning.

Long-term psychological pressure and sustained high mental tension completely overwhelmed him.Instinctively, the body reacts violently—such as stomach cramps.

"I...I don't want to...vomit..."

His face was pale, and he knelt on the ground and trembled.

"I'm sorry... vomit... I put..."

He cried like a child, vulnerable and helpless, just kept repeating a sentence.

"I threw my sister... I threw my sister... away!"

Chai Jiu was dumbfounded.

120.

The fire is burning.

People frantically searched for a way to escape, and the children followed the adults while running and crying loudly.

The fire is burning.

They pushed each other, trampled, screamed, cried, shouted, prayed... Struggling in the flames, turning into coke in the flames.

The fire is burning.

The delicate floor-length dresses of the noble ladies became useless cumbersome at this moment, and the gorgeous hats made of expensive feathers on the heads of the marquises were scorched by the flames.

The large crystal lamp hanging high fell to the crowd, and the crystal clear gems were scattered all over the place. Together with the broken pearl necklaces around the girls' necks, they became stumbling blocks for the survivors on their way to escape.

The fire is burning.

If you haven't seen hell yet, at this moment, everything here can meet all your expectations of hell.

Chaos, disorder, depression.

Dady! Mummy!

Ten-year-old Ji Mi lost her way in the fire with her doll in her arms.

This should have been a happy day, and their family flew to EVIL from the UK to attend their aunt's wedding.

My aunt is about to marry into the oldest Fei family in EVIL. This is a marriage that makes all the old antiques in the Ji family satisfied and proud.

The wedding was grand and grand, gathering almost all the dignitaries of EVIL.

Even the uncrowned king of EVIL, Mr. Yi, known for his iron-fisted dictatorship, made a brief appearance on the scene.Because Mrs. Yi's Mrs. Fei, who was rumored to have serious mental problems, was the only daughter of the Fei family, Mr. Yi, who was the nominal son-in-law, had to adjust his schedule three months in advance to spare a little time for attending the younger generation's wedding.Even though his schedule was so full that he could barely spare two or three 10 minutes to go through the scene at the ceremony, and then fly to the federation to complete the next plan, but it was already a big face for the Fei family.

This tall and handsome King His Majesty always has an indifferent attitude.

Maybe he really is a man favored by God.

All disasters, bad news, pain, and misfortune will all avoid him by coincidence, and then come to the world.

Ji Mi shouldn't be wearing this white dress.

That way, he wouldn't trip over the skirt when he fled to the safe passage with his parents.

If he hadn't tripped, the crowd wouldn't have swept him and his family away.

If he hadn't been swept away by the crowd, he wouldn't have lost his way, and he wouldn't have fallen into the predicament he is in now.

But who would have expected this?

Who would have expected that Lin Na, who was supposed to be the flower girl at her aunt's wedding, accidentally fell down the stairs in the morning and broke her right leg, so she had to rest at home.

The accident came so suddenly that people were caught off guard.

It was really too late for them to find another little girl from the family to replace Lin Na. The only lively and clever girl of the right age, but because she was too fat to wear a dress, they had to give up.

"Let me come."

Ji Mi hugged the doll and said.

"let me."

— Does it look good, Vivian?

Ten-year-old Ji Gu put on a pure white princess dress and a small silver crown, bit her lipsticked lips, looked at the reflection in the mirror, and asked the doll.

He is thinner than boys of the same age, and Lin Na's skirt is not too big or too small, which is just right.

—Does it look good, brother?

He changed his voice and repeated it in a girly, delicate tone.

—Of course.

Ji Mi smiled and replied in a boy's voice.

——Vivian is the prettiest.

Crowns, necklaces, ribbons, garlands, high-heeled leather shoes and princess dresses full of patterns...all these beautiful and shiny things used to be Vivian's favorite things.

But, but...

The smiling Ji Mi suddenly raised his hand and slapped himself hard.

Now, she will never see these beautiful things.

She was packed into that dark, damp, little box without the light of day, buried deep in the ground by the soil, and only maggots and earthworms were left with her.

Even on such a happy day, I can no longer hear her laughter.

When Vivian was in the UK, she was always invited to be a flower girl at every wedding.

No one would dislike this quirky little girl.

She looks as delicate as a doll, but she is also so smart and lively. She knows how to mobilize the atmosphere to please everyone, and she is versatile enough to sing and dance, and she can play the wedding march on the violin.

She is like a shooting star, using all her strength to make herself shine, and after a short period of brilliance, she turns into nothingness.

