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The next day, Lin Ran took out a wrinkled and creased form from his schoolbag, lay down on the table and filled it out carefully one by one, and went to school to apply for withdrawal.

Shen Yu found that no matter when he came back, Lin Ran was always at home. He asked his assistant to find out that Lin Ran had dropped out of school. This was bad news, but Shen Yu couldn't help being happy, because subconsciously, Lin Of course, it should be the boy who is playing the piano and shining brightly, learning what shit architecture, and going to a music school again is the real thing.

Shen Yu smelled vitality from Lin Ran's body, and the sunlight seemed to be gradually revived in his body.

Lin Ran's life has become very simple, and even his face has become a lot thicker.He also learned how to ask Shen Yu for money without offending him.Then, wearing furry pajamas, I went to the supermarket alone to buy a lot of snacks. I bought everything. Chocolate, potato chips, and candy were thrown everywhere at home.

Shen Yu came back early that day, and was on the sofa wearing white soft home clothes, dealing with the company's documents. Five minutes later, there was a sound at the door. Lin Ran put the key on the door and walked in with the things.

Shen Yu was seriously reading the terms of the contract, sitting on the sofa at home without looking up.After a while, a person suddenly squeezed into Shen Yu's arms. Lin Ran took an iPad with SpongeBob SquarePants and Pai Daxing on the screen, and naturally found a comfortable position in Shen Yu's arms. Then hit the play button.

Shen Yu froze, he didn't understand what happened to Lin Ran.So he put his chin in Lin Ran's neck, sticking to the texture of Lin Ran's skin, and after a while he completely relaxed and looked at that silly yellow sponge with Lin Ran.

Lin Ran kept his gaze on the ipad screen, and raised a hand to stroke Shen Yu's hair.

"Don't cheat."

"Understood." Lin Ran's voice was perfunctory, but his hands didn't stop.

Shen Yu stared at the discarded packaging bag in the trash can: "Lin Ran, when I'm not at home, don't you eat well and eat snacks every day?"

"Well, I can't eat you for long anyway. When I was young, I always watched other people's parents buy it for my classmates, and I was very envious. Later, I lived poorly and wanted to eat but couldn't bear the money. Anyway, if you give me money now, I will Just bought some."

Lin Ran was frank and did not hide anything. He wanted to live a more comfortable life, so he could say what was on his mind, and the arms around his waist became tighter and tighter.

He said: "Pain".Only then did Shen Yu relax a little.

Shen Yu has developed a habit. Every time he returns to Linjiang Famous Gate, he will stop at the second crossroads. Wearing a well-made formal suit that has not been replaced in time, he will queue for about 10 minutes. In order to buy a piece of strawberry cheesecake, Lin Ran He boasted that this cake was delicious, he only said it once, and he remembered it.

Then he went back with a cold body, pretended to be careless and handed it to Lin Ran, saying that He Yan bought it for him.

It is such a short and precious warmth that Shen Yu has no time to think about the relationship he should have with Lin Ran. He can't help but want to be nice to Lin Ran. He wants to buy him any strange things he sees, sometimes even I want to ask Lin Ran, how have you been living these years.But when the words came to his lips, he didn't dare to ask. He would always think of his young self who held his heart in front of Lin Ran, but was trampled and crushed by him wantonly.

As long as Lin Ran even said to him, Shen Yu, I like you, or something else, he was willing to walk the 99 steps close to Lin Ran, but he never said it once.

Shen Yu sighed, leaned Lin Ran's head into her arms, then closed her eyes, that's all, don't think about it.

That day Lin Ran went to the nursing home to see old man Lu, and saw that he was recovering well, and his mood improved a lot.After leaving the gate of the nursing home, he met a person, Chen Qing.

His cheap younger brother has grown up, lost his baby fat when he was a child, and looks a bit sharp.It's just that when he saw Lin Ran, he blinked and smiled quite nicely.

Lin Ran was in a good mood, and even greeted Chen Qing, which caught Chen Qing off guard.He walked ahead, and Chen Qing followed him like a tail when he was a child. It took a long time to reach Lin Ran and took out two tickets.

"Brother, these are two concert tickets someone gave me. I know you used to play the violin..."

Before he finished speaking, Lin Ran took the ticket and put it in his pocket.

"Let's go."

"what?"

"Aren't you going to invite me to the concert? Then go."

"Oh."

Chen Qing was still a little dazed, standing still, Lin Ran took a look, frowned, grabbed Chen Qing's wrist, and got on the bus together.Chen Qing kept watching his brother holding his hand until the bus started, and he was relieved. He actually drove here by himself.As soon as he lowered his head, he saw Lin Ran holding on to the handrail of the bus, with his eyes downcast, his eyelashes sparse and long, and his whole body was beautiful without any sense of reality.

He wanted to reach out to touch him, but Lin Ran raised his eyes and glanced at him, with the same impatient tone as when he was a child.

"What? Want to hit me?"

Chen Qing smiled: "Brother, I don't want to hit you, I just want to touch your face."

Lin Ran frowned: "Are you sick?"

"I'm just sick, especially when I can't see you and Shen Yu getting along."

