when brothers become gay

Kissing like that should always be special, aggressive, and... well I admit it, somehow unforgettable.

The tongue was drilled into the mouth like a living thing, seductively evoking the tip of my tongue and entangled with each other. If I had to describe that kind of heat, it might be like hot magma from a volcano. I was so weak that I didn't know how long it had been since my lips parted, and I was still in an ugly daze in his arms.

In the end, his dumbfounded voice sounded above his head: "You actually fainted, don't you know you need to take a breath when kissing?"

"I...you don't care."

Such a high-intensity and high-density kiss, Lei Yan, who was still as relaxed as a normal person afterward, seemed rather strange.

Now I can be [-]%, [-], [-]. I was actually out of breath and fainted for a long time before I recovered.

Or should we praise Lei Yan for his superb kissing skills?Where did you practice it?

He hides so many things from me, and it's not surprising that I don't know about things like the first kiss... Can this be regarded as evidence that I don't care about him?

He was comforted by this gesture of intimacy, so what was my motive?Consolation, sympathy, or something else?I really do not know.

"You're wandering again... what are you thinking?"

I replied blankly, "I'm thinking of you."

"Really? What are you thinking about me?"

His eyes are no longer sad or indifferent, but soft and joyful—unexpectedly, it also has the effect of calming the nerves and refreshing the mind. I knew that before he got angry at the beginning, he would have gagged his mouth.

I was thinking about your kiss... No, no, I can’t say that, I broke free from his arms, and tried to make my tone tough and said: “You confused me so early in the morning, if you want me to understand Just tell me, everything on your mind."

Otherwise, you will blame me for not caring about you.

"...Okay." After a moment of silence, he looked me in the eyes and said, "Actually, you heard what I said to Mom just now, right?"

How could I not be able to blind him with such good acting skills just now?I said awkwardly, "Just a little..."

"That person... is also in this hospital..."

Why?That is to say...

"...I'm still in a coma, and the chance of surviving the operation is only [-] to [-]%. It would be easy for me to go see him, but I still don't want to see him."

"It can't be your fault. He has been too strange all these years."

"But do you know? Your mother fainted because she saw the news that he was critically ill in the newspaper. When she just woke up yesterday, she called out that person's name as soon as she saw me... He treated my mother like this, Why is she still infatuated with him all these years?"

I am silent.

As for feelings, maybe even the parties themselves can't explain clearly, otherwise there would be no such thing as suffering in love in the world, right?

Isn't Lei Yan the same?He should be quite clear about how the taboo love of homosexuality will be treated by the secular world, but it turned out that he fell into it without hesitation, and there was no room for turning back.

But he loves Zijun, right?

Is it really like what is written in the TV series, when you are heartbroken, you need someone to hug him tightly and give him a deep kiss in order to be comforted?

Too ridiculous?Could it be that because Zijun is not around, he uses me as a substitute for comfort?

But what nerve is wrong with me, condoning Lei Yan's dangerous behavior, indulging in his scorching kisses, not only does not feel disgusting, but it feels so comfortable that all limbs are limp, this situation is simply like Lei Yan's emotional derailment, Then I was an accomplice who betrayed Zijun with him...

I don't understand Lei Yan or even myself when I was with him, what Lei Yan wants, what I want, I think too much, I can't turn my head.

After thinking too much, I couldn't help but speak out the question in my heart, "Who can explain things like feelings clearly... To be honest, I haven't even figured out your feelings until now, and neither have I. .”

Lei Yan fell into silence, and after a long time, he managed to squeeze out a sentence: "Want to understand? Come to my house at night, and I will tell you everything..."

The voice is very low, revealing the irresistible temptation of the demons entrenched in the Garden of Eden. I'm not so pure that I would think that "tell everything" is just as simple as two people chatting. What does Lei Yan think of me? of?

Questions piled up and overwhelmed, and the brain cells were almost running out.

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In order to nourish the body of Lei Yan, who is "closer than her own son", during dinner, my mother specially made a table of Lei Yan's favorite dishes, arranged them full, and invited Lei Yan to come over for dinner.

And the father who is best at creating topics at the dinner table happened to be out on business, so the dinner table was very quiet.

Lei Yan and I both focused on flirting with the rice in the bowl, and never looked at each other from the beginning to the end, probably the so-called secrets of each other.

Originally, Lei Yan came to my house quite a few times for dinner since he was a child. He was supposed to have a good time, but the silence turned out like this, so my mother couldn't sit still. Study and living conditions, studied the spiritual and cultural life of contemporary college students, and discussed various factors of rising house prices and rising pork.

When the meal was almost finished, my mother smiled mysteriously and asked, "Lei Yan, Auntie asked you something, you have to tell me honestly."

