When gentleness is worn into the ancient dog blood crematorium

At 09:30 in the middle of the night, an Audi parked quietly on the side of the street, the window was opened a small slit, and a hand that was so white that it was almost transparent hung down from the slit, shaking with the shaking of the wrist.

Not long after, a wider and slender hand grabbed his hand and forced it back into the compartment. Immediately afterwards, the tires of the Audi car rubbed against the ground several times, making a vibrating sound.

That hand gripped the glass tightly again, its fingertips were blue and white, and it was extremely hard.

The sparrows on the side of the road were frightened and flew away. They twittered non-stop, and they could not cover up the young man's gentle begging for mercy. They were not only painful, but also very happy. The sparrows blinked and saw that the moon was bright and the stars were thinning in the sky, and the temperature in the air was gradually rising. .

The moment the car door opened, the sparrow flew away.

Chi Baiwan's eyes were sour, and the end of his eyes was stained a lot of red. He asked hoarsely, "Brother Han, you are too bullying."

Fu Sihan wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, pursed his lips with a sad face: "Don't you like it?"

Seeing that he was about to lose again, Chi Baiwan had no choice but to hold back his breath, huddled into a ball and nestled on the sofa cushion, and said in a dull tone, "No... Didn't you say that I was on top? Why did it end up... I'm now doubting that at the beginning Who is taking advantage of whom?"

Fu Sihan massaged his waist and coaxed him nicely: "You are indeed on top."

"you……"

Forget it, Chi Baiwan didn't bother to talk to him, turned around, because he was so tired, he fell asleep as soon as he closed his eyes.

Fu Sihan patiently pushed his knees aside and wiped them off with a tissue.

Fu Sihan thought, the car seat is dirty.

Or, just take a picture and keep it as a souvenir.

Also, the ring on Chi Baiwan's hand should also be photographed, so that Chi Baiwan can't play tricks and deny it.

Chi Baiwan was played around by him at night, and fell into a deep sleep without realizing it.

When he woke up, Chi Baiwan was already lying in a strange room with simple decoration and classical Chinese furniture. He looked out the window and saw clusters of greenhouse roses blooming in the residual snow.

It looks like a two-story building.

Fu Sihan was taking work documents in front of the bookcase, probably to fax them to the company.

His work is very busy, and Chi Baiwan often doubts how much money the boss pays him, making him work so hard for the company, it is simply peerless to beat workers.

"Brother Han..." When Chi Baiwan heard his own voice, he felt that his voice was still very hoarse, and his face turned red, "Where is this?"

Fu Sihan turned around and walked over quickly, "My house."

Chi Baiwan: "Your parents are here?"

Fu Sihan knelt down and rubbed his waist: "No, I live alone at home."

For this reason, Fu Sihan told the servants in the family to save them from talking about it.

Chi Baiwan put his hand on the back of his head, and said falteringly: "You know, Brother Han, I always thought you were kicked out of the house. If that's really the case, you should have a good talk with your parents."

Fu Sihan lowered his eyes, "Talk? I have nothing to talk to them about."

Chi Baiwan's voice was gentle and affectionate in the empty room: "Did they treat you very badly?"

Fu Sihan gave a low "um", "When I was young, I grew up alone, and my parents left me as a burden, so my feelings for my parents were very shallow, and they didn't love me either. "

"Father doesn't care about housework in order to do business. He thinks that men should not do housework. If there are no servants to help, then these are what women should do. He is a machismo through and through, just like my grandfather, even though he sees It looks so tame, but the toughness and domineering in the bones are still the same."

Fu Sihan smiled wryly, "Actually, I used to be like this too."

Chi Baiwan patiently pulled him up and let him sit next to him, "What about your mother?"

"My mother is a university teacher. She gave up the opportunity to study abroad in order to give birth to me. She has always wished that she hadn't aborted me, because I ruined her future."

"Although my mother is a teacher, in my family structure, money and power are paramount. No matter how powerful my mother is, she is still a woman and has no power. She needs to do housework, be a wife, and work hard to evaluate titles in school. I Knowing that she is a woman longing for freedom and knowledge, because she is really good enough, she may not want to get married and be imprisoned in marriage."

Chi Baiwan said quietly: "Maybe, she wants to raise her head in your family and not be your father's appendage, because they love each other."