- Don't worry, I will...

Looking at the reflection in the mirror, Ji Gu lowered his eyes.

—would do just as well as Vivian...

121.

"Xiao Jiu—"

A young woman in a cleaner's uniform was holding a five or six-year-old girl through the flames while anxiously calling another boy's name.

"Brother—brother!"

The little girl hiding in the woman's arms also yelled into the fire with a childish, weeping voice.

"elder brother--"

Ten-year-old Ji Mi passed by the mother and daughter. He glanced at the girl's terrified face, and subconsciously hugged the doll tightly in his arms.

Vivian, don't be afraid.

Definitely, definitely will take you out!

This timid, cowardly, squeamish young master, like a little girl, faced the irreversible and desperate predicament he encountered in his life for the first time.

cry, cry, struggle,

His body trembled uncontrollably, his legs were already weak, and even his eyes gradually blurred.

Immediately... the limit is about to be reached.

Then, the next second, he heard the boy screaming for help.

It was a boy wrapped in flames, only about eight or nine years old, so thin and weak under the light of the flames.He was trapped in a collapsed corner, his school uniform was on fire, and the small half of his exposed skin was also burned by the flames.The boy writhed and cried out in pain.

That voice contained such heavy desperation and unwillingness, like a fierce ghost climbing thorns from the depths of hell and almost climbing up to the world, screaming heart-piercingly at the edge of light and shadow.

--Mother!I don't want to die here!Mother!Ahhhhhhhhhh!

The young Ji Mi had never heard such a mournful cry.

122.

The fire is burning.

A boy holding a doll is holding another boy's hand, looking for a way to the world in the raging flames.

Fast, faster ...

Inevitably, his skirt caught fire.

in the way...so in the way...

"help me!"

He spoke to the boy whom he had pulled out of the fire.

Together, the two boys tore the long skirt above their knees, threw away the ribbons and bows, and covered their mouths and noses with the excess fabric.

Ji Mi threw the high heels she took off to one side, then tightly grasped the boy's hand, and continued on her way.

The smoke became thicker and thicker, and the eyes slowly began to be unable to distinguish the road ahead.

Ji Mi noticed that the hand holding her was gradually losing strength.

"Hey - hello!"

After all, that child is still two years younger than him, and his physical strength and energy are much worse than his.

"Just... hold on! I'm going to... I'm going to... Cough..."

Ji Mi coughed and pulled the boy to her side.

"I……"

The boy's life seemed to be passing away at a speed visible to the naked eye. He closed his eyes and let go of the cloth covering his face, speaking in a hoarse voice.

"...I... don't want to die...Mom..."

Ji Mi stared blankly at the boy.

For the third time in his life, he faced the loss of a life.

The first time was Vivian who was sleeping on the floor, and the second time was Leo who fell to the bottom of the lake.

They obviously...they were still lively and smiling one second before, but they closed their eyes the next second and stopped talking.

In a few minutes, the boy next to him will also close his eyes forever, his heartbeat will stop, his breathing and pulse will disappear, his body temperature will drop little by little, until finally... he becomes a cold body. And the stiff corpse.

Not even the corpses will be left behind.

His soul will be forever, forever, wandering in the fire, brewing in pain, with no place to rest, no rest.

And those...those who are alive, how should...and how should they face this heart-piercing reality, this life that has been ruined beyond recognition?

He suddenly thought of the young woman in the cleaner's uniform, of the crying little girl calling for her brother in the fire.

He thought of his father and mother being swept away by the crowd.

No...it shouldn't be like this, it's too cruel.

The souls of the dead struggled underground, and the rest of the living was soaked in tears.

Lord, Lord, is this what you want it to be?

Ten-year-old Ji Mi raised her immature face and looked at the nothingness above her head with a confused expression.

It shouldn't be this way, that way, that way is not right.

So... so...

This time, let me choose!

In the future, all suffering, misfortune, retribution, and punishment will all be borne by me.

I'm guilty.

Please punish me.

Almost without hesitation, Ji Mi stopped and stared at the huge half-human doll in his arms.

In the next second, he threw her behind him, then squatted down, picked up the boy, and continued to run forward.

sorry!sorry!sorry!sorry!

Something pungent and sour blocked his throat.

ah ah ah-

He wanted to scream, he wanted to cry, but in the end it was all swallowed up.

--elder brother!elder brother!

He heard the familiar child's voice calling him in the fire behind him.

--I am really scared!elder brother!elder brother!

