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"Xiao Yuan is coming to eat!"

As soon as Yang Siyuan, who was engrossed in his homework, heard that he was about to eat, he immediately threw away his pen and jumped off the stool, and then turned around as if thinking of something, and finished his homework neatly before running out excitedly.

"Turn down the TV volume." Chen Limei came out with a plate, raised her chin and said, "Your dad is too tired today, don't bother him."

Little Yang Siyuan nodded obediently, and touched the remote control to mute the sound.

After the food was ready, Chen Limei took off her apron, and called Yang Jianxin, who was still resting, to eat together.

Yang Siyuan sat upright on the chair as if in the examination room, and grinned at his father: "Dad, you have worked hard!"

Yang Jianxin's face was full of exhaustion, he still waved his hands and said with a smile: "Xiaoyuan has worked hard too, let's eat quickly."

After the parents moved their chopsticks, Yang Siyuan picked up the bowl and ate Hesai, with rice grains on his face, Chen Limei scolded with a smile while gently wiping it off.

The taste of the food is mediocre, but the family is satisfied. The silent TV screen switches back and forth, and love each other inside and outside the play.

……

Insomnia again.

Yang Siyuan lay on the bed without changing his pajamas.

It was a cold autumn night, his windows were half closed, and the cool breeze blew the curtains, making him confused.

His mind was messed up, but also empty.

The pictures during the day are played in the brain like movie clips, and the ceiling in the dark becomes a big screen. As long as you look up, you can see the relaxed smile of the man and the intimate gesture of the woman.

He didn't know what emotions to have.

Shocked?right.That was his father and Fan Li's mother.What is this called, near water and towers first get the moon?He gave a wry smile.

It was shocking, but it was only for a while, and the key point of the shock was who the woman was, not because Yang Jianxin cheated.

It was as if he knew subconsciously that he was going to cheat.

Said it was sad... He didn't feel that much, he just felt empty.

How to describe this feeling?

Suddenly he thought of something.

When he was in the sixth grade of primary school, Yang Jianxin was very angry because he probably did not do well, so he chased him and beat him into the bedroom.He got into the closet in a moment of anxiety, curled up shyly and shrank in the corner, clutching the clothes next to him tightly, not daring to let go.

He had already forgotten the despair and fear at that time. He only remembered that when Yang Jianxin pulled him out, the clothes he was holding were also pulled out. In panic, he saw something like a half circle protruding from the pocket. , dangling to and fro, about to fall out.

However, Yang Jianxin was angry, and he didn't dare to say it, but he just tried his best to keep his balance and not let it fall.

Yang Jianxin slapped his palms and roared loudly. The little child couldn't help shaking it from time to time, and the circle also swayed back and forth, revealing more and more.

"Snapped!"

Finally, it fell out, fell on the tiles with a frightening sound, and rotted into several pieces, which could never be put together again.

It was a poor quality jade bracelet, it was Chen Limei's dowry.

Why did it suddenly occur to me?

Probably because he has been holding a fragile bracelet in fear for a long time now, and now, it finally shattered into debris before his eyes.

Yang Siyuan's insomnia habit probably started at this time.

The National Day holiday is over, and it is time to start preparing for the entrance exam at the beginning of school.

"There are still two weeks until we have the entrance exam! I don't need to say much about the importance of this entrance exam. There are seven key schools in three cities! The teachers who write the questions are all aware of the latest trends in the college entrance examination, and Compared with those who take the exams in our school usually make trouble..."

Dong didn't know how to exaggerate the tense atmosphere impassionedly on the podium, but Yang Siyuan didn't care to listen.He rested his chin with one hand, and quietly watched Fan Li in front of him with bloodshot eyes due to insomnia.

What should we do?

Suddenly, the person in front of him moved, and passed a note behind his back.

Yang Siyuan was stunned for a second, not knowing whether he should reach out to pick it up.

However, that hand didn't want to wait for his reaction at all, it threw the note on the table and retracted it.

"See you in the corridor after class." It was written on the small note.

"..." Yang Siyuan clutched the note in his hand, tightening it tighter and tighter.

after class.

The back door corridor has been in disrepair for a long time, and few people come here.As soon as Yang Siyuan passed by, the dust accumulated on the handrail of the stairs jumped with the air he brought up.

Fan Li leaned against the corner and looked out through the small window on the wall. In the dark space, only the window shone with warm light, but it couldn't warm her expression.

Yang Siyuan collected himself and walked over.

"Here we come." Fan Li said without turning her head.

