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After that, no one mentioned the night again.Pan Xiaozhuo had never drank alcohol before, so he didn't know if he was broken after drinking too much for the first time, and if he still remembered what happened the night before.

He and Shi Kai didn't have much contact with each other in private, let alone deliberately talk about it tonight.

That day at the dinner table, Pan Xiaozhuo told Tao Huainan that he would tell him his little secret later, but he refused to admit it when Tao Huainan asked him again.

Tao Huainan also pretended to sigh, saying that Xiao Zhuo has grown up.

Pan Xiaozhuo kept pretending to be confused anyway, keeping his little secret secret.

Pan Xiaozhuo's postgraduate entrance examination went well, and he got a master's degree in finance across majors, and he is still in this city.He is still not a sociable person, he is not close to his roommates, but he can get along with his brothers and sisters in the same school. The teacher likes him very much. Although Xiao Zhuo is not good at communication, this kind of student is easy to work with, fast and neat.

Tao Huainan is still his only friend, and he sees him often. Tao Huainan is also a master of psychology now, has been working part-time in the hospital, and is a trustworthy listener.

Xiaozhuo has always had a part-time job, a regular remedial class and two tutoring classes, together with the school's subsidies and scholarships, this is enough to cover his current living expenses and tuition fees, and there is still some left over.In addition, Xiaozhuo still has a little gray income, and has taken on several papers.So after studying for graduate school for a while, he still has some savings.

In fact, after his father passed away, their family still had some money.Pan Xiaozhuo's mother didn't take that money, but left it to grandma.In addition, their house was sold later, including the expenses of living in the aunt's house in the years before Xiaozhuo University, it is estimated that there will be a surplus.But he never mentioned it to his aunt and the others.

Pan Xiaozhuo lives a simple life at school, remedial classes, and students' homes every day, and the only other activities are eating with Tao Huainan.This kind of life is comfortable for Xiaozhuo.

He never contacted Shi Kai again, Shi Kai has returned to Beijing, and now he has signed a job in Beijing.This is what Pan Xiaozhuo heard from Tao Huainan.

"Kaikai, last time I told you about that, did you say it's okay?"

In the office during the lunch break, a colleague slipped a chair over, holding a huge pizza box in his hand.Shi Kai tore a piece from the inside, took a bite and asked, "What's the matter?"

"It's just my niece." There were only the two of them in the office, and the colleague slid towards Shi Kai again, the armrest of the chair knocked against Shi Kai's chair, and winked at him, "My niece is an overseas student who studies art, she is so beautiful .May I show you the photo?"

Shi Kai smiled while eating pizza, and hid to the side: "I think you just want to take advantage of me."

"Hey, it's not that you don't know the seniority of our family. My niece is two years younger than me. I'm telling you seriously. You two must get along well. You can trust me."

This is not the first time a colleague has brought up this matter, and Shi Kai has never disagreed.As soon as the colleague put the pizza box on Shi Kai's table, he took out his mobile phone in his pocket regardless of the oil in his hand, and showed Shi Kai a photo of his niece.

She is really beautiful, clean and graceful, with long straight black hair draped over her shoulders, light makeup and square-frame glasses, with a gentle temperament.Objectively speaking, this is exactly Shi Kai's aesthetic point.

"Ah? If it's not really suitable, you think I'm willing to do this media job?" The colleague found a few more photos and slid in front of Shi Kai's eyes, "There are a lot of people chasing my niece, You two don't match each other, so I think you two are a good match! Whether it's looks or personality, they are absolutely a match."

After Shi Kai finished eating a piece of pizza, he put his knee against the armrest of his colleague and kicked him away, stood up to wash his hands.

"Brother, I'm only 23." Shi Kai said with a smile as he walked without looking back, "I don't want to go on a blind date so early."

"If you're not on a blind date, just get to know each other!" The colleague was still a little bit unwilling, "Let me tell you the truth, my elder brother is afraid that she will be chased away by some rich second generation, and the family just wants her to find a good date." , for fear of meeting someone out of tune.”

When Shi Kai came back after washing his hands, his colleague was still eating pizza at Shi Kai's place.They usually have a good relationship, and Shi Kai took good care of him after he came to the company.