Lin Ran and Chen Qing got off the bus one after the other. He thought Chen Qing was quite interesting, and even made a joke: "It's okay, you can get what you want right away."

"In the future, you can choose another person and not see him. Isn't there a bright little boy outside Shen Yu? He likes him very much." He told the truth as if speaking ordinary words.But under the reflection of the flow of people on the street, Chen Qing felt that Lin Ran's eyes were shining with a touch of loneliness.

"Stop talking about this, let's go."

Chen Qing suddenly plucked up the courage and grabbed Lin Ran's hand.

Lin Ran was suspicious.

"Brother, don't like Shen Yu anymore, okay?"

Lin Ran suddenly became serious: "Chen Qing, I don't want to make it clear, and don't take me for a fool. Who gave you the concert ticket? Farewell? What did you want me to see when you brought me here? Seeing Shen Yu and Ji Bie kissing and loving together? Makes me feel worthless, not even entitled to the person I like."

Chen Qing muttered to herself: "Do you like him that much?"

Lin Ran didn't want to talk anymore: "Let's go, go in, I just want to simply watch the concert, it doesn't matter Ji Bie and Shen Yu, if you don't go, I'll go in by myself."

He lifted his foot and Chen Qing followed.

It was a very wonderful symphony, and he also saw that kid named Ji Bie playing the violin on the stage, elegant and beautiful, and his whole body was shining on the stage.For a moment he thought of that night when he was squatting outside the restaurant where he came home from school, looking at the violinist inside, playing the violin gracefully.The old principal squatted on the ground like him, and asked him: "Lin Ran, what do you want to do in the future?" He was still a little childish, and replied that he wanted to play the piano in the western restaurant.The principal laughed at him. There is a profession in this world called a musician.

Lin Ran felt that his hands were shaking, the blood in his veins was flowing fast, his fingertips were hot, and he wanted to touch the piano clamorously.

After a while, the hot blood running through his fingertips completely cooled down.

There is no chance, no more chance, why should a person with blood on his hands touch the piano.

He sighed, leaned his back completely back in the chair, and looked at the stage in relaxation until the end of the show.Then he got up slowly, and walked away with the crowd with Chen Qing.Probably because she was afraid of being washed away, Chen Qing grabbed Lin Ran's wrist. Lin Ran struggled twice, but did not break free, and let him hold her.

The lights were on in the square, and the water mist from the fountain was shining brightly under the projection of the lights.Chen Qing said that he was going to buy coffee, and Lin Ran sat by the fountain in a daze. After a while, he touched a large piece of chocolate left in his pocket.

Then he stared at the exit passage, after all, Chen Qing called him here to show him Shen Yu and Ji Bie, it would be a pity if he didn't.It is a very happy thing to have someone you like. If Shen Yu likes Ji Bie, then maybe the rest of his life will be sweet, and Shen Yu can rest assured that he is happy.

Chen Qing stuffed the coffee into Lin Ran's hand, Lin Ran smiled at him, gave him a piece of chocolate, and the two of them stared at the passage together.

"Chen Qing, do you think they can kiss?"

"Yes."

Five minutes later, two people appeared on the steps, one tall and one short.The dwarf's one was as proud as a child, padded on his heels and kissed Shen Yusuo.Shen Yu didn't bow his head, Ji Bie hugged Shen Yu's waist and kissed his chin stickily.

"That's right." There was no ups and downs in the voice: "After reading it, can we go?"

"Aren't you sad?" Chen Qing raised her head and stared at Lin Ran with burning eyes: "Aren't you sad?"

"Well, it's very sad. I feel sad like being stabbed by a knife. So what?" Lin Ran didn't look at Chen Qing: "Is it because I should be crying or hysterical, so you think I'm sad. From the moment I became an adult, I knew that being sad is useless, crying bitterly can only satisfy people who want to see a joke, and no one will sympathize with me. So, can I go?"

Chen Qing held Lin Ran's hand desperately, with a cold smile on his lips: "Don't go, there is a sentence, Ji Bie hasn't asked yet? It's not too late anyway, let's go after listening. "

Sure enough, a hesitant voice sounded over there, and the person asked: "Brother Chen, Chen Qing told me that you like a man named Lin Ran, is what he said true?"

Shen Yu was still smiling one second, but immediately lost expression the next second.

"like."

In fact, Shen Yu had seen Lin Ran a long time ago, and he tried to express his liking, but Lin Ran showed no expression at all.

Shen Yu was a little disappointed, he told himself to wait another five seconds, as long as Lin Ran smiled, he would not change his words.But when he glanced at Lin Ran from the corner of his eye, his expression was still calm.

He felt that he was just a joke, and Lin Ran had no heart at all.

Then he heard himself say in a voice quenched with ice,

"I used to like to fall in love with him, and I like to sleep with him when I grow up."

Lin Ran fell into an ice cave for a moment

At that moment, Shen Yu glanced away from the corner of his eye and saw Lin Ran's bright eyes.

Is he crying?How could that heartless Lin Ran cry?

