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Shen Junhuai stayed at Qizhi.

Principal Cai looked at this great god and felt quite pressured.The school accommodation was already tight, so they had to rush out of a small utility room and put two simple single beds for them to live in.Lu Qingchen originally slept in the security room, but was rushed to the utility room by Principal Cai because it was inconvenient.

Lu Qingchen didn't want to cause trouble for Principal Cai, so he could only obey the instructions.

The food and lodging at the school are very difficult. I thought that Shen Junhuai would leave after a few days, but I didn’t expect this person to become a substitute teacher in a down-to-earth manner. He also helped Aunt Li Shuli with some chores when he had nothing to do. The meaning of Jiuan.

Lu Qingchen didn't deliberately avoid Shen Junhuai anymore, but he rarely spoke.He used to talk very little, and now he hardly speaks a few words a day.In the evening, he would help Aunt Li Shuli's work until very late, and when he returned to the dormitory after washing, he fell asleep when he was too tired.Shen Junhuai often sat under the lamp and watched him silently, so he had to bury his head in the quilt, pretending not to see.He knew that Shen Junhuai sometimes couldn't sleep, and would sit by his bed for a whole night. He didn't speak or express his opinion, and Shen Junhuai didn't force him, but just said: "You don't have to make things difficult, just do what you want."

"You were the one who accommodated me in the past, and I will accommodate you in the future." The stars were quiet, the insects were chirping and the frogs were chirping, and a midsummer night's dream in the deep mountains was coming to an end. Shen Junhuai squeezed his hand and murmured while looking at the sleeping person Talking to himself, there was a kind of steadfastness and firmness in his tone.

Lu Qingchen's head was still buried in the quilt, and his heart was sore.

In the next second, a pair of hands lifted up a corner of the quilt, moved his head up, and a chuckle sounded from above his head: "Okay, go to sleep." Those hands, with a scorching temperature, gently brushed On his cheek, he stroked the few raised hairs.

In this faint warmth, he fell into a deep sleep.

The next day was the weekend, Lu Qingchen woke up amidst the noise.

There was no one on the bed next to him, only a laptop was thrown casually, it seemed that Shen Junhuai was working late at night.He opened the curtains, and the children were huddled in the yard, discussing cheerfully around a lot of things. Surrounded by Shen Junhuai, he patiently said something to the children.Two small trucks were parked outside the school gate, and there were still large and small bags being moved into the yard.Aunt Li Shuli was busy making breakfast in the kitchen in the corner of the yard. The cooked porridge was fragrant and fragrant. Principal Cai and two teachers were also standing at the door, directing the carrying of the boxes.

Lu Qingchen stood on the steps, looking a little dazed just after waking up.

"Qingchen, come here." Shen Junhuai turned around and waved to him.

"Mr. Lu, Mr. Lu, today we have a lot of toys and delicious food!" Several children ran over and took him by the hand to circle around the yard, showing off proudly, a little bit of happiness can make them laugh .Lu Qingchen was infected by their happiness and couldn't help being happy too.The morning sun was extraordinarily gentle, shining brightly on his face, like a lingering oil painting unfolding on the green grass.

Shen Junhuai was in a daze for a moment.

He couldn't remember the last time Lu Qingchen laughed.

Among this group of children, Lu Qingchen seems to be not much more mature than them.He was dragged by the joyful children and unpacked together. All kinds of school supplies, computers, clothes, and snacks were placed together, and it was as lively as the New Year.

Shen Jun walked over with a large long box in his arms: "Qingchen, this is for you."

He took a paper knife and opened the sealed box neatly. What he saw was a black guitar case with excellent texture. The LOGO, which is familiar to all musicians, exuded an expensive taste in a conspicuous position.He took out the guitar and carefully handed it to Lu Qingchen: "I'm ashamed, I didn't know you could play the guitar before, and you played it so well."

In the past, he rarely paid attention to the emotions of the person behind him, and he didn't know the other person's hobbies.The cognition of the lover is not much more than the company HR's cognition of the employee's resume. Generally, it is the first and last name, family situation, education and major, etc. framed things.

Shen Junhuai once thought that Lu Qingchen was so simple that he could see the bottom line at a glance, and he thought he had everything about this person, but he ignored that experience can make people complicated, neglect can make people dissatisfied, and neglect can make people feel desperate.

Now he is cautious, knowing that he can't make up for anything, it will only make the people in front of him more at a loss.

But you can't do it.He wants to make up for what was missing before.

"You can teach children to sing." He tried his best to be natural, but he couldn't hide the guilt in his eyes.

