I'm with the first grader

Some of the diary writing in the front is very childish, and it really looks like the handwriting of elementary school students.But since then, Yunan's handwriting has been very beautiful.

At that time, Yunan wrote in square script.

Compared with Tao Jiang's self-created shit body, it's really not a little bit better.

Tao Jiang was probably still shocked, because she really couldn't remember knowing such a person before.

Before moving to City X, Tao Jiang used to be in City Y.

Since she was a child, after her parents divorced, Ms. Tao didn't stay at home often. She was busy making money outside, and she didn't take care of Tao Jiang, so Tao Jiang was carefree when she was a child.

Compared with Yunan, she is really happy.

Yunan was not so lucky, Yunan really had a very strict family education since he was a child.Piano has also been practiced since childhood.

Although the words revealed dissatisfaction with the piano, Yunan still insisted on practicing.

Thinking of how Yunan played in Germany, Tao Jiang suddenly felt distressed.

How many years does it take to practice so well?How much sweat does it take?

she does not know.But she could already feel it.

How cruel is the glory obtained at the price of childhood?

How difficult is it to grow up at the cost of mental illness and emotional illness?

Yunan has experienced all of these, gritted his teeth and experienced it alone.

Tao Jiang met a group of friends in City Y when she was a child, many of whom were relatively social men and women. Although no one dared to provoke her in the class, everyone respected her by coincidence and did not reject her, let alone isolate her.

Because of her, people in other classes never dared to make trouble.

So he indirectly protected the classmates in the class.

So Tao Jiang was surrounded by people when he was a child. There were so many people around him that he couldn't remember who was there.It's good enough to get called once in a while.

So Tao Jiang guessed that with Yunan's character, he probably wouldn't cling to him often, so he didn't have a big impression of her when he was a child.

So much so that now, I can't remember it.

Who would have thought that she would actually influence a person...

And this person has always remembered, until now.

Tao Jiang flipped through the pages, and suddenly realized that the date had skipped a long way, so she quickly flipped back to see what was missing.

8 month 15 day.

"I went to participate in the piano competition and got a prize, and I wanted to buy a gift for Tao Jiang, but I don't know where she is.

I remember she once said that she was in ×× Elementary School, so I went to find her.

After inquiring, I finally found out about her class.Her desk was as clean as it was empty.She has been away, I just sat there waiting for her.

She came back after two classes. I asked if I could wait for me under the tree near my house at two o'clock tomorrow afternoon. I have something to give her. She thought about it and agreed.I am very happy, and I will buy a gift for her tomorrow. "

August 8.rain.

"Today. I'm very unhappy.

Tao Jiang did not come.

I stood there waiting for her, holding a gift, and I haven't seen her at 56:[-], who knows that it suddenly rained.

I want to wait a little longer, in case she forgets something?

So I waited another two hours.

Drenched all over.She hasn't come yet.I feel very sad, this is the saddest day of my life.

The gift I bought for her was also washed out by the rain.

Did she forget me?Forgot our agreement?

It was ten o'clock and she still hadn't come.In the end, the housekeeper took me home, and my mother just scolded me again.

Tao Jiang, does she really not care about me?Why doesn't it show up? "

Seeing this, Tao Jiang felt a twinge in her heart. On August 8th... She suddenly remembered that that day seemed to be the day she moved.

I don't remember exactly, but it was indeed at two o'clock in the afternoon.

Correct!

Tao Jiang remembered.

There was a person... who said he wanted to see her at two o'clock.But she didn't remember who it was for a long time, and she was dragged away by Ms. Tao, so she forgot about it.

She left without saying goodbye that day.

Tao Jiang felt a deep sense of self-blame.

If I hadn't left without saying goodbye back then, even if I went to see Yunan for the last time, I'm afraid it wouldn't have caused such great pain to Yunan.

It's just that she really didn't expect...a small, inadvertent matter would have such a big impact on a person.

If she had known this earlier, she would never...

Tao Jiang's eyes darkened.

However, there are so many ifs.

Even if she went back, with her mentality at that time, she would never have thought of so much.

Yunan matured much earlier than her.

No wonder when Tao Jiang asked her if she had ever been in such a mess when Yunan came to her house before, Yunan replied that it was three years ago.

three years ago.

After calculating the time, it was almost three years.

Three years ago, when she was getting wet and standing there waiting for herself, was she even more desperate?

It's like hope is lost and everything ceases to exist?

For Yunan, it is far greater than these.

Three years ago, she was holding a gift full of joy and waiting for her figure under the tree.

She also has expectations.

From anticipation to disappointment.

