reborn stepfather

On the day when the acceptance letter came, the rose that was moved from my parents’ yard bloomed for the first time. The flower shape was plump like a