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There were very few people on the last bus, and it was very quiet. Yang Siyuan sat in the corner, and the changing neon lights outside the window kept flashing in front of his eyes. The colors of the city streetscape came into his eyes, which made him feel like a blurred dream.Except for "dream", all other words are indescribable.

But anyway, he himself is clear that this is the reality, the reality that he has struggled for for nearly four years.

He is at ease in his heart, and this steadiness comes from everything he has done to be able to fall in love with Li Yu'an.

The bus was rickety, the streets were noisy and noisy, but he felt that the world was so peaceful, so peaceful that he showed a long-lost smile.

It was almost nine o'clock when I got home, the room was still dark, and Chen Limei hadn't come back yet.

He took a shower, then opened a can of beer, sat on the bed and drank it in one sip, and started to be in a daze after drinking, as if he wanted to use this form to digest the pain of the past few years and the joy of this day.

After the shorting was over, he picked up his phone and sent a message: "I miss you."

He didn't lie, since he watched Li Yu'an's figure get farther and farther away on the bus until he disappeared, he began to miss him.

The long separation and longing made him restless out of inertia, and the short hug and kiss did not make him completely at ease.

He knew that Li Yu'an was like this too, but Li Yu'an wouldn't express it, he would just stand under the bus sign and follow the car involuntarily as it drove away.

Once Yang Siyuan thought of that figure, he couldn't help but miss him crazily.

He didn't know restraint, but Li Yu'an knew it many years ago.

"...You just came home." Li Yuan replied.

Yang Siyuan laughed, squeezed the can, and threw it into the trash can.

"Yeah, but I still miss you. Don't you miss me? If you don't, I'll be sad."

He didn't expect Li Yu'an to reply, he just teased him habitually.

However, after a while, Li Yu'an said, "I want to."

It is easy to say a word, but it is extremely difficult for Li Yuan to express it.

If he can say "I want to", then he must have missed it to the point of unbearable.

Li Yu'an was tempted earlier than Yang Siyuan, struggled and suffered more than Yang Siyuan, Yang Siyuan knew it.

He had a sore nose and wanted to cry again.

"I want to live with you, I want to take care of you," he said.

At this moment Li Yu'an was sitting by the window, the lights outside the window were flickering, but none of them were as bright as that small phone screen.

He didn't expect Yang Siyuan to say that. For him, Yang Siyuan still likes him and being able to come back to him is already a great happiness. He never dared to ask for more.

"Need not……"

After a while, Yang Siyuan replied, "Don't you want to?"

Li Yu'an immediately panicked, and quickly said, "No."

He was still afraid, afraid that Yang Siyuan would discover his ugliness and filth after getting along with him day and night, afraid that he would hate himself and leave him, afraid that all of this would be fragile and shattered at the end.

He didn't know how to explain his feelings to Yang Siyuan, so he could only keep silent.

But in fact, Yang Siyuan knew what he was thinking, he knew Li Yuan's self-loathing that was deeply rooted in his heart, he knew that his request might make him panic, but he had to do it.

It was to satisfy himself selfishly, but it was more to let Li Yu'an slowly reconcile with himself. He didn't want Li Yu'an to live with such negative emotions for the rest of his life.

Of course, he couldn't say it directly, he could only change Li Yu'an slowly with actions.

After several deletions, deletions, and corrections, he replied: "I can tell my mother that I will go to work in the city. When you are working, I will draw pictures at home, then cook for you, and wait for you to go home. Talk, sleep with you. I want to be with you. I don’t want to miss you from time to time. I don’t want to contact you by mobile phone. Your hair grows a little bit, see if you get rice grains when you eat... I still have a lot of things I want to tell you, I want to sing to you, cut your hair, hug you and kiss you... Sorry , I may be a little impatient, but I don't want to lie to you. I don't want to be separated from you anymore. "

There were a lot of words, and Li Yuan read it for a long time, only to feel that a part of his heart was slowly softening, and there were some sour and warm emotions.

Yang Siyuan described a lot of details, and Li Yuan could even imagine what it would be like when they lived together... But his eyes stayed on one word, which kept asking him, forcing him to make a Decide.

"Family".

Yang Siyuan said that it was their "home".

A gust of wind blew through, blowing the hair on his forehead.His hair has been left untouched for too long, and it has grown a lot.

He remembered that Yang Siyuan had cut his hair a long time ago.

That seemed like a lifetime ago.

He held the phone, hesitated for a long time, and finally decided.He wants to live his life well.

"Okay." He replied when the colored lights on the opposite side came on.