--elder brother!Where are you?Don't want me!

The fire was burning, but the voice gradually weakened.

——Brother...Brother...you don't want me again?

——Brother... Didn't you agree that you want... to stay with me?

--elder brother……

The lingering voice in his head became his nightmare for countless nights.

The fire is burning.

Ji Mi hugged the boy and ran hard.

Not once did I look back.

"So beautiful," the boy murmured unconsciously, resting his head on his shoulder, "Are you...are you an angel?"

The fire is burning.

No matter how many years have passed, it seems that it has never been extinguished.

Whether it was Mr. Cat who took off all his disguise and knelt on the floor and cried loudly.

Still the little mole who bears scars, mutilations and traumas for the rest of his life.

The flames engulfed them, past, present, and future, never stopping for a moment.

123.

Chai Jiu hugged Ji Mi's head.

This was the first time that the boy used his body to bear the full weight of the opponent.

In this unspeakable relationship, the teenager is always the one who is sheltered, cared for, tolerated, pampered, and pampered.

This was the first time he looked at each other.

"I threw my sister... hiccup..."

Ji Mi cried out of breath.

"I killed her! I threw her away! I'm a... liar!"

Panting, he lowered his head and buried his head in his arms, hiccupping from crying.

"I clearly... hiccup... said that I would... stay with her..."

Chai Jiu wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes with her thumb, and responded softly.

"Ah."

"I... hiccup... thought about it."

Ji Mi's voice has a strong nasal sound.

"I'm not good, no, bad, terrible."

He lowered his head and smiled self-deprecatingly.

"Obviously, I have no ability at all, and I want to protect others beyond my limits. It's ridiculous, isn't it? You say it beautifully, but in the end it hurts people so badly. People like me... people like me, I'm so bad What's the point of saying sorry so much? Hmm? Not at all... I'll just pester Chai Jiu with a stern face, and keep dragging me down like this..."

As if he had made up his mind, he poured out all the thoughts he had held back for a long time.

"Thinking about it, that actually doesn't make any sense at all. Chai Jiu actually hates me, right? It was my fault from the beginning, and I was the only one talking to myself all the time. Chai Jiu didn't care at all. Isn't it? Or...or I'm tired of it already. So, so let's stop here...don't...don't bother me."

"Can you say that again?"

"I said... classmate Chai Jiu...don't worry about me anymore, that's all."

"Oh?"

The boy's expression showed an unprecedented stubbornness. He frowned and asked sharply.

"What does 'just like that' mean?"

"It means literally."

Ji Mi's eyelids drooped again, and the corners of his mouth curled up needlessly, his eyes turned red.

"I can't protect anyone at all. I will only keep making mistakes and bringing disasters to others. Oh, unless...unless there is a miracle? Otherwise, there is no such thing as me Saved? I...I..."

"Who told you that?"

Chai Jiu sighed and interrupted him.

"What the hell are you talking about!"

The boy finally found the most deadly knot in a pile of mess.

124.

What kind of boy is Chai Jiu?

When all the stories were still in a state of chaos, somewhere, the Creator had asked himself this question and answered it.

However, no one has ever thought about another question - what kind of boy is Ji Mi?

Perhaps it is because this question is too shallow in the eyes of most people.Regarding Ji Mi, all his advantages are clearly displayed in front of everyone.

Handsome appearance, prominent background, outstanding talent and learning, considerate personality... In short, you can count such people, probably you can't count them all in a short while.

People are so good that they forget to count their bad ones, so after a long time, it seems that these are the way they should be.

This person should be so good, and this person should not be a little bit bad.

Why?No one could answer.

In an instant, Chai Jiu had an epiphany.

The guy kneeling in front of him with red eyes and crying nose was not a savior, not some omnipotent god.

Instead it should be -

An alcoholic, self-abusing, drug-abusing schizophrenic;

A poor wretch carrying heavy shackles, crucified on the cross of morality and responsibility, thinking that he was abandoned by faith, and self-flagellated in an attempt to pay for his sins;

A borderline man struggling between illusion and reality, seeking self-salvation.

A...a... same as him, lonely, helpless, desperate, needing care and protection, an ignorant teenager who is growing up, that's all.

What chairman, what male god, what genius, what nobleman, what politician, what successor, enough!Please - stop labeling this idiot!

Stupid and cowardly, coquettish and promiscuous, sensitive and curmudgeonly; provocative and cheap, provocative and meddlesome...

For the first time, the young man pieced together a real and complete Ji Mi from the trivialities of life.