Lu Qingchen watched him greet the children, those smiling faces who didn't know much about the world surrounded him, laughing loudly and wanting to play the piano and sing by himself.He suppressed the ups and downs in his heart and tried the sound. The smooth melody and clean voice were a hundred times more real than what Shen Junhuai saw in the video.

a certain day of a certain month

like a broken face

hard to say goodbye

just let everything go away

这 不 是 件 的 事

我们 却 都 没有 哭泣

let it come lightly

let it go well

到 如 今年 复一 年

我 不 能 停止 怀念

怀念 你 怀念 从前

但愿 那 海风 再 起

只 为 那 的 手

Just Like Your Tenderness

This old song is older than Lu Qingchen, and it was the first song my grandfather taught him to play and sing. At first, he preferred the simple melody and straightforward thoughts of this song, but now when he sings it, he feels that the helplessness and sadness in it are even worse. Grinding.

After the song was over, the excited children had already been taken to have breakfast by the teacher. Shen Junhuai stood in the sun and looked at him tenderly, as if he had reacquainted with the person in front of him.

"The first time I heard you sing was in that video." He came over and sat on an unopened box next to Lu Qingchen, with a casual look but a serious expression. When I got the International Scientific Research Gold Award, I joined the Nano Research Project Department of M Country at the age of 15, led a team to do research independently at the age of 19, took over the general business project of the family at the age of 21, and took over the military project at the age of 25. Everyone said that I became famous at a young age and the future is promising. I I have heard too many cheers and praises, and seen too much happiness and blessings. I am also happy for myself, and I have been happy and satisfied at every important point in my life."

"I thought the rest of my life would be like this, and I had no regrets. Later...you disappeared, and I thought, what's the point of these?"

"When I saw the video, I saw that you were still alive, alive in an unknown place, and you could play the piano, sing, and laugh. I didn't know what the happiness before was, the happiness added up in the first 30 years, Nothing like the joy of knowing you're alive, nothing more. If God suddenly appeared in front of me and asked me to give you everything I had before, I wouldn't hesitate."

"I have never been grateful to anyone, but now I am grateful to everyone who made you survive. Zhang Yang, Aunt Li Shuli, Principal Cai, and all the good people you met this year outside. I am grateful to them, let me return I have a chance to take you home."

"I'm stupid. I put such a good you by my side, but I still don't understand what I want. I am willing to accept all punishments for this, but I can't accept you leaving. Other than that, you can do whatever you want."

Shen Junhuai lowered his upper body slightly, supported his knees with his elbows, and slightly raised his head to look at Lu Qingchen in a posture of looking up.The usually stern and indifferent eyebrows and eyes are full of prayers, and there is a kind of humble and pitiful that is not easy to detect.

It was Shen Junhuai whom Lu Qingchen had never seen before.

Facing Shen Junhuai like this, Lu Qingchen couldn't harden his heart.Being nice to him has become my instinct, tamed in the subconscious of my body.But he couldn't respond. The past was too tragic, and life was finally peaceful. He didn't want to break the weak sense of security now.

Shen Junhuai smiled, no longer waiting for his answer, as if she didn't expect him to respond, she just wanted to speak her heart out.

"Come on, let's have breakfast." He stood up, took Lu Qingchen's hand, and walked towards the cafeteria.

He's not in a hurry, he still has time, and as a result, God has treated him kindly.

That afternoon, with the arrival of a medical team, Lu Qingchen's silence was broken.

The medical team was invited by Shen Junhuai to examine the children.Of course, his more hidden purpose was to give Lu Qingchen a full body checkup.He was emaciated, his reactions were slow, and he was dressed tightly when he slept.Shen Junhuai didn't dare to touch him, and couldn't check whether he had been injured during this year's wandering, so he was still uneasy, so he thought of such a method.

He just didn't expect Lu Qingchen to be very resistant.

"I'm fine...just check the children." Lu Qingchen hid in the dormitory, stubbornly refusing to go out.

Shen Junhuai persuaded patiently: "It's just a simple inspection, and it will be over soon."

Lu Qingchen resisted with silence.

Shen Junhuai gritted his teeth: "If you don't want to go out, then I'll let the doctor come in and examine you, okay?"

"No." Lu Qingchen quickly refused, "I...I'm fine."

"If you're fine, why are you afraid of the physical examination? Tell me, what's wrong with your body?" Shen Junhuai slowly coaxed, "It's okay if you don't want to have a checkup, but you have to tell me what's wrong with your body and where you were injured."

"I... my back, and my legs... But it's all right now. There's no need to check it again." Lu Qingchen knew Shen Junhuai's character, and he didn't give up until he reached his goal, so he just confessed honestly.

Shen Junhuai's face darkened, he stood up and went out, half a minute later, two doctors came in with him with equipment.

In the next inspection, Lu Qingchen did not resist, because he knew that resisting was useless.

