clear road dust

At 7:[-] local time, Patton Airport in M ​​country.

Shen Junhuai, who had been flying for more than ten hours, got off the plane, took the bag handed over by the assistant with one hand, and took out his mobile phone with the other.As soon as the flight mode was switched over, the ding ding dong dong sounded.Thinking it was another urging text message from his father, he pinched his brows, suppressed his irritability, and opened the notification with red dots all over the screen.

There is a lot of information, including father's urging and dissatisfaction, Su Changxian asking if it has landed, the latest progress of the project reported by his subordinates, and one from Xia Ke, who has not been in touch for a long time Assistant student.He selectively replied to several messages, hesitated for a second on Xia Ke's name, and clicked on it.

It's a video in which someone is holding a guitar and singing an English song.

Shen Junhuai stood where he was, with his head down, maintaining a posture of looking at his phone.

The airport hall in the morning was very noisy, there was a tourist group clamoring around to collect their luggage, there were children crying loudly, and there was a cleaner driving an electric sweeper to clean up for the first time of the day.These voices float in the air, like being covered with a sound-proof film, gradually receding, gradually silencing, and gradually turning into a frozen black and white mime.Shen Junhuai himself is the only character in this mime drama, he heard his heartbeat beating like a drum, his eyes were sore, he stared at the face in the video and did not dare to blink, for fear that if he closed his eyes, it would be another hallucination , for fear that this person would disappear once he closed his eyes.

Xia Ke followed the video with a sentence: Professor, this ID address has been found, and the blogger's name is Zhang Yang.A phone number is attached to the back.

The assistant waited for a long time before realizing that something was wrong with Shen Junhuai.

He hesitated to take a step forward, and softly called out to the professor.

Shen Junhuai raised his head suddenly, the assistant couldn't help being stunned by the expression on his face, first he quickly scanned the surroundings, as if wanting to determine where he was, and then fixed his eyes on the assistant's face.

"Book the fastest ticket, immediately!" His voice was urgent, his chest heaved violently, and his eyes were red from being too excited.

"Hurry up, book the fastest ticket, and go back immediately." He took a step forward and grabbed the assistant's shoulder with such force that the assistant could not help but hiss.This assistant has been handling the affairs of the headquarters in country M, and he is not familiar with Shen Junhuai's itinerary and situation in the country in the past two years, and he has never seen him lose his temper like this, yes, it was a gaffe.

"Go, where are you going?" The assistant was quite surprised by his appearance.

"Go to L City." Shen Junhuai said.

There is no airport in L City. The fastest way is to fly from Patton to the neighboring province, and then take the train to L City. It takes three hours by train and four and a half hours by car.

The fastest tickets are available at 4pm that day.Shen Junhuai was waiting in the VIP box, refusing to leave the airport one step at a time.

In the middle, the phone calls from his father and business partners kept coming in, but he hung up directly.At the same time, he also kept making phone calls, until he was sure that Su Changxian had taken someone to drive to L City, and then he calmed down for a short while.

The rest of the time, he just sat there watching that video.

Those days of looking for people were like a blunt knife, experiencing too much hope and despair again and again, cutting repeatedly in my heart.Now, the blunt knife finally stopped moving, hid the blade, leaving only a section of the knife handle, and slowly pointed out a clear path for him, which is also a way of life:

He is still alive.

Lu Qingchen is still alive.

It has been two hours since he saw this video in the morning. During this time, he booked a return ticket, contacted friends in China, and arranged a tracing plan. The operation logic was strict, and his mood was calm and calm. Restored to the way it was before.But only he himself knows that his heart is like a fire right now.

When he dialed Su Changxian's phone number, he didn't try to control his emotions, and repeatedly growled: "He's still alive, he's still alive." There was the joy of surviving after a catastrophe, the ecstasy of regaining what was lost, and at the same time mixed with intense anxiety, I'm afraid that I'm still a step too late this time, and that he still can't think about it.Now I just hope that I can take one step faster, one step faster, find Lu Qingchen before he disappears again, hold him in my arms and never let go.

He wished he could step up to L City in one step, before that person's eyes.

There are still 6 hours until the plane takes off.