An egomaniac who loves to be nosy, show off, and arrogant; no matter what happens, good or bad, he takes it all on himself, but once he can't handle it or something goes wrong, he will Self-doubt over and over again, magnifying mistakes over and over to torture myself over and over again, destroying the already fragile nerves over and over again.

I finally know who this idiot looks like.

Chai Jiu held his forehead and sighed.

As if looking in a mirror, he saw a shadow of himself among those annoying features.

He had always imagined Ji Mi as too mature, but at this moment he finally realized that the seemingly strong and reliable guy was just a young boy who hadn't grown up.

I can afford it, but I can never let it go. I am always self-reflecting and reflecting, and I never have the courage to take a bold step towards the future.

Perhaps from the beginning, they are similar, so they are attracted to each other.

But they are different.

Ji Mi's world is surrounded by sunshine and flowers. He was born in a harmonious and happy family, with parents and elders who love him, and younger brothers and sisters who depend on him; Boys of the same age are admired and supported, girls are looked up to and admired, teachers love and look forward to...

The love of too many people has hindered his footsteps. Like a child holding a glass jar full of candies, he is always careful, for fear that one mistake will break everything and make everyone sad and disappointed.

So he couldn't relax every minute and every second, like a competent actor, he constantly responded with the most positive attitude and met the expectations of others.

"Stupid, who do you think you are? Are you a saint?"

Chai Jiu lifted the tie around Ji Mi's neck and shouted at him.

"Every minute in this world, disasters may occur! There will be tsunamis, hurricanes, mudslides, earthquakes, and volcanic eruptions; there will be wars, plagues, famines, riots...every second, there may be occurrences Unfortunately, countless people have died from accidents, from natural disasters, from wars, from hunger, from disease, from one cause or another... As I speak, countless families are broken, and there are countless Children have lost parents, parents have lost children, and there are millions of people who are crying, howling, screaming! What did they do wrong? What did they do wrong - nothing!"

He took a breath and continued.

"There is no reason, and there is no need for a reason. When people live, there will be such and such variables, and such and such things will happen-some are good, and some are bad. Many times, it is simply not something that a person can decide. After all, human beings are just a group of advanced animals. In the process of survival, they will also encounter dangers and accidents. Just standing at the top of the food chain and seeing themselves as perfect is just a kind of useless arrogance That's all!"

The young man raised his hands in the void, tearing apart the vain lies.

"In this world, there is no perfect person at all. It is clearly a group of selfish and irresponsible guys who forcibly project what they want to see onto a person in order to self-satisfy deception! Only fools can Don’t you believe in miracles? Don’t you think you’re hopeless? Why do you think so? Huh? Believe it or not, I’ll prove it to you!”

Ji Mi stared at him blankly, as if to say 'but'.

"What's a but? Where are there so many useless buts? Listen! I'll only say it once! There will never be a second time in the future—"

Chai Jiu closed her eyes and took a deep breath, her cheeks became hot unconsciously, and the blood rushed to the top of her head.

"I like you, I liked you a long, long time ago. Many, many years later than you imagined, but I have always... missed it!"

To which moment should time be turned back so that everything can be completely restored to its original appearance?To be able to uncover all the unsolved mysteries?

It was that September, in the hellish campus.When the young man in a white shirt came slowly from the sun to drive away the villains for the poor bastard in the corner who was being bullied?

Is it that night surrounded by raging fire, when the boy in the little white dress picked up another boy and ran through the fire?

Or, it was that ordinary afternoon, when the sweaty child holding a football met the child in a small skirt holding a doll in the quiet and deserted stairwell.

—Hey, hurry up, come up.

The six-year-old Mole squatted down and said to the young cat who had sprained his ankle.

Too hard.

Such a humble, so secret, so ugly, so unbearable young heart, I thought it would be buried little by little in the abyss, sinking and sinking, until it was dilapidated and decayed, and it would never wait for the surface of the water that day.

But now at this moment, it was cut open by an invisible sharp blade, just like this naked/naked/naked/white.

"I don't need you to apologize or say sorry, I don't need you to cater to me and meet my expectations. If I have to ask why, I can only say, because my liking is not that superficial thing, and you are the young master You're still a beggar, it doesn't matter if you make a mistake or not, no one cares about that kind of thing! Hey! Do you hear me? Stupid..."

Perhaps Ji Mi was really stupid, but he froze there, and pinched his own face in disbelief for a while, as if he was still in a dream.

