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In the end, Yang Siyuan did not tell Chen Limei about Yang Jianxin's derailment.

He told himself that he was actually looking for a suitable opportunity, but how could people deceive him.

He just didn't know how to speak.

Chen Limei married from another city, and both parents were unwilling. The man's family disliked the woman as a foreigner, and the woman disliked the man's family for having no money.

There is no new house, no wedding, and even the dowry is made up later.

When he heard these things when he was a child, Yang Siyuan knew that his parents must love each other very much.Love each other, never change until death... It is not an exaggeration to use these words to describe.

But... why did it become like this?

Betrayed by his beloved, how would he tell Chen Limei?

Will she break down?

Will she get a divorce?

Who will I live with?

……

These strange and heavy questions were thrown at him one by one, and every word was like a needle piercing his throat, making him unable to speak.

Maybe I'm really a coward, he thought.

He knew that his family was about to face a storm, but even if he had predicted it, he didn't know how to stop or avoid it.

He can only do what he can do.

Chen Limei valued his grades, so he could only suddenly study desperately, so that Chen Limei could feel relieved after the storm.

The entrance exam is getting closer and closer, and he is becoming more and more like a good student, not distracted in class anymore.

Dong Dong didn't understand and asked him to talk to him.

Yang Siyuan remembers very clearly that day he asked him: "It's a good thing to be enlightened. You said that you have such a good foundation, so you can't waste it! Tell me, do you have any goals?"

He also answered this question before, he said it was Yang Mei, and he was so angry by this person, but he got the support of another person.

But how can that be?

"For the time being...not yet." He remembered him saying this.

What goal... Let my mother not be too sad.he thinks.

Although he was busy preparing for the entrance exam, he still sent Li Yu'an home every night, occasionally meeting the puppy who came out to greet him and would play with it for a while.

He didn't know whether it was because of the quietness of the night or Li Yu'an's aura, but he always felt that the ten minutes when he sent Li Yu'an home was the most peaceful and relaxed time of the day.

Li Yuan didn't prepare milk tea for him anymore, but started to heat milk for him one day.

"What if I'm a baby?" Yang Siyuan didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

"Milk helps sleep."

There were no stars that night, and it was almost extremely dark. Yang Siyuan held the bottle of milk tightly at an angle that Li Yuan couldn't see.He secretly laughed while holding the milk bottle for a long time.

He confirmed 100% that day that Li Yuan regarded him as a friend, and a very good friend at that.

He also hesitated that night, should he tell him what happened at home?Although the man always acted like he had nothing to do with him, Li Yu'an's worried attitude was obvious to him, and he didn't want him to worry.

At the same time, I also want to vent... What a selfish thought.

But he didn't say it in the end, and there was only one reason - he had a family, but Li Yu'an didn't.

He can't use his own pain to expose other people's scars.

So he chose not to talk about it.

But Li Yu'an was really too smart, seeing that he was hesitant to speak, and asked, "What's wrong?"

Yang Siyuan smiled: "It's nothing, it's just... I prefer to drink in boxes."

So the later milk became boxed, but it was still warm.

More than half of October has passed, and Dong Bubu actually hung a small blackboard in the classroom for the countdown, making it a match for the college entrance examination, only a hundred days away from the swearing-in.

Fan Li had already left, and Yang Siyuan was not present to carry the luggage over the weekend.

The seat in front is empty, and the podium can be seen more clearly, but sometimes when he rests on the table after class, he still stares at the table in front of him in a daze.

"Yang Siyuan, can you know this question? I didn't understand what the teacher said in class, can you explain it to me?" The world has really changed, and people have come to ask him questions.

"Ah, this question... the teacher's method is too complicated, let me tell you another one." The world has indeed changed, and he can actually give lectures to others.

"Don't worry about this constant, first unify the form of the variable here..." He skillfully wrote the formula deformation on the draft paper, and analyzed the problem step by step. Simply like a routine question.

"Wow...you are too good..." The girl in question admired sincerely, probably feeling that she had discovered a buried piece of gold.

