Pretend to be straight

I'm not a crybaby, to be precise, I seldom cried after my sophomore year.

What I mean is that apart from work, those who have to cry for acting during work are not counted.

Even when I was very sad last time, I stayed alone in the room until I was wronged at the end, but I didn't cry many tears.

But now I'm crying until hiccups, my eyes are full of tears, my vision is blurred, I can't close my mouth, my nose is also mixed with tears, I can't tell what it is anymore.

I don't know why the emotions suddenly exploded like this, but there is only one thought in my mind: cry.

When Qin Yiwen strangled my neck and nearly suffocated, I didn't cry, and I didn't cry when I woke up afterwards.

But now when I go home, after hearing Xie Ying's last words, I can't stop crying.

I couldn't see Xie Ying's face clearly. She sighed again and again, and wanted to wipe my tears with a tissue, but I shook my head to say no.

One drop after another of tears fell on the back of my own hand, and the temperature was no lower than the brown sugar glutinous rice cake that burned my palm today.

While crying, I used my extra brain to think about what Lulu, who pronounced like me, was thinking about before jumping off the building.

At the age of seventeen or eighteen, would she have fear of death?

Just like how I was strangled by Qin Yiwen today, thinking about it now still makes me shudder.

But... unknown, she has been away for a long time.

It's just that I can't help but feel sorry, and even want to ask Nuwa what is the ratio of happiness to pain for each person when making people.

Could it be that his hands trembled accidentally, and Qin Yiwen and Lu Lu shared more pain than ordinary people.

I fell asleep with such unanswered questions, woke up the next morning with a headache, drank water and took medicine, and fell asleep again.

It was already afternoon when I opened my eyes again, Meng Yisheng called me.

She was worried about me, she said that she would come to see me while she was still able to walk, so that she would not be able to take the initiative to see me when she could only lie on the bed later.

When I came here, she also bought me a meal. She knew my taste, and the two dishes I bought were both my favorite.

I just washed up, my face is still wet, my hair is a bit messy, and my eyes are swollen from crying last night.

But it doesn't matter, I don't need to care about my image in front of her.

Meng Yisheng looked around in the living room and asked me, "Where's Xie Ying? Has she gone to work?"

"Yeah." I took apart the chopsticks and opened the lunch box.

I didn't recover from eating last night, and I didn't eat any more until my stomach was full. Now my appetite has increased greatly, and I may be very hungry.

She sat down on the sofa, brushed her hair, looked at me eating, and asked me with worried eyes: "Zhizhi, why don't we find a decent job?"

This is not the first time she has asked me to quit this precarious job.

It is not income instability, but security instability.

She said the same thing last month, but at that time it was because she wanted me to find someone to fall in love with.

After more than a month now, the nature has changed.

I didn't speak, I just shook my head, expressing my refusal.

Meng Yisheng slowly sat down next to me, and she said earnestly: "Zhizhi, you had such good grades in your college and department when you were in college, and there were so many companies vying for you in your senior year, you shouldn't be This way." She paused, "It shouldn't be like this now."

I swallowed the food in my mouth and looked at her: "But I..." I said, "I really don't want to look for a job. I like to be free and unrestrained. Although this job of accepting orders and doing tasks has potential safety hazards, But I am free."

I re-clamped a piece of meat and stopped looking at her.

Meng Yisheng frowned deeply, she raised her hand to touch my neck, and asked me with a sigh, "Does it hurt?"

"It was quite painful at the time." I comforted her, "I don't feel much now."

Qin Yiwen used one hand at the beginning, and then the other hand was also used. My neck is not thick, and it was really about to break when he pinched it.

It’s been almost a day, and the mark on my neck still hasn’t disappeared, and Qin Yiwen’s nails accidentally scratched me and bleed. The two thin scratches on my fair neck are more conspicuous.

But it’s only the end of September, and it’s not even October yet, so I can’t wear turtleneck sweaters and scarves, and I don’t have the habit of wearing silk scarves.

So I plan not to go out for a few days, and I will see people whenever the imprint becomes shallow.

I've already posted on Moments at work. I'm going on a trip these few days. I won't see anyone, and my phone will be turned off. If I need something, I'll contact you when I get back.