Shen Yu looked at Lin Ran's leaving back without blinking, and felt that something was collapsing little by little.In a trance, he remembered a dream from last night, he was still wearing the cheap shirt that Lin Ran bought for him, but it was replaced by him driving Lin Ran to and fro in the small alley where the fragrance of magnolia wafted.He heard Lin Ran say to him, "Goodbye."

Turning around again, I found the boy standing in the sunset, waving at him.He wanted to stop the car, but the car didn't listen, so he could only go forward alone, but left his treasure in place and stood still until the slender boy disappeared from sight.

He didn't know if Lin Ran was crying, but he knew that his heart was in pain.

He wanted Lin Ran to be brave, even if he said a word, or a word could give him a little courage, he was willing to give him his heart.

But he didn't say a word, and didn't bother to answer a single expression.

Shen Yu didn't go back that night.During the days when Lin Ran didn't go to school, Shen Yu went home almost every day, but for some reason, he just didn't want to go back that day.

The room was bitterly cold when there was no energy, Lin Ran went to bed alone, curled himself up into a ball, and fell asleep in a daze.In the early hours of the morning, he suddenly woke up. He dreamed of Qin Zhongyu's blood-weeping eyes and large areas of thick, unresolved blood. He was terrified and wanted to reach out to turn on the lamp, but the power just happened to be cut off.

No one knew that the day Qin Zhongyu came back, he began to be afraid of the dark. Black always reminded him of the knife dripping with blood, and the room smelled like rust.There was no light, he was so afraid that he shivered, got out of bed nervously, hugged himself and shrank in the corner.

Trembling, he called Shen Yu, the phone rang three times, and finally someone answered it.

"How do you call me?" Shen Yu's voice was still hoarse from sleep.

Lin Ran was silent for two seconds, trying to suppress his sobs: "Home, there is a power outage at home, when are you going home?"

He knew clearly that it was two or three o'clock in the morning, and it was almost impossible for Shen Yu to come back, but he was so scared, even if he heard Shen Yu's voice.

Shen Yu woke up immediately when she heard the voice, and faintly noticed that Lin Ran's voice seemed to be choked with sobs.

When he spoke again, his voice was full of seriousness: "Lin Ran, let me ask you, do you want me to go home?"

Lin Ran didn't speak, and after a while, he looked around and said again: "Home, the power is out at home, you don't have to come back if you don't want to, just don't hang up on me..."

"I'll ask you again, Lin Ran, do you want me to go home now?"

Lin Ran didn't speak, the hands holding his legs were still shaking.

"Talk, don't talk, I hung up the phone." Shen Yu's tone was a little harsh.

The room was full of insoluble blackness, Shen Yu on the other end of the phone was not talking, there was no noise in the space, Lin Ran's emaciated shoulders were still trembling, and finally he couldn't hold back anymore: "Shen Yu , Shen Yu, come back quickly, the house is too dark, there is no light at all, please go home quickly!"

Shen Yu got off the ground quickly, changed his clothes in a few moments, Ji Bie rubbed his eyes and watched Shen Yu put on his clothes, and asked in a daze, "Brother Shen, where are you going?"

The phone over there was not hung up, and the display screen was still on. Shen Yu's face turned pale, and he quickly fished the phone into his pocket, and glanced at Ji Bie.Said: "I'm going home, just remember to ask He Yan for the money."

After a while, the sound of the engine sounded below the villa, and the Cayenne drove into the dark night.

Lin Ran didn't hang up the phone, neither did Shen Yu.

He naturally heard the voice of Ji Bie talking to Shen Yu, and felt so uncomfortable that he wanted to cut his flesh with a blunt knife. He knew he shouldn't make this call, but he was really too scared.

When Shen Yu arrived home, Lin Ran was still trembling in the corner, and shrank obviously when she heard the bedroom door knocking.The unhooked mobile phone in Shen Yu's hand fell to the ground in an instant.As if his strength had been drained, he walked to the corner and hugged the frightened and trembling boy in the corner with all his strength.

At that moment, Lin Ran's emotions suddenly collapsed.

"Shen Yu, it's too dark at home..."

"I know I shouldn't have called you..."

"Shen Yu, can you wait for me to leave before going to Ji Bie..."

"I'm really sad, don't you leave before me every time, okay..."

"The person left behind is really uncomfortable..." Lin Ran's eyes were red from crying, the night was really terrible, and the heavy night became the last straw that overwhelmed his emotions.

Tired of crying, he fell asleep in Shen Yu's arms.Shen Yu showed a helpless and broken smile towards the void, buried her face in Lin Ran's neck, felt the weak beating of the pulse under the skin texture, and only then did she have a little sense of reality.His whole body was as stiff as a rock, and it took dozens of seconds before he bent over, picked him up horizontally, and gently placed him on the bed.

"As long as you say you like me, I'm willing to give you my heart, but you can't be so shameless, you want to get close to me, but you want to push me away. Every time you make me feel that loving you is a joke, Lin However, sometimes I really want to dig out your heart to see if there is me in it?"

Shen Yu took advantage of the night to murmur to Lin Ran who was sleeping soundly in his arms.

Lin Ran breathed lightly, Shen Yu kissed his eyelids, and hugged him into her arms.