die like the dodo

When Lu Boyuan called, Pei Zian was writing an application for job transfer.Lu Boyuan asked him if he was going to sleep, he typed a period on the keyboard, and suddenly felt like crying.

Lu Boyuan was too good, but he was too bad to be worthy of Lu Boyuan.

Pei Zian has no way to face himself like this. He is a sinner, the sinner who caused Apollo to fall. The only thing Pei Zian can think of is to leave his sun god far away and hide into the depths of the boundless darkness again.

Pei Zian resisted the urge to cry, and responded, "Mmm..."

"Then go to sleep. I'll come back the day after tomorrow, do you want to come pick me up?" Lu Boyuan's voice was a little gentle, and Pei Zian knew that this was his way of expressing his miss. He was saying come pick me up, I think the first time See you soon.

But after that car accident, those scars, the future that Lu Boyuan could have had, it was doomed that there would be no possibility between them.Pei Zian wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, bit his lips hard, and managed not to let out his crying. He hung up the phone quickly like a ghost running away: "No, I have something to do the day after tomorrow."

The busy tone of "beep" echoed in Lu Boyuan's ears, and he slowly lowered his eyes, his light-colored pupils gradually deepened, as reflected in them like unmelted glaciers.

He thought, has Pei Zian regretted it?

Pei Zian kept sinking in his dreams. He seldom had strange dreams recently, but from today onwards he reverted to his old ways.He felt that he had fallen into the bottom of a dark lake, cold and lonely, falling into it like a wandering soul, the rising water pressure squeezed his body, crushed his bones, and clenched his heart tightly. At the moment of bursting, He saw his god Apollo rising, illuminating the phantom at the bottom of the pool...

Pei Zian broke out in a cold sweat, the tearing pain was still imprinted on his skin, he curled himself up, thinking, Lu Boyuan must have been in more pain then than before...

He was torn apart in the dream, and after a reorganization from body to soul, he felt Lu Boyuan's pain firsthand, and understood how pale his support was.

The train traveled all the way to the city through the dry surface of winter, and Lu Bo came back a day earlier than he planned.

Jiang Yan was vague in the message he sent, and only told him to come back quickly to see Teacher Pei, and the phone call with Pei Zian also proved that he seemed to be hiding something on his mind.

Lu Boyuan frowned again, and when he realized it, he forced himself to stretch his expression.Pei Zian didn't like his frowning, he would always kiss Lu Boyuan with a precious kiss to smooth the wrinkles between Lu Boyuan's brows.

Thinking of this, Lu Boyuan's heart became softer, and at the same time he felt anxious about Pei Zian's abnormality.

"I'm here." Panting, he called Pei Zian, and when the door opened, Lu Boyuan hugged the person who opened the door tightly in his arms.

Pei Zian didn't speak, but quietly let him hold her.It's rare for Lu Boyuan to use a smiling tone, but this smile can't cover up the strange atmosphere between the two: "I'm scared, I'll come back early, and I'll give you a surprise."

Pei Zian sniffled and tried his best to keep calm. In fact, he could only keep his eyes slightly red but not shed tears, so he could only push Lu Boyuan away and turned his back: "Well, I was scared."

Lu Boyuan went to hold his hand, as if he was eager to prove something, and even blurted out an explicit show of love that he wouldn't say usually: "I miss you, so I want to come back soon."

Pei Zian tightly closed his eyes, he was very afraid that he would cry out and shamelessly occupy Lu Boyuan's love, which didn't belong to him, a sinner: "I'm going to transfer to another city."

Lu Boyuan's hands froze in the air, and he seemed to return to five years ago. The moment they broke up, he asked Pei Zian at the airport if they were still friends. Pei Zian reluctantly nodded his head with red eyes. Does Zian's heart hurt like this, but at this moment he feels that he can't breathe, and he begins to suspect that his reunion with Pei Zian is just a dream fabricated out of thin air due to brooding...

Pei Zian squeezed out a sentence with his last strength: "You said we are still friends..."

His voice was so pitiful and helpless, the air was silent for a moment, Lu Boyuan thought, if this is what Pei Zian wanted, then he would agree.He nodded slightly: "Well, we are still friends."

Hearing these words, Pei Zian completely lost his strength, and at the same time as the door closed, he also concluded the relationship that had been entangled for a long time, separating them on both sides of the door.At this moment, he understood that Lu Boyuan's words five years ago were not intended to humiliate him, nor was it a curse to trap him, but he just couldn't bear it, and hoped to leave even a little trace in the other party's heart...