……

A day later, Yang Siyuan rushed to the city early in the morning with a suitcase and a guitar on his back, and found Li Yuan's residence based on his memory, planning to give him a bear hug as a surprise when he opened the door.

He straightened his clothes and knocked on the door, but heard nothing.

It's not eight o'clock yet, isn't he still sleeping?He looked at the time and thought.

He was afraid that he was really sleeping, so he didn't dare to knock on the door again, and waited at the door for a while, but still didn't hear the sound, so he sat on the suitcase and continued to wait.

As a result, as soon as he sat down, Li Yu'an came back with a bag of fried dough sticks.

The two people looked at each other with big eyes, which was very embarrassing.

It's a surprise, it's a mess, it's a surprise, I'm afraid this surprise will oil up the two of them.

Li Yuan also froze in place, and immediately turned around and walked out after recovering: "I'll go buy another..."

Yang Siyuan quickly stood up and grabbed him, no matter whether he was oily or not, he went up and hugged him tightly.

But Li Yu'an was afraid that the fritters would rub against him, so he covered his back with his free hand: "Why didn't you tell me to come over today..."

Yang Siyuan said sullenly: "I can't wait anymore. My mom is playing with her boyfriend, don't care about me. I want to play with my boyfriend too. I wanted to surprise my boyfriend today, but he went out to buy fried dough sticks."

Li Yu'an: "..."

Back, Yang Siyuan, who used to be like a child, is back.When they reunited, Yang Siyuan's mature and steady aura had disappeared, replaced by a childish air that he hadn't seen for a long time.

Yang Siyuan has not changed, he is quite happy.

But he can't learn from Yang Siyuan, he has to change.

"I have a bad stomach, and I still eat so much oil in the morning. Leave this to me, and I'll buy you buns." After entering the door, Yang Siyuan took the bag in his hand and said with a curled mouth. "Don't worry about the box, just rest for a while and wait for me to come back and pack it up."

After he went out, Li Yuan sat on the bed and looked at the guitar bag.

He learned to play the guitar?So can he sing?Can you sing folk songs?

He imagined Yang Siyuan holding the guitar and playing and singing, as if he could hear his singing in his ears.

When Yang Siyuan came back, he was looking at the guitar eagerly, with a slight smile on his face.

The rising sun showed a corner by the window, and the scene where Li Yuan and Guitar faced each other was as peaceful and beautiful as a frame cut from a literary movie.

The corners of Yang Siyuan's mouth curled up slightly, he walked lightly, leaned forward, and whispered behind his ear, "What are you looking at?"

"!"

Li Yu'an was startled, turned around suddenly, and almost bumped into Yang Siyuan's nose.

Yang Siyuan laughed amused by his reaction, then kissed him lightly in this position, and did not forget to say: "Good morning kiss, one every day from now on."

"...Eat." Li Yuan pushed his glasses and said.

Yang Siyuan bought three radish stuffed buns and a cup of millet porridge.Just like four years ago.

"Have you always worked night shifts? Don't you work shifts?" Yang Siyuan asked while biting a fried dough stick.

"It should be a shift, but I'm used to going to work at night, and many people don't want to work at night, so I haven't changed it." Li Yu'an didn't hear a response after he finished speaking. When he looked up, he saw Yang Siyuan staring at him with wide eyes. He was a little flustered, and wiped the corner of his mouth: "...what's wrong?"

Yang Siyuan took his hand, pulled it over and bit the bun: "It's nothing, I just haven't heard you talk so much for a long time."

Li Yu'an: "..."

After breakfast, Li Yu'an was a little at a loss. After cleaning up the trash, he sat by the bed, not knowing what to do.

Normally, he should be writing the manuscript at this time, but now that Yang Siyuan is here, he doesn't want to leave him alone...

How well Yang Siyuan knew him, he had already seen through his awkward thoughts.

He took out his own drawing materials, put them on the table, and asked while laying them out, "How long will you be writing?"

"……One morning."

No, you must have been writing for a day before, and you just want to date me in the afternoon.Yang Siyuan thought to himself, and unconsciously smirked.

He pretended to adjust the color palette and said: "We will work together in the morning and take you out to play in the afternoon. I haven't drawn the illustration for your article yet."

Li Yu'an seized an opportunity to fight back, and immediately replied: "Are you taking me? Are you familiar with the city?"

Yang Siyuan was taken aback for a moment, and recognized the naive tone of a child arguing in his words. He turned his head and looked at him playfully, and said with a suppressed smile, "Why don't you take me with you? You work every day at two o'clock and one line. Does this street know where north is?"

Li Yu'an: "..."

I really dug a hole for myself, I'm afraid I won't be able to speak against him in my life.

