die like the dodo

After listening to Pei Zian's report, Shen Bo was even more emotional. Lu Boyuan really had a sincere heart to devote himself to archaeology, but he didn't expect to be broken by a car accident.Shen Bo was silent for a while, and finally he could only sigh deeply: "Forget it, it's my fault for taking it for granted. Since he applied for the archaeological team four years ago, he would naturally not refuse. If he has this kind of intention now , I will not force him."

When Pei Zian heard Shen Bo mention four years ago, he suddenly remembered that on the train to Inner Mongolia, Shen Bo did mention that there was an alumnus of University B who had applied for the archaeological team but had an accident. He did not expect that the person he mentioned was actually Lu Boyuan.Thinking of that car accident, Pei Zian felt a twinge in his heart. Lu Boyuan hadn't told him the inside story, and he didn't dare to ask, so he still doesn't know the details of the accident at that time. He can only speculate from the scars on Lu Boyuan's body.

Shen Bo sighed to himself: "Why did the accident happen? In order to save a cat and make a career, I don't know what to say that he is too kind..."

Pei Zian frowned, and asked, "What cat?"

"Don't you know? Xiao Lu was in an accident because of saving the cat on Changying Road. It was a pity that he passed the interview that day."

Changying Road, cats, car accidents...

All of a sudden, all the doubts were connected in series, Pei Zian became stiff because of a possibility that popped up in his mind, and he didn't even bother to pick up his phone when it dropped on the ground.

Pei Zian clenched his fists, and his knuckles turned white due to excessive force. If it was really what he guessed, he would never forgive himself.

Jiang Yan felt strange when he suddenly received a message from Pei Zian. He didn't know why Teacher Pei was looking for him. He heard that his cousin had reunited with Teacher Pei. The two should be sweet, so why did they suddenly look for him? .

During this period of time, Tang Yu's Qing bar was very popular, because the new little chubby cat in the family was taken to the bar by Jiang Yan, the customer made a small video and became popular on the Internet, and it became an Internet celebrity cat. Jiang Yan felt sorry for Tang Yu's boss and bartender, and urged him to quickly recruit people, while she helped him greet the guests.

The little chubby cat is only a few months old, and it is the time when it is naughty and active. Because of its round face, Jiang Yan named it Xiaojuzi. The two short eyebrows of Xiaotangzi make it look naive, which is different from Tang Lizi. His laziness is also different from Monica's elegance. Recently, this little guy has been stealing the limelight on the Internet.

Most of the guests who come to the bar are to look at the little orange, so Jiangyan specially set up a cat climbing frame in the corner of the bar. The little orange climbed to the top of the cat climbing frame with its buttocks pouted, which attracted a lot of compliments from the guests. It seems to know that it is quite Popular, proudly raised his little head for everyone to take pictures, very star-like.

Little Tangerine hooked its paws and meowed at Monica at the side, look, these are its two-legged beasts.

Monica didn't bother to care about it at all, stretched herself, and jumped onto the bar.

Pei Zian frowned, sitting at the bar in silence.

Jiang Yan thought that Pei Zian meant to come to him another day when he said he had something to do, but he didn't expect Pei Zian to come here in a hurry not long after replying to the message.But his expression fell in Jiang Yan's eyes, and he knew at a glance that Pei Zian was pretending to be something, so he didn't dare to ask rashly.He only mixed a glass of liqueur for him, and waited for Pei Zian to speak.

Pei Zian raised the wine glass and took a sip from his mouth, a scent immediately spread on the tip of his tongue, but he was not in the mood to taste it right now, he felt that the sweet wine seemed to numb the tip of his tongue, sticking his tongue like glue, Make it difficult for him to speak.

But he always has to face the truth. Pei Zian settled down, clenched his jaw, took a deep breath, looked at Jiang Yan with burning eyes, and asked, "Jiang Yan, tell me what happened to Lu Boyuan?" A car accident?"

"...The other party made a mistake in driving and collided at an intersection. Teacher Pei, you... have already passed, and my brother is recovering quite well now."

Jiang Yan didn't expect that he was asking this question, and when he closed his eyes, he subconsciously wanted to hide it, but he didn't know that Pei Zian had already made up his mind, so he just came to him for confirmation.

"It didn't pass." Pei Zian drank the wine in his hand. The alcohol burned his esophagus, and he began to tremble: "The car accident happened because Lu Boyuan wanted to save Monica, and he saved Monica because he thought the cat was Tang Lizi, he saved Tang Lizi because of me, he got into a car accident because of me..."

He spoke quickly and urgently, without stopping at any point, as if he was going to drain his heart, lungs and spleen in one breath. Pei Zian opened his eyes and suddenly shed a tear. His words were like fishbone stuck in his throat, and he couldn't continue. up.

"Where did I get the face to say to start again, I caused him..."

Hearing what Pei Zian said, Jiang Yan couldn't bear to say: "Teacher Pei, don't say that, my brother loves you very much, you don't know that he misses you all the time in England, I saw him take pictures of you in his camera He definitely doesn't want you to think like this...I'll call him right now, don't think about it..."

Jiang Yan frantically went to get his phone, but Pei Zian interrupted him and wiped away his tears: "No need, I will explain it to him face to face when he comes back... Today, I'm bothering you."

After Pei Zian left the bar, Jiang Yan's heart was still like a ball of paper, tangled together, he didn't understand why it was so difficult for two people who love each other to be together, but he couldn't do anything, because this knot could only Unravel by themselves.

Even if Lu Boyuan didn't say anything, Pei Zian couldn't easily forgive himself. He is a stupid flower who doesn't understand anything. He self-righteously radiates what is called love, but he doesn't know that he is the one who caused Lu Boyuan to be scarred. Own.

Pei Zian suddenly felt nauseous, and ran into the toilet to vomit out the contents of his stomach. He had never hated himself more than at this moment, and felt a disgusting rancid smell all over his body. He said in that tone that he wanted to mend Lu Boyuan , is he the savior, so shameless...

He is not qualified to say those words to Lu Boyuan, and he is not even worthy of Lu Boyuan's love.Pei Zian took out his mobile phone and searched for the messages that Lu Boyuan had sent him in the past few days. Lu Boyuan asked him if he slept well at night and if he ate well. He read page by page, tears staining the screen.

On the last page of the diary, he left a sentence, which penetrated the paper, he owed too much to Lu Boyuan, and he would have no face to stay by Lu Boyuan's side.

"The dodo is so weak and stupid. The laws of nature make it extinct. It is not a cruel thing, but a creature like it is not suitable for existence. In this case, it has no value in living again."

Just let him die, there is no restart, Pei Zian turned off the screen, and everything became dark again.