It was her Tao Jiang's fault.

But who is right and who is wrong, and who can say clearly?

Tao Jiang just felt that Yunan, as one of the many little followers, was not worth mentioning.

But Yunan felt that in Yunan's heart, Tao Jiang was everything.

One is not the same as many.

8 month 17 day.

"Tao Jiang still hasn't come to see me."

8 month 18 day.

"not coming."

……

9 month 1 day.

"I went to ask the students in their class, and it turned out that Tao Jiang had transferred.

But why didn't she tell me?Am I not her best friend? "

Best friend... Tao Jiang felt that these words were very strange.

At that time, did she regard anyone as her best friend?

With so many people around me, why do I have to struggle with the best word?

In fact, maybe Tao Jiang doesn't even understand why Yunan cares so much about "the best" at the beginning.

Tao Jiang sighed.

I only blame myself for being young and frivolous and ignorant.

Then, two years later, it could be seen that Yunan didn't find any clues about himself on the way, so he simply didn't record it.

During that time, Yunan was still in the stage of self-healing...

Tao Jiang felt a little uncomfortable.

How strong is she to survive.

Two years later on May 5th.

"Today, I met Tao Jiang.

She also entered speech contests.

I didn't expect that she also came to City X... It would be great if I knew about it earlier.

I came to X City with my parents, and I haven't gotten used to the new place yet.

But today I re-read what I wrote before, and I still feel a little ridiculous.In fact, she is not that much, I have forgiven her now.

She is very good, the speech contest is No.1.But she seemed to be in a hurry, and left after winning the award...and didn't communicate with her again.

But I finally know which school she is from.

"

6 month 19 day.

"I heard that Tao Jiang junior high school doesn't come to class every day... I'm really curious, how did I learn knowledge when I didn't go to class? It's No.1 all the year round... It's amazing.

She is now in the third year of junior high school and is about to take the high school entrance examination. It must be very hard, right?Ah, yes, she is so smart..."

6 month 20 day.

"I've made up my mind. I'm going to take the senior high school entrance examination early. I can't wait. I want to be in the same school and class as her. I'll be in the second year of junior high school, so I should preview the contents of the third junior high school as soon as possible."

Tao Jiang was startled.

It turned out that she took the senior high school entrance examination a year earlier because of herself?

She felt a buzz in her head.

She always thought that Yunan really didn't bother to go to the third year of junior high...that's why...

It turned out that after the second year of junior high school, I took the senior high school entrance examination just because I wanted to be in the same class as myself?

Think carefully.

Just how much motivation...

And on June 6th and 19th, there was only one day in between.

One day, did she already think about taking the high school entrance examination early?

How much courage?

She admired Yunan a little bit.

Then there are some random thoughts of Yunan, talking about Tao Jiang's usual trivial matters.I heard it from various places.

Even Tao Jiang himself can't remember these things, but Yunan still remembers them.

The time jump is huge, and it is this year all of a sudden.

6 month 23 day.

"I finally took the senior high school entrance examination, and the questions were similar to what I imagined, so I should be sure of it.

Tao Jiang must be fine, right?

She wanted to go to Chonggao in X City, I remember.

I should be fine too. "

7 month 15 day.

"I got my wish."

When writing these four words, Tao Jiang could almost feel how happy Yunan was.

Even the fonts are almost floating.

9 month 2 day.

"She really doesn't remember me. Like her, I'm in the top class and in the two-person dormitory. I have made so much effort for her, but she still doesn't remember me.

Well, let's start from scratch.

I believe I can.

In fact, I did the report letter on purpose, just to let her pay attention to me.

But she... doesn't seem to be. "

9 month 4 day.

"Finally sitting at the same table with her."

9 month 7 day.

"She's actually pretty good..."

"I really... still like her."

"I desperately want to be with her, struggling in pain where she can't see, but I can't tell her, it will make her psychologically burdened. I long for her to be with me because she likes it, not because have no choice."

"I confessed to her today. As expected, she didn't reply."

"She hides from me..."

"Today, she is avoiding me too..."

……

"Wang Yi came to see me today. He said I bullied Tao Jiang.

In fact, no, I just want to express my heart, nothing more.

But if it hurts, I'm sorry.

Sure enough, she was in an Internet cafe, and she wanted to hide from me.

Does our relationship have to be this rigid? "

"The piano competition is coming soon. My mother probably has long given up hope in me. That's right, I hope that in her eyes I will always be the idiot who can only get second. It's really ironic."

"The relationship between her and me seems to have eased a lot, and I can finally take her to Germany in a fair manner.

Besides, I kissed her today.

happy. "