"Okay, okay, come here quickly, the place has been tidied up for you, let's make money together to support the family." Yang Siyuan patted the table and said.

Li Yu'an sighed softly, sat down, and took out the manuscript paper and pen.

Yang Siyuan always wanted to tease him, so he pretended to be very serious, keeping his head down and drawing without even looking at him.But he was sure that Li Yu'an must have secretly glanced at him many times, otherwise he wouldn't stop writing for a while.

Sure enough, within an hour, Li Yu'an couldn't sit still, and asked in a low voice, "Well... can we stagger the time?"

"Huh? Why?" Yang Siyuan pretended not to know, and asked with a blank face. In fact, he was about to hurt himself from holding back his laughter.

"I'm...not used to having people next to me."

"But you also wrote at my house when you were young. Oh—" Yang Siyuan pretended to be suddenly enlightened again, and leaned forward and said, "Because you like me now, you always want to see me, and you are fascinated by it, aren't you?" ?”

Li Yu'an: "..."

The childish Yang Siyuan still seems to be very annoying, especially since he still knows himself so well and can always speak himself speechlessly.

Yang Siyuan finally couldn't hold back anymore, and laughed uncontrollably: "You are too cute hahaha... well, I really don't want to tease you anymore. So, I'll go to the mall to buy a folding table now, okay?"

Li Yu'an lost his temper and nodded his head. After Yang Siyuan got up and went out, he was relieved, rubbed his face, and tried to make himself more normal.

Is this... what it feels like to be in love?I seem to be completely different...

Just as he was thinking about this, he saw Yang Siyuan come back, ran to him, bent down and quickly pecked his mouth, grinningly said "kiss before leaving", and then ran erratically again up.

After he left, Li Yu'an realized that his face was burning up, and his ears were red all the way.

Yang Siyuan is simply a madman...

But the table that Kiss Kuangmo bought was not bad, but it was a little short. He was about to move things over there, but Yang Siyuan stopped him: "Hey, what are you doing, the small table is for me." Then he kissed He took a sip and whispered with a smile, "I'm afraid your legs are numb."

... Kiss the madman!Li Yu'an rarely shouted in his heart.

But he couldn't deny that he liked the feeling of being kissed by Yang Siyuan very much. The soft, soft, and tender feeling seemed to trigger a switch. The moment his lips touched, he felt his heart beat faster. One shot.Most importantly, this is proof that Yang Siyuan really likes him.

The sunlight gradually became stronger, casting a glowing rectangle on the ground. They sat back to back at both ends of the rectangle, bowing their heads and doing their own work. They didn't say a word to each other, but they were very at ease.

After a long time, Li Yu'an suddenly heard Yang Siyuan behind him screaming up to the sky: "Ah——I can't take it anymore!"

He was taken aback, and quickly turned around and asked, "What's wrong?"

Unexpectedly, Yang Siyuan threw himself on him, hugged him, and said aggrievedly: "I can't help it, hug him and continue painting."

Li Yu'an was speechless, but still gave him a hug honestly.

The morning passed quickly, and the work progress of both of them was very good. The painter drew a line draft, and the writer wrote half a page. When they asked each other, they lied tacitly.

And tacitly knew that the other party lied.

People in love are really interesting.

Yang Siyuan said he wanted to take Li Yu'an out to play, so he really took his hand and "led" him for a walk, and he didn't let go when he was shopping.

Li Yu'an was really scared, and didn't dare to move his hand, so he could only whisper to him: "It's better not to hold hands..."

"Why? Look at other young couples who are not holding hands. Are you afraid that others will gossip?" Yang Siyuan said.

Li Yu'an quickly explained: "No... I'm afraid... if someone you know sees it, they will tell your mother."

He doesn't care at all what others say, anyway, it's not the first day he's been talked about, he's immune to those gossips, he seems to be isolated from those people, living in his own little world .And now there is another Yang Siyuan in the small world, he is alone, he really doesn't need to think about himself, but he has to think for Yang Siyuan.

If Chen Limei found out, Yang Siyuan's life would be very sad.

"I have no acquaintances. The only three people who have been close to me since I was a child are old Qin, Chen Miao and Fanli, but we have no contact with each other. And..." Yang Siyuan turned around suddenly, and said seriously: "One day I'll tell my mother. Although I want to convince her slowly, if she suddenly finds out by coincidence, then I'm not afraid. As long as you don't leave, I'm not afraid. "

As soon as he got serious, he completely dropped the kid's smiling demeanor, and became a slightly aggressive adult just like when they met again in the cafe.