"..."

Chai Jiu felt that he was about to be pissed off by this idiot, so he raised his hand to grab Ji Mi's chin, and bit down hard on that half-open lip.

Ji Mi recovered from the shock, his wet blue eyes were half-opened, as if they were covered with an inextricable mist.

He was kissed so weak that he touched his swollen lips, as if he was having an illusory but real dream.

"Don't you want a miracle? Look at me! Look at me!"

The boy grabbed his collar and yelled until his voice became hoarse.

I am your miracle!

126.

How to describe that moment?

It seems that when Pangu opened the world at the beginning, all things were split into a crack in the chaos.

Thus, light and shadow, day and night, clear and turbid, right and wrong, black and white, light and heavy, chaos and order... are all clearly differentiated at this moment.

They broke free from the shackles, released from that great oppression.Then kiss, hug, and do all kinds of ridiculous things in front of the French windows.

The sky returns to the sky, and the earth returns to the earth; the sun and the moon hang high, the rivers and seas are rushing, the stars are brilliant, the wind and clouds are changing, and all the vegetation and creatures are bursting with infinite vitality.

Chai Jiu grabbed the back of Ji Mi's neck, pulling him towards her like pinching a cat.And Ji Mi hugged Chai Jiu's shoulders tightly, as if afraid that the other party would disappear in the next second, clung to his body tightly, and interlocked his fingers.

They finally crossed the deep chasm, and in the interweaving of light and shadow, they became one.

The spirit and the flesh, the soul and the bones, all belong to each other; love and hate, life and death, all go their own way.

Only time is immortal, only youth does not change.

——I dragged my dilapidated body, glued together the broken wings, broke through the rope woven by malice, and came back to the world in the abyss, just for, for...

To tell you that there are still miracles in this world.

And... just... I like you too.

Always, always, love it.

127.

"Well... To put it simply, it's... my family just went bankrupt."

Ji Gu, who regained his composure, summed up with gestures.

"In fact, there have been problems with the capital chain since last year. It is obvious that someone is playing tricks. Uncle and the others also have a hunch that something bad will happen afterwards."

He explained.

"Whether it's officialdom or shopping malls, the Ji family has always been attached to the Fei family—and the Fei family has been going downhill over the years, and it will collapse sooner or later. Nana and her family also saw this clearly, so they did it early I prepared with both hands, while separating myself from the relationship, while secretly having an affair with the Ai family. But my father and uncle are very stubborn, and they still follow the old dynasty's way of doing things, and would rather stick to it The honor of the nobility is not willing to bow to the nouveau riche. But at that time... it is not impossible."

The best way is to marry the Lin family.

"It's a marriage between nobles in name, but it's actually a close relationship with the Ai family through Nana's family. In the end, I just wanted to save face and refused to bow my head, and I really didn't have the energy to hold on anymore, so I borrowed a fig leaf , to forcibly cover up the ugliness."

That's why Ji Mi and Lin Na's marriage was put on the agenda so early.

"Because of my willfulness, I blocked the way out for the whole family. Then...it was...what you saw in newspapers and TV. Kidnapping scandals, videotapes, various public opinions...then the election failed, and the red The faction collapsed, the old man of the Fei family committed suicide, Mr. Fei disappeared, and the Fei family announced their downfall..."

He was finally able to calmly tell the boy the heavy reality in detail.

"The aunt who married the Fei family, in order not to hurt the Ji family, committed suicide by taking poison. The uncle and several other elders in the family were taken away. They were said to be censored, but in fact they were under house arrest, but that's fine. That's right. Wait...in a few days, after the clause to abolish the title is formally passed, I guess...you should be put in prison."

After all, he couldn't maintain absolute calm, and his voice began to tremble involuntarily.

"Until last week...the government announced that the ancestral home and fields would be taken away. The remaining properties, antiques, and cars were all mortgaged one after another. Yesterday the servants and drivers were sent away by my mother, and the house was empty Yeah, not a sound at all. Huh, you remember a while ago?"

Chai Jiu thought of the piles of presents that looked like hills, Ji Mi seemed to be in a daze during that time, avoiding him, and at the same time squandered and bought piles of useless things for him.

"Because at that time, my card had not been frozen, and I was free to use the deposits on it. In fact, I have never had any concept of money, but until last month, I suddenly started to be afraid. I don't know what to do. What to do... Everything I know is gradually leaving me, and I hardly know what else I can hold on to. I think, anyway, in a few days, those checks will become useless paper that cannot be cashed. Just... just... just use them to make classmate Chai Jiu happy? I really didn't expect that one day I would be like a worthless upstart."

