reborn stepfather

"Chi Qian, I regret it so much."

My eyes were hot, and I tried my best to hold back the tears.

"Bringing you back and being with you, I regret it terribly."

Chi Qian's movements stopped abruptly, and I quickly pushed him aside, enduring the severe pain behind me and slowly climbing off the sofa.

As soon as my knees touched the cold ground, I knelt down. I turned my head in cold sweat and looked at the blood and some dirt on the beige sofa cover. I knew how serious the injury was.

Chi Qian knelt on the sofa, his face pale and helpless, he seemed to want to help me, and stretched out his hand to me.

"dad......"

"Don't touch me." I shrank back almost reflexively.

He froze in place, his outstretched hand was in mid-air, trembling slightly as if restraining something.

"I'm sorry, Dad, I didn't mean to, I'm sorry..." This situation seemed to make him at a loss, the expression on his face was both flustered and bewildered, he still tried to grab my arm, "Dad, I'm sorry , don't be angry, don't..."

He suddenly choked up in his throat: "Don't... say it as if you want to drive me away..."

I couldn't stand up, but still stubbornly patted his hand off.

As long as I moved a little, something would flow out from behind. I endured a huge sense of humiliation and shame. I leaned on the wall, the coffee table, the chair, and everything I could cling to. bathroom to go.

Chi Qian followed me with his hands open, but he didn't dare to touch me again.Whenever my legs shook unbearably, he was more nervous than me in a protective posture.I didn't look back at him, I just gritted my teeth and made it through step by step by myself.

I finally touched the door frame of the bathroom, and Chiqian was shut out by me.

The steaming water poured down, and the strained muscles of my body relaxed. I stood motionless under the shower with my head down, and after a while, I stretched out my trembling fingers to dig into that place, digging out what was left in my body.

The white liquid mixed with blood was washed down the drain along the thigh and disappeared.

Tears finally burst out at this moment.

Squatting on the ground and crying silently for a long time, when I raised my head again, I saw Ikeqian's silent shadow outside the locked glass door of the bathroom.

Motionless, standing outside the door for a long time, like a sculpture-like shadow.

Ten minutes later, I pull out the long-sleeved fall and winter bathrobe from the closed hanging cabinet in the bathroom.

J□j's skin was covered with bruise marks from struggling. I faced the mirror and tightened the bathrobe a bit.

The person reflected in the mirror had swollen eyelids and dull eyes. I pulled the corners of my mouth a little, and the smile I showed was uglier than crying, like a mourning concubine.

When the door opened, Chi Qian was still standing there, holding an ointment in his hand.

He said nothing, just held out his hand in a gesture of giving.

I didn't pick it up, just lowered my head and squeezed past him.I can't face him now, as long as I see his face, I will remember how he buckled my arm, pressed me on the sofa like a dog, and forced me.

As we passed each other, I heard Chi Qian's hoarse voice: "What the hell am I in your heart?"

I leaned on the wall and limped back to the room.

The moment the door was closed, I saw him still standing there motionless, his dark eyes met my gaze from afar, his lips moved, and he called silently: "Dad."

With a shake of my hand, the door closed in front of my eyes, and he was isolated from the door in a dazed state.

Chi Qian, then what am I in your heart?

Because the professors are sophomores who are about to enter the third year of high school, so Chi Qian finished the summer vacation after taking the exam, but I still have to continue to attend classes.

When I woke up the next morning, the sunlight projected from the gap in the curtains was already scorching my eyes. I slowly turned my head and saw the numbers on the clock clearly.

It was already ten forty.

Fortunately, the morning class is the fourth period, and there is still time to catch up.

In fact, the courses are almost finished at this time. In key high schools like No. [-] Middle School, the biggest tradition is to finish all the courses of the third year in order to catch up with the class in the second year of high school, and then the whole year of the third year can be used for review. Repeat the three-year knowledge three or four times, and by the time of the college entrance examination, those who have studied hard will basically understand it.

This is the situation now. Although the summer vacation time is still mandatory to make up lessons, there are only some unimportant texts that have not been taught, and most of them are self-study classes.In fact, there have long been lazy teachers who left the discipline of the class to the study committee and monitor to maintain, even if the teacher doesn't come, it doesn't matter.However, class has become the only excuse for me to temporarily distract myself from thinking about yesterday's miserable experience.

In order to hide the swollen eyelids from yesterday's embarrassment and crying, I put on old black-rimmed glasses. When I was tidying up the closet, I realized that all the clothes I usually wear were still in the living room, so I had to go out to look for them.Yesterday's messy living room has been cleaned up, even the sofa cover has been removed and cleaned.Probably Ike moved up to do it.

I didn't find my clothes, maybe he picked them up and washed them and hung them on the balcony to dry, but the balcony was in Chiqian's room, I stopped in my tracks, and finally didn't have the courage to knock on the door.

I wasn't ready to face him face to face.

It's really not my original idea to make a fuss like this.

It was like a bolt from the blue when I suddenly learned the truth yesterday. I just wanted to hide in a corner where no one was around and collect my thoughts. I didn't even want to quarrel with Chi Qian, nor did I want to accuse him of anything.He is in adolescence, and I understand that he is impulsive. Maybe after the cold wind blows, I will wake up a lot, so I don't have to conflict with him, and I can properly resolve the conflict between the two of us.