The colleague raised his head and threw out a sentence: "Our Beijing household registration, Kaikai!"

Shi Kai laughed, seeing that he really couldn't handle it, he had to say: "I can't even climb up to this high-ranking family."

"Don't talk to me," the colleague asked, "Did I send your photo?"

"Don't," Shi Kai sat down and said earnestly, "Brother, I don't think about dating and finding a partner right now. I just graduated, and I want to fight for a few years while I'm young. I don't want to fall in love."

This was basically a clear refusal, and my colleagues could tell that he really didn't mean it, and they didn't feel embarrassed, they just asked with a little regret: "Is it really not possible?"

Seeing that the other party listened, Shi Kai gave an expression as an answer.After the incident was over, Shi Kai joked again and said: "As long as I have a little heart to fall in love, why am I still single now? Kaikai is not difficult to fall in love, right?"

The colleague smiled and scolded him: "Virtue, I pretended you."

Shi Kai took the phone and said, "I'm going down to eat too."

The other party waved his hand: "Hurry up."

Shi Kai's refusal of his colleagues is not a lie, he really doesn't have time to fall in love now.Shi Kai is the job of the school's lottery, and he is the only one who signed up the whole major in the school, and he is in the Beijing headquarters of a chain testing organization.The signing of him was not because he had the best grades in all aspects. Many masters in the school also submitted their resumes, and finally signed Shi Kai purely because of his popularity.

The roommate said Shi Kai was lucky at the time, but Shi Kai has always been very good at interviews.He can talk, has an eye-catching appearance, and his grades are decent.

Fresh graduates like Shi Kai don't have any easy jobs in their hands, and they are all jobs that others don't want to do.At this time, he would really have no energy to fall in love again.

It was past eleven o'clock in the evening when I returned to the rented apartment, Shi Kai took a shower, tidied up and lay down on the bed.Up to now, my mind is numb and I am very tired, but I can't sleep.

There are a bunch of messages on the phone, some friends sent to chat, and some from Aite and him in the group.Shi Kai has been so busy recently that he doesn't have much time to look at his mobile phone. The team leader will not be able to catch his breath until next month after finishing this project.

Shi Kai stared at the ceiling in a daze, thinking it was very interesting.He was not so motivated before, and he was a character who could get by. Maybe people will naturally become mature when they grow up, and they will gradually transfer themselves and the future from their parents to themselves, only to realize that life is not so easy.

To start a relationship in such a state, both of them will feel very tired.

It's true that Shi Kai doesn't want to talk about it now, but it's not like he never talked about it.

When he was in junior high school, he didn't learn well, he learned to smoke from others, and he also had a girlfriend, a girl in the next class, passed a few notes, turned around on the playground a few times, and had a girlfriend when a group of junior high school boys were playing basketball. Will come to see and bring him water.Can't think of more, and nothing more.

During high school, I was with Ji Nan and the others all day long, and I spent all my time fooling around with my brothers.

We talked for a while when we were freshmen, but we broke up within two months, and both of them felt that it was not suitable.Shi Kai never talked about it until now.I didn't meet anyone who was particularly excited, and he wasn't a playful guy like Ji Nan. Shi Kai was quite playful on the surface, but he was actually a carefree person.

Shi Kai just lay there blankly for a while, and after a few minutes, he didn't know what to think of, and took the phone from the side.

He raised the phone above his eyes, clicked on the circle of friends and flipped through it casually.After flipping through for a while, he found nothing. He clicked on the address book, and slid his finger directly to "P" from the side.

Pan Xiaozhuo.

Shi Kai clicked on his profile picture, and clicked into Moments.

The circle of friends is still the content posted yesterday, a photo with a shop sign inside.Accompanying text: Hahaha Huainan and I came to eat Huainan beef soup.

Shi Kai didn't understand what he was looking at, so he locked the phone and threw it aside, and continued to lie there numbly looking at the ceiling.

A lot of things are really weird.

Sometimes people's thoughts and behaviors can't even be understood by themselves.

For example, Shi Kai couldn't understand why he always thought of Pan Xiaozhuo inexplicably when he thought of love and relationship-related issues.

He kept thinking of that look at that time.