It's not that I haven't considered changing jobs as Meng Yisheng said, but I'm used to this mode now. If I go to the company and stay under the supervision of others, I may turn the world upside down.

Yesterday, I was almost called to drink and chat by Lord Yan. The closest I was to death was that moment.

So until now I am still afraid of this matter, but I have to digest it myself, at least the way I behave will not worry Meng Yisheng and Xie Ying.

I don't like to cause trouble for others, and I feel guilty for making people worry and worry because of me.

So now in front of Meng Yisheng, I have no choice but to act like this.

I'm not afraid, I can still be strong, I don't go out now just because the scars haven't healed yet.

Meng Yisheng sighed again, her fingertips were still on my neck, and she was still trembling slightly: "Zhizhi, promise me, if there is another time, I will really find a serious job, okay?"

Tears welled up in her eyes, obviously terrified by what happened yesterday.

I looked at her eyes and nodded: "Okay." I raised the corners of my lips to comfort her, "Don't cry, or the baby will want to cry too, she has to laugh."

I really hope that the child that Nuwa gave to Meng Yisheng will be more happy, so that she can grow up healthy and happy.

"Okay." Meng Yisheng sniffed, and she patted my head, "You continue to eat."

When she left, she took my trash with me, and I finally breathed a sigh of relief looking at the closed door.

My throat was still uncomfortable, so I went to drink two more glasses of water, took another pill by the way, and went to bed to sleep.

Sleeping will be less uncomfortable, at least Qin Yiwen's face will no longer be recalled in his mind.

The hideous face with red eyes trying to strangle me.

But I had a splitting headache, I bit my lip and fought with the headache, I don't know how long it took, I won, and finally fell asleep.

But paper can't contain fire, and Xiao Xu knew about it at night.

He rushed over from the airport in a hurry, dragged his suitcase and went to the door of his house to ring the doorbell.

I was woken up by his phone and the doorbell, and when I saw his phone I knew he knew what was going on.

I opened the door in my pajamas and asked him, "What about your work?"

After separating from Xiaoxu on Sunday, he received an urgent task order in the evening, quickly booked a ticket, and flew to Qicheng that night.

He told me that his mission was to go for about three days. The client was a middle-aged man in his 40s. He and his wife lost their son last year.But now his wife is still in grief, and finally found out about Xiao Xu through someone else's channel, and contacted Xiao Xu.

Xie Ying has taken such a job before, and I more or less know what to do.

But today is only the second day, and he came back, and he seemed to cry.

"That uncle understands me very well. He asked me to come back first. It's okay to go back when I see you."

I turned around, and he followed me. Xiao Xu dragged his small suitcase in and put it at the door, and closed the door silently.

I have already sat down on the sofa, and on the tea table are fresh fruits that Meng Yisheng just brought today.

I picked up an orange and wanted to peel it, but Xiao Xu angrily snatched it from my hand, and he said clearly: "I'll do it."

I smiled: "I'm fine, I can do it myself." I asked her casually, "Did Yingying say that?"

"I remember you have that dress." He said while peeling the orange, "I was with that aunt yesterday, and I just saw the video today. I thought it was you, but I wasn't sure, so I asked Yingying. She said it was you."

I nodded, and he put the peeled orange in my hand, then stared at my neck: "Did you rub the medicine?"

Xiao Xu is not feminine at all at the moment, but gentle.

I shook my head: "No." I touched the wound, "It doesn't hurt."

Xiao Xu patted the back of my hand, with a tone of resentment: "Touch after washing your hands? What if you get infected? Do you still want your swan neck?"

"..." I was so hungry when he said this, "I want to eat duck neck." I blinked, "Whatever you eat, you can make up for it."

Xiaoxu was stunned for two seconds, I didn't expect my thoughts to jump so fast, and then sighed: "I'll order takeaway, and I'll give you five-flavored ones, and spicy ones are fine." He gave me a hard look, "Patients should not eat it." , pay more attention."

"Okay." I listened to his arrangement.

When Xie Ying came back, Xiao Xu had already left. He took his small suitcase and went to the airport again.

He didn't tell his boyfriend when he came back, he came back quietly.

I asked him why he didn't talk about it, and he said that he didn't want to leave because he might see him.

