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At the beginning of July, Qin Ziliang came home from vacation, Yang Siyuan and Chen Miao went to the station to pick him up, but Qin Ziliang brought back a girl without telling them in advance.

The girl was petite and fair, she didn't look like a college student, she looked a few years younger than Chen Miao.She also speaks softly, sweet and soft, which arouses people's desire to protect.

Yang Siyuan and Chen Miao were still looking at each other, not knowing what to say, when Qin Ziliang put his arms around the girl's shoulder and said to them, "Let me introduce you, Luo Ziyi, my girlfriend."

"Hello, sister-in-law~ I'm Chen Miao, his cousin, he should have told you already?" Chen Miao had indeed seen a big scene before, and immediately caught his words.

Luo Ziyi nodded quickly and greeted her with a smile.

"Ah, uh, my name is Yang Siyuan, old Qin's friend. Hello, hello." Yang Siyuan said in a daze after a while of reaction.

"Yeah, he often mentions you." Luo Ziyi said.

On the bus back home, Qin Ziliang and Yang Siyuan sat together, watching the two girls chatting there as if they had met each other, and couldn't help but sigh in their hearts that the friendship between girls is really amazing.

"Is this the one you said before?" Yang Siyuan asked.

Qin Ziliang nodded: "Yeah, I've been chasing you for a long time. How's it going, doesn't it look good?"

Yang Siyuan smiled: "It looks good."

Qin Ziliang forgot about her affectionately for a while, then sighed and said, "Oh, how can there be such a good girl in this world. Tell me, who can bear such a good family background, good temper, and good looks?" ?”

Yang Siyuan made fun of him, then leaned against the window, thinking of Fan Li.

Indeed, who could resist such a girl?

He thought about the three words Qin Ziliang used to describe her, and found that Fan Li couldn't match any of them, but the junior high school monitor that Qin Ziliang had pursued, all these conditions were very suitable.

He glanced at Qin Ziliang, and suddenly felt that maybe his feelings were wrong. Qin Ziliang might not have too much affection for Fan Li, because no matter how he looked at it, Fan Li was completely different from the other girls he had pursued.

"Ah..." Suddenly, Qin Ziliang sighed, and said, "There is one thing I don't really like... Hey, you said that she is my girlfriend, why do you always say that I look like a couple with other men? "

Yang Siyuan was taken aback for a moment, thinking that he had also said this before.

Qin Ziliang couldn't accept men and men, Yang Siyuan knew it very well.

What if this kind of thing happened to Yang Siyuan?Can he accept Yang Siyuan?

He responded casually: "Just kidding, she likes you, how could she really let you pair up with someone else. And if you like women, she must be joking."

Qin Ziliang turned to look at him, and nodded thoughtfully: "Well, that's right. I'm fine, I just feel a little sick..."

Yang Siyuan couldn't remember what he said later. To be honest, as soon as the word "disgusting" came out, his mind buzzed and he couldn't hear anything.

He smiled dryly, and tried his best to respond to Qin Ziliang, and then Qin Ziliang was finally tired, so he could lean against the window to rest for a while.

The scenery outside the window was receding rapidly, before leaving a frame of image in his eyes, it was hastily thrown away, leaving only a few afterimages to let people know his existence.

Yang Siyuan closed his eyes slightly, and felt that he had no strength even though he hadn't done anything.

He and Qin Ziliang have such a good relationship, there is no way to hide many things, if you don't explain today, you will talk about it tomorrow, no matter what, it is impossible to live in such a muddle.No matter how he and Li Yu'an ended up, the fact that he was gay could not be changed, and he didn't want to delay a girl, so it was impossible to marry someone else.

But how on earth is he going to talk to Qin Ziliang?

What will be the consequences after saying it?

He doesn't have many friends, and his relationship with Fan Li is irretrievable. He doesn't want to lose Qin Ziliang anymore.But at the same time, he didn't want to just cover up like this, so that he wouldn't be able to show his true colors to others for the rest of his life.

After returning home, a few people cleaned up and went out to eat together.

There was no fish on the dinner table, so Qin Ziliang didn't have to think about how to spit the thorns.As he ate, he told them what was new in college, about courses, clubs, activities, and relationships.

Qin Ziliang did not bring Luo Ziyi back to meet his parents, but the couple formed a practical team to do some practical activities here.

"Have you two known each other for a long time? He mentions you every now and then, and sometimes I can't stop him." Luo Ziyi asked Yang Siyuan.

Yang Siyuan thought to himself that this might be a match between him and Qin Ziliang...

"Ah, we've known each other for many years, and I'm young." Yang Siyuan nodded.

Sure enough, Luo Ziyi's eyes lit up immediately, which surprised Yang Siyuan.

"Hey, Dayang and I have a pure brotherhood, don't keep thinking about what's there and what's not." Qin Ziliang saw that she was about to find a partner for himself again, and hurriedly stopped her.

