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Zhaofan has really become thinner a lot. From a distance, he just looks thin, but when he looks closely, he finds that his face is too thin and almost bloodless. His forehead hair hangs down softly, covering his heroic brows. It is to break through the scarred flesh.

Yan Xiao felt severe pain in his heart, but he was thinking of Doctor Zhu's advice, so he could only endure it desperately, tried his best to calm down, pulled out an unattractive smile, and squeezed Zhaofan's fingers, "It's me."

Zhaofan's reaction was a little slow, as if he didn't expect to meet in this kind of place, he retracted his fingers, and said a little awkwardly: "What are you, why are you here?"

"I came to see you." Yan Xiao grabbed his hand again and said softly, "Zhaofan, I miss you very much. You have been back for more than two months, and I just saw you today."

Looking at each other for a moment, Zhaofan lowered his eyelids and said in a low voice, "I...I'm not feeling well right now. Brother Xiao, I'm sick."

"I know." Enduring the pain in his chest, Yan Xiao stood up and hugged him gently, "It will be all right, I'm here, I'll be with you, everything will be all right."

Zhaofan didn't struggle and let Yan Xiao hug him.He was wearing a low-necked T-shirt with a red string looming at the nape of his neck.Yan Xiao saw it and wanted to touch it, but finally held back.

Because of Yan Xiao's arrival, Zhaofan's mental state seemed to be better. Yan Xiao didn't dare to mention what happened at the border. He walked with him in the courtyard of the rehabilitation center all afternoon, and sat down to rest when he was tired. .

Zhao Fan used to talk so much that it was a headache, he could talk non-stop for a whole day, but now he was so quiet that he seemed to be locked into a lonely world.

Yan Xiao is no stranger to depression.In order to portray a character suffering from depression last year, he carefully checked the information and consulted several doctors. He knew that people with this disease are always indulging in an extremely depressed mood, and some of them are willing to change. Act positive, but there is still a closed door inside.

At that time, how could he have thought that Zhaofan would be tortured by depression, let alone that this was Zhaofan's second illness.

When it was almost five o'clock, the clouds covered the sun, and the sky became overcast. Zhao Fan said, "Let's go back. If we stay outside for too long, Doctor Zhu will worry."

Yan Xiao accompanied him back to the inpatient building and ate with him, seeing that he only ate a few mouthfuls of vegetables and a small bowl of rice before putting down his chopsticks.

"Don't you want to eat more?" Yan Xiao said, "I'll get you some meat dishes. What do you want to eat?"

He shook his head, "I'm full."

"How about a bowl of soup?"

He hesitated for a few seconds, "Yeah."

Yan Xiao hurriedly went to the window, ordered a bowl of pea rib soup, and whispered to add a few more ribs to the soup.

The guy in charge of scooping up the vegetables stretched his neck to look at it and sighed, "He may not be able to eat it."

When Yan Xiao took the soup bowl, he didn't realize what the phrase "may not be able to eat" meant, and went back to the dining table to try the temperature of the soup, and said with a smile: "It's not hot anymore, it smells delicious, try it soon. "

Zhao Fan pursed his lips, frowned slightly, his hand holding the spoon trembled.

Yan Xiao encouraged: "Try it, if you don't get enough nutrition, your body won't be able to handle it."

Zhaofan nodded and drank a spoonful carefully.

Yan Xiao was about to encourage him to continue drinking, when he saw his brow furrowed, the spoon fell into the soup bowl, splashing a large amount of soup.

"Zhaofan!"

"vomit……"

Zhaofan covered his mouth hard, got up and stumbled towards the restaurant door.

Yan Xiao took the paper on the table and followed it out immediately.

Zhaofan stood bent over by the pool and vomited out all the food he ate not long ago.Yan Xiao followed him on his back, filled with guilt, seeing him suffering with tears in his eyes, wishing that all the pain would be transferred to himself.

"Zhaofan's depression symptoms are accompanied by anorexia, and he doesn't like meat in particular." At night, Dr. Zhu settled Zhaofan down, and said while boiling water and making tea, "He's actually trying to adjust himself, but there hasn't been much improvement yet. When you came today, he didn't want to disappoint you, so he forced himself to drink rib soup. It's my fault that I didn't tell you in advance. "

Yan Xiao squeezed the cigarette case, thinking of the forced smile that Zhao Fan forced at himself by the pool, he was so sad that his internal organs twisted.

