never ya

Lu Qingguang is the first, and far ahead.

"I like you," Gao Yan raised his head, stared at him closely, and traced the outline of this person bit by bit with his gaze, "You are right, I like you."

"I'm ashamed to like you."

Lu Qingguang's body trembled imperceptibly.

Gao Yan heard a long sigh, which contained many inexplicable emotions, and came from Lu Qingguang.He was afraid to hear the truth he had been refusing to accept, so he couldn't help but tense up.

"Yanyan," Lu Qingguang called him gently.

He didn't dare to listen, so he straightened up, withdrew from Lu Qingguang's arms, and pretended to be casual and said: "Finally, I've said it."

"Yanyan," Lu Qingguang frowned, seemingly dissatisfied, "You are so stupid."

Gao Yan couldn't help laughing, thinking, how could someone not stupid like you without authorization.

"I don't know what you misunderstood." Lu Qingguang's voice eased, like a moonlight song on Debussy's keys, lingering and moving, "I don't have a girlfriend, and I don't have anyone else in my heart..."

Gao Yan stared at his beautiful diamond-shaped lips with full lips, Lu Qingguang continued: "I lied to you about something, I recognized you early in the morning, you were in the same class as me in high school, but you didn't dare Recognized with you. I am afraid that you will forget me and make yourself miserable."

While speaking, there was a commotion outside the box, as if there was a long and sharp siren.

Gao Yan rushed to the door and opened it to find out, but Lu Qingguang was faster than him—he hugged him by the waist, and embedded his back into his chest tightly.

"Listen to me, Yanyan," Lu Qingguang pressed his lips to his ear, and every time he uttered a word, it was like kissing the soft skin, "I was wrong that night, because you are so cute, so I couldn't bear it." Wait... I played tricks on you, but I didn't expect you to react so strongly, I wanted to explain clearly, but you never gave me a chance... What you want...is me, right?"

Lu Qingguang paused for a moment, and Gao Yan also paused for breath.He heard footsteps from far to near, and stopped outside the door of the box. The door was knocked and rattled, and someone was beating anxiously. There was a mess outside the room, but the inside was as quiet as a vacuum chamber.

"I can give it to you, I will give you all of myself, do you still want it?"

After Lu Qingguang finished speaking, he pulled his chin, found his lips accurately, and kissed him.

The movement outside the door gradually diminished, and the real world gradually became blurred. Gao Yan shook his eyelashes, immersed in this hot and intense kiss.

After the kiss was over, Gao Yan was still in a daze.Lu Qingguang kissed the top of his hair, took his hand, and led him towards the door.

Lu Qingguang turned the handle, Gao Yan woke up like a dream, pressed Lu Qingguang's hand, and said, "Wait a minute."

"What's the matter? What are you waiting for?" Lu Qingguang opened the door halfway, and a strong heat stream came in through the crack of the door, and Gao Yan narrowed his eyes reflexively.

When Gao Yan opened his eyes again, the flickering fire and Lu Qingguang's perfect outline outlined by the fire were reflected in his eyes.

At this moment, Lu Qingguang's dull eyeballs seemed to have sparkle, and the fire burned into his pupils, which filled with brilliance.

"Yanyan," Lu Qingguang smiled back at him, "I love you."

"Since I have decided to love you, I must love you in the way you need." Lu Qingguang said.

Gao Yan's eyes suddenly went dark, Lu Qingguang protected his head, and tightly surrounded him, the world went dark again.

end up

Gao Yan wasn't called Gao Yan before, but that didn't really matter, the name was just a code name.

When he found himself in love with Gao Yan, Gao Yan had disappeared from school.It was rumored that Gao Yan dropped out of school and was sent to a juvenile detention center for stabbing someone.

He wasn't called Lu Qingguang at that time, and his surname was Wei, so it wasn't important.

The only important thing is that since Wei Qingguang, he has fallen in love with Gao Yan who is not named Gao Yan.

Gao Yan, who is not called Gao Yan, was once a sensational legend in Lanqi High School. This is a violent version of the "Shang Zhongyong" story. The fall of the proud son of heaven makes the rumor a bit tragic and heroic.But soon, everyone forgot the ephemeral lonely boy and his thrilling rumors, just like forgetting what we ate yesterday, when it rained last time, and how to respect people.

Only Lu Qingguang did not forget that Gao Yan planted a stubborn seed, which took root deep in his heart.

He will never forget him, no matter what he becomes, he will definitely recognize him.

Lu Qingguang's eyesight began to deteriorate in his third year of high school. He couldn't see the words on the blackboard at first. He thought he was short-sighted and couldn't see clearly even with glasses.He began to lose sight of people, and could only see a vague outline, and then gradually lost his sense of light, the world fell into darkness, and he realized that he was becoming blind.