Fu Sihan nodded silently, "Yeah, they have always been in love, but the reality is not as good as imagined. The trivialities of the place have wiped out the love, and I think they only have companionship and habits. If I were her, I would hate it too. Myself, after all, I ruined the best future of so many people."

Chi Baiwan smiled softly, "No, even if they don't love you, you have grown so big and tall. Let yourself go and reconcile with them, okay? You can't change your original family, But you can change your own heart, work hard to do what you should do, find the meaning of your life, and don’t sink into the swamp of the past, because there are still many people who love you.”

Fu Sihan raised his eyes blankly, only then did Chi Baiwan notice that Fu Sihan's eyes were already red, and he asked in a hoarse voice, "But no one has ever loved me."

There was only one person who was lost by him.

Chi Baiwan couldn't help laughing softly, "Are you recruiting me on purpose?"

Fu Sihan pursed his lips and asked him, "Then... is it okay?"

Chi Baiwan blinked his eyes, took his hand with both hands and hid it under his quilt, gently stroking his fingers: "Brother Han, don't make yourself so embarrassed, I will love you dearly."

Do you feel sorry for him?

Fu Sihan's heart ached violently.

Under the quilt, Fu Sihan turned his hand over to hold his wrist, stubbornly wanting to hear the answer, he leaned over and kissed Chi Baiwan's side face, "Say it, I want to hear it from you."

Chi Baiwan murmured softly: "I like you, okay?"

Fu Sihan grabbed his hand, bowed his head in silence, and said after a while, "I remember."

Chi Baiwan didn't know what to say, so he patted his head, "Since we're together... I should meet your parents... Don't worry too much, of course if you feel abrupt—"

Fu Sihan lowered his head for him to rub, and quietly put his arms around his slender waist and said, "It's not intrusive, but...now is not the time."

Chi Baiwan understood the refusal in his words, and smiled empathetically, "It's okay, let's talk about it when you think the time is up."

But Chi Baiwan somehow felt sad.

Shihan seems to be hiding something from him, what is it?

Ah, just thinking about it makes my head hurt.

-

In the evening, Fu Sihan took him to a dinner party, saying it was a gathering of colleagues in the company, and asked Chi Baiwan to wait for him in the box for a while, and he would come out soon.

Chi Bai stayed in the box drinking tea bored at night.

He listened to music with headphones on, flipped through the script that his agent had sent him, and secretly watched Fu Sihan while reading the PDF.

Most of the people coming and going in the lively banquet hall were upper-class people. They wore suits, leather shoes, high-end accessories, and smiled. When they passed by Fu Sihan, they all politely said a few words to him.

Chi Baiwan thought endlessly, it seems that he is very popular, if he was in the entertainment circle, he would be a beautiful and decent courtesan himself.

But no one talked to Chi Baiwan, which made Chi Baiwan feel very strange, he didn't provoke these people, not to mention, he is an actor, there is no reason why people here don't know him?

But Chi Baiwan still waited quietly in the box, watching Fu Sihan with his chin in his hands.

His neighbor seems to have a very good job, a successful career, a lot of money, dedicated and affectionate, gentle and considerate...

It's just that Chi Baiwan thinks that he is not perfect like a real person. Everyone has shortcomings that are difficult to overcome, and they will not change throughout their lives. He loves him only because he can tolerate his shortcomings.If a person appears to be flawless, then it is time to pay attention, he may be faking.

But... why did Fu Sihan pretend?

Because he is an actor, he has too many choices, is he afraid that he will abandon him?

Honestly, it's possible.

Ever since he lost his memory, Chi Baiwan understood his own heart better than ever.

Maybe it was the past before the amnesia that made him close his heart and love. Although he and Shi Han fell in love, he was not too excited.

He couldn't say why, but his instinct told him not to love someone with all his heart and soul, he might be disappointed.

Therefore, Chi Baiwan can no longer completely trust anyone, even Shi Han, whom he really likes.

In this way, when Shi Han leaves him, he won't be sad.

But what is strange is that Shi Han seems to know what kind of person he likes, and everything he does accurately pleases him, and there is nothing Chi Baiwan doesn't like in everything he shows in front of him.

For example, his appearance, figure, voice, the way of possessing him, and even the occasional pitiful grievances, made Chi Baiwan fall into it unconsciously, liking him more and more day by day, and couldn't leave him.