You know I'm a dull person, why don't you give me some time.

I clearly know that it is difficult to suppress my temper when I get angry, but I want to be stubborn when I am impulsive, what should I do now.

Distraught, I picked up an old-fashioned suit and wore it to school. I wanted to ride a bicycle, but as soon as my butt touched the cushion, I felt as if someone had kicked it with spikes, and I couldn't sit still.I had no choice but to catch the bus in desperation.

When I arrived, the class bell just rang, and when I walked into the classroom, the noisy class was much quieter, but when they saw my old-fashioned and ill-fitting suit, they burst out laughing again.

A bold girl also teased me: "Teacher, you seem to be playing monkeys on the roadside. The uncles who play monkeys all wear this one."

For the first time, I have no black face.

These 45 minutes are naturally the same as before. This group of students are no higher than a year, and they are all veterans. They have their own way of dealing with the teacher.And now I am not in the mood to argue with them at all, even if all the girls are peeking at extra-curricular books in class, and all the boys are peeking at Japanese action movies with their earplugs and MP4s, I will pretend not to see them.I said mine, and it passed quickly.

At first, I could almost stop thinking about what happened yesterday, but when the class was over, a girl said, "Teacher, why do you have a weird voice? The way you walk is also awkward. Are you sick, teacher?"

She should just be kind, but my face turned pale immediately, and the scenes of yesterday were automatically played in front of my eyes.

In the end, he didn't even dare to lift his head, and fled in despair.

I sat blankly in the office for a long time, my buttocks felt numb and painful, the class bell rang again and again, the stairwell was full of noise, footsteps, talking and laughing, gathered in my ears, but it was like no sound when the radio was FM. Meaningful radio waves.

I dare not go home.

"Teacher Chen?"

Someone knocked on the door of the office, I turned my head mechanically, and the elder Li Fenghua was standing there.

"Mr. Li, what's the matter?"

"Oh, that's how it is. Didn't your son take the No. [-] middle school recommendation test? I'm here to discuss with you about how to fill in volunteers for recommended students." Li Fenghua walked in while talking.

"Yes, yes, have the grades come out yet?" I quickly stood up and made her a cup of tea.

"The school will probably announce it in two days, but I can already check the scores by phone." Li Fenghua sat down beside me, and picked up the teacup, "That's right, originally, I don't care about the junior high school. , I am the senior in the second year of high school. But just now the dean told me to come and see you, and I still need to ask for your opinion on this matter of recommendation. "

"What? My son didn't get enough marks... didn't he pass the exam?" I suddenly became nervous.

"That's not true. I heard that there are a lot of scores that exceed the score line. It's a sure thing." Li Fenghua laughed.

I just passed the exam, and I breathed a sigh of relief: "Then is there any problem with the recommendation?"

"Mr. Chen is also a teacher, so I won't talk to you about the situation. Isn't it time to fill in the volunteers? Originally, a student as good as Chi Qian has enough scores. Our school definitely advocates that he fill in Yunshi No. 211 Middle School." Yes, after all, it is the key point of the city, and it is better than our Nanchuan No. [-] Middle School. Our school is also willing to pass the exam from us, and it is also helping us to promote it in disguise, and it will be better to say it in the future." Li Fenghua took a sip of tea and continued. "However, our principal's proposition in the past few years is that we don't really agree with such an approach, because we at Nanchuan No. [-] Middle School have to keep some excellent students, and all good students are sent to the city. The loss will be relatively large, and fewer students will be admitted to [-] key universities, right? Besides, the school plans to cancel the junior high school in a few years, and fully develop the high school..."

I was a little confused after hearing this: "But what does this have to do with our Chi Qian?"

"Mr. Chen, how can this be okay? Chi Qian went to the Academic Affairs Office this morning to change his volunteer, can he do it without the consent of his parents?" Li Fenghua smiled slightly, "I am here to convey the meaning of the Director of Academic Affairs, he is I want to persuade you, the best thing is to let Chi Qian go straight to Nanchuan No. [-] Middle School. After all, Mr. Chen also teaches in our No. [-] Middle School. Isn’t it convenient to have your own child under your nose? If you take care of it, it won’t be so considerate if you go to the city, right? And let me tell you, our No. [-] Middle School is no worse than the No. [-] Middle School in the city. I didn’t come from here to be the number one scholar in the province of Arts and Sciences the year before last and last year.”

I was stunned for a long time before I said, "Chi Qian came to change his choice today?"

"You don't know?" Li Fenghua was also taken aback: "He also said that you asked him to change it. It's not good to get past the parents. Then take the volunteer letter back and you can discuss it. Anyway, the dean of education It has not been stamped and sent up."

I lowered my head and shook my head slowly: "No need, since this is what he meant, I won't interfere."

"Oh, Teacher Chen, that's not what you said..."

"After all, it's the child's own future. It's good if he grows up and can go a little further." I turned my head and looked out the window, "How can a child stay with his parents all the time? It's human nature for him to want to leave ..."

For a long time, I have been willful to leave whenever I want, and come back whenever I want, but he will always stand there and wait for me.

Then he wants to go, why not?

The author has something to say: I'm sorry for keeping everyone waiting_(:3∠)_