We don't understand love (The ten years when I loved you the most)

Jiang Wenxu failed to get through the expected phone call. It was expected when he thought of He Zhishu's reluctance that day, but I don't know if he did it on purpose or really didn't care. Is he really tired of Zhishu?

He had to think hard about the five years they've been here.

At first he really liked that fragrant boy, when he took the bouquet of gardenias handed over by He Zhishu, he was touched by He Zhishu's gentle smile

Later, he unconsciously began to pay attention to Zhishu He, paying attention to every bit of him, but he didn't know that this kind of attention finally made him develop feelings. The more he paid attention, the more he felt that Zhishu He should be his life. Love, hope to have this person, feel like I have stepped into an impossible dream

He worked hard to create an opportunity to get along with Zhishu He, and only by being by that person's side could he temporarily relieve the turbulent emotions in his heart

I can't restrain myself from showing that I like He Zhishu, read the books he likes to read, and draw his appearance quietly until I start to study hard with him as the motivation

He found that this liking was a wave of energy, something that had never appeared in his life before, like a guide-like motivation, he really wanted this person, wanted this person desperately

He Zhishu took him to see the gardenias in the courtyard, the fragrance was pleasant, and the person who was thinking day and night was standing in the sea of ​​white flowers. At that moment, he could no longer control his inner emotions.

He finally followed He Zhishu's footsteps, and when he saw the names of the two people next to each other on the ranking, he couldn't wait any longer

When He Zhishu agreed to be with him, apart from being happy, happy and moved, he couldn't help but take it for granted

Zhishu is indeed a person who does not hide his emotions, all his thoughts can be guessed from his face, and he feels very comfortable getting along with such a person

He had seen He Zhishu blushing several times because of his teasing, and he was secretly proud of himself, and he was somewhat sure of the result of the successful confession

When he decided to take He Zhishu away and He Zhishu agreed without hesitation, and when he risked his life to drink for the list at the wine table, he could feel the surging love from He Zhishu

He felt extremely happy and at ease, but he still couldn't help feeling that He Zhishu was too desperate, really desperate

People are like this, when they put aside their interests and emotions and look at problems as a bystander, they always appear extraordinarily wise. He knows that this kind of He Zhishu must love him deeply

It has been more than five years now, the relationship between him and He Zhishu has long been fixed, and the company has begun to stabilize. When he is not very busy, he will let He Zhishu stay at home, and ask him to help out to sign a contract when necessary. single, that's all

He has selfish intentions, He Zhishu is a likable character, several times someone expressed his affection to He Zhishu openly and secretly, and he was very anxious. For the sake of the cause, they did not disclose their relationship and could not declare their sovereignty. hiding

But in the past few months, whenever I came home, I saw the same He Zhishu when I went out and the same He Zhishu when I came back. I didn’t know much about the company, so I didn’t talk to him, and gradually I didn’t have much to talk about.

Thinking about it again, I have already figured out Zhishu He thoroughly in the past five years. Even if he took a breath, he knew what he was thinking, and suddenly he felt that it was not so interesting.

Especially in bed, He Zhishu may find it difficult to have fun in it as a subordinate, he seldom asks for it, and more often he is complaining, shedding tears to keep him from being cruel, even he is not so interested

It's not that he hasn't thought about playing wild food, but he just thinks that such a thing is too stupid, he can't be sorry to Zhishu, even if he is 100% sure that He Zhishu will not leave him, he doesn't want to take any risks

So I didn't do anything, why did He Zhishu suddenly become like this?

Could it be that he felt the indifference he had unconsciously shown recently?Not at all, I just talked a little less than usual and ate a few meals less

Although he can push back some dinners and go home to eat with him, but thinking of going home is a lifeless feeling, he is not thinking about going home as much as in the past, and the dinners are also going with the flow, and there is no deliberate evasion

Probably because of this, Zhishu blamed him for neglecting him

Jiang Wenxu thought, when the current few orders are finished, let's go to Hangzhou again

He Zhishu realized that he had lived the world too narrowly before, and vaguely wanted to change

After receiving the school uniform handed over by my mother, I couldn't laugh or cry, "Can I not wear it? I'm already 23 years old."