He turned on the video over and over again, staring at Lu Qingchen's quiet singing eyebrows, trying to rub this face into his heart.The person in the video is thin, has long hair, looks malnourished, and is still dressed in the same outfit as when he left home, but fortunately does not appear to be injured.He quietly sang an English song, an old song "My December" by Linkin Park, which is Lu Qingchen's favorite band.Such a quiet person actually likes rock and roll. Shen Junhuai once asked him why, and Lu Qingchen's answer was very interesting: "Their music is very loud and wild, but underneath the cover is a bone-chilling sadness."

Just like Lu Qingchen himself, resonance is an instant thing, but Shen Junhuai never understood it before.

I don't understand his fear, I don't understand his sadness, I don't understand his expectation, I don't understand how to love him.

The father called his assistant and finally got through to his son.

"I won't interfere when you go back, but you just arrived today, at least you've finished the scene..."

"I'm sorry, Dad." Shen Junhuai felt guilty towards his father, but it didn't mean he could change his decision, "He's still alive... Just now, I received the video. I can't go to the event, please help me go through the process! "

"..." The father didn't say anything for a long time. It's not like he didn't see the pain and struggle of his son this year. After the previous project started, Shen Junhuai stayed in country M for three months. After getting on the right track, he returned. Pingzhou continued to look for someone, came back occasionally in the middle, and left in a hurry. The father and son hardly had time to sit down and talk for a while.

He didn't dare to imagine how Shen Junhuai would spend the rest of his life if that person was really gone.

His desire to find someone may not be less than his son.

"...If you find someone this time, don't bother. When you have a chance, bring it back and show it to grandpa." Father said, this is equivalent to recognizing the identity of Lu Qingchen's family.

Shen Junhuai's eyes were slightly red, and he said, "Thank you."

Before Shen Junhuai boarded the plane, Su Changxian had already arrived in L City and found Zhang Yang.On the phone, he heard his friend say, "I hope you can hear good news when you turn on the phone again."

Sixteen hours later, Shen Junhuai arrived in L City.

He couldn't wait for the good news from Su Changxian, Lu Qingchen seemed to have quietly disappeared in L City again.

In front of the computer, several people were nervously searching for the surveillance.Twelve days have passed since Zhang Yang saw Lu Qingchen, during which time Lu Qingchen may have left.He often walks along the mountain roads in the suburbs, and such places are generally not monitored, which inadvertently increases the difficulty of finding them.

Finally, they found Lu Qingchen in the surveillance of a forest farm in the suburbs.The time was 12 days ago, that is, after Zhang Yang and Lu Qingchen separated.

The search time is always torturous. Shen Junhuai's whole body is tense, unable to relax, and even begins to have headaches, tinnitus and auditory hallucinations.When he turned around and called "Qingchen" for the fourth time, Su Changxian finally couldn't take it anymore.

"We'll definitely find him this time." Su Changxian patted his friend on the back, signaling him to relax, "Even if we can't find him this time, at least we know he's still alive, right? As long as he's still around, we can always find him." .”

"But...he hasn't come out in the mountains." Shen Junhuai's voice was hoarse, with helpless exhaustion and fear that he didn't want to think about it. He couldn't convince himself that he hadn't seen a living person. What if at the last moment, Lu Qingchen Can't think about it?

"Brother Xiaolu won't do stupid things." Zhang Yang poked his head out from behind. He had already told how the two met, what they said, what they ate, and even Lu Qingchen's every expression and every movement. , I have explained everything to Shen Junhuai, I know that this person is Xiaolu's lover, I have been looking for it for more than a year, and I also know that this person regards Xiaolu more than his life.

"Why?" Shen Junhuai asked, now he can only confirm his identity through the answers given by others.It was as if he had asked Su Changxian dozens of times, "Can we find him this time?" As long as the other party gave an affirmative answer, he would breathe a sigh of relief.

"He still has places he wants to go, and something he wants to find!" Zhang Yang added vaguely, "I think so."

Shen Junhuai was silent for a while, and suddenly asked an irrelevant question: "Is the hamburger delicious?"

"Huh?" Zhang Yang didn't react immediately.