Shen Junhuai did not evade, staring at the doctor as he took off Lu Qingchen's coat, revealing his thin back with only two butterfly bones left.There is a long scar half a finger wide on the back, which spreads from the right shoulder blade to the left waist. The scar is ugly, with new red flesh turning over the edge. It is a wild healing that has not been properly treated and self-healed after being scratched by a sharp weapon.

Lu Qingchen's naked upper body shrank a little from the cold air, he could feel Shen Junhuai's eyes staring at his back, anxious, angry and distressed, all kinds of emotions seemed to be attached to his back.I couldn't help but flinched again, and the clearly visible ribs also trembled, and then a coat was put on my body.

Shen Junhuai pressed the jacket on him, then squatted down to help him take off his pants.Lu Qingchen was a little embarrassed, and whispered to come by himself, but Shen Junhuai didn't seem to hear, and his men kept taking off his sweatpants slowly.

His legs were white and thin, and he looked thin and lonely, but fortunately, there was no obvious trauma.The injury was on the ankle, and it was hard to see. A doctor wearing glasses rubbed his hands twice. Lu Qingchen gritted his teeth and did not make a sound.

"I have sprained my ankle, and it hurts on cloudy and rainy days. I can do acupuncture and moxibustion in the later stage, and take care of it carefully, and it will get better in the future. The injury on the back has healed, and I can do scar removal surgery later." The doctor asked again, "How about Any injuries?"

Lu Qingchen touched his left ear uncomfortably, and said lightly that it was gone.

Shen Junhuai came out with the doctor, and when he was far away, the doctor said: "Long-term malnutrition, and the recovery of several traumas is not very good, just pay attention to maintenance in the later stage. But he is very resistant to examination, and there should be other problems that we don't know about. The equipment here is limited, if Mr. Shen is worried, it is best to go to the hospital for a more comprehensive examination."

"Okay, thank you." Shen Junhuai said.

After sending the doctor away, Shen Junhuai turned and went back to the dormitory.

Lu Qingchen was sitting on the bed in a daze, when he saw Shen Junhuai coming back, he pursed his lips slightly, as if he wanted to laugh but couldn't.

Shen Junhuai pulled up a chair and sat opposite him, the two of them were very close, with their knees touching their knees, Lu Qingchen had nowhere to hide, so he had to lower his head and not speak.

"How did the injury come about?" Shen Junhuai asked very difficultly, but it would be even more difficult to sleep and eat if he didn't ask.He has seen homeless people on the streets in country M. They are starving and in miserable conditions. The most terrible thing is that because of land grabs or other reasons, weak people are often surrounded and bullied, even perverted or sexually abused. violation.Every morning, there are homeless people lying dead on the street and being dragged away with body bags by volunteers.

He was indifferent to this, because that world was too far away from him, and no matter how much misfortune a homeless person encounters, in his eyes, it is no different from a turkey being served on the dinner table on Christmas Eve.

But people are like this. Only when the tragedy spreads to themselves can they feel the pain of the skin.

"The owner of a steamed stuffed bun shop hit his back with something." Lu Qingchen's tone was calm, as if he had nothing to do with him. He was just describing a fact objectively. At that time, it was his most embarrassing day. He was disheveled and in a trance, but he gave in Out of physiological instinct, he wandered in front of a steamed stuffed bun shop in a small town.The boss is very fierce, and he was scolded by his wife just now, and all his anger was directed at the homeless man at the door.While scolding the other party for disturbing the business, he took a long barbed thing and pulled it over.Lu Qingchen didn't know what it was until now, he only knew that he was stunned for a moment, his back was burning with pain, and the pain was so painful that his heart was about to be squeezed out of his body.He was so frightened that he almost ran away from the street.Later, when he saw food like buns, he would instinctively feel his back hurt.

"The foot injury was stuck on an old train track. I was too scared at the time, and I pulled it out too hard. That's it."

Several homeless men taunted him and herded him onto a railroad track, where he got his foot in as he fled.After limping for several months, I slowly started to walk normally.Although Lu Qingchen's parents passed away early, they were raised with pampering since he was a child. Before that, he never knew that his self-healing ability was so strong.

Thinking of this, he smiled.He didn't want to feel sorry for himself, he didn't feel sorry for himself, and he didn't want Shen Junhuai to feel sad and blame himself for this. This was his own choice. Only after experiencing suffering can he understand the color of life better.

"Gauguin also experienced homelessness and illness before he became Gauguin. Maybe I will be famous in the painting circle in the future." Lu Qingchen wanted to make a joke, but the effect was not ideal, because Shen Junhuai still looked sad.

"I don't want you to become Gauguin or any big man who can shine in certain fields after going through hardships. I would rather you be a safe and happy ordinary person."

I only wish that you wear a crown that is not heavy and your halo shines, but at the same time you can have the peace and happiness of ordinary people.