"Even if you are a hundred years old, you are still a child here. Be obedient, don't make things difficult for Teacher Hu, she is in charge of the school spirit and discipline. Besides, it is too troublesome for the guards to stop you from entering without wearing a school uniform. ah!"

He Zhishu pursed his mouth, and at the age of 30, he was very helpless in front of the school uniform

"Let me tell you, the uniforms of your school look good, and the blue and white ones look very energetic."

After speaking, he directly put on Zhishu He

He Zhishu knew that he couldn't resist, so he obediently cooperated and put on the clothes. The moment he finished tidying up and stood up, he saw the tears in his mother's eyes.

"I never thought there would be such a day. I really miss the little book from that time."

He Zhishu hugged her, raised his hand to wipe away the tears hanging from the corner of his eyes

"If you like it, I will wear it for you every day, buy another set, and I will also wear it at home during the holidays."

"Enough, you look beautiful, pack up, I'll make breakfast"

The mother pushed He Zhishu away in disgust and went to the kitchen

Looking at myself in the mirror, the facial features have already been opened, but the lines are soft, and it doesn’t feel out of place with the school uniform, and it doesn’t look more like a warm male senior like a student president, with two cute dimples. My junior in the world, I also have such a narcissistic day, I haven't looked at myself for a long time

Putting away the dimness in his eyes, he shrugged his mouth in front of the mirror

"Hey, it's raining, take the umbrella." Taking the umbrella handed over by a warm hand, Zhishu He stepped out of the door full of joy

Not long after I left the community, there was a heavy rain, and the accumulated water reached my ankles, so I couldn't just flow through it, my shoes must be wet

"Young man, come up, I will pull you over"

"Come on, I'll pull you over" with a kind smile on his face

I jumped off the manpower tricycle of the old man, told the old man to pay attention to safety, thanked the old man again, and then entered the school step by step. I didn't want to use money as a token. This is the greatest insult to this kindness.

Warmed by kindness, warm in heart

The seat is in the last row, and next to it is a very mature girl, who should be 21 or [-], and looks a little domineering

He Zhishu came halfway, I don't know the inspirational speech arranged by the head teacher every day

"Hua Yu, it's your turn today"

The girl next to me stood up and walked to the platform

"...I'm about to graduate, and I found that I just don't like this major...People can't give up their own things at any time, such as dreams, such as interests...A person who can't even live his life well, I don’t have the ability to love someone... In the end, I believe that my father will be proud of me because I have never been so proud.”

The thunderous applause failed to bring He Zhishu back to his thoughts. At this moment, he was enlightened

There were some sporadic reflections before, but at this moment I really realized my mistakes

From the moment he gave up everything, he lived himself as Jiang Wenxu's vassal

What a terrible thing is that the meaning of one person's life is tied to another person, especially when people change as they say

Huayu came down from the stage with a firm expression, He Zhishu slowly stretched out his hand

"Hi, my name is He Zhishu"

The little girl snapped open his hand

"Stop being so close, I know you want to comfort me, do I look like I need comfort?"

just wanted to say no

"I don't have any regrets. Before my father was alive, I listened to him in everything and was very filial. I did everything I could do."

ready to say something

"As long as you don't forget, he never left..."

Seeing that the other party was already consoling himself, He Zhishu looked at her quietly

"I told you not to act like this. I told you I'm fine. You are He Zhishu, right? What a good name. My name is Huayu. Let's work together!"

The regular and fixed life, positive slogans, and the youthful atmosphere in the classroom made He Zhishu forget that he is a man in his thirties, and that he has secrets and wounds all over his body

It's always good to forget, it's time to dilute it without pain or itching, there will always be a day when it fades into white water