clear road dust

The rainstorm came quickly, and suddenly the clear sky turned dark, and the wind blew through the vegetation, screaming and screaming.

Shen Junhuai and Uncle Li were trapped when they went down the mountain to buy supplies, and they planned to wait until the rain was lighter before going up the mountain.The phone rang, it was the landline of the school security room. "Xiaolu went to the vegetable garden to cover the felt cloth, but he didn't come down. He slid down the slope before. I'm worried that something will happen to him. When will you come back..." Aunt Li's eager voice came over the phone, and Shen Junhuai felt a rush Fear creeps up from the soles of his feet.

He drove the school's pickup truck on the slippery mountain road, and Uncle Li was thrown so hard that he could barely hold the handlebars, so he kept comforting him: "It's going to be all right, Xiaolu knows it's dangerous, so he will definitely hide .” But there is no place to hide in the mountains, the two of them knew it well.

The truck finally stopped with difficulty on the small road not far below the vegetable garden, and Shen Junhuai jumped out of the car and rushed into the rain.

Lu Qingchen hid under a slippery boulder and was trying to get up, but he slipped and hurt his ankle, and could hardly stand up.The rain hit my face, my mouth and nose were choked, I coughed non-stop, and I couldn't open my eyes.There was a vast expanse of whiteness in his vision, he was like a fledgling thrown in the wilderness, as if he was about to be swallowed by a violent wind and rain in the next moment.

Then I saw a figure rushing towards me, it was Shen Junhuai.

He was firmly hugged by two arms, and pressed against the other's drenched chest, and he could even hear a strong heartbeat.At the awkward reception when I met Chen Xuxing, he was found by Shen Junhuai while hiding by the side of the road like this.Like that time, he hugged the opponent's waist tightly, firmly grasped the shirt on the back, buried his head in that chest, and suddenly felt that even being swallowed by the storm was not so terrible.

Just let me be willful this time, and indulge myself in this warmth.

This was the only thought Lu Qingchen had before losing consciousness.

In the middle of the night, Lu Qingchen unexpectedly developed a fever.

Shen Junhuai didn't sleep all night, carried him back to the dormitory, gave him medicine, took a bath, and then kept watch all night.The rain was too heavy, and he didn't dare to take the risk of taking Lu Qingchen down the mountain to the hospital, so he had to keep rubbing his body with warm water to cool down.

"You're here..." Lu Qingchen's face was flushed red, he took Shen Junhuai's hand holding the veil, and smiled weakly.Shen Junhuai let him hold it and said, "Don't be afraid, go to the hospital when the rain stops."

"The water is very deep, very cold, and there is no one...I'm really useless..." His eyes were loose, and he grasped Shen Junhuai's fingers weakly with one hand, muttering to himself: "It's so useless, I dare not even die , can't do anything well..."

Shen Junhuai held his hand back hard, and realized that he was burnt out and didn't wake up at all.The words spoken have discarded the excessive embellishments while awake, leaving only the most authentic core.

"I'm sorry, you must have been tired after searching for so long, right?" He curled his lips, his expression gradually aggrieved, "I'm afraid you'll look for it, and I'm afraid you won't look for it, I'm scared every day... Woohoo, when it rains My legs hurt, my ears hurt too..."

He grabbed his ears and shook his head slightly: "I want to vomit..." Then he threw up on the bed.

Shen Junhuai hurriedly supported him, while giving him comfort, he wiped his face with a towel.He hardly ate anything, and of course he couldn't vomit much, he only retched a few times, his upper body lay on the side of the bed, his ribs and back tightened, and he twitched intermittently.Shen Junhuai only felt that his heart was being pulled out of his body with his convulsions, and he was so painful that he couldn't breathe.

Lu Qingchen vomited for a while, then began to cry, like a mosquito humming, there was not much movement, but the tears seemed to flow endlessly, he called "Mom" vaguely in his mouth, and then called "Junhuai" .

Shen Jun hugged him all night.

The next day, the rain passed and the sky cleared, and Lu Qingchen's fever subsided, but he still fell into a drowsy sleep.

It was almost noon when he woke up.He woke up from a severe headache, his body was weak, his head was heavy, and his whole body seemed to have been crushed.The memory of yesterday came back, he remembered that Shen Junhuai found him on the mountain and took care of him overnight.He turned his head with difficulty, and met a pair of bloodshot eyes.

"Are you awake?" Shen Junhuai breathed a sigh of relief, he groped around, and after confirming that Lu Qingchen was in good health, he got up: "I'll go to the kitchen to get you porridge, you can eat some, and go to the hospital in the afternoon."

After finishing speaking, she seemed to be afraid that Lu Qingchen would not want to go, so she coaxed in a low voice: "Don't be afraid, you just have a cold, so don't worry if you don't go and have a look. I called a car and will drive you there in the afternoon."

He didn't leave until Lu Qingchen nodded.