"Take your time." Dr. Zhu said, "There is also a reason for taking medicine for anorexia. He must take antidepressant medicine now, and psychological intervention alone will not work."

"Does he go to bed so early every day?" Yan Xiao looked at the time, it was only eight o'clock.

"Well, he goes back to sleep when it's time, and doesn't want to come out. But it's really hard for him to sleep."

"Can't you let him participate in more activities?"

"He resists communication." Dr. Zhu said: "He has the willingness to actively treat, but he resists contact with people in his heart. I once tried to let him participate in simple interactive entertainment, and he cooperated on the surface, but after a few times, the depression disappeared. It's more serious than before."

Yan Xiao clenched his fists.

"It would be great if he can accept your company." Dr. Zhu was speaking when the phone rang beside him.

After talking on the phone, Dr. Zhu seemed relieved, "Mr. Lin is here."

Lin Haocheng already had gray hair, he was in a hurry, his face and eyes were full of worry.Yan Xiao put the tea in front of him and called out "Brother Hao".

"How is Zhaofan now? Where is he?" Lin Haocheng asked anxiously, "Why did you inform me now when such a big incident happened?"

Doctor Zhu said: "The situation is stable for the time being. Don't worry, let me tell you in detail. I hope you will tell me about Zhaofan's past without reservation."

The three of them talked long into the night, the cigarette butts in the ashtray had already been piled on the table, Yan Xiao rubbed his red eyes, and only then did he realize that the cheerful and enthusiastic Zhao Fan he knew, who had no gloomy personality, had once had such a great relationship. Unbearable childhood.

26 years ago, Zhaofan was born in Liucha Village, the most remote and backward mountain village under the jurisdiction of Shancheng.His birth was not blessed, and when his mother Wang Yongdan was pregnant with him, she tried to abort him several times, even at the cost of killing both of them.

Because Wang Yongdan did not voluntarily conceive him in a happy marriage, but was bought, sold, raised in captivity, and raped.

And his father was a boy who was only 16 years old.

Back then, the trafficking of women and children was extremely rampant. Boys who were just born or a few years old disappeared everywhere, and women who were in their prime and had little experience in the world were also the "prey" of traffickers.

Liucha Village is extremely poor and closed, and there has always been a tradition of buying a wife from outside, and every household is proud of buying a beautiful wife.

Lin Xiaohou, the son of the Lin family, is 15 years old and has reached the age to marry a wife.Mother Lin borrowed a sum of money, and under the introduction of the village chief, bought a female high school student from the city from a human trafficker.

For the people in Liucha Village, a daughter-in-law who has gone to high school is the rarest "species".

This female high school student is Wang Yongdan, from Zhoucheng, from an ordinary worker's family, with excellent grades, and will take the college entrance examination in four months.

When he was first sold to the Lin family, Wang Yongdan naturally resisted to death. He made a fuss all day long and tried his best to escape.But Liucha Village is located in the mountains, so she had nowhere to escape, and every time she was caught back, she faced severe beatings.

Many abducted and trafficked women ended up in their in-laws' families, but she was still so young and had a college dream, so she was still unwilling to have sex with Lin Xiaohou.

Liucha village is poor and rough, and there are unruly people. The men are rude, and the women are also ignorant. There is a trafficked "senior" who persuades her-what are you arguing about?It is better than anything else to have a big fat son and live a good life.

She still doesn't follow.

In the end, she was raped by Lin Xiaohou, and the accomplices were Lin's mother and all the female relatives of the Lin family.

They first drugged her to make her unable to struggle. During the rape, they even guarded Lin Xiaohou and pressed her body together.

She went through this process countless times until she finally conceived.

The child she gave birth to was Zhaofan.

Wang Yongdan, whose life was completely ruined, seemed to be crazy, but he didn't seem to be crazy.After having a child, she no longer thought about escaping, and gradually integrated into rural life like other trafficked women.

But Zhaofan never had a name. Lin Xiaohou thought of one, but Wang Yongdan refused to agree.