"Emotional problems" and "Pan Xiaozhuo", these two things are irreconcilable, let alone tied together like a conditioned reflex, this is outrageous or outrageous.

It's really weird, but it's also kind of interesting.

As long as Pan Xiaozhuo once revealed a little bit of thought in front of Shi Kai, so that Shi Kai had an idea in advance, or Pan Xiaozhuo directly told Shi Kai clearly, this is not a big deal to Shi Kai, he can open it A joke to send the words back, both of them are decent and not embarrassing.

But Pan Xiaozhuo used to hide it deeply, and when Shi Kai was defenseless, he touched his heart with a smile and said, "Shi Kai is Shi Kai".

It's a little muddled, but I still think about it after such a long time.

Shi Kai exhaled and turned over.

As soon as he closed his eyes, Pan Xiaozhuo's hot palms were pressed against his face again. Through his glasses, his eyes seemed to contain a gentle lake.

This matter is like a clueless thought that keeps floating in Shi Kai's mind.It doesn't necessarily come out at any time to play around, so that people can think about it.

Shi Kai has never been a tangled character, since Shi Kai is always thinking about it from time to time, then he must find a chance to figure it out.

Another year of Spring Festival, Pan Xiaozhuo still spent the Spring Festival alone. He didn't agree to Tao Huainan's invitation to go to his house to celebrate the festival together, and he didn't go back to his aunt's house to celebrate the New Year as his aunt wanted.

He is still not used to crowded places, for him no one is comfortable in the dormitory.

The school is very caring, and all students living in the school can go to the cafeteria to get a free dumpling on New Year's Eve.Pan Xiaozhuo felt cold and didn't go to pick it up.

It snowed outside during the day, and it was freezing enough to go out, and the steps and corridors would be dirty if the soles of the shoes stepped on the snow.Xiao Zhuo didn't have a sense of New Year's ceremony at first, and he was still wrapped in a blanket in the dormitory to read a book.

However, this New Year's Eve, Xiao Zhuo still ate dumplings.

The day before, Pan Xiaozhuo received a WeChat message from Shi Kai, saying that he would come out for a meal when he was free.They haven't been in contact for more than a year. Xiaozhuo was quite happy when he received the news unexpectedly, so he readily answered yes.

The two continued to chat for a while, and Shi Kai asked Pan Xiaozhuo where to celebrate the New Year, and Xiaozhuo said that he was in the dormitory.

Shi Kai sent a voice message: "This is so sad."

There was always a little smile in his voice, Xiao Zhuo listened to it twice, and then replied: I'm not sad, I'm used to it.

Shi Kai didn't reply to him later, and Xiao Zhuo still wondered if what he said made it difficult for others to accept.

On the night of New Year's Eve, Pan Xiaozhuo went downstairs in disbelief after answering the phone, and saw Shi Kai at the gate, Pan Xiaozhuo was in a state of being in a daze and unable to recover.

"Anyway, it's Chinese New Year, don't stay in the dormitory by yourself, it's pitiful." Shi Kai drove the car, smiled and said to him, "Brother Kai will take you to play."

It seems that after graduation, every time he appeared was a surprise to Pan Xiaozhuo.It always made Pan Xiaozhuo feel at a loss as if he was in a dream, full of incredible surprises.

Pan Xiaozhuo looked at him and asked, "Aren't you a new year?"

Shi Kai said indifferently, "It's over."

Pan Xiaozhuo looked at the time, it was just nine o'clock.Shi Kai said: "The next thing is to play mahjong all night. If I don't come out, I have to play mahjong with my mother and aunt all night."

Pan Xiaozhuo asked again in a daze: "Then you came out...can they still get together?"

"Yes, my dad and grandpa can play, they just want to catch me. I'm not very good at playing, and if I play, I will lose to them."

Only here did Pan Xiaozhuo feel a little more real, and smiled.

Pan Xiaozhuo's eyes were covered with frost, he took off his glasses and shook them in his hand.Shi Kai turned his head and glanced at him, and Pan Xiaozhuo also looked back, but couldn't see clearly.People who wear glasses for a long time will look empty and out of focus if they take off their glasses.At the same time, it also looks very confused and a little innocent.