"Uh, it's okay..." Yang Siyuan scratched his ear and said shyly.

In fact, he himself was a little surprised. He could come up with such a topic by himself, but he definitely had to hit a wall a few times to find the right way.He is smart, but his train of thought is not clear, he only relies on his feelings, he doesn't know how to get the answer, and of course he can't explain it to others clearly.

After the girl thanked her again and left with the notebook in her hand, he bit the pen, looked down at the draft paper and pondered why he was suddenly so good.

The problem-solving process on the draft paper is so familiar, and the digital strokes seem to be jumping, separated and jumped aside, spelling out the person's name.

The cap of the pen "clicked" and he couldn't help laughing.

What a good teacher.

So he planned to take care of the teacher's business at night.

"Handsome guy, a cup of sakura milk tea. Oh, handsome guy should make it himself." He said with a sly smile as he always lay on the table.

Li Yuan didn't even look at him, and said, "Sorry, there are no handsome guys."

"Wow, you have so little confidence in yourself? Aren't you a class grass of your class or something?"

"...what a mess."

"Chen Miao's certified handsome guy counts."

"..."

Speaking of Chen Miaolai, Li Yu'an's head got dizzy, and he quickly threw a cup of milk tea to cover his mouth.

"Huh? Chen Miao hasn't been looking for you recently?" Yang Bagua went online.

"..." How come milk tea can't stop this mouth?

Li Yu'an was speechless, and stiffly took out a big bag from under the table, put it on Yang Siyuan's side, and said, "You take it back for her."

"What is this? It's so big." Yang Siyuan glanced in symbolically and asked casually.

"I don't know, maybe it's a doll." Li Yu'an replied.

"Huh? What is it?" Yang Siyuan pretended not to hear, and asked again.

"……baby."

"Pfft—hahahahahahahahaha..." Yang Siyuan suddenly laughed out of nowhere.

Li Yu'an looked at him as if he was looking at a mentally retarded person.

"I, I just think...how come these two words come out of your mouth so cute...hahahaha..." Yang Siyuan couldn't help it again.

Indeed, it is very contrasting to say this kind of redundancies with such a cold face, Li Yuan's face is a little red.

"Are you excited today?" He changed the subject.

"Ah, I gave a lecture today!"

"So powerful." Li Yu'an raised his eyebrows, "You can pull it down" all over his face.

I saw Yang Siyuan leaned forward again, and said softly: "You don't trust your student so much, Mr. Li?"

"...you stay away from me."

"Hahahaha shy hahaha..."

Yang Siyuan seemed to have found some rare joy, so he teased Li Yu'an all the way, almost crying himself out of laughter.

"You don't want to sleep tonight? Do you want to laugh all night?" Before parting, Li Yu'an saw that Yang Siyuan was still holding back his smile, and he couldn't bear it.

"I have the milk from Teacher Li, and a baby, baby. I can sleep hahaha..." He deliberately put the emphasis on the word "baby", which made Li Yu'an's ears red with anger.

"Okay, okay, I won't tease you, go to bed early. Don't bark at night, your master doesn't sleep well, and you have dark circles!" He also squatted down and pointed at the puppy to reprimand, and the puppy happily rushed straight He wags his tail.

You bastard, just go with him... Li Yu'an thought.

After watching Yang Siyuan leave, he lowered his head and touched his eyes.He never cared about things like dark circles under his eyes, he thought no one would care about them, including himself.

But under the dim light of struggling to survive in the dark night, the man could see his exhaustion and remembered it in his heart.

He didn't know what to feel in his heart, but he suddenly felt flustered for no reason.

Yes, flustered.

I really can't stand people's concern.He smiled wryly.

That night, he went to bed very early on a rare occasion. He didn't write or read the papers. He lay obediently, brewing sleep, and fell into a warm yellow dream.

A few days before the entrance exam, Chen Limei suddenly took a break from work and went home early every day, but she never mentioned Yang Jianxin.

But Yang Siyuan saw everything she did.