Ji Mi smiled wryly and raised her head, looking at the young man with bloodshot eyes.

"Now, I have nothing. No title, property, reputation, nothing... and I may be trampled on like a dog in water. Student Chai Jiu, really... really don't you mind?"

The boy didn't speak, just rested his head lightly on his chest.

"really?"

"..."

"Do you really not regret it?"

"Crap."

Chai Jiu slapped Ji Mi's back lightly with his backhand.

The guy was so skinny that he could barely lift a heavy hand.

"Humph."

Chai Jiu turned her face away, not looking at Ji Gu's blue eyes.

"Don't be too happy."

Chai Jiu lowered her head, picked the cracks in the floor with her fingers, and said slowly.

"I have a bad temper."

"Ah."

"I rarely apologize, even if I know I have done something wrong, I rarely say I am sorry."

"Ah."

"I have never coaxed anyone, never given anything to others, and I don't know how to say nice things."

"Ah."

"Maybe for one or two months in a year, I will ignore people for many days in a row, and I will not answer no matter how they are called."

Chai Jiu paused for a moment, then continued.

"There's no reason, it's just that I'm tired and don't want to talk."

He let out a long breath and explained slowly.

"I often feel very tired and have no desire to live. My mother used to be like this... Her depression has always been severe, and there are still many medicines she used to take at home... I thought I would be with her She is different, but later, I grew up and became more and more like her. Until now, I often have thoughts of wanting to die, and I can’t control it. I know, that kind of thing in my bones will follow me for the rest of my life I, but..."

Chai Jiu turned her face and looked into Ji Mi's eyes.

"But, I will go to the doctor, I will take my medicine, and I will stick to it. I will apply to college, I will finish my studies, I will work hard, I will support my sister, I will stay until the day my mother wakes up from the hospital, and I will continue to work hard. ...and will..."

"I see."

As Ji Mi said, she lowered her head and kissed the young man's lips.

"I will too."

I will come out of the shadows, I will stay away from those dangerous behaviors, I will try to change myself, I will try not to rely on alcohol and drugs, I will try to reduce the number of times of self-abuse, and I will try...to be better to myself.

I will... still muster the courage to welcome a new life with you.

"My mother and I are both British citizens. Next, she will bring me and the other siblings in the family and go back to England to join my grandfather's family." Ji Mi said, "My mother's natal family is very powerful in the UK. Make sure we can live there safely enough. When the situation stabilizes, we will find a way to get dad and uncle out of prison. If it goes well, it will take about a year..."

Ji Mi paused, looking at Chai Jiu.

"Then, let's make an agreement, student Chai Jiu."

He said it word for word.

"If a year later, we are not so bad, and we can still have the same relationship as today... then we will never be separated again! Okay?"

They met at the most immature age, showing each other the worst side without reservation.

In this chaotic world, they are all incomplete, imperfect blemishes.

"Okay..." The corners of Chai Jiu's mouth raised up very rarely, revealing a very rare smile.

But, but, so what?

As long as the dilapidated mortise and tenon can still be tightly interlocked, as long as the incomplete gears can still bite each other, pushing fate forward step by step, that's enough.

The life that belongs to young people is still very long, and they still have too much time to mend themselves, correct past mistakes, and then stumble along all the way until the end.

(End of text)

The author has something to say: finally...it's over, there will be a side story, and the code will be posted one after another in the next few days.

This chapter is the most tangled and longest chapter I have written. I don't know where to end this story. If it is only limited to "they are together" as the ending, I think it is inappropriate.So in the end, I chose to let the character completely collapse, and let the character of Mr. Cat step down from the altar in a destructive way.

The name of the story is "The Male God Effect", and it revolves around the encounter between the protagonist and the male god. The transformation of the protagonist under the various effects brought by the male god is the main line of the story; When you become a mortal, that is when the story really ends.

The male god is no longer a male god, but he is still the boy in white shirt who came from the sun deep in our memory.As for the little mole, after suffering, he gained the strength to live and the lover who will accompany him all his life.They still have problems of one kind or another, and they will inevitably stumble in the future, but everything will eventually be on the right track, and they will eventually find the most suitable way of getting along with the two of them.So next, I will update the episode from Ji Mi’s perspective and the story 20 years later. If you have any content you want to watch or are interested in, you can put it in the comments^_^

Really really thank every little angel who supports the captain,