Shi Kai drove for half an hour and brought Pan Xiaozhuo to a large courtyard.From a distance, there is a huge stone lion at the gate of the courtyard, with snow falling on it.Looking closer, I found that it was originally made of snow, and it may be lit up by someone touching it every day.

Before I went in, I heard the sound of a guitar inside, and I could vaguely hear someone singing.

After entering the gate of the courtyard, there is a small corridor. Pan Xiaozhuo followed Shi Kai in and asked him, "Is this a homestay?"

"It's more appropriate to say that it is a group rental house, and the people in it don't leave when they get used to it." Shi Kai said.

This is the place where Shi Kai grew up. His surname is Zhao, he sells musical instruments, and he is a rich second generation who does not worry about life.The people living here are all young people who play with their things together all day long.

Before Pan Xiaozhuo went in, he thought there would be a beautiful small building inside, but he didn't expect to go in and take a look, it was just an ordinary courtyard.The house looks like an ordinary bungalow from the outside, and the yard is also an ordinary yard, but it is very large, and there are a lot of things piled up in a mess in the yard.

and many, many others.A few people sat there singing in the middle, and dozens of people surrounded them outside.

Pan Xiaozhuo, a social terrorist, saw so many people at first sight, and subconsciously paused.Shi Kai said, "It's okay, I don't know anyone."

Pan Xiaozhuo didn't think much of it, maybe because he was with Shi Kai, Shi Kai made people feel at ease, and Pan Xiaozhuo didn't care about others.

Every Spring Festival here is very lively.Those who didn't come home from other places, those who didn't want to go home, or those who ran away from home like Shi Kai, all gathered here.Those who sing sing, those who play games play games, and those who eat eat eat, each playing in his own way.

When Shi Kaifa saw them, he wanted to come over to say hello, but Shi Kai beckoned to him from a distance, telling him to do what he should do and not to come over.

Fa Xiao pointed to the kitchen, signaling to eat as he pleases.

In the kitchen, someone is specially hired to cook. He is an uncle.There is also a student sitting on a small horse and eating bucket noodles.

"Do you want to eat dumplings?" the uncle asked them.

"Eat," Shi Kai said with a smile, "you must eat during Chinese New Year."

Shi Kai took Pan Xiaozhuo to the kitchen and uncovered the pots one by one. There were vegetables in them. Shi Kai took a few disposable lunch boxes and filled them up.

The uncle made two dumplings and cooked them. Shi Kai and Pan Xiaozhuo were sitting at the corner of the table, singing an English song loudly outside. The sound was tinkling. In the kitchen, Shi Kai and Pan Xiaozhuo were talking while eating. .

Pan Xiaozhuo thought that Shi Kai meant to eat something with him, fearing that he would feel uncomfortable eating alone.However, looking at Shi Kai's eating posture, Xiao Zhuo couldn't help but asked suspiciously: "Brother Kai...are you not eating at home?"

Shi Kai said, "I wasn't hungry at the time of dinner, I didn't eat. I'm hungry now."

The dumplings made by the uncle taste very good, and they are steaming hot just out of the pan.When Xiao Zhuo blows the dumplings, the hot air will rush back to cover his glasses, and he will puff and puff.

Shi Kai made him laugh, and said, "Why don't you pick it?"

Pan Xiaozhuo quickly shook his head and said, "Then I'm about the same as Huainan."

"Six hundred degrees is not enough." Shi Kai said.

Pan Xiaozhuo looked at Shi Kai in surprise. He said it six times a few years ago, but he still remembered it now.

Shi Kai signaled him with his eyes: "Eat quickly, it will get cold later."

Pan Xiaozhuo lowered his head and continued blowing hot air.

In fact, if you want to say that they are familiar with each other, that's really not the case.In the past two years, I had contact with Shi Kai's cousin, and met twice in private, and Shi Kai sent Pan Xiaozhuo back to the dormitory that night last year, other than that, there was basically no other contact.

But the amazing thing is that no matter what kind of contact they get along with, they get along very naturally. Pan Xiaozhuo, who is not good at dealing with people, doesn't feel cramped every time. He is more open than usual, just talk to him and Tao Huainan Almost when we are together.It may be because for Pan Xiaozhuo, Shi Kai has been in his heart for so many years, and he is already too familiar with it.