Help, mom, you are 40 years old, not 14 years old, don't imitate the tone of a little girl as soon as you get up, it will kill you, okay?Oh what!

"Well, I'll tell you everything I know."

"Did our family have a girlfriend at school?"

"Girlfriend?" Lei Yan looked at me suspiciously, sending chills down my spine.

I jumped up from the dinner table and denied it: "Nothing!"

My mother squinted her eyes at me like an old fox, "Then why are you so out of your mind today?"

"What does it mean to be out of your mind? I can't think about the problems of life..." I just stared at the dining table, my eyes flickered, and I didn't dare to look at Lei Yan.

"Are you still shy when you grow up so big?" The mother became more and more interested, and interrogated Lei Yan softly and forcefully, "Come on, he doesn't dare to speak, you come and tell auntie... Don't worry, it's okay to have a girlfriend in college. It couldn't be more normal."

"Auntie, I've never heard of a girlfriend, but it's hard to say whether he likes it or not, but it's better for Cheng Juan to tell you these, isn't it, Brother Cheng Juan?"

What a hypocritical tone!I glared at him angrily, and it was this guy who caused me to lose my mind. He said that he told me all his moods at night, so that it would be a ghost if I could calm down!

"Huh? Really not... I'm so disappointed." Mom was disappointed, but she still didn't forget to gossip, "If you have a date, you should tell mom as soon as possible."

I could not laugh or cry perfunctorily: "I know, I know."

At this time Lei Yan suddenly put down the bowl and chopsticks and said, "I'm done eating. Auntie, I'm going back first."

My mother hurriedly asked: "Why do you eat such a little? It's not good for your health."

"No need, auntie... I don't have much appetite, but I'm a little sleepy and want to go back to sleep."

"That's right, then take a good rest and don't worry too much about family affairs."

"Well, I will." Before leaving, Lei Yan reminded me again: "By the way, Cheng Juan, I have bought the CD of the game you have been wanting to buy before, do you want to come over to my house to play?"

If I go to your house, I will go to your house, why are you making excuses to play games!I continued to push the rice into my mouth, and replied vaguely: "I know, I will talk about it when I am full." It can be delayed for a while.

After Lei Yan left, I kept chewing my food until——

"Juan'er, are you very hungry? Why don't you eat food all the time?"

"..." In a trance, I stretched out my chopsticks to the plate closest to me.

"Why are you in a daze, when did you start eating green peppers on your own initiative?"

"..." I tried my best to look at her with the saddest eyes—Mom, please forgive me.

"Looking at what I do like this, I tell you to rest assured. I will never interfere with your freedom of love. As long as a girlfriend has a good personality, it is fine. The most important thing is to know how to be filial—well, like Yan Yan She has the best personality, mature and stable, and knows filial piety from a young age..."

He was obviously talking about girls, why did he suddenly mention Lei Yan?

"You mean you want me to associate with Lei Yan?"

"Look at what nonsense you are talking about, how do two boys get along? Your mother and I are just making an analogy. But then again, I really often think, if it would be nice to have a girl, you two My childhood sweetheart... Alas, what a pity... If any girl marries Yan Yan in the future, she will be really happy."

After she finished speaking, she sighed in admiration: "I'm so happy, Lei Yan must be very handsome in a groom's outfit."

Cut, mother, do you know that your expression is called disrespectful?

Happy ghost, he likes boys!When you bring back his handsome boyfriend to show you, you will regret saying this!

I wash the dishes after dinner.

I wipe the floor after washing the dishes.

After wiping, I take a shower.

After I take a shower I do my laundry.

I hang the clothes after washing...

It doesn't matter that my old mother is dumbfounded at my diligence, anyway, I'm not idle, and it's past ten o'clock after dawdling.

But the tasks assigned by Aunt Lei were still there, and when I finally had nothing to do with the housework, I bit the bullet and went to Lei Yan's house.

No one answered the doorbell for a long time, and no one answered the doorbell instead.

I can't believe he's sleeping...what's the matter?Excessive boy, you invited me to your house. Hey, missing?

I pressed the doorbell and waited for a long time, but there was still no sign of Lei Yan opening the door. I couldn't bear it anymore and knocked on the door vigorously, "Lei Yan, don't pretend to be asleep, open the door for me quickly!"

"What are you making noise in the middle of the night?"

Lei Yan's voice suddenly appeared behind me, which really shocked me. When did this kid start walking without making a sound?

I scratched the back of my head in embarrassment and asked, "Where are you going so late?"

Lei Yan opened the door and said nonchalantly, "Do I have to report to you where I am going?"

One sentence made me feel so uncomfortable, this tone is clearly questioning who you are.

"Oh...no need..."

"Sorry, it's just a joke, don't take it seriously. I just went to the supermarket downstairs to buy a pack of cigarettes, come in."