Lu Qingchen stared blankly at the ceiling, his mind was full of Shen Junhuai's tired and cautious face, and an indescribable emotion spread in his heart.In the past, he was the one who ran after Shen Junhuai, asked about his health, and was careful. Everything was based on the other party's will, emotions, sorrows, and joys. Now it is suddenly the other way around. His every move is overly concerned and cared about, so he doesn't feel so happy and complacent. , just more panicked and flattered.

A person who has suffered too much and received too much neglect will instead become afraid of other people's goodness and start to avoid it.Because these are good, they will not be ignored by chance, and they will not be stable for a long time, just like Shen Junhuai's good, God does not know when it will be taken back.

If it happened again, he wasn't sure if he could stand it.So the best way is not to.

Nothing, nothing extravagant.In this way, you will not be afraid of losing, and you will not be afraid of harm.

Shen Junhuai still didn't know that Lu Qingchen had drawn a dividing line for the relationship between the two in his heart.

In the afternoon, I drove to the hospital in the city, registered an expert number, and there were not many people, so the old expert prescribed some cold medicine for Lu Qingchen.Before leaving, Shen Junhuai suddenly said that there was still an expert number to check.When Lu Qingchen was brought to the ENT department, his face turned pale. The rejection and anxiety in his eyes were so obvious that Shen Junhuai pushed him firmly in front of the doctor without any room for negotiation.

"He said his ear hurts, doctor, please show him." Shen Junhuai said, he pressed Lu Qingchen on the chair and suppressed his slight struggle.

The test results came out soon.

Due to traumatic perforation of the tympanic membrane, the left ear was not treated in time, resulting in conductive deafness.The doctor blamed with some regret: "If the ear problem was discovered and treated in time, it would not have developed into this."

Shen Junhuai asked with a stiff face, "When did it happen?"

Like a child who made a mistake, Lu Qingchen whispered that he didn't remember.

Shen Junhuai turned around and asked the doctor, "How to treat it?"

The doctor was frightened by Shen Junhuai's face, thinking why he was so fierce if he was not terminally ill.So he explained softly that the periosteum of the left ear had ruptured. Although it healed on its own later, the hearing was damaged because there was no formal treatment.Surgical treatment is required next, and the cure rate is still very high.

Shen Junhuai's face eased slightly, thanked the doctor, and took Lu Qingchen out of the hospital.

All the way to the parking lot, Shen Junhuai didn't speak again.Lu Qingchen walked slowly with a foot injury, and Shen Junhuai followed his rhythm, holding his hand and walking slowly in front.When he finally got into the car, Shen Junhuai didn't rush to start the ignition. He took out the cigarette case and lighter, and said, "I'm going to smoke a cigarette. You can rest in the car for a while." Then he opened the door and got out of the car.

His tone was steady and his expression was normal. If Lu Qingchen hadn't been aware of his every micro-expression and small movements, he wouldn't have seen that this person was suppressing his anger at all.

Lu Qingchen watched him walk to a tree not far away, and lit a cigarette skillfully. The smoke was so lingering that he couldn't see his face clearly.In fact, Shen Junhuai stopped smoking for a few days after they met, because Lu Qingchen would cough when he smelled smoke, and his throat seemed to be covered with paste. He had complained coquettishly several times before, but it was nothing. As a result, acting like a baby by someone who is not cared about will only make people feel ridiculous, so Lu Qingchen never said a word again.But after this meeting, Shen Junhuai had never smoked a single cigarette, Lu Qingchen once thought he had quit smoking.

He watched Shen Junhuai make a phone call under the tree after smoking a cigarette.Then he took out another cigarette, but he just held it in his hand and didn't light it. He seemed to be thinking for a while, and he didn't know what he was thinking. Then he threw the cigarette case and lighter in his hand into the trash can next to him.

When he got into the car again, he didn't smell much of cigarettes, and the tense momentum just now also relaxed.

He didn't start the car and sat silently in the driver's seat.After a long time, he laughed lowly: "At first, it doesn't matter if you feel deaf, even if I know it, I don't care." He raised his head and looked at Lu Qingchen's eyes with too many emotions, suppressing the original color of his pupils , "Now, you think it doesn't make sense for me to know, maybe you will feel sad and blame yourself, so hide as much as you can."

"Lu Qingchen, you think about me so much, should I say thank you?"

"Obviously someone else hurt you, why is it you who wants to hide? It's obviously my fault, why is it you who are afraid."

"You see, I will live in remorse in the future, because my lover was hurt by others. Not only did I not save him, but I also knocked him deaf in one ear, and even forced him to commit suicide, wander around, and become homeless." Shen Junhuai's eyes were red, the hatred on his face was no longer concealed, tears rolled down his cheeks, he raised his hand to wipe it, and continued to accuse himself: "So, don't forgive me, let me live in regret all my life , and then use my whole life to compensate you."