After eating, Shi Kai asked Pan Xiaozhuo if he wanted to listen to the music, and Pan Xiaozhuo shook his head repeatedly.There must be something wrong with standing outside and listening to people singing in this cold winter... Everyone is wrapped in a big down jacket and stomps their feet from the cold, and the guitar player is almost frozen hard after playing a song, what is all this...

Shi Kai took Pan Xiaozhuo into a room inside, it was empty, just a huge TV and a row of couch, the room was covered with floor, but it was already trampled to the point of being unable to watch.

"Do you want to play games?" Shi Kai asked as the TV was connected to the game console.

Pan Xiaozhuo said, "I won't."

"Do you want to play? If you want to play, I will teach you." Shi Kai said.

He squatted in front of the TV with his back to Pan Xiaozhuo, the hem of his down jacket touched the ground, Pan Xiaozhuo said, "The clothes rubbed against the floor, brother Kai."

Shi Kai looked down, picked up his clothes indifferently and piled them in front of him, and said, "I remember he still has Xiaobawang here, can he play tanks? Let me play with you for a while?"

Pan Xiaozhuo still shook his head: "No, I haven't played."

Pan Xiaozhuo didn’t have a home at such a young age, and he stayed at his aunt’s house all the time, and the aunt’s house didn’t have any game consoles. When the aunt’s house had a younger brother, these old game consoles would have long since become obsolete, and children don’t play them anymore.Pan Xiaozhuo didn't know much about games when he was so old.

Shi Kai glanced back at him, then looked down at the game console in the cabinet under the TV, and said, "It's nothing wrong, come here and let me teach you."

It is the first time Pan Xiaozhuo has encountered the Xiaobawang game console that others have played badly when they were young.Shi Kai took Xiaozhuo to play tank battles, but Pan Xiaozhuo really couldn't do it, and he always died after playing for a while.Shi Kai hadn't played much for many years, he was in a hurry to hide, and he had to direct Pan Xiaozhuo at the same time.

The two of them dragged the long sofa to the front of the TV, Shi Kai took off his shoes and leaned cross-legged there, Pan Xiaozhuo sat upright, singing and setting off firecrackers outside, the two of them nestled comfortably on the sofa and played games.

"Brother Kai." Pan Xiaozhuo called Shi Kai when he was about to be chased by the little tank.

"Here we come." Shi Kai had turned into an invincible colorful tank, beeping through a wall to let Pan Xiaozhuo come over.Pan Xiaozhuo hurriedly got through that gap, and there was a little tank chasing after him and spanking him.

"You hit them, why are you always hiding?" Shi Kai didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

"I can't move." Pan Xiaozhuo was also at a loss, "I don't know what's going on."

Shi Kai smiled and said, "You can do whatever you want, find a place to hide."

This night was the time when Pan Xiaozhuo called "Brother Kai" the most frequently.He is usually a little embarrassed, and only barks when he has to.This night when playing games, Shi Kai didn't care too much, Shi Kai just heard him "Brother Kai" all the time, his tone was always eager to be beaten to death, and there was a little bit of Pan Xiaozhuo in his call for help. Dependence without realizing it.

Sometimes Shi Kai came to save him in response, and sometimes he simply smiled and said, "I can't make it through, I can't save you."

Shi Kaifa Xiao came in, brought them dried fruit and Coke, and brought a plate of fruit over.Shi Kai said, "Thank you, let's leave it alone."

Fa Xiao saw that the two of them were playing Xiaobawang with such enthusiasm here, and he was speechless: "You two want to play a serious game and play so vigorously. How about playing a tank without raising your head and eyes?"

"Ah," Shi Kai opened a Coke and handed it to Pan Xiaozhuo, followed by a novel, "Reminiscing about my childhood, you begged me to play with you every day when I was young."

"Back then we were invincible when playing this game," Fa Xiaokan said after they had played for a while, "Your teammate is obviously not as good as me, come and play with us."

Pan Xiaozhuo just died once, when he heard that he hurriedly put down the handle and stood up to make room for Xiaozhuo, Shi Kai said: "You can quickly pull down and sit down, Zhuo."