When he went to do the laundry, he would see that there was no Yang Jianxin’s clothes in the dirty laundry bucket. Occasionally, when he went to his parents’ bedroom, he would see that there was only one of the two pillows left. When he was watching TV in the living room, he would find that there was no Yang Jianxin’s antihypertensive medicine on the coffee table.

It was as if the man was slowly disappearing, fading out of his life with traces of his existence.

What made him feel wrong was that Chen Limei didn't say anything about it, as if he didn't notice it.

As the days passed, Yang Siyuan felt more and more uneasy.He had to let the fog in front of him clear up, even if there was hell behind the fog, he had to let himself see it to feel at ease.

There are two days left before the exam.

"Mom, why is there only one pillow in your room?" During dinner, he asked casually while chewing eggplant.

Chen Limei probably didn't expect him to notice this, the action of picking up the vegetables froze for a moment, and then said casually: "The other one has been washed."

"Oh." Yang Siyuan replied, "But I didn't even see the pillow."

"...I missed it, I threw it away." Chen Limei frowned, a little impatiently.

"Neither a pillow case."

"Yang Siyuan!" Chen Limei finally couldn't bear it anymore.When the chopsticks fell, they collided with the porcelain plate and made a harsh sound. Together with her angry reprimand, they rushed to Yang Siyuan's ears.

This reaction didn't scare him, but it made him feel cold.

He didn't move, just raised his eyes and looked at Chen Limei.

The eyes of the two people met, one was as dead and firm as deep water, the other was hot but erratic like a flame.

Chen Limei met Yang Siyuan's eyes and suddenly felt that this boy was so strange.

She seemed a little guilty, cleared her throat and said in a perfunctory way: "My lord's business..."

"I see. I won't ask." Yang Siyuan interrupted her lightly, and then took a piece of roasted eggplant, "The roasted eggplant is very delicious."

Half of the fog had cleared, but Yang Siyuan didn't see hell. What he saw was a wasteland, a wasteland that seemed to have withered for more than ten years.

The day before the joint exam, the grades began to organize students to arrange the exam room.

Due to the large class capacity and the limited number of people in the examination room, every time there is such a large-scale examination, the students have to move tables back and forth.

Yang Siyuan's grades are at the top, so he has to go to the laboratory test at the other end of the corridor.The laboratory has been a haunted house for a long time, and no one is responsible for cleaning it. It can only be cleaned up by those who take the exam there.

As a result, students walking back and forth in the corridors were holding various experimental equipment.

Yang Siyuan rolled up the sleeves of his school uniform jacket and carried a large suitcase as he walked.

The afternoon sun just hit, he squinted his eyes reflexively, and moved to a shadowed place against the wall, but suddenly bumped into a person.

"Ah, sorry." He quickly looked up and apologized.

But seeing the man look disdainful, waved his hands impatiently, and glanced at him with disgust, then turned around the corner of the stairs and ran downstairs.

"..." Looking at the man's really arrogant and eye-catching hairstyle, Yang Siyuan was speechless for a while.

Why didn't No. [-] Middle School stipulate that boys' hair should not reach the sky?

He thought silently, then glanced downstairs unconsciously, wanting to look at the nose of the plane again unconsciously.

They were on the second floor, and the man ran into the yard after a while, but he was seen wandering among the busy students, with a very clear goal - the gate.

Naturally, Yang Siyuan didn't pay that much attention to where he was going, it was just due to his inertia, he naturally looked towards the door.

It doesn't matter if you don't look at it, just glanced at it, and he almost threw the box and cried out.

……Depend on!Liang Hao!

As if he didn't believe it, he ran to the edge of the corridor and stretched his neck to watch.

The plane head had already arrived at the school gate, talking to the people outside through the stainless steel retractable door.

The man outside was tall and tall, wearing a leather jacket and camouflage pants, with his hands in his pockets, looking this way from time to time.

Although he couldn't see his face and expression clearly, Yang Siyuan could still identify him as Liang Hao at a glance.