"Yeah." Yang Siyuan leaned against the wall that was forgotten every time it was cleaned, his school uniform was covered in dust.

"I'm going to apply for a transfer to the East Campus in the afternoon."

When Fan Li's calm voice came, Yang Siyuan was taken aback, and said with a wry smile: "It's such a coincidence, I also have this plan."

Fan Li shook her head and said softly, "Xiao San is my mother. If you want to leave, I will go."

Although I am used to hearing Fan Li's self-deprecating words, Yang Siyuan frowned when she heard her say this, turned to look at her and said, "I always feel that this kind of thing...can't be said to be the fault of one party. .”

Fan Li lowered her head and smiled: "I have been jealous of your kindness since I was a child... Maybe what you said is right, but I don't think the two of us can get along like before."

Yang Siyuan closed his eyes and took a deep breath, his nostrils were filled with the smell of dust.

He gritted his teeth, forced his brain, which was confused due to insomnia, to forcibly organize the language, and then said as calmly as possible: "Fan Li, I just want to say one thing... No matter what the messy relationship between the previous generation was, or whether the two of them Whoever took the first step, I don't want any of us to feel undeserved guilt and shame. Also... I know we can't be as innocent as before, this It's an objective fact. But I want you to know...you're still my best friend. Nothing about them can change that, can you understand?"

The preparation bell rang before the first class, and hurried footsteps sounded not far away, which almost overwhelmed Yang Siyuan's last words.

After the footsteps disappeared, Yang Siyuan heard Fan Li respond in a low voice: "I know. I want to do it too."

She laughed again suddenly, and said as if telling a joke: "You know that, right? I hate mistress the most in my life..."

As if anticipating what she would say next, Yang Siyuan wanted to stop him, but Fan Li didn't give him the chance, and continued, "Because that's how my dad left."

The second preparatory bell rang, but there were no footsteps upstairs, and the silence was palpitating.

"Let's go, let's go to class."

……

The national entrance examination is coming soon, and the teachers of all subjects have resorted to housekeeping skills, smashing down test papers piece by piece, trying to bet on one or two questions correctly.

Fan Li had already left, Yang Siyuan concentrated his mind and wrote half an English paper in the evening self-study of the fourth quarter, and finally heaved a sigh of relief when the get out of class was over, and relaxed his tense nerves.

so tired.

He randomly stuffed the papers into his schoolbag and became the last one to leave the classroom.

It was very late, and he was the only one left in the school besides the dormitory students who were rushing to fetch water. The doorman reluctantly put on his coat again and opened the door for him.

As if by habit, he turned left when he left the school gate, and only after walking halfway did he suddenly realize that Li Yu'an should be off work by this point, so he probably isn't there.

Thinking of this, he squinted his eyes and looked in the direction of the milk tea shop, but no matter how he changed his perspective, it was pitch black there.

Sure enough...he didn't have to wait for him, did he?

He gripped the handlebar, the plastic was sticky on his fingers.

He turned the car around and planned to go home, although he hadn't figured out how to face Chen Limei naturally.

"Yang Siyuan?"

Suddenly, a familiar voice sounded so close, as if it was right next to him.

"...Why are you still hallucinating." He said to himself mockingly.

"Yang Siyuan." The voice sounded again, as if it was getting closer.

"...?" The voice became more real, and he suddenly looked up.

Not far away stood a person, whose thin figure was outlined by the dim street lights behind him.His front was hidden in the darkness, and he couldn't see his face at all, but Yang Siyuan seemed to be able to see his pupils clearly.

"Li Yuan?" He tried to call out.

After getting the answer he wanted, Li Yu'an came over and said, "Why did you come out so late?"

"It's slow to clean up... No, you... Shouldn't you leave work early? Why are you here?" Yang Siyuan asked in a daze.

Li Yu'an breathed a sigh of relief, but did not speak.

Seeing a trace of worry disappearing from his eyes, Yang Siyuan seemed to understand something suddenly, but he didn't dare to confirm it.

"You... because I didn't go to the milk tea shop, so you came to see me? How long have you been waiting?"

Li Yu'an didn't answer, looked at Yang Siyuan's tired face under the dim light, frowned and said, "Did you rest well?...I'll see you off today."

For some reason, Yang Siyuan felt a little sour in his heart, but also a little sweet.

His throat moved, and he muffled in response.

Even in the middle of the night, the commercial street is still bustling, but compared with the hustle and bustle in summer, the hustle and bustle of autumn is still a bit bleak and lonely.

"Is the entrance exam coming soon?" Li Yu'an asked suddenly.