He went to the hospital for an examination, and the doctor gave him a complicated disease name, and then gently suggested that he learn Braille and use a blind stick.

He knew that his world would never have light again.

He has not yet met him again. If he is blind, will he be recognized again?

Lu Qingguang went to the city juvenile prison while he could still feel the faint light. He applied for a prison visit, but was rejected.

As for the reason, he didn't remember it clearly, and it wasn't an important thing anyway.

In fact, even if he could see Gao Yan, he didn't know what to say to him.Inspired by the impulse, he took courage and boldly walked towards the high wall with thorns, but was bounced back.

He was disappointed, but he felt relieved again.

That afternoon, he lingered in the open space outside the prison area for a long time.

Lu Qingguang stretched his neck, stood on tiptoes, and raised his chin, like a funny clown, facing the prison area.The afternoon light covered his whole body, and he was almost blind, but he still tried his best to look beyond the tangled barbed wire, penetrate all obstacles, and find the person he wanted to take a last look at.

In the second semester of high school, his left eye was completely blind, and his right eye had only 0.1 vision. His mother remarried and her life improved, and the new family moved to another city.

So far, he has no chance of reuniting with him.

Lu Qingguang later went to a school for the blind and learned how to survive. He also knew that he had transformed himself very successfully in the envy of others. Apart from being blind, he was almost impeccable.

His mother was very relieved, but also worried about his future, so she hurriedly helped him arrange a blind date.He bit the bullet and met some girls, some were very curious about him, some were very enthusiastic about him... The more people he met, the more often a person would appear in his heart.

He still can't forget the person who was moved for the first time.

He couldn't explain why he liked Gao Yan.

Probably... When Gao Yan was most helpless, even though he looked disgusted on the surface, he still treated him as an equal. What's more, he was so outstanding and dazzling, he was a shining star in the crowd.

He was blinded by the light emitted by Gao Yan, he was a moth, and wanted to pounce on Gao Yan, the spark.

Lu Qingguang participated in many online blind friends exchange meetings and met different people from all walks of life. Some of them have acquired vision impairment like him, some are born with it, and some are healthy volunteers.

When he realized that he would never forget Gao Yan no matter what, he began to try his best to find out Gao Yan's whereabouts.

One day, he found a clue in a testing software support exchange group for accessibility.Through continuous research, it is known that Gao Yan has been released from prison, and it is very likely that he became a freelance programmer in his hometown.

He seized the fragments and made up his mind to return to the city of that year.

The night before he left, Lu Qingguang knelt at the door of his mother's room all night.The mother was sobbing in the room, and before daylight, she came out, helped him up, and then sighed.

He owed his mother too much, but he couldn't defy his own heart.

He is a blind man who graduated from a college student majoring in traditional Chinese medicine massage, so he quickly found a job.He waited patiently and searched slowly until he met Li Kai at an offline gathering of blind people in the same city.Li Kai is a cousin of a volunteer, who would occasionally come to help out, and gradually became nodding acquaintances.The opportunity to get acquainted with each other came from a time when they uttered the truth after drinking.

That day, they were all drunk, chatted about their past events, and really had a heart-to-heart.

Li Kai talked about his experience in the juvenile prison, talked about the inmates he met in the cell, and focused on one person.

Li Kai said, this boy is very violent, he was sentenced for manslaughter, and when he came to his class, he was severely punished.The boy was very energetic, Dapu wanted to sleep with him, but he refused, so he was secretly tortured.

The former Dapu was released from prison, and Li Kai became the new Dapu because of his seniority. At that time, people around him urged him to continue to rape boys. He didn't want to agree, but he couldn't say no directly.After much deliberation, I had no choice but to discuss with the boy in private, asking him to cooperate on the surface, but the boy just asked him contemptuously, do you want to sleep with me too?

Li Kai was speechless, but it was undeniable that people who stayed in that kind of garbage environment were very irritable and urgently needed to find an outlet to vent.Men and straw men are purely for physical needs and have nothing to do with emotions.

One night, when other people took advantage of the shift change of the night watch to hold the boy in the toilet, when they were about to mess with others, Li Kaixin said softly, saying that he was covering the boy and no one could touch him.Dapu is the head, the most direct "authority" in the chant, and everyone quiets down.

Li Kai pulled the boy's bed to his side, patted and said that you will sleep next to me from now on.The boy was slightly surprised, but quickly recovered his expressionless face.

Later, he gradually got to know some boys, and his impression of him gradually improved, and he also had that kind of thought.

Li Kai said this to Lu Qingguang: "That kid has a hard bone, a stubborn temper, and his words are not pleasant to listen to. At a glance, he knows that his life was not bad before, and he came out of a good environment. I