But this kind of strength and maturity gave Li Yu'an a charming sense of security, as if as long as he was by his side, there would be nothing in this world that could not be overcome.

Li Yu'an stared into his eyes and held his hand tightly.

……

The two of them went to the shopping mall first, and when they saw a nicer dress, Yang Siyuan put it on Li Yu'an, but Li Yu'an was tall and thin, and he looked like a model in everything he wore. Most of the small bags are for Li Yuan, and there are also a few T-shirts that I bought two of the same style, which can be regarded as couple outfits.

Yang Siyuan was really a bit ruthless in buying, and he didn't want Li Yu'an to pay for anything. Li Yu'an persuaded him several times, but finally Yang Siyuan got tired of hearing it, so he dragged him into the bathroom, kissed him against the wall for a long time, and said something in a low voice. "Besides, I'll kiss you outside in front of them." Only then did Li Yuan calm down.

The clothes are almost bought, and the wallet has lost weight, so Yang Siyuan dragged him to the game hall to grab dolls.Li Yu'an had never played before, and he didn't catch any of them. Yang Siyuan caught three in a row. He insisted on only catching them in the machine with rabbits, and finally hugged the three little rabbits and looked at them with a smile. Li Yu'an.

Li Yu'an was stunned for a long time before he remembered what happened to the little rabbit, and immediately he was speechless about Yang Siyuan's powerful memory and his increasingly childish behavior.

Is this the same person who pinned himself against the bathroom wall?

But he had no choice but to get used to Yang Siyuan, after all, he didn't want to be kissed by him in public.

An afternoon passed quickly, and when the sun began to fade, they finally returned home.

After entering the door, Yang Siyuan threw Li Yuan onto the bed, kissed him for a long time, and then said with satisfaction: "You just lie here and rest, I'll go buy some food for dinner."

As soon as he got up to leave, Li Yu'an stopped him: "Wait."

"what happened?"

Li Yuan groped around the bed for a while, took out a key and handed it to him: "Take the key."

Yang Siyuan took the small key, was stunned for a while and smiled, "I prepared it in advance, and said that he didn't want to live with me, lying would make his nose grow."

"I did it after I agreed..." Li Yu'an explained dryly.

"Just kidding." Yang Siyuan smiled slyly and ran away.

……

The light of the sunset was reflected on the table, and the dishes on the table were covered with a layer of bright colors. The dishes that were originally good-looking were even more attractive at this time. It is no exaggeration to say that this is the most sumptuous meal that Li Yuan has eaten in 22 years of a dinner.

"Is it delicious?" Yang Siyuan asked.

Li Yu'an nodded: "It's delicious."

"Then give me a kiss after dinner."

"..." Li Yu'an couldn't help it anymore: "Can't you restrain yourself..."

I don't know how many times I've kissed him in a day, why isn't he tired at all?

Yang Siyuan pursed his lips aggrievedly and said, "I want to kiss back everything I owe in the past four years."

As soon as he mentioned those four years, Li Yu'an was speechless.

Yang Siyuan immediately pursued the victory: "I'll take you to work tonight, okay?"

"……it is good."

……

In the midst of feasting and feasting, Yang Siyuan sat on a high stool, propped his chin, and kept his eyes on Li Yu'an for a moment.

After greeting the guests, Li Yuan saw that Yang Siyuan was still staring at him, and said, "...see what I do."

Yang Siyuan moved forward and said, "You look really good in this."

Li Yu'an: "..."

Yang Siyuan couldn't help giggling.

Li Yu'an couldn't bear it anymore, and didn't care about being shy or not, so he confessed directly and leniently: "I will be distracted when you are here."

Yang Siyuan laughed even louder: "Okay, then I'll go to another place to have fun."

Then he jumped off the stool, got into the crowd, and disappeared from Li Yuan's sight.

Now Li Yu'an couldn't see him, but he felt unaccustomed to him, always looking for him from time to time, and felt a little lost if he couldn't find him.

It wasn't until late at night that everyone left, he changed his clothes and waited for a while, but he still didn't arrive.

He was a little panicked, so he ran out to look for him, but as soon as he went out, he ran into Yang Siyuan head-on.

Yang Siyuan folded his hands behind his back, his eyes were full of deep affection.

Li Yuan was caught in his eyes, and stood there in a daze, until a large bunch of roses appeared in front of his eyes, and he seemed to withdraw from the deep pool of gaze.

However, the next moment, he was dragged back by Yang Siyuan's voice.

"Happy in love."

The fragrance of roses wafted in the wind and lingered around the two of them, until they embraced and fell asleep, those flowers were still blooming warmly under the moonlight.