Luo Ziyi stuck out his tongue and smiled at Yang Siyuan.

Yang Siyuan: "..."

She needs to know that Yang Siyuan really likes men...

But she will stay here for a few days, as long as she doesn't tell her about such a private matter, she has no reason to know, Yang Siyuan is a little relieved.But then he suddenly felt sad again.

As long as you don't say it...

But does he really not want to say it?

In the final analysis, he still hopes that someone can understand and listen to him from the bottom of his heart.Now I met a person who would never dislike homosexuality, but he dared not speak out because of his timidity and worry. No matter how he thought about it, it made him uncomfortable.

In the evening, a group of people sent Luo Ziyi back to the hotel, and then went home separately.

On the way back, Yang Siyuan was still restless.

After being restless like this for a few days, it was the day when Luo Ziyi came home in a blink of an eye.Luo Ziyi and Chen Miao established a deep friendship in just a few days, and insisted on having another meal with them the night before they left.

It's still the same four people, it's still the same restaurant, but Yang Siyuan can't calm down no matter what.

"What's wrong with you?" Luo Ziyi asked, seeing that Yang Siyuan's expression was not good.

Yang Siyuan shook his head hastily, and ate with his head buried in his mouth. Nothing the three of them were talking about could reach his ears.

"Hey, go and buy another bottle of Coke." Luo Ziyi said to Qin Ziliang.

"Then I'll go out and buy it. This restaurant is thieves." Qin Ziliang was ordered to get up and go out to buy Coke.

Yang Siyuan even suspected that God had figured out his thoughts. As soon as Qin Ziliang went out, Chen Miao went to the bathroom on the back, leaving him and Luo Ziyi staring at each other in this small private room, which was very embarrassing.

Luo Ziyi looked at him for a while, then couldn't help but said, "Are you really okay?"

"..." Yang Siyuan stared at her silently for a while, then drank the Coke in the glass, and smashed the glass on the table with a "bang", as if a strong man was going to war.

Luo Ziyi was startled, blinked, and backed away a little.

This is the last chance... If I don't talk about it, I don't know when I will meet the next person who can understand me.

Do I want to shrink back like this for the rest of my life?

Yang Siyuan took a deep breath, then let it out slowly, calmed down, and said carefully: "That...sister-in-law. I want to tell you something..."

"Huh? What?"

"Are you... do you support homosexuality?"

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, Luo Ziyi's eyes lit up again like that day, staring straight at him.

"Support!" Luo Ziyi clenched his fists excitedly, then turned to look outside, leaned over and asked in a low voice, "You, why do you ask such a question? Could it be that you..."

She didn't finish her sentence, but there was already a look of understanding in her eyes.

There is no room for denying the words spoken and the water poured out.

Yang Siyuan nodded slowly.

"!!!" If it wasn't for the restaurant, Luo Ziyi would have jumped up. "Then that, are you treating Ziliang..."

Auntie!Yang Siyuan shook his head quickly, and hurriedly said: "No, no...it's a friend of mine who used to be my tutor."

"Wow!!!" Luo Ziyi yelled uncontrollably, then suddenly paused, as if thinking of something, asked quietly: "Wait... Chen Miao told me two days ago that he likes a boy, is it Your teacher. You...you like the same person?!"

"..." Yang Siyuan nodded stiffly.

"My God! Then you two..."

Before she finished speaking, Chen Miao came back. She swallowed the second half of the sentence abruptly, but kept looking at Yang Siyuan, and then pointed to the phone.Yang Siyuan thought she probably wanted to chat with him on the phone.

After a meal, he was distracted, and when he got home at night, he fell headlong on the bed, buried his head in the pillow, and thought about many things in a mess.

"She won't tell Lao Qin..."

He rolled over.

"But sooner or later, I have to tell Lao Qin..."

He rolled over again.

"Ah ah ah ah ah!"

Tossing and turning made him sweat all over, and the more he thought about it, the more he panicked.

While he was in a panic, a notification sounded, which made him tremble with fright.

It's Luo Ziyi's friend verification.

Yang Siyuan hesitated for two seconds, then pressed agree.

A message was quickly sent over there—"Which of you two is Gong?"

ah?attack?What's the meaning?

Yang Siyuan was confused: "Uh, I don't quite understand. No...you got it wrong, he doesn't like me."

There was silence for a while.

"God. You fell in love with a straight man?"

Straight man?What are these things?Is there any learning in this?

Yang Siyuan didn't understand, and didn't want to know, he just wanted to understand one thing - "Well, I actually just want to know one thing. Is homosexuality... normal?"

When he sent this message, his heart was hanging.Although he could see that Luo Ziyi fully supported homosexuality, just because some people supported it did not mean that homosexuality was normal.At least, he has grown up so much that he hasn't seen a man with a man.

He stared at the blindingly bright screen in the dark, his heart beating along with the beating little keyboard icon next to Luo Ziyi's head, his sweaty fingers trembling slightly.

