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I like it. The ice cream is delicious. I like it. You are so nice. I like it.Rather than, blushing, heartbeat, not speaking, insomnia, anxiety, often dreaming, such likes.

"Do you like me? Gao Yan." Lu Qingguang asked again.

Every nerve ending in Gao Yan was ignited by this sentence, but he could only spit out a single syllable: "Huh?"

This "um" seems to be unbelievable, unbelievable, and at a loss.

"...how is it possible..." I don't like you.

Gao Yan swallowed the second half of the words back to his stomach.

Lu Qingfeng frowned, and said firmly, "I don't believe it."

"You like me," his voice sank, and he touched Gao Yan's hard crotch with his palm down, "You are already saying that you like me..."

Gao Yan resignedly closed his eyes and covered them with the back of his hand, the corners of his eyes slowly oozing with damp heat.

"Yanyan, don't cry..."

Lu Qingguang pushed his hand away and licked his thin eyelids, wet eyelashes, and red corners of his eyes.

"Don't cry...don't cry...don't cry..."

He kept repeating.Repeatedly.chatter.

Gao Yan softened his waist and twitched and shot into Lu Qingguang's hand.

After shooting, all he could feel was a void.

I thought that there would be many kinds of strong emotions coming, making him crazy, making him crazy, and making him regret, but in the end he could only feel tired.

Lu Qingguang picked him up from the bottom of the sea, placed him on a soft bed, and groped to clean his lower body.

"Enough," he sat up from the bed and stopped Lu Qingguang's movements.

"Enough is enough, enough is enough! Go, go!"

Gao Yan's voice suddenly rose, full of disheartened despair.

Lu Qingguang wanted to touch his face, but Gao Yan shrank back in panic until he reached the corner of the bed, like a poor ostrich, buried his head between his knees, muttering endlessly: "Is this fun, is it interesting... Why……"

"Yanyan," Lu Qingguang climbed onto the bed and moved towards him hesitantly, "I..."

Lu Qingguang suddenly fell silent, obviously he didn't know what to say.Gao Yan looked up at him, trying to find some signs.

Lu Qingguang tilted his head, his face was calm, unable to see his true emotions.

From the beginning, Lu Qingguang's attitude was very vague. He overreacted and took a little bit of kindness as a life-saving straw.

"Well... do you have something to say to me?"

He used "think" to prove that he had more or less guessed.Confession is lovelorn, Gao Yan is not yet confident that Lu Qingguang will also hold that inappropriate feeling.

"No, Lu Qingguang, please forgive me."

He thought that Lu Qingguang couldn't see, so he wouldn't know his hidden feelings deep in his heart.The ridiculous thing is that Lu Qingguang has always known that there is no need to look at it.

He watched from the sidelines, made condescending conclusions, and dragged him off the stage to appreciate the foolishness.

"Let's go, let's go." Gao Yan restrained his emotions a little bit, but still cried weakly, "Please, let's go."

"Yanyan, why?" Lu Qingguang frowned, and asked in a deep voice, "I don't understand, and I don't understand."

Gao Yan exhaled heavily, "You can't give me what I want."

"What do you want?" Lu Qingguang asked stubbornly.

"I..." Gao Yan was discouraged, and reluctantly moved his lips, "...don't dare to ask for anything."

Gao Yan didn't know when Lu Qingguang left, and he didn't care anymore.

Lu Qingguang broke into his world recklessly, and wanted to be his friend with a stern face, and then made him fall in love with him uncontrollably.

When he fell in love with this feeling, the instigator fled, leaving him to fend for himself.

Give people hope, and at the same time give people cruelty.

Lu Qingguang is still greedily asking him to continue—to be his friend.

Gao Yan decided to quit Lu Qingguang and blocked all his contact information.

Lu Qingguang couldn't get in touch with him, so he came to find someone, but failed to persist until the third time.The determination to visit the thatched cottage three times is obviously not there.

Gao Yan tried many methods, hoping to drive this person out of memory, but failed without exception.

The more depressed he is, the more he will rebound, like a backlash virus, evaporating him completely.Tossing and turning, restless day and night, every time he wakes up, what he thinks and reads is still that Lu Qingguang.

After experiencing a short period of collapse, he began to rebuild, chose to let go, and chose to reconcile with his twisted self.

But when Lu Qingguang appeared, stood in front of him, and asked him why in an innocent tone, he found to his disappointment that he still cared about him, liked him, and wanted him.

Is this Lu Qingguang's fault? No, it's not.

Is this his fault for liking Lu Qingguang? No, liking is not a fault.

What's wrong is that I like someone I shouldn't like.

It was his mistaken belief that they both needed each other because they were flawed.

What Lu Qingguang is blind is his eyes, not his heart.

He is a healthy person, but he does not have a healthy life.His past is a ticking time bomb that cannot be unloaded. This is the price he pays for his mistakes, and he needs to bear it all his life.