"He doesn't like to drink, but he likes to eat hamburgers... If he has been hungry for too long and suddenly eats this kind of junk food, his stomach will not be able to bear it." Shen Junhuai said again.

"...He looks fine." Zhang Yang didn't know how to answer, he really couldn't tell if Lu Qingchen had a stomachache, but he could clearly see the pain in Shen Junhuai's eyes.

It didn't take long for them to find Qizhi Special Education School.

Lu Qingchen did not go down the mountain. The forest farm surveillance showed him running stumbling on the mountain road, as if he was very scared. The road actually led to the bottom of the mountain, but the surveillance showed that he did not go down the mountain. Then there is only one possibility, he went halfway up the mountain that school.

When Shen Junhuai and the others arrived, the children were playing recess games.

Several black off-road vehicles drove into the narrow mountain road and stopped in front of the school, immediately attracting the children's attention.Su Changxian went to the door to intercede, Shen Junhuai was standing beside the car, not moving forward, he looked at a street lamp not far away, his eyelids twitched violently.

Principal Cai came out quickly, understood the purpose of coming, looked at the situation in front of him, and cautiously did not answer Su Changxian's question immediately - "Does your school take in a person named Lu Qingchen?"

Principal Cai's hesitation made Su Changxian and Shen Junhuai quickly glance at each other, their eyes lit up at the same time, they knew the answer was yes.

"Principal Cai, don't worry, I'll make a call." Su Changxian glanced at his friend who was clasping his hands, gave him a relaxed look, and then skillfully dialed a number. After the call was connected, he handed over the phone Give it to Principal Cai.

"...Director Nie? Okay... yes, I understand..." It was Director Nie of the Provincial Department of Education, who hung up after only a few words.Principal Cai put away the phone, his attitude obviously relaxed.

"Xiaolu is in our school." Principal Cai said.

As soon as the words fell, Shen Junhuai stepped forward quickly, suppressing his emotions, his face was a little ferocious because of excitement: "Where is he?" When he really heard the answer he wanted, when the person he was thinking of was perhaps only one step away from him, he Only then did I feel that it was unreal, and the feeling of being close to the hometown was unreal.But he was really scared, so he arranged cars and people to guard each mountain pass in advance, for fear that the man would disappear again in the blink of an eye.

He could only hear his own heartbeat, and something swelled out of his chest, making his breathing difficult.

Principal Cai turned around and shouted, and an old lady in an apron came out.

"Where's the path?"

"It's on the mountain, what's the matter?" Aunt Li wiped her hands on the apron, and looked at the strangers in front of her with some vigilance.

"Aunt Li, they are Xiaolu's family, let's take them up the mountain."

Only then did Aunt Li hesitantly take off her apron, and called everyone to go to the vegetable garden on the mountain.

The noon sun was a bit strong. After Lu Qingchen watered the vegetable garden, his face was already steaming. He wiped his sweat and was really tired, so he sat in the shade to rest.There is a big ginkgo tree in a corner of the vegetable garden, the leaves are already golden.Uncle Li put a big futon made of strong grass under the tree, and Lu Qingchen nestled in the futon, and fell asleep after a while.

He hadn't slept so peacefully for a long time, with no haze in his heart, no worries, no longer living in no fixed place, worrying and fearing.

But the vigilance brought about by the long-term wandering has been embedded in instinct. In his sleep, he heard disorderly footsteps coming from a distance, and then heard a voice exploding in his ears. It was a familiar sound that he had heard countless times in dreams. sound.

"Qingchen!" Someone called him.

He sat up abruptly and looked around blankly. The man was standing not far from him, with a tall figure embracing the sun, with uncontrollable excitement and ecstasy on his face.

Lu Qingchen looked like he had just woken up immersed in a dream, and now his mind was roaring, as if he had seen something terrible and acted on instinct.He saw the person across from him rushing towards him in twos and threes, and instinctively wanted to hide. The moment the person stretched out his hand, he rolled off the futon, using all fours, and quickly hid behind the tree.

The ginkgo tree is about as thick as two people hugging each other, and it can completely block Lu Qingchen.The pounding heartbeat sounded in my ears, as if I was about to crush myself.He grabbed the tree trunk tightly, his mind was in a mess:

Why is he here?

