We don't understand love (The ten years when I loved you the most)

The sun in winter is cherished, the soft light slanted into the corridor and spread on the steps

The moment He Zhishu walked out of the corridor, the setting sun hit him, his young face was very glaring, with his hands in his pockets, he was indescribably lazy and gentle

Jiang Wenxu was dumbfounded. He hadn't seen such a He Zhishu for a long time. He was full of vigor and quiet. He was busy with work in the past few years, and he was not as youthful as before. He would not pay attention and miss him all the time. and companionship, but at this moment, he felt the long-lost heartbeat

People are always influenced by the most obvious emotions

Just like Jiang Wenxu at this moment, He Zhishu walking towards him in the sunset made him forget the anger of the past few days

Also like He Zhishu at this moment, the warm sunshine makes him happy and makes him feel that life has hope

Jiang Wenxu, who was sitting in the car waiting for Zhishu He to come over, seemed to be in a good mood, and he had a plan in mind. He didn't care what caused Zhishu He to be upset there, as long as he said something nice and coaxed him, and then gave him a domineering kiss. Yes, his knowledge has always been good

Jiang Wenxu is really good at handling Zhishu He, he thinks he understands Zhishu He, knows all his weaknesses, is sensible, kind, gentle, and the most important thing is that he loves himself deeply

When He Zhishu agreed to leave home, Jiang Wenxu was very moved. Yes, at first, he was moved, then he was happy, and finally he was conceited. He knew that He Zhishu loved him deeply, and this was his bargaining chip.

Thinking of talking to Jiang Wenxu, He Zhishu felt disgusted, disgusted with Jiang Wenxu's tricks, playing both soft and hard, reversed black and white, duplicity, supplemented by force when necessary

At the very beginning, he thought it was fun, and Jiang Wenxu was just looking for an excuse to want to be presumptuous on the bed, and the small bumps in life are also a running-in, so He Zhishu accepted it.

But later, the violence and beatings were done to death. Now that I think about it, I feel disgusted. Those who are honest are insults. He is also a man with backbone. He uses tricks to coax women, and he refuses to show his attitude and explain , What, do you think it is unnecessary?Even now, he knows that Jiang Wenxu is waiting for him to pass by in the car. Since when, he has eaten himself to death

He Zhishu was confused, his face was not good, and he walked towards the gate without thinking.

Jiang Wenxu's heart immediately burst into flames, and he hammered heavily on the steering wheel to "fuck"

Feeling puzzled, he slammed the car door and got out of the car, kicking the tall tree next to him.

After losing his temper, he began to fall into deep thought. What could be the cause of He Zhishu's change of person?

When I came back from buying fish, I saw Jiang Wenxu leaning against the station, with a pile of cigarette butts at his feet

"He Zhishu!" Jiang Wenxu called him loudly, unable to hear the emotion

Zhishu He walked towards the corridor without any change in speed

Jiang Wenxu really didn't understand what was going on, he quickly followed He Zhishu and grabbed his wrist with a bit of strength, conveying his anger at the moment

"Let go" He Zhishu said lightly

Jiang Wenxu became even more angry, and his hands became stronger

"I tell you to let go!" He Zhishu suddenly broke out, and Jiang Wenxu didn't respond for a moment and was thrown away

"Knowledge?" Jiang Wenxu's accumulated anger from the afternoon was immediately extinguished by the cold sweat all over his body

"How do you know the book?"

Jiang Wenxu was afraid, he saw the determination in He Zhishu's eyes, he didn't know where it came from, when did he have deep-rooted hatred

Jiang Wenxu had an expression on his face that was about to cry, very much like when he was acting like a baby with Zhishu before

"Is there something I did wrong? Is it because I've been too busy recently and didn't care much about you? Or did I forget something?..."

He left without waiting for him to finish speaking. Jiang Wenxu didn't have time to stop him, and he didn't dare to stop him

He didn't dare to catch up. If things got to He Zhishu's parents, it would be even more troublesome. The matter between two people should be handled by two people. It will be more complicated if other people are involved, especially if He Zhishu's parents know With their current situation, there is even more reason to break them up.

Jiang Wenxu had no choice but to go back to the car first

The couple felt that He Zhishu was very nagging recently, and the noise in their ears was unbearable. After dinner, they saw that he was about to start again, so they left him and went out to visit.

Jiang Wenxu was suffering from various emotions in the car, so he called Zhang Jingwen, and when he connected, he heard harsh heavy metal music and all kinds of laughter and scolding, which made people irritated

"Where are you fooling around?"

