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The longest train Yang Siyuan has ever been on in his life was the trip home during the summer vacation of his junior year. He lay on the sleeper and couldn't sleep at all. He turned over and over hundreds of times a night, and his mind was always like acting in a movie. Rehearsal after getting off the train.

I have to go home to put things away first, and then change my clothes. If I have time, I'd better get my hair done. The bangs are really sloppy.

Chen Limei shouldn't object to him going out, so he can go directly to the city at noon, and then go to the cafe early to wait for Li Yuan.

No, no, you can't go too early, what if Li Yu'an came and saw him and ran away?

You have to be later than Li Yuan!

Li Yu'an will never be late, so just a few minutes later than the agreed time will do.

Hmm, that's it, that should be fine.

What do you say after meeting?Say "Long time no see" as Yang Siyuan, or say "Hello, Mr. Li" as "Mu An"?

Ahhh, what should I do?What if he really wants to run away?I am not familiar with the city, what should I do if I lose it?

oh my god!

Yang Siyuan was so annoyed that his whole body became hot and dry, so he picked up the fan beside him and fanned it vigorously, but the more he fanned, the hotter he became, and the more he fanned, the more nervous he became.

The nervousness didn't diminish much until he got out of the car, but it became more obvious. Waiting for several hours sounded like a torture to him, and he almost wanted to go straight to the coffee shop for a short stay.

But rationality made him go home obediently, took a shower and changed clothes obediently, and then told Chen Limei that he was going to the city.As he expected, Chen Limei didn't care about his abnormal behavior of going out just after he came back, because she also had an appointment, and the two of them went out together in the end.

Yang Siyuan couldn't help sighing, people in love really can't tolerate other things in their eyes.

So if he falls in love with Li Yu'an, will it be the same?Tired and crooked all day long, wishing to stick together?

I really want to do this, but Li Yu'an's character shouldn't allow it?But he shouldn't object to himself, eh?

Sitting on the bus, Yang Siyuan swayed and swayed, his mind was full of these things, as if he was certain that he and Li Yu'an would be together, and he smiled bewilderedly along the way.

After arriving in the city, he took a taxi to a bookstore near the coffee shop. He walked around the bookstore more than a dozen times, until the clerk couldn't stand it anymore. He came to ask him what he needed, and he sat down obediently. Sitting on a stool in the store, I kept staring at the clock on the wall.

10 minutes 10 minutes... 8 minutes... 5 minutes...

It's time!

As soon as two o'clock arrived, he immediately ran out of the bookstore and went straight to the cafe. After running for 3 minutes, he rushed to the door, slamming on the brakes and almost hitting the glass.

Be calm, be calm, don't scare him.Yang Siyuan muttered to himself, then took a few deep breaths, slowly pushed the door open and walked in.

He looked around and found Li Yu'an at a glance.

Li Yuan was sitting by the glass window, looking out the window.

He didn't see me just now, did he?No, no, wrong direction.Yang Siyuan was startled, and then heaved a long sigh of relief.

Li Yuan, I found you.

He said this in his heart, and then walked towards Li Yu'an step by step. The footsteps were so soft that it was hard to notice, and the sound of breathing was completely hidden in the air.

The melodious cello music was playing in the cafe, and the afternoon sun through the glass dyed Li Yuan's outline with a layer of shining bright yellow. As he walked forward, he saw Li Yuan's side face became clearer and clearer. The ends of eyebrows and hair, his jaw line, the mole on his earlobe...

Memory and reality overlapped, Yang Siyuan seemed to see the summer four years ago, he was sitting on the back seat of the bicycle, tracing Li Yu'an's face against the light.He took a deep breath and stripped the person in front of him from the double image, and the illusory feeling gradually disappeared.

Already within reach, he walked to the table and paused.

The person who was looking intently out of the window seemed to have noticed him, and turned his head to look over.

The moment their eyes met, time stopped, the air forgot to flow, the sun lost its color, and the marriage proposal became hoarse.

It seemed as if there were only the two of them left in the whole world. They had traveled through countless springs, summers, autumns and winters, walked from each other's memories, and then met in the crowd.

"haven't seen you for a long time."

……

Today's weather is very hot, and the sun is frighteningly bright. Li Yu'an was walking on the road wearing a long-sleeved shirt, and his back was wet.