What does he want to do?

I... what should I do?

He hid behind the tree and remained motionless, and the person on the opposite side did not rush over again, and the world seemed to quiet down instantly.

In the early autumn, the colors on the mountains are rich and hot, and one side of the vegetable garden is full of greenery. The unique fragrance of vegetables mixed with the fresh earthy taste makes everything look full of vitality.

However, Shen Junhuai felt a chill in his heart.

The rushing footsteps stopped suddenly, the ecstasy of regaining the loss froze instantly, and the pain with full stamina flowed along the limbs and bones——Lu Qingchen's evasive action stung every nerve of him.

At this time, Su Changxian and the others had already quietly left the vegetable garden, leaving them enough time and space.

There are only two of them left in the square inch, the distance is very close, but they are in two spaces.

"Qingchen..." After a long time, Shen Junhuai tremblingly opened his mouth, like a defeated deserter, suppressing the emotions of being defeated, he opened his mouth to call for people again. "I've been looking for you for a long time, I miss you very much... Don't be afraid, no one will hurt you anymore. Come out, can we talk?"

There is silence all around, only the soft sound of the breeze blowing the vegetation.

Shen Junhuai sat on the futon, and could still feel the temperature left behind just now with his fingertips. At this moment, there was a distance of two meters between them, but it was cut into a bottomless gap by the gap of a year.

"You promised to come back soon, and I have been waiting for you at home. The house has not been changed, the combination lock has not been changed, and the layout of the house has not been changed."

"You wear so little to go out, it will be very cold at night. You don't bring any money, ID card or mobile phone... Do you know how uncomfortable I feel when I think of this?"

He spoke slowly, completing everything that Lu Qingchen didn't finish when he went out a year ago, as if the separation was still yesterday, as if this year was just a moment.

"I did a lot of wrong things, and I don't deserve to be forgiven. I didn't protect you well, and I wasn't a good lover." He paused, and the knuckles of his pinched fingers turned white, "So, I want to use the rest of my life to make up for you, take care of you, Love you, give me a chance, okay?"

"Qingchen, come home with me, okay?"

Shen Junhuai waited patiently for the answer.

Lu Qingchen slowly came out from behind the tree, sat down, leaned against the tree trunk, lowered his head as if in a daze

Both of them were within each other's line of sight, not far or close enough for Shen Junhuai to see his side face clearly.

"I didn't know you've been looking for me for a long time, and I've caused you trouble... I'm sorry." After a year, the two met again, and the first thing Lu Qingchen said was still an apology.

Shen Junhuai gritted his teeth, unable to tell what it was like.

"I just settled down, I don't want to leave, and I don't want to continue." Lu Qingchen whispered, without looking up, "You have your life, I'm fine here, we... let's do it..."

So be it!It ended like this, and there will be no more each other for the rest of my life.

That's great, he knew how to refuse, but this time the person who refused was himself.

"My life? If I don't have you in my life, what kind of life is it?" Shen Junhuai felt a strong sense of powerlessness. Procrastination and caution were not his style, but he didn't dare to make any troubles for the lost and recovered person.

He looked at the person in front of him carefully, he was so thin that only his waist was left, his over-long hair was tied in a small tug at the back of his head, a few strands of hair fell from his forehead, his eyebrows and eyes were as clean as ever, and he wore a long white sleeve The shirt is rolled up, with "Qizhi" printed on the chest, and the same two words are printed on the pockets of the black trousers. It looks like school work clothes, and when worn on a thin body, it will blow up when the wind blows. A large area was empty.

It seems that it will disappear at any time.

He stood up, not caring about anything else, and stepped in front of the man in two steps. Lu Qingchen was startled by his sudden standing up, and before he could move in a panic, he was hugged tightly into his arms.

"Qingchen, what kind of life do you want to live, I will accompany you to live what kind of life." Lu Qingchen was tightened by him on the chest, unable to break free, and unable to walk away, he could only hear his strong and powerful voice. heartbeat.He bent over his ear, brushed the stubble of his earlobe, and said a bewitching voice:

If you don't want to go back, then don't go back.

Wherever you want to go in the future, I will be there.