His heartbeat suddenly accelerated.

What is he here for?who?Are you looking for yourself or Li Yu'an?Or Chen Miao?

While thinking wildly like this, the two people at the gate waved their hands, probably saying goodbye, and then Liang Hao turned and left.

"..." Yang Siyuan's heart sank in half, he calmed down and thought about it, and decided to remind Li Yu'an at night.

Who knew that when he went to find Li Yuan, he found out that Li Yuan seemed to know about it already.

"You are so far away, how do you know?" Yang Siyuan asked.

"He came to look for me first." Li Yu'an replied.

Yang Siyuan became nervous again, and quickly asked, "Why is he looking for you? Did he bully you?"

"You..." Can you be more precise with your words? The word "bully" sounds like a kindergarten fight, okay?Li Yu'an thought to himself, but he just said: "No, he told me to stay away from...Chen Miao."

Hearing the word "no", Yang Siyuan first let out a long sigh of relief, but when he heard the second half of the sentence, he was so angry that he shouted: "Damn it?! Does he want to be shameless? He and Chen Miaozao It doesn't matter, okay?!"

Li Yuan tilted his head to avoid his high-decibel impact, and wiped the cup while saying, "That's what he is. Don't worry, he won't trouble you. His family seems to be moving to Shandong, so there is nothing to worry about."

"Disgusting, annoying, shameless." Yang Siyuan was still indignant.

Seeing him so angry, Li Yu'an wanted to laugh.

"That... doll, have you returned yet?" He asked suddenly.

"Ah? Oh, you said that doll, not yet. I'm busy with exams recently. It's too big to bring into school. I'll give it to her on a weekend after the exam." Yang Siyuan said.

"Well. The entrance exam won't be difficult, because you have to take your mentality into account. Just write with confidence." Li Yu'an said again.

The glass reflected the light onto Li Yuan's face, and the eye sockets that had been sunk in the shadows were suddenly illuminated, revealing his brown pupils.

Yang Siyuan frowned slightly, "hissed", and asked: "...Why do I feel that you are different today?"

"Ok?"

"It feels like you are so extraordinarily... how to say... soft? Gentle?" Yang Siyuan tried to find two adjectives, but still felt that something was missing.

"...You are tired." Li Yuan whispered, and pushed a carton of milk as usual.

"No, no, no... Hey, I can't say, anyway, you give me a very different feeling today."

"I'm going to change clothes. I'm off work." Li Yu'an ignored him, turned around and went to the next hut.

Along the way, Yang Siyuan was looking for the appropriate adjective, and then deeply felt the lack of his own vocabulary.

He just felt that Li Yu'an took the initiative to say a little too much today, and his tone and expression were also soft, which really didn't look like him usually.

After thinking about it all the way, when the two finally parted, he stared closely at Li Yu'an's eyes for a long time, until Li Yu'an's eyes began to avoid, he suddenly said: "I see. You care too much about me today."

"...????" Li Yu'an was speechless.

"You took the initiative to tell me about Liang Hao, and told me where he was going. You also asked my baby. You also comforted me that the entrance exam is not difficult, and encouraged me. Oh, and you gave me milk." Yang Siyuan said seriously .

Isn't milk always given? ? ?

"Are you sleepy? You have an exam tomorrow, go back to sleep." After a while, he said helplessly.

"Look, you still told me to pay attention to rest."

"..."

After watching Yang Siyuan ride his bicycle towards the feasting lights at the other end, he lowered his head to reflect.

It seems that I really... unknowingly care about him too much.

Involuntarily, he looked up at his receding figure again. The edges of the black and white school uniform were dyed by the lights on both sides of the street, as bright as that boy.

How could such a good person not care?

Standing in the dark, he remembered the conversation in front of the milk tea shop in the afternoon.

"You said that I'm leaving soon, and I still have a small account with him. If you don't count it...it's not appropriate, right?"

"He's taking a test."

The deep voice seemed to come from the bottom of the valley, echoing in his own ears.

"His account, count it here."