He was about to reach the cafe, but he didn't know what to do after he went in.Since I came half an hour earlier, Mu An should come later than him, but the possibility of coming earlier than him is not ruled out.But I don't know him, should I just find a seat to sit down or ask Mu An directly?

Just ask, it's not good if you make people wait for a long time.

When the coffee shop arrived, he opened the door and went in, but after scanning around, he found that the customers in the shop were all in pairs, and the only few people without companions were also middle-aged, so it must not be Mu An.

It seems that Mu An hasn't come yet, so let's sit down first.

So he sat down in the corner, sent Mu An a message, told him his location, and then stared out the window in a daze.

The sun scorched the earth and the heat wave engulfed the city, but the streets were still full of people.People are busy walking on the road with their own stories, passing by countless people, and becoming the most inconspicuous passers-by in each other's lives.

Li Yu'an was always in a daze, and when he lost his mind, he ignored everything around him, and didn't even notice that someone was walking towards him.

It wasn't until someone's figure was reflected on the glass in front of him, and that figure stopped behind him, that he finally reacted.

He turned his head to look, caught the man's gaze unexpectedly, and a familiar yet unfamiliar face broke into his pupils.

His breathing stopped for a moment, all the cells in his body died suddenly, and he couldn't even give him the strength to move.

This is...in a dream...

In the dream, Yang Siyuan lost a lot of weight and looked more mature, but the tenderness was still hidden in his eyes, even the corners of his eyes were curved gently.

Li Yu'an didn't dare to blink, he was afraid that if he blinked, he would wake up from the dream.

Even if it's a dream, let me dream it longer...

Suddenly, Yang Siyuan smiled slightly: "Long time no see."

This is not a dream.

Li Yu'an blinked, and Yang Siyuan was still standing in front of him.

It was Yang Siyuan who he had been waiting for.

……

After the cello piece was played, a piano piece was replaced, which was also a famous piece, but Yang Siyuan couldn't remember the name.

He and Li Yuan sat face to face, without saying a word to each other, silent for the duration of a piece of music.

In the end, it was Yang Siyuan who spoke: "I thought you would run away immediately when you saw it."

Li Yu'an: "..."

He wanted to run, but when he wanted to run, Yang Siyuan had already sat down, and it was such a hot day...

Well, he just couldn't bear to run away.

"You haven't changed much, why are you still so thin?" Yang Siyuan calmed down completely at this moment, and asked softly.

Li Yu'an raised his eyes, and finally dared to meet Yang Siyuan's gaze. "You...have lost weight too."

He responded.Yang Siyuan smiled.

"You know who I am right?"

Li Yu'an was silent for two seconds before replying, "Mu'an."

"Well, Mu'an." Yang Siyuan repeated the name again and asked, "Do you know what it means?"

Li Yu'an thought about these two words and shook his head.

Yang Siyuan looked around and said to him, "I have something to tell you. There are too many people here. Can I take you home?"

Li Yu'an is completely stunned now, only a small part of his brain is still active, and the other parts have completely shut down.

He nodded in a daze, but he didn't really listen to Yang Siyuan's words.

After leaving the cafe, he took Yang Siyuan on the way home. When he first came here, it was extremely hot, but now he couldn't feel the temperature at all.

"Your article is really well written. I knew you would be successful." Yang Siyuan said.

Li Yu'an didn't speak, he was holding the corner of his clothes tightly with both hands, looking a little unnatural.

"Do you work here?" Yang Siyuan asked.

This time Li Yu'an knew what to say, so he shook his head and replied, "No."

"Oh... I ran a long way to go to work again, the urban area is better than..."

"Here we are." Li Yu'an interrupted Yang Siyuan.

Before they knew it, they had arrived home. This was an old residential area, hidden behind high-rise buildings, and graffiti advertisements were everywhere, which formed a sharp contrast with the clean and tidy scene on the roadside when they came.

He still lives in this place.Yang Siyuan thought to himself.

They went up to the second floor, then Li Yuan unlocked and opened the door.But Yang Siyuan stopped outside the door and didn't go in.

It has been four years, and he is not sure whether Li Yuan still likes him, but all his previous imaginations are based on the foundation that Li Yuan still likes him, and this foundation may have collapsed.

I was too stupid to react to this question just now.