It seemed that they had been typing for a long time, but the last thing they sent was only one sentence.

"Do you really like him?"

Yang Siyuan was taken aback.

Do you really like it?

He thought about it day and night, as long as his brain rested, it would be full of Li Yuan's shadow.

Thin him, cold him, mature him, childish him, desperate him, soft him...

The reddish cheeks when he pretended to be calm, the firm back when he stood up, the fragile shoulders when he collapsed and cried, the gentle eyes when he opened his heart...

Can these prove his sincerity?

He wants to see Li Yuan all the time, he wants to hug him and kiss him, he wants to give Li Yuan a warm hut, he wants to give him all the good things...

What about these?Does it mean he is sincere?

Yang Siyuan closed his eyes and peeled away the fog in his mind.

"Yes." After a while, he replied without hesitation.

"How can there be abnormality in sincerity? There is nothing wrong with sincerity."

The phone screen was on for a long time, then went dark, and finally went out completely.Yang Siyuan held the phone, his eyes were bright and dark, but he didn't want to turn on the phone again.

The hanging heart seemed to have no movement, the breath disappeared into the air, and the night was so silent that nothing could be heard.

It's true...

Am I normal...?

He said good night, curled up on the bed, and questioned his heart.

……

The house Li Yuan rented had no air-conditioning and small windows, so it was unbearably hot at night.He sat on the ground sorting out the manuscript, sweating slightly.

It's already late July, and it's summer again.

"..." Suddenly, his hand froze and stopped on a piece of paper.

It was a manuscript that he hadn't sent out before. Because he had revised it too many times, he felt that he couldn't express it correctly, so he simply piled it up with other manuscripts and took them all over.

There were too many revisions and revisions on that piece of paper, and it looked messy, but there was a sentence circled in red pen, and there was no trace of revision.

"Oneself or others, always have to treat one side badly."

Li Yu'an slowly picked up the piece of paper, stroking the handwriting left by the black ink.

"It's really well written, do you really think so?"

"You know, you're the kindest, most understanding, gentlest person I've ever met..."

Li Yu'an rubbed the center of his brows, let out a sigh of relief, then crumpled the piece of paper and threw it aside.

During the holidays, the bookstore suddenly became busy, and there were a lot of tutorial books such as college entrance examination mock questions and real test analysis, and the people who came in and out were all high school students in school uniforms.

The school uniforms are green, blue, red and white, and red and black, but they don’t have the white base of No. [-] Middle School, only a few light blue and red patterns are added. Looking at it, Li Yuan feels that it is still No. [-] Middle School. The school uniform looks good.

It's just that I didn't pay attention when I was wearing it... Maybe it was because I saw a good-looking model later.

After all, such a youthful school uniform is the most suitable for Yang Siyuan's face.

... What's going on, didn't you say you'd better not miss him anymore, why can't you bear it like taking drugs?

Li Yuan frowned, wishing he could slap himself.

Suddenly, there was a circle of people around the short bookshelf on the other side of the newspaper, as if they were reading some books together.

"Brother Li, go over there and have a look, don't let them get stuck there!" Cen Huan, who was cashiering, said to him.

Li Yu'an nodded and walked over.

"I'm sorry, don't everyone gather here, okay..." Li Yu'an tried his best to squeeze into the crowd, wondering if the books here were not sorted out, that's why they all gathered here.

Just when he was thinking of spreading out the books on other bookshelves for them to read, he was pushed to the front and almost fell on the short shelf after being pushed a few times.Fortunately, he supported it with his hands and supported it on the shelf without falling down.

He adjusted his glasses and was about to get up when he caught a glimpse of the book they were flipping through and was stunned.

It wasn't even a book, it was just a pamphlet, and he knew right away what it was.

This is because these schools established a college alliance a few years ago. The original intention was that it would be more convenient to take the entrance exam together.This pamphlet is one of those "somethings and nothings".

Every year after the admissions of the college entrance examination come out, the schools in the college alliance will count the outstanding graduates of their schools, including prospective college students admitted to Qingbei, 985, 211 and other famous colleges.

Li Yu'an came out of No. [-] Middle School anyway, and these pamphlets were distributed in the school back then, of course he could recognize them at a glance, which is not surprising.What stunned him was a photo in this year's brochure - a white school uniform with red and blue decorations, a tall and slender teenager squinting slightly in the sun.

Name, Yang Siyuan.

Below is his college entrance examination score and admission notice.

Li Yu'an's eyelashes trembled slightly, he restrained himself, and moved his eyes little by little.

The score is a little less than I estimated, but it is already very good.

University...Looking at the name, Li Yu'an suddenly felt that the world suddenly became empty, leaving only him and this photo here, and the surroundings became silent, the air seemed to be stagnant, making it difficult for him to breathe.

It was a far city.

Thousands of miles away.