I entered the door, and I had nothing to say: "So you smoke?"

"Well, it started when I was a sophomore in high school."

"how do I……"

Lei Yan glanced at me, and I swallowed the three words "don't know" in time.Alas, Cheng Juan, Cheng Juan, it's embarrassing to fail to be friends to such an extent.

"I waited for hours and thought you were afraid to come."

"Your home is not a dragon's pond or a tiger's lair. How dare you dare? Would you eat me?"

Lei Yan's expression was not relaxed at all, he just said: "Eating you? It's not a difficult thing to do."

"This..." I regretted that I came to his house on such a night when the moon was dark and the wind was high, killing people and setting fires.

Lei Yan sighed: "Go to the balcony, I really want to smoke now."

Under the night, the curling smoke slowly rises.

Lei Yan sucked the cigarette into his lips and took a deep breath before letting it out. The action was very skillful. At this time, I only thought of one word in my mind - sexy. At the same time, my lips also vividly recalled the kissing time Soft touch.

Even if I was wrong at the time and lost my memory, the feeling between my lips is still there, hot and moist, numb.

I'm really not normal anymore.

How should I tell him...

After hesitating for a moment, I still said nonsense: "After you left, my mother dragged me and talked endlessly... She said... If I find a girlfriend, I must..."

"I do not want to hear."

"You'll want to hear it, she said...you have to be as mature and stable as Yanyan and know how to be filial from a young age, and she also said that she wished I could be born into a girl to marry you, hehe, it's funny..."

"..."

"It's not funny... um..."

Suddenly being pulled into a warm embrace, two petals of soft and moist things suddenly stuck together, with the smell of tobacco.

Lei Yan and I kissed again... I didn't feel disgusted at all, I didn't feel repulsed at all, I didn't feel at all...

But this time it was only for a moment, Lei Yan immediately let go of me and said: "Compared to saying those heartless words, your lips are more suitable for kissing."

"!"

"You don't hate me kissing you, do you?"

I blushed to have answered the question.

"You know, your attitude will always make me mistakenly think that you like me too, so I will have inexplicable expectations, but the result will only be disappointment..."

also?He said "also"?

Before my head could react, I heard myself say, "I like..."

"Ok?"

"I've never been in a relationship before, so how do I know what kind of feeling is like liking, but!" I said emphatically, "If...if it wasn't for you, why do you think I want a man to kiss me? Once it’s fine, there’s a second time.”

Lei Yan looked at me in surprise, "You mean..."

"But aren't you already in a relationship with Peng Zijun? What is this, cheating? Climbing the wall? Or is Zijun not around and using me as a substitute... What do you want?"

Before he could finish listening to my eloquent and angry condemnation, he had already blocked my angry words——

to his lips.

A gentle yet domineering kiss...

This is the third time!

"What on earth do you want? Didn't you understand what I just said?"

"Let go, you idiot, enough is enough to vent out on others!"

"You have no morals, you can't stop!"

"Don't! Let me go!"

In theory, I could bite down on his restless lips with my teeth, kick him away, and yell out the above condemnation in a Superman, Batman, justice fighter tone.

But in fact, I'm so hypoxic that I'm dizzy and can't find my way, so these words can only be rotten in my heart.

After finally waiting for his sucker-like lips to leave, I had a chance to breathe in fresh air.

"Cheng Juan."

Lei Yan held my hand tightly as if wishing it could be crushed, brought his face closer to me again, and opened his mouth...

no?Again?You want me to be the first person ever to die from a lack of oxygen from a kiss?

Lei Yan just explained over there in confusion: "Zijun and I have nothing to do with each other anymore! No, it's not already, it's never been...we never started!"

"You liar! Who kept saying that you wanted me to understand, and wanted to introduce your boyfriend to me?" Also, you are so close to him...

"Then what do you think I can do? The person I like is so dull." Lei Yan actually stared at me with that kind of tired and helpless eyes and said, "Aside from trying my best to insinuate, what else can I do? Who knew that so many things would happen all at once? Things, everything is messed up... I almost lost the patience to wait."

I seem to have heard something terrible...

The person you like is so dull?

Lost the patience to wait?

"Slow... wait, the person you said you like should, shouldn't it be... yes..."

Lei Yan responded gently but firmly: "En."

Um?Don't moan and haw when you're in such an embarrassing situation!

"Impossible, you have never expressed any intention of liking it..."

"If..." He imitated my previous tone, "If it wasn't for you, why do you think I would ask for kisses again and again?"

He actually gave him a counter-general!When I was angry, I heard him add another sentence——

"I'm not a kisser."

"How dare you say you're not?" My mouth was almost swollen!