"I know you didn't react just now. I'm sorry. I should have given you time to think about it at the beginning. I was too anxious. Now," Yang Siyuan looked at him and said, "you see who this person is in front of you. If If you really don't want to see me, then I'll leave now. I'll leave this time, and I will never bother you again in the future. "

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, he wanted to slap himself again.Too stupid!Even if Li Yuan likes him, Li Yuan still thinks that he is unrequited love, so he will still avoid him!

How stupid, why did my mind stop suddenly?What if Li Yu'an really let him go?

Thinking of this, he suddenly became nervous.

Li Yu'an was also nervous. When he heard Yang Siyuan's last words, he immediately panicked. In just a few seconds, several villains were fighting in his mind, and the villain who won in the end supported him. It kept his nerves from breaking down completely.

"...Come in," he said.

Yang Siyuan was taken aback for a moment, then heaved a sigh of relief, and followed him into the house.

Li Yuan closed the door and stood face to face with Yang Siyuan.

Yang Siyuan leaned against the wall, was silent for a while and said, "Mu An, 'Mu' is the same as 'Mu' in 'Qingmu', do you know what I'm talking about?"

Li Yu'an also leaned against the opposite wall, lowered his head and said nothing.

"Li Yu'an, I like you." Yang Siyuan whispered.

Yang Siyuan liked Li Yu'an, Li Yu'an knew it, but he never believed it from the bottom of his heart.However, at this very moment, Yang Siyuan was standing in front of him, telling him...it was true.

Li Yu'an's back was pressed against the wall, and the coolness climbed up his back, trying to calm him down.

But Yang Siyuan didn't allow it.

He took a step forward and said, "My mom already told me about it."

What?Li Yu'an raised his head suddenly and found that his eye sockets were already red.

"You like me too, don't you? Tell me, do you like me?" Yang Siyuan walked forward again, looking into Li Yu'an's eyes and said.

He's going to cry... Li Yu'an thought.

Then he saw two lines of tears falling from Yang Siyuan's eyes, across his cheeks and corners of his mouth.

"Tell me...you...do you still like me? Do you like me?" Yang Siyuan asked in a crying voice, as if begging for an answer.

Yang Siyuan had cried before, and Li Yu'an had seen him cry.

But this time he felt very distressed, as if his cherished treasure was ruined by someone, and then he came back with scars all over his body, and he just wanted a hug.

He hadn't waited for Yang Siyuan for a long time, he had already given up a year ago.

Although he would still think of him, it was a different kind of feeling after all. Compared with hope and expectation, it was more pain.

He thought it meant that his liking for Yang Siyuan had worn off little by little, but when Yang Siyuan stood in front of him and asked him, he gave up again.

I like it, I like it so much that I go crazy, I like it so much that I can't sleep, I like it so much... I used to use you as the support to keep me alive.

But can I respond to him like this?

Even if we like each other, we can't be together after all, right?

Li Yu'an was constantly struggling in his heart, and his excessive self-loathing made him subconsciously feel that he could not fall in love with Yang Siyuan, but his instinct for warmth made him want to touch this possibly endless relationship.

He was so distraught that he didn't know what to say.

At this time, Yang Siyuan suddenly put his shoulders on his shoulders and cried, "Please...please tell me...do you like me?"

He actually asked himself with such a humble attitude...

Li Yuan's heart suddenly stopped, and then he felt a sharp pain.

He is actually begging me... What right do I have for him to beg me...

Li Yu'an was so distressed that he suddenly wanted to wipe the tears off his face, and hug him into his arms.

do my best……

What is more important than Yang Siyuan?

No.

Li Yu'an's eyes were also covered with mist, he restrained himself, trying to hold back his tears.

"I like it... I have always liked it..." He failed, and the moment he said the words, tears flowed down.

Yang Siyuan was taken aback for a moment, then hugged him and burst into tears.Li Yu'an also hugged him tightly, resting his chin on his shoulder, letting the tears flow continuously.

In the shadows where the sun can't reach, they embrace each other, as if embracing their own dreams.

……

"Are my eyes swollen?" Yang Siyuan asked while lying on the bed.

"One thing, it's too close, I can't see clearly..." Li Yu'an whispered, and then wanted to move back so that he could see clearly.