People who are passionately in love don't want to be separated for a day.

I'm a little envious, I envy Xiaoxu, after experiencing one failed relationship after another, he can still welcome a new beginning.

Don't be bound by the past, don't dwell on the past, and always look forward.

Even though there are great obstacles in his family, he is still trying his best to live the way he wants to live.

Xie Ying said last night, "Eat well, sleep well, and love well." I may not have done any of them.

What the hell am I now?I stared at myself in the mirror, and suddenly raised the corners of my mouth.

The work circle of friends posted is not a lie, I really have to go on a trip.

Not much time, just three days.

I still have tasks on my body now, and I can no longer do as I wanted before, otherwise I might go to play for a week or two.

Ever since we parted ways with Shi Jinghe at the gate of No. [-] High School in Yuncheng, I have never contacted her again.

It has been a month and four or five days since the day the contract was signed, but I still haven't developed with Shi Jinghe to the point where she would look for me even if I didn't take the initiative to look for me.

What kind of friend?I just failed.

I'm just a model of Shi Jinghe lying on the list, I will comment on her circle of friends, and I will talk to her about things.

That's all, nothing else.

My idea of ​​traveling came quickly, and my actions were also very fast. I got up early the next morning, took a suitcase, and started packing the clothes and pants needed for the three days.

Xie Ying was surprised when she saw me packing my luggage: "Zhi Zhi, where are you going?"

While arranging my underwear, I said, "Go to Liucheng."

It has been three years since I graduated, and I have never been to Liucheng in these three years.

"Ah?" She looked worried, "Is it okay to be alone? Do you want to wait for me to finish this task first and come with you?"

She took on a new task yesterday, and it will take about three days.

I shook my head and said with a smile: "It's okay, you are busy with your work, I can do it by myself."

Xie Ying was still worried, she said, "But Zhizhi, your injury..."

I touched my neck again, the bruises on it had faded a little when I looked in the mirror today, but the two fine marks scratched by my nails were still conspicuous.

I didn't apply medicine, because I didn't like it, and I was afraid of pain, so I wanted to wait for it to scab and heal naturally.

"It's nothing. I have a silk scarf. It was given to me by Yisheng last year. I haven't worn it yet. Just wear it this time to cover it up." As I spoke, I opened the closet and found the silk scarf in a drawer Box.

It was a wine red boxy plaid silk scarf, the fabric was smooth and comfortable to the touch.

Seeing my insistence, Xie Ying said, "Okay, I'm going to go out later." She asked me, "Are you going today? Or tomorrow?"

"I'll be there in a while."

"Okay, remember to send us a message when you arrive."

"no problem."

With only three days of vacation, I brought two changes of clothes.

In this way, I want to start a walk-and-go trip.

I am very familiar with Liucheng, I have been there for nearly four years.

Originally, I wanted to go by car, but after thinking about it, I thought it would be better to go by train.

I don't feel like moving right now, too lazy to drive for hours.

I booked the hotel in advance, it was already afternoon when I arrived, and then I checked in.

On the way, Pu Xin called me and asked me if I would like to go to her shop for dinner tonight. We haven't had dinner together for a while.

I said that I was on the car to Liucheng now, and she exploded in an instant.

"Lu Zhi! You bitch! You didn't ask me to come with you!"

We are all from Yuncheng, but we all study in Liucheng. We first met her because she quarreled with people in the fellow villager group. I went up to her side and quarreled with her, and she became my friend.

Before that, we both knew each other.

I heard her scolding me like that, so I had to apologize: "I was wrong, I was wrong." I said, "Aren't you busy? Then what am I calling you for?"

Pu Xin is really busy, she has taken care of her family business, almost every time I go to her shop, she is at work.

Pu Xin became even angrier: "It's okay if you don't mention it, but I'm even angrier if I mention it. Now I'm so busy that I don't even have time to flirt with my little brother."

"Come on, I'll come to you for dinner when I come back."

At that time, there shouldn't be any marks on the neck, right?I guess.

In order to let me not wear a silk scarf and not reveal my secrets, I bought a box of smeared medicine at the pharmacy outside the station after I got off the train.

I will start applying medicine to my wound tonight, and strive to see that the wound is gone when I wake up tomorrow.