... He's so cunning, isn't he satisfied that he's falling head over heels for him?Why is he so sure they won't break up?

Chi Baiwan sighed, or let him know tonight that he is not determined by him.

It's not that if you promise to get married, you must get married.

He is free, not someone's exclusive property or accessory, and always has his own life.

Chi Baiwan thought so helplessly, he took off the ring and hid it in his pocket.

... just lied to him and lost it.

-

Fu Sihan was restless, and his face became more and more gloomy.

It made everyone in the banquet hall tremble with fear, for fear of offending the living ancestor.

"If I'm not mistaken, the person sitting in the box is Mr. Fu's canary, right?"

"It's him! How much trouble did Boss Fu and his lover have? Why are they reunited now?

"And I remember that Canary was very clingy to Boss Fu in the past, how do you think... Canary is not clingy to him anymore?"

"No wonder Mr. Fu is in a bad mood..."

Fu Sihan wasn't angry, he was just anxious. The banquet took too long, and he was afraid that Chi Baiwan would leave impatiently.

Thinking of this, Fu Sihan turned his head to see if Chi Baiwan was still there.

... Sure enough, it's gone?

Fu Sihan's heart suddenly stopped beating.

An indescribable panic pervaded his mind, did Chi Baiwan recover his memory?Did he remember?Otherwise, why would he leave suddenly?

Fu Sihan called him but didn't answer.

Send WeChat, do not reply.

Contact him in various ways - no reply at all.

Fu Sihan was completely panicked. For such a long time, he had been wearing a mask and falling in love with Chi Baiwan. It can be said that he was unhappy. Although it was someone else's life he stole, but after a long time, Fu Sihan was about to die. I think it's time for me to be cold.

Therefore, he began to relax his vigilance towards Chi Baiwan, he almost forgot what kind of person Chi Baiwan was.

For such a stubborn, sharp, brave and strong person, gentleness is just his superficiality, and it is easy for Fu Sihan to be blinded.

He quickly contacted Uncle Jiu to find someone. About half an hour later, Fu Sihan learned that Chi Baiwan was at the Museum of Modern Art to see the painting exhibition.

-

In the exhibition hall, Chi Baiwan was standing side by side with a man, it was Huo Jue.

Fu Sihan's heart sank to the bottom all of a sudden, and his unusually quick anger instantly started a prairie fire, which almost made him rush over desperately to ask Chi Baiwan, why did he run out without saying a word while carrying him behind his back?Does he know who he is?

... Fu Sihan calmed himself down, no, that was wrong, he had to ask Chi Baiwan in a pleasant manner, what's going on?

He walked over, took Chi Baiwan's hand, and said softly, "Xiao Yu, why did you leave so suddenly? You didn't even tell me."

After Fu Sihan finished speaking, his expression changed.

He raised Chi Baiwan's hand, and found that his ring finger, which he wore every day, was empty.

"Where is the ring I gave you?"

Fu Sihan even showed a gentle smile, "Did you forget to take it at home, huh?"

Chi Baiwan said flatly: "I lost it."

Chi Baiwan temporarily called the boss to come to see the art exhibition, and the night felt even better, making the artwork on the wall seem to come alive and come to life under the moonlight.

Chi Baiwan was indeed watching the art exhibition.

He has actually left Shi Han behind. For him, falling in love should not be the whole of life.

Even if he is very cold and loves each other very much, he shouldn't stick together every day.

Moreover, he also wanted to see where Shi Han's bottom line was and whether he would be angry.

Chi Baiwan didn't believe that someone would be so perfect, like a dummy.

He guessed that Shi Han must have a secret, otherwise he wouldn't always secretly say sorry when he fell asleep.

Chi Baiwan always thought that he heard it wrong, until last night, when a tear fell on his cheek, he clearly realized that it was not a dream.

Chi Baiwan patted his hand off, and asked quietly, "Are you angry?"

Fu Sihan pulled his wrist calmly, endured it and said, "No."

Huo Jue stood aside, folded his arms and looked at him coldly, and said thoughtfully, "What ring?"

Chi Baiwan roughly described it. After finishing speaking, Huo Jue said bluntly: "I have to go to the company with Luan Yu. We have something to talk about. Mr. Shi Han, you'd better wait patiently."

Fu Sihan's eyes were dark, "No."