Compared with Lin's mother, Lin Xiaohou is not a bad person.In the entire Lin family, he treats Wang Yongdan the best.He even promised that when he was an adult and capable of leaving Liucha Village, he would take Wang Yongdan with him.

Wang Yongdan did not wait for that day.

When Zhaofan was two years old, 17-year-old Lin Xiaohou went to work in the town and died in an accident.Mother Lin was overly sad and passed away.

According to the rules of Liucha Village, widows can be bullied by everyone, they are like slaves, and they are the "wealth" of the men in the village.

In this place where there is no law of the king, Wang Yongdan still cannot escape.

She finally gave Zhaofan a name, neither Lin nor Wang, but Zhaofan, Zhaofan.

"It's all your fault, it's all your fault." Many nights, when she returned home with the scars of being raped by men, she would wake up Zhaofan on the bed, complain and beat like a madman, "If Without you, I would have run away, why are you always so annoying? Why don't you die?"

Zhaofan's abused wounds have never healed, and old wounds are always added to new wounds.

But he is still so young, there is no way to resist, and he doesn't know how to resist.

The person who beat him wantonly and abused him was his mother, his only relative.

When he was four years old, after being slapped multiple times again, he left home at night and ran to the mountain where it was said that there were many wolves.

He wanted to die just like that.

But when the wolf really appeared, he was afraid again and ran desperately until he met the villagers who heard the news and came to search the mountain, and he was barely rescued.

He always remembered that he punched the wolf a few times like a hero who was not afraid of anything, but he didn't at all.

Wang Yongdan hugged him, crying and cursing.He was terrified, afraid of being beaten again, and carefully called "Mom".

Wang Yongdan seemed to hate this title very much, raised his hand and slapped him heavily.

He was suffering from depression, but no one in Liucha village had ever heard of this disease.

At the age of five, the insane man in the village was not satisfied with being a widow, so he turned his mind on him.

He looked at the approaching man, bewildered.

It was Wang Yongdan who protected her.

The woman who always beat him wantonly pulled the man aside, took off her pants, and said, "You let my son go."

The man smirked, "Okay, then let me 'go through the back door'."

From the crack of the door, he saw the man pressing on his mother, insulting and aggressive.

Wang Yongdan's blood flowed all over the bed, and he was dying.

Since then, the widow of the Lin family has had a new "business".

He saw his mother being hurt countless times, and at an age when he didn't know what happened to her, he planted deep fear in his subconscious.

One day, Wang Yongdan called him "baby" for the first time, and he was already in severe depression and did not respond.

On that day, a major incident in Liucha Village shocked the whole country—the widow Wang Yongdan killed the village head’s family, 26 men and [-] women with a machete and homemade explosives.

It was too late when the special police from Shancheng and Zhoucheng arrived, and the whole Liucha Village was bleeding like a river. Zhaofan sat in the blood, like a soulless doll.

Wang Yongdan went completely crazy and hugged his own son as a meat shield.

The sniper shot her dead, and Lin Haocheng rushed into the house immediately and picked up the dull Zhaofan.

After this horrific incident, a series of actions were launched across the country to hunt down human traffickers and seek help for abducted women and children.Due to the protection of the police, Zhaofan has not been exposed to people's sight from the beginning to the end.

He had lost a loved one, was suffering from severe depression, and needed a home.

Probably because the first policeman I saw was Lin Haocheng. He didn't speak, but always followed Lin Haocheng.

In the end, Lin Haocheng, who was in his twenties, became his adoptive father.

Before going through the household registration, Lin Haocheng asked, "Can you choose a name yourself?"

He shook his head in a daze, and wrote stroke by stroke on the paper, "My mother called me 'troublesome'."

Lin Haocheng asked: "Why is it called this name?"

"Because I'm annoying," he said. "Nobody likes me."

Lin Haocheng hugged him for a long time, "Shall we change the two words?"

He blinked puzzled.

Lin Haocheng took the pen and said while writing, "Zhaofan, Zhao, means bright, and Fan, means ordinary. From today on, my child, you will have an ordinary but bright life. You are fine , when you grow up in the future, there must be many people who like and love you."

He repeated his new name ignorantly, smiling for the first time.