Traveling alone is lonely, but after thinking about it, I think it is not—it seems that I am not lonely at ordinary times.

I only brought my mobile phone with me when I went out this time. The work mobile phone was turned off and put in the bedside table.

In fact, I still haven't slowed down. I am still a little afraid of this job.

Even though some of the clients I have met before are wonderful, I have never encountered such a situation as Qin Yiwen.

I thought of the scene at that time again, and couldn't help trembling all over.

But I can't go on like this, I continue to work, I still want to make money, so I have to get out of the shadows as soon as possible.

This is the real purpose of my coming to Liucheng, isn't it?

It's just that I can't help but be concerned with Shi Jing and...'s mission.

When I think of her, I get a headache, not the headache from taking the medicine, but the headache from weakness.

This task is too difficult.

It would be great if he could really stop chasing her as Xiao Xu said.

Shi Jinghe has already been identified as a straight daughter by a senior gay man, I have no doubts at all.

What I said at the time was not wrong, right?Shi Jinghe did feed me candy and praised me for being sweet.

And I still remember that I asked her if she had encountered the same kind of thing as her ex-boyfriend. She didn't answer, but it doesn't mean that she doesn't have an ex-boyfriend.

Although it does not mean that there is no ex-girlfriend...

I calculated carefully, I graduated in 2015, and Shi Jinghe was three years older than me, that was 2012.

Today, six years have passed.

When I graduated, she replied on Weibo that she was single, but I didn't know about it in the years before that.

But I have a thought in my heart, that is... Could it be that Shi Jinghe fell in love when they were in college?

I remember she was a celebrity at school, although I didn't pay much attention to it, other people might have a little impression.

Maybe I got into a dead end, because I desperately want to know who Shi Jinghe's married ex is.

If it is really a boy, then I feel that I am hopeless, and I don't want to do such things as bending others.

If it's a girl, then I... can launch an offensive.

But I know how much I have: Offensive?I have a p offensive.

I decided to contact my friends from the School of Economics when I returned to Yuncheng.

After I played with Pu Xin, I met a lot of people from other colleges with her, and my network resources have also been enriched.

The two of us are in the accounting school, but the friends we make are not necessarily.

Shi Jinghe is from the School of Economics. I remember that there are seniors who graduated in 2014 on my list.

They have stayed in school longer than me, and they must know a lot more than those in the same courtyard as Shi Jinghe.

When I thought about it, I was almost moved by myself.

Obviously I went out for a trip to relax, but in the end I was still thinking about work.

It is really sad for those who hear it, and tears for those who hear it.

But at this moment, I remembered that when Shi Jinghe returned to Liucheng last time, I sent her a message to thank her for Jin Lin's affairs, but she asked me if I wanted any souvenirs.

Can I ask her that too?It's always good to keep in touch, isn't it?

My actions are always very fast. Before I can react, the message to Shi Jinghe has already been sent.

Me: 【I came to Liucheng today, senior sister, do you want any souvenirs? 】

I stared at the column I sent and felt speechless. Just now I was calculating the year in my mind, and after the calculation, I made Shi Jinghe the senior sister.

But she is indeed a senior, and I...don't know how to call her yet.

How many times have I called her name?I forgot, but every time I call "Shi Jinghe" directly, I have a strange feeling.

What's even more strange is that every time she calls me Lu Zhi, I have the illusion of being called to answer questions while sleeping in class.

She hasn't replied to my message yet, I let out a sigh of relief and looked out the window.

It was afternoon when I arrived, I took a shower and washed my hair, and it was already getting dark.

I stayed in the hotel all the time, and I haven't gone out to eat, and my stomach has flattened again.

See, I didn't "eat well" at all. I ate a snack for breakfast, didn't eat lunch, and put off dinner until now.

I glanced at my phone, Shi Jinghe hadn't answered me yet, I curled my lips, got up and got dressed to go out for dinner.

While wearing jeans, the phone screen lit up, and the lock screen showed that I had received a new WeChat message.

I fastened the buttons, bent down and picked up the phone to unlock it.

Shi Jinghe returned two voice calls to me, and I opened them one by one.

The first one: "I'm also in Liucheng, I arrived yesterday."

