We don't understand love (The ten years when I loved you the most)

Jiang Wenxu has been waiting downstairs since noon, the sky is getting dark, and it is almost dinner time, He Zhishu should go shopping for vegetables, he is vaguely nervous

Seeing a high school student in a blue and white school uniform approaching with a basketball, Jiang Wenxu remembered his high school days, and all he could remember was Zhishu He

"Knowledge?"

Suspected that he was wrong, he really saw He Zhishu in high school

He opened the car door in a hurry and went down. It was really He Zhishu, the person he had been thinking about in high school

He Zhishu heard the movement, grabbed the basketball and hugged it in his arms, looked up and saw Jiang Wenxu's face, and saw the person he had loved deeply for more than ten years

Received warm energy every day, let him let go of some past obsessions unknowingly, like a scab, although it is still there, it does not hurt or itch

So the moment I saw Jiang Wenxu, the first thing that emerged was the love buried in my heart

For a moment, the two looked at each other affectionately, feeling the surging heart beating and expressing their longing, but it was He Zhishu who was defeated first, and the light in his eyes gradually dimmed

Jiang Wenxu also felt it, and hurriedly approached, grabbed He Zhishu's shoulder, and asked eagerly

"Little book? Did you go back to school?"

"Yeah" bowed his head and played with the basketball in his hand

"Then... why are you still turning off the phone and not answering my calls?"

"The phone is dead"

"Then why not charge it?"

"Schools don't allow mobile phones"

The lame reason comes at your fingertips, He Zhishu is tired of dealing with Jiang Wenxu at the moment

What about Jiang Wenxu in the past, he said those silly excuses to himself, isn't it the same?He Zhishu is thinking

"I'm hungry, I'm going to eat"

Jiang Wenxu held him

"Xiaoshu, I've driven here and haven't eaten anything? I just came to see you"

He Zhishu stopped and looked back at him

Jiang Wenxu has always expressed his dedication clearly and let He Zhishu receive it. After receiving it, He Zhishu will collect these bits and pieces of touch and keep it in mind, building a love for himself and Jiang Wenxu. a castle

And what about He Zhishu himself?Never say something like "I cooked a lot of dishes today just to wait for you to come back"

In this way, He Zhishu will beautify Jiang Wenxu's love unconsciously, and feel that he can't repay too much

another bad debt

"I'll come down after dinner"

Jiang Wenxu was waiting in the car, and he lost the composure he had when he came here. He knew that Zhishu He was not playing petty temper to tease him, but that his mentality had changed a lot.

For the first time in five years, he clearly realized that Zhishu might leave him, which he had never thought of before

He Zhishu went downstairs after dinner, his school uniform had been changed into a white down jacket, and he was wearing a set of pajamas with light gray and white edges

Jiang Wenxu looked at him like this, although he was worried about other problems, but he couldn't hold back the sudden thoughts in his heart, he hadn't touched He Zhishu for a long time

Opened the car door and sat down, did not notice Jiang Wenxu's slightly red cheeks

"Speak, what do you want to say?"

"Xiaoshu, I don't know what happened to you all of a sudden. It's like a different person. Let's have a good talk. If you have any ideas, you can tell me well, so that the problem can be solved."

It is rare that Jiang Wenxu no longer pretends to be crazy and stupid, and He Zhishu is also happy

"Then what do you think is our problem?"

"I know I neglected you some time ago, but I also..."

Just as he was about to make excuses, seeing He Zhishu's stern face, he suddenly didn't dare to do so. He knew that if he really made excuses like before, the problem might be more serious

After a pause, he said, "I feel that it's not so interesting suddenly. I feel depressed when I go home. I can't vent something, so I want to stay outside for a while."

Seeing death as home, I finished talking about my inner thoughts, feeling flustered and happy

Zhishu He took a deep breath, and Jiang Wenxu quickly explained

"But I never did anything sorry for you, you have to trust me, I can control myself, I have always been very self-controlled, you know"

In desperation, he took He Zhishu's hand

It turns out, this time already...

Maybe yes, I was self-controlled at the beginning, because I still had feelings. After five years, time has worn away too many things, and I no longer want to suppress myself for He Zhishu. Are you having fun?

It's so ridiculous, how many times did He Zhishu realize that he had lied to himself for a long time, living in the love he beautified

He Zhishu didn't speak, just pondered for a while, "Is there any smoke?"

Jiang Wenxu quickly handed it over, regretting that he had told the truth

"When I was young, I liked to eat the frog candy in the small shop at the door. It's probably the name. I don't remember it. I bought it every day after school. I thought I must eat it for the rest of my life. For this reason, I left the wrapping paper. A few days ago I bought it again. The moment I put it in my mouth, I suddenly didn’t like it. I didn’t even like the taste in my memory. I didn’t make a mistake, and I didn’t have any sugar. The mistake was that I was too obsessed with things like this for a lifetime. "

As if he was suddenly relieved, he remembered that two boys fought on the court today, for a girl

The high-spirited look resembled Jiang Wenxu very much, and he finally persuaded him to fight. He heard one of them say that there is no need to make such a big fuss, but no one can give in when it comes to face.

At that moment, he thought of Jiang Wenxu's desperate look when he stood up for him before, how much was it because of himself?

Jiang Wenxu doesn't love him that much, at least not as much as he imagined

I love Jiang Wenxu, but I also love Jiang Wenxu who has been overly beautified by myself

From the beginning to the end, everything is not what I think it is

Feeling powerless and relieved, freed from those nightmares that were suppressed every night, like a newborn

What happened in the past can no longer be changed, but what was there and what it looked like can be clearly seen now