He is not as good as Lu Qingguang.He is the real "social disability".

With his own efforts, Lu Qingguang has survived the time of poverty and embarrassment, and is eligible to get a ticket to happiness.He should marry a wife, have children and have a happy family, just like thousands of other ordinary men.They are not the same country.

It has been a whole month since Gao Yan saw Lu Qingguang again after they broke up in the massage parlor last time.

He had just parked the car when he got out of the car and saw a man and a woman getting out of the car next to him.

The girl came out of the cab, walked around to the co-pilot's seat, carefully helped Lu Qingguang out, held his arm with a smile, and guided him in the direction.

Gao Yan froze in place.

He was less than two punches away from them, and when he passed by, Lu Qingguang seemed to turn his head in the direction where he was standing.

Gao Yan took a breath.

Lu Qingguang stopped, and the girl beside him looked at him suspiciously and asked him what was wrong.

Lu Qingguang didn't speak, but "looked" at him through the air, as if he had discovered his existence.

Gao Yan's heart was pounding, he turned around in a hurry, and fled.

Lu Qingguang shook his head lightly, smiled in relief, and told the girl that I made a mistake.

The girl looked puzzled, and glanced in the direction Gao Yan was leaving.

He can't forget him, but he must forget him.

After Gao Yan's calculations, the balance in the massage parlor card can probably be pressed three more times.After spending these three times, it can be regarded as a real farewell to Lu Qingguang.Obviously he could not go, but he knew it but couldn't do it.

Human beings are really strange. They keep saying they want to let go, but they try to break the connection.

Gao Yan deliberately picked a day when Lu Qingguang didn't work.

Pushing open the store door, bumped into Li Kai who was walking out.Li Kai grinned and rubbed his shoulders, and when he found out it was him, he sneered.

He didn't want to get entangled with this person, so he said sorry with a cold face.

Li Kai refused to let go, stopped him, and wanted to argue.Gao Yan was so annoyed that he blocked Li Kai with his elbow.

Li Kai grabbed his wrist and said close to his ear: "I'm not afraid of death anyway, but you seem to care about what others think of you. If I yell 'murderer' here..."

Li Kai didn't say any more, raised his eyebrows to observe his reaction, with a mocking look on his face.

Gao Yan was startled, and flinched unconsciously.Then he saw Lu Qingguang and walked out of the box.

Li Kai followed Gao Yan's gaze and turned his head, knowing it in his heart, and deliberately shouted: "Master Lu, I'm leaving, thank you for coming here to give me a massage today!"

Lu Qingguang walked over slowly.Every time he took a step closer, Gao Yan felt his heart skip a beat.

He tried to forget him, but he remembered everything about him.

"Boss Li, you haven't left yet." Lu Qingguang stood beside Li Kai, facing Gao Yan diagonally, "Are you waiting for me to see you off?"

Li Kai grinned, "Hey, it's a coincidence that I met someone I know, well, I'm also your regular customer."

Lu Qingguang slowly turned to Gao Yan.

"Gao Yan? Is that you?" Before Li Kai could make an introduction, Lu Qingguang blurted out.

Gao Yan was dumbfounded.

"It's you, Gao Yan." Lu Qingguang easily made a judgment.

Li Kai glanced at Gao Yan, then at Lu Qingguang, and smiled with unknown meaning.

"Boss Li, didn't you just say that you have an appointment at four o'clock, if you don't leave, you will be late." Lu Qingguang said suddenly.

Li Kai was stunned for a moment, and immediately came to his senses, patted Lu Qingguang on the back, and then turned his head to glance at Gao Yan.

"Yes... goodbye!"

Li opened the door and walked out of the store, leaving the two of them behind.

Gao Yan didn't know what to do, so he could only look at Lu Qingguang face to face.

"Yanyan, let's talk."

As soon as the words fell, Lu Qingguang dragged him into the empty box.When he heard the sound of locking, Lu Qingguang turned around, opened his arms, and said in a commanding tone, "Come here, Yanyan."

Gao Yan watched Lu Qingguang's handsome face getting closer and closer to him.

It turned out that he himself was walking towards Lu Qingguang, towards his former hope.

Just a punch away, Lu Qingguang suddenly leaned over, eager to hold him in his arms, and asked in a tearing voice:

"I miss you."

"do you miss me?"

"My rock."

Gao Yan didn't dare to make a sound, he buried his head on Lu Qingguang's chest, sniffing the man's breath greedily, he heard the sound of his own blood boiling, and every nerve ending in him was bursting into clusters. A cluster of fireworks, he is hijacked by immense ecstasy, captured by unexpected shock.

Lu Qingguang was saying that he missed him.

He closed his eyes and thought, well, even if it is a dream, let me die at this moment.

He likes him, he has to admit.

He has never liked people before, so he can't say how much he likes them. He only knows that the current level of liking is beyond the reach of all the other favorite things combined.