She went to Liucheng again, didn't she just go there more than ten days ago?It's really not too difficult to run, but the time is her own, so that's all I can think about.

The second one: "Sister Lu Zhi, senior doesn't need any souvenirs, you can buy them yourself."

When it came to the end, her ending sound rose obviously.

I know it would be fun for her to tease me, just like she called me "Zhi Zhang" that day, now she calls me "Sister Lu Zhi".

I:……

Me: 【I thought you were in Yuncheng, but I didn't expect you to be in Liucheng too. 】

I really didn't expect that she came to Liucheng too often, right?

Shi Jinghe sent me another voice message: "My girlfriend is about to give birth, I'll come to accompany her."

I can accept this reason, because when Meng Yisheng has a baby, maybe I will put my work aside to accompany her.

I will not be a mother, but I will be a godmother.

I was just about to send a message, but she called me, and my eyelids jumped, and I answered.

After a while, I went out.

Not only is it good to have more contact, but it is also good to meet more.

Shi Jinghe asked me if I wanted to have dinner together, and it happened that she hadn't eaten yet and planned to go to a restaurant.

I think she is really nice, like I would not think of inviting her to dinner.

I've actually been worried about one thing these two days, and that is whether Shi Jinghe will know that the girl who was almost strangled to death outside the gate of Yuncheng University is me.

Two days ago, the Internet was covered with this matter, but now the popularity has gone down.

The video is not only that one, but also a part of the picture, I was terrified when I watched it.

I was really afraid that Shi Jinghe would recognize me right now, but luckily my hair covered my face, so I couldn't recognize myself very well.

Even Xie Ying and Xiao Xu, who know me so well, are also suspicious because of the clothes?And I didn't wear that dress in front of Shi Jinghe.

I didn't drive to the taxi I took. It's past seven o'clock in the evening, and it's still time for dinner.

I also went to the restaurant that Shi Jinghe mentioned when I was in college. When I saw the gate again after a few years, I only had one feeling: it has not closed down yet.

The last time Pu Xin came back from Liucheng, she said that some of the restaurants she liked before had changed shops, and I felt it was a pity at that time.

I'm a little surprised that the restaurant hasn't closed down yet.If the boss knows what I think, maybe the security guards will kick me out.

I still tied the wine-red silk scarf around my neck to cover the scars, but it still has the effect of keeping warm, especially when I am waiting for Shi Jinghe on the side of the road.

She said she was stuck in traffic and asked me to wait for her.

All right, I'll wait for her to show that I'm more sincere, and I'll give her some points to impress her, so it's nothing to brag about.

Liucheng is the capital of Yun Province, a first-tier city, it is night, and the scenery inside the city is also unstoppable.

The crowds of people coming and going after feasting and feasting gave me a sudden feeling of not knowing where I am today.

Finally, a car stopped in front of me, and the window of the co-pilot was gradually lowered, revealing Shi Jinghe's face.

no one.

Because the car driven by Shi Jinghe was still that red car.

But I heard her voice, she said: "Sister Lu Zhi, give way, I have to stop and come in, I'm not good at driving."

"..." I obediently stood aside, waiting for her to drive in and park the car.

Not long after, she opened the car door and got out.

I haven't seen her for a few days, but her complexion seems to be getting better and better. She is wearing a thin camel-colored trench coat with a shirt inside.

She has an extremely good-looking figure and a graceful figure. When she walked towards me, the sound of her high-heeled shoes stepping on the ground was infinitely amplified in my mind.

At the same time, my heartbeat is amplified.

I'm actually starting to feel nervous?I calmed down, bent the corners of my lips to her, and showed a smile that I thought was pretty good.

Shi Jinghe stood in front of me, the car key chain in her hand was turned around on her index finger, and after making a series of crisp sounds, she held it in the palm of her hand.

She dropped her hand, looked at my face, and asked me, "What's wrong with the neck?"

I became alert and shook my head: "No, I wear a silk scarf to look good."

I can't let her know that my neck is injured, and I can't let her know that I am the heroine of the uproar on the Internet two days ago.

Shi Jinghe raised his eyebrows, with a look of doubt: "All right."

She turned her head and walked forward without looking at me again, and said, "I thought you were covering the hickey."