The application submitted by Pei Zian received an answer quickly. The post of cultural relics restoration chose one job for the rest of his life. It is rare for him to apply for transfer to another city or the archaeological team. The reply from above asked him to think again, but it was not approved. But I recommended him the opportunity to study in the American Museum for a year.

Pei Zian agreed, which was like a life-saving straw for him at this time, and he was eager to find a chance to exile himself.Pei Zian didn't tell anyone else, he just wanted to leave the city quietly when the time came, and fled for a year or two or more. With the heart of running away, Pei Zian became an out-and-out deserter.

Before preparing to go to the United States, Pei Zian started to pack his things. He left half an hour later than usual to sort out the bits and pieces left in the ceramics group over the years.Materials and cultural relics cannot be taken away, and the things he packed up in the end were not as much as he thought, only one box was filled.In addition to some office supplies, it was a set of carving knives that his master gave him, and a few snacks stuffed by Xiaoyue.

It turned out that five years could be contained in a box. Pei Zian put the box into the bicycle basket, and the candied chestnuts suddenly jumped from the trunk of the apricot tree and got into the cardboard box.

Pei Zian touched it, and said reluctantly: "Teacher Tang, I'm leaving, and Xiaoyue will be responsible for feeding you in the future."

Tang Lizi's wagging tail stopped, and it stared at Pei Zian motionlessly with its eyes open, as if it wanted to leave with him.Pei Zian took it out, and it jumped back. The usually lazy cat was terribly stubborn at this moment.

Pei Zian had mixed feelings in his heart, he knelt down and hugged Teacher Baotang, he is really bad at parting, you see, as long as he keeps him, he will start to be reluctant.

The white-browed big yellow cat stretched out its head and gently rubbed Pei Zian's cheek, where it was wet, maybe it was thinking that human beings are so fragile that they would cry without the company of kittens.

The news that Pei Zian was going to study abroad was known by his colleagues, and everyone held a farewell banquet for him. That night, Pei Zian didn't refuse anyone who came and drank a lot of wine.

Xiaoyue hugged Pei Zian, her voice was choked up, she cried while swearing: "Master, I will definitely take good care of Teacher Tang, I will take the exam this year, and I will be a regular employee when you come back!"

Pei Zian smiled and patted Xiaoyue's head: "You can do it, just keep going."

Xiaoyue burst into tears and hugged him even tighter: "Teacher, you will continue to take me with you after you come back. I can't do it without you!"

Pei Zian always has a special kind of tolerance towards Xiaoyue, not only because girls need to be loved in his concept, but also because Xiaoyue is his first apprentice, a seedling he carefully caressed and cultivated, the old man took him away On this road, he also hopes to give Xiaoyue a ride.

Xiaoyue's growth is obvious to all, but she still lacks some self-confidence and needs the encouragement of the teacher.Pei Zian helped her wipe away the messy tears and snot on her face, and told her seriously: "You can do it, and you can do it well, Xiaoyue, you have to learn to believe in yourself, because I believe in you too."

He may not come back a year later. If the Provincial Bo does not agree to the job transfer application, Pei Zian will resign and study archaeology, and help Lu Boyuan complete the dream that was not fulfilled because of him. Before that, he hopes that Xiaoyue can no longer rely on him. He has truly grown into a big tree in his own right.

When the farewell banquet was over, Pei Zian was already too drunk, and Xiaoyue was also in a daze. She turned to the teacher's mobile phone, clicked on the number with the most calls in the call history, and dialed the phone.After a few calls, the phone was connected, and a deep male voice came. Xiaoyue smiled and said drunkenly: "Master, Master is drunk, come and pick him up."

Lu Boyuan put down the phone, put on his coat, and when he left the room, a postcard on the table was lifted by the corner of his coat and fell to the ground.It was a postcard with the vast grasslands of Duolun and the washed blue sky. Lu Boyuan picked up the postcard and looked at it for a long time, but in fact there was only one sentence on it.It was Pei Zian who carefully wrote down every stroke, and said the love language with all his strength in every stroke, and the light and fluffy paper traveled a long distance to come here, just like it said-"Life is short , but love is very long, I just want to send you the love of the whole universe and the longing from time immemorial to eternity.*”