"Wait, I can't hear you clearly here, wait for me to find a place"

wait patiently for a few seconds

"Tell me, what's the matter"

Jiang Wenxu didn't bother to care about him, and said a few words about what happened between him and Zhishu He today.

"This can't be, how could Zhishu be like this?"

"I just called you because I didn't know"

"I didn't say that, I think Zhishu is a bit too much, you are very kind to him, you see you are a small boss now, and you don't play around, and some people ask me if you are okay? Haha"

Zhang Jingwen paused and burped

"Maybe he's tired of being crooked enough, he's going to be cold for a while, isn't he talking about the seven-year itch? Aren't you guys approaching the sixth year? It's almost there."

Jiang Wenxu was about to refute, when he saw He Zhishu's parents going downstairs and out of the community, he immediately hung up the phone

Listening to the busy tone of the phone, Zhang Jingwen chuckled, "Why are you looking for something to do? You have to be tied together. You are still free. You can play however you want. Even if you are not tired now, you will be tired of it in the future, but I didn't expect it to be He Zhishu first gets tired"

He Zhishu is most afraid of such a time, when he is the only one left in the house, no matter how loudly the TV is turned on or how brightly the lights are turned on, he will feel that he is locked in a dark room

In fact, he is really afraid, so he will talk to his parents every night, and then fall asleep on the sofa accompanied by their voices, otherwise, he is sure that he will not be able to get a rest, and the things he is trying to suppress will definitely jump out and torture him

Just like now, he thought of Jiang Wenxu again, there were too many things in the past, he couldn't remember, he only remembered Jiang Wenxu's appearance in the corridor just now

He no longer dares to say that he knows Jiang Wenxu. He Zhishu would know that he was sad and sad when he was like that before, but after seeing Jiang Wenxu's hypocrisy in those four years, He Zhishu can no longer tell which one is Jiang Wenxu.

Maybe even Jiang Wenxu himself can't tell the difference, he is a person who can even deceive himself

I remembered his innocent expression when he asked himself if he did something wrong, if he didn't care enough, if he forgot something

He Zhishu suddenly felt "boring"

This Jiang Wenxu is not the Jiang Wenxu who cheated and hurt himself to the bone, no matter what he does, it will be meaningless

Even if he wants to break up now, he doesn't have a good reason

Why is it still me who bears this memory in the end...

It's not that he's afraid of facing it, it's just that he hasn't figured out how to face it

what a fucking bad debt

The knock on the door saved him from his chaotic thoughts. Thinking of his parents, He Zhishu calmed down. He obviously owed his parents, but in the end it was his parents who saved him. In the future, he will never be able to leave again.

After tidying up his emotions and opening the door, Jiang Wenxu saw He Zhishu's big, silly smiling face, and his heart beat violently

"Little...little book"

He Zhishu quickly changed his face and was about to close the door. Jiang Wenxu quickly walked in and grabbed He Zhishu's shoulder.

"Xiaoshu, Xiaoshu... I, what did I do wrong to make you unhappy, can you tell me directly?"

He Zhishu could feel Jiang Wenxu's nervousness, he saw Jiang Wenxu in a trance, he stuffed the book into his arms, and said that he hoped that he would like him

That's right, the current Jiang Wenxu doesn't understand anything, and hasn't done anything yet, so he can't help himself. He Zhishu is not Jiang Wenxu after all, he likes to play tricks on people's hearts and torture others

He is He Zhishu, a bay of spring water in the south, he is kind and gentle

"Not angry" gently removed the hands that grabbed his shoulders

"It was just a dream" is all I can say

"What kind of dream?" Jiang Wenxu asked impatiently

"You turned into a devil and tortured me terribly..."

Jiang Wenxu was a little relieved, he didn't mind how far-fetched the explanation was, all he wanted was a reason to convince himself, hugged Zhishu He, and rubbed his head

"Scared me to death, fool, it's okay, it's all a dream, it's not real"

He promised Jiang Wenxu to turn on his cell phone, and talked on the phone if he had something to say, so he persuaded Jiang Wenxu to leave. He still needs time to adjust his mind and figure out how he should face Jiang Wenxu

He has to pretend to be peaceful even if he has a bad heart. Maintaining such an attitude consumes too much energy. He can't be amiable, but he can't be ruthless either.

Yes, the same tenderness from the beginning to the end, purely from the nature of kindness