As if he didn't listen to my question, he just stared at me and asked, "What about you?"

"Of course I can't be a kissing freak!"

"I'm asking, do you like me? Or, can you like me?"

I reflexively asked: "What should I do to like you? I don't like men."

I thought I could pretend to be cool and refuse to admit it, but!I refuse to admit that this face is mine!Those who don't obey at all will become red, and it won't stop.

"But I just heard someone say that they only kiss me..."

Did I hear correctly, he is so big, he is acting like a baby at me?Moreover, the gloom that he had been stagnating for the past few days seemed to have been swept away, and while he was talking so sweetly, he actually looked refreshed.

"That's...that's because..."

"Because of—ah, it's hot..."

Lei Yan suddenly let out a low cry, and shook his hand vigorously. I took a closer look, and it turned out that the smoke that had been neglected all this time was sticking to the end between his fingers, burning his fingers.

You deserve it, who told you to pretend to be deep and smoke like others!And smoking while falling in love, deserve it!

Who told you that it's okay to ask me this kind of question, you will be punished, right?

However, it is a good opportunity to solve the embarrassment.

I pushed him away and walked into the room, saying: "I also said that I don't know how to take care of myself, but you are not the same, even if you burn your hand with a cigarette, you are not afraid of being laughed at."

"Where are you going?"

"Here's an OK stretch for you, your little medicine box is still in your room."

"Don't go..." Lei Yan stopped my hand and said, "You haven't answered my question yet."

Sweating to death... actually stalking...

But it's also good, so that you can show that I am older than you by acting coquettishly at me occasionally... No, now is not the time for you to act coquettishly!

"Is there anything you can't talk about in the house? The cold wind blows on the balcony for a long time. I'm still cold if you're not cold."

"Ah... oh."

Only then did Lei Yan obediently enter the house, I went to his room with ease and got a small medicine box, dug out two pieces of OK bandages, turned around——

"Heh, why did you follow in? Why don't you stay in the living room..."

"I just burned my fingers, it's not that my feet can't walk. Also, why can't I come in my own room?"

What he said made perfect sense, but I just found it weird.If you're in the room with the guy who just kissed you, and there's a big bed three steps away...you'll know what I'm messing with.

I tried to concentrate my thoughts and said, "Stretch out your hand."

"Isn't it better to disinfect it before posting this?"

"Hey? Disinfection, do you still have disinfectant in your medicine cabinet? I'll find it for you later..."

"No, that's fine."

so?Just when I was puzzled, I saw Lei Yan slightly opened his mouth, stretched out his middle finger and index finger to his lips, stuck out his scarlet tongue and licked it.

When I think of the tongue still churning in my mouth not long ago, I just... I'm about to spray nosebleeds!Lei Yan, you monster, where did you learn such seductive moves?

"What's the matter?" Lei Yan blinked his big evil eyes and asked knowingly.

"You...you..." I was furious, "You post it yourself, I'm going back!"

I'm not angry with his actions, but looking at his actions that are no less than that of Yao Jieer in the TV series, I was actually seduced!Help... Have I fallen completely?No!

Lei Yan grabbed my hand, restrained his previous hippie smile and said seriously: "Don't run away, you like me, I can see it, no, I should have seen it a long time ago, how dare you react like this Say you don't like me?"

Why does this kid keep turning faces faster than turning pages?

I struggled for a long time without breaking free, so I could only stammer and say, "Extorting a confession is wrong!"

Lei Yan chuckled: "How can this be called extorting a confession? That's the way it is!"

Immediately afterwards, he took practical actions to show me what "this" means - he directly started to lift my shirt, and then began to caress with his fingers...

The events of that night came back to my memory again, that man's reptile-like fingers and leech-like lips...

I closed my eyes tightly, "Don't...don't do this...I'm afraid..."

"Don't be afraid...you look at me, it's me who is doing this kind of thing now, not anyone else, it's me...I won't hurt you..."

These words actually lifted the curse in my heart in an instant, and I slowly opened my eyes according to the words.

Yes, the person in front of me is Lei Yan...

He started to show his superb kissing skills, and at the same time, he still didn't forget to roll up his clothes even higher, the skin under the shirt touched the cold air, it was so cold, my whole body shivered slightly.

Then the nose itch again.

It's really cold...

"Ah sneeze!"

I flinched and sneezed a gigantic sneeze, which almost made Lei Yan spit all over his head.

Lei Yan stopped his movements and let me go, he couldn't laugh or cry, "You! Did you make a mistake, sneezing in this situation?"

"Is it weird to sneeze when you're cold?" I quickly pulled back my clothes and hurriedly rubbed against the door, "I'm going back first, see you tomorrow."

Darling, you can't stay in his room under this kind of atmosphere, and you almost fell for him just now.