Made a small "cut" sound: "You are not happy to play with you for a while."

Someone called him outside, Fa Xiao agreed and went out.

Pan Xiaozhuo sat back again, and Shi Kai asked him, "Are you sleepy?"

"No," Pan Xiaozhuo said with a smile, "not sleepy at all, very energetic."

"That's right, as long as they sing like this outside, the gods and men can't be sleepy." Shi Kai said.

Pan Xiaozhuo looked out and asked, "How long are they going to sing?"

Shi Kai said: "I don't know, I drank it all, when will I sober up and when will I finish it."

The New Year's Eve nightclub seems to be different from the usual ones. If it's time to go to bed early as usual, it seems that there will be less festive atmosphere.Pan Xiaozhuo hasn't used it as a festival in the past few years. He always falls asleep after watching movies in the dormitory alone.

This night was the most different New Year's Eve that Pan Xiaozhuo had had in years.

Later, the two of them stopped playing games and went to wash their hands. When they came back, Shi Kai played a comedy movie. He had watched it before, so he played it to pass the time.

Pan Xiaozhuo peeled an orange and ate it petal by petal.Shi Kai held a Coke in his hand and took a sip from time to time.

The singing outside didn't know when they took a break. The two of them had already occupied the room. Some of the people outside went home, and some went to another room to continue playing.

"Aren't you going home tonight?" Pan Xiaozhuo asked Shi Kai, leaning back on the sofa instead of sitting upright.

"I'm not going back," Shi Kai said while watching the TV with his coat draped over his body, "I'll take you back to the dormitory tomorrow morning."

Pan Xiaozhuo tucked his chin into the zipper of his coat, bit the zipper with his lips, and said after a while, "Thank you, Brother Kai."

Shi Kai said casually, "Thank you for what?"

Pan Xiaozhuo said, "Take me to play and celebrate the New Year together."

Shi Kai turned his head to look at him, and Pan Xiaozhuo followed his gaze without avoiding it, his eyes were very sincere.

Shi Kai looked at him for a few seconds, then turned back suddenly, and smiled helplessly: "You look at me like that again..."

Pan Xiaozhuo didn't understand.

"Tell me something interesting." Shi Kai said.

"Huh?" Pan Xiaozhuo waited for him to say.

The TV was a bit noisy at the moment, Shi Kai turned down the volume with the remote control, as if he was really saying something inexplicable.

"I don't know if you remember the day of dinner last year."

As soon as he finished saying this, Pan Xiaozhuo looked at him and unconsciously turned his eyes away to watch TV.

"That's how you looked at me back then, even more so than now..." Shi Kai paused and said, "I don't know how to say it."

At that time, Pan Xiaozhuo didn't just look at him, but Shi Kai didn't mention anything else, only said this.

Pan Xiaozhuo remained silent, looking ahead quietly.Shi Kai's tone didn't seem to be particularly concerned, and he didn't take it seriously. It was quite relaxed, and he didn't ask questions, so the atmosphere would not become awkward.

"You probably drank too much at that time, and you were a little dazed." Shi Kai continued, "But I can always think of the way you looked at me at that time this year, which is also strange."

Pan Xiaozhuo had been pinching the last tangerine in his hand for a long time, and he had already picked off the white silk on it.He unconsciously squeezed the oranges until he couldn't eat them.

"I didn't intend to ask you at first, because I was afraid that you would be afraid of the society." Shi Kai said with a little smile, "But I think you and I seem to be okay, so we talked, or I always have something on my mind. .”

Pan Xiaozhuo didn't look up, but said "Hum".

"So you see everyone like this?" Shi Kai looked at Xiao Zhuo and asked, "Or just me?"

Pan Xiaozhuo answered, and asked in a low voice, "...what kind?"

Shi Kai smiled: "I don't know how to say it, but... it's hot? It's about the same."

Pan Xiaozhuo was still rubbing the tangerine. He didn't make a sound at first, then raised his head after a few seconds, looked at Shi Kai again, and asked first, "I want to say... Do you feel pressure, Brother Kai?"

Shi Kai raised his eyebrows and answered him with expression.

Pan Xiaozhuo said calmly, "That is."