"Ah, um. There are still two weeks." Yang Siyuan nodded.

"Have you handed out a lot of papers?" Li Yu'an asked again.

"There are quite a lot..." Yang Siyuan recalled the things that were randomly stuffed in his schoolbag.

"You don't do it tonight." Li Yu'an talked a little bit today.

"Ah? Don't do it..." Yang Siyuan didn't understand him, so he turned to look at him.

Only then did Li Yu'an turn to look at him, Yang Siyuan's tired face was reflected in his pupils.

He suddenly stretched out his hand and said, "Give me the paper, I'll go back and pick it out for you, and I'll give it to you tomorrow morning."

When he said this, his expression was serious, but he pretended to be casual. The light board behind him painted his hair with bright colors, but it couldn't bring him into the hustle and bustle.

Yang Siyuan was slightly stunned, and it took a while to understand why he said that.

He couldn't help lowering his head and smiling, but for some reason he suddenly wanted to cry.

I'm not tired because of this... He wanted to say this, but what came out of his mouth was just a soft "yes".

He handed over the schoolbag and watched as Li Yu'an's slender fingers pulled out papers that were folded into shapeless papers.

He kept his head down, didn't laugh at his messy schoolbag, just rummaged through it carefully and carefully.

Yang Siyuan looked at him quietly, then suddenly turned his head and sniffed.

"That should be all. You can see if there are any left behind." Li Yu'an said.

"No more." Yang Siyuan took the schoolbag and threw it into the car basket without looking at it.

Li Yuan glanced at him, but said nothing.

The two of them walked silently through the noisy street, past the street lamps with flying insects, and finally reached the gate of the community.

"Have a good rest. I'll give you the paper tomorrow at breakfast time." Li Yu'an looked at his watch and said.

Yang Siyuan locked the car and nodded.

"I didn't drink milk tea today." He suddenly blinked and said, his tone was very similar to Yang Siyuan who was usually cheerful.

Li Yu'an was startled, and sighed lightly: "Drinking milk tea makes it easy to fall asleep. If you are tired, don't drink it at night."

Yang Siyuan couldn't help laughing: "Then why didn't you say it before?"

"..." Li Yu'an couldn't hold back.

"Okay, I'm kidding you." Seeing his expression, Yang Siyuan thought it was amused, waved his hand and said, "Hurry up and go back, it's already so late. The paper...you can just read it as you like, don't sleep too late."

Li Yu'an's sleeves were shaken by the wind, and they looked empty, which made Yang Siyuan uncomfortable.

Li Yu'an nodded and watched Yang Siyuan enter the building before turning and walking out.

Why didn't you say...

Then... after you said that, would you still go to the milk tea shop?

Li Yuan clenched the folded paper in his hand, looked back again, and then continued to walk out.

The light in the corridor was broken, and Yang Siyuan groped for the handrail and kicked up step by step, only to feel that the dozens of steps in this area could not be completed.

Perhaps, it would be better not to finish.

He stood in front of the door, thinking so.

Taking a deep breath, he took out the key, inserted it into the keyhole, and turned it around.

"Click", the door opened easily, but he pushed it very hard.

"I'm back." He said vigorously.

Chen Limei probably just finished washing, her hair was still wet, she came out to take a look when she heard the door opening, and asked casually, "Why is it so late today? Wash and go to bed quickly, don't wake up tomorrow."

"En." Yang Siyuan responded.

Chen Limei poured a glass of milk and put it on the table and told him to drink it before going to bed, and then went back to the house.

There was still half a struggle, Yang Siyuan asked casually, "My dad hasn't come back yet?"

Then glanced in the direction of their bedroom, but couldn't see anything.

"Why do you care about him? He's busy." Probably because he didn't expect him to ask this, Chen Limei said in a daze.

"Are you too busy to go home for so long?" Yang Siyuan blurted out.

"...Go to sleep, I don't care about that much." Chen Limei responded, waved her hands perfunctorily, and then hurried back to the bedroom.

"Okay." Yang Siyuan replied in a low voice when the door was closed.

It was probably a trick from the sky, Chen Limei happened to run out of hot water.Yang Siyuan stood with his eyes closed, the cold water poured down mercilessly, across his skin pores, as if he wanted to drill into the bone marrow under the flesh, the ice made him goosebumps all over his body.Reason told him that he needed to wipe it off quickly, but his body didn't allow him to do so.

The cold water took away his body temperature, and he couldn't get any warmth even if he curled up in the quilt.

He shrank into a ball, his brain was as blank as paper, but he couldn't enter the dream anyway.