But Yang Siyuan supported the back of his head, rubbed the tip of his nose and said, "Don't watch it then, don't hide behind."

"……it is good."

Li Yuan stopped moving and lay down obediently.

He suddenly thought that Yang Siyuan must be very tired after working non-stop all day, so he said softly: "You are very tired... go to sleep for a while."

"I'm afraid I won't be able to find you when I wake up." Yang Siyuan said.

"……I do not go."

After such a day, Yang Siyuan was indeed very tired, especially when he lay down, he was swallowed up by sleepiness in an instant.

"Then I'll squint for a while, don't go."

"Don't go." Li Yu'an said, and then he felt the strength of the hand around his waist increased.

He looked at Yang Siyuan's sleeping face and thought it was really like a dream.

A few years ago, before he left him, he looked at him like this.At that time, Yang Siyuan was a little whiter and fatter than now, and he would not sleep with a slight frown like now, as if he would be awakened by a nightmare at any time.

He gently smoothed his brows, then took a bag of wet wipes from the bedside, gently wiped away his tears, and looked at his face carefully.

Now the one lying in front of him is Yang Siyuan, the one holding him is Yang Siyuan, and the one who just said that he likes him is also Yang Siyuan...

It's really like a dream.Li Yu'an thought.

But this is not a dream, this is reality.After thousands of times of torture, he waited until Yang Siyuan.

He and Yang Siyuan are together, so suddenly, so unexpectedly, so dreamlike...

He put his hands on Yang Siyuan's waist, hugged him gently, and waited quietly for him to wake up.

Yang Siyuan was so exhausted that he fell asleep unconsciously, and it was already evening when he woke up.

His consciousness woke up before his body. Before he opened his eyes, he instinctively wanted to make sure that Li Yu'an was still there, so he squeezed Li Yu'an's waist with a little force in his hand.

"...Are you awake?" Li Yuan asked in a low voice.

The person who touched him heard his voice again, and Yang Siyuan opened his eyes with peace of mind.

The afterglow of the setting sun outlines Li Yu'an's silhouette, Yang Siyuan's face is clearly reflected in his dark pupils, and there seems to be indescribable emotions in his soft eyes.

Yang Siyuan fell asleep, recovered from his emotions, and returned to his previous appearance, smiling and saying, "You want to kiss me again?"

...It seems that he is really awake.Li Yu'an thought to himself.

"My mother said you wanted to kiss me, didn't you?" Yang Siyuan asked.

Li Yu'an didn't answer, his face was as red and hot as a fire.

"Did you kiss me when I fell asleep just now?" Yang Siyuan asked again.

"...No." Li Yu'an was about to explode in shame.

Yang Siyuan suppressed a smile, and leaned forward again, pulling the distance between the two of them to the point where they couldn't get any closer.

"I'm not moving, I'll give you a kiss. Kiss." He closed his eyes and said.

Li Yu'an: "..."

He knew that Li Yu'an would definitely not be able to do it, he just wanted to see Li Yu'an blush.

"I'm your boyfriend now, you can kiss me now," he said.

Li Yu'an was speechless, and almost wanted to get into the crack of the bed.

Seeing his appearance, Yang Siyuan couldn't help laughing: "Okay, I won't tease you anymore." Then he gently pinched Li Yu'an's chin, and whispered: "If you don't kiss me, then I will kiss you. I'll count to three, and if you don't refuse, I'll take it as your consent."

"Three...two...one."

He pressed Li Yu'an's soft lips and kissed them softly, as if he was kissing a flower that had just bloomed.

After a few kisses, he felt Li Yu'an's cautious response, so he took a step forward and gently pried open Li Yu'an's teeth.Li Yu'an was startled at first, but he quickly came to his senses and still responded clumsily.

With permission, Yang Siyuan boldly wrapped Li Yu'an's tongue around him, wandering freely in his mouth, and taught Li Yu'an how to kiss by himself.Of course, he has no experience, and this technique was taught to him by the boy who had a one-night stand.

But this little effort has given them great joy.

Li Yu'an imitated his rhythm and intertwined with him, only feeling as if he was floating in mid-air, an unreal feeling.

After the long kiss was over, Yang Siyuan kissed him lightly again, and then stroked his face.

Their eyes met, and each other's eyes were full of affection.

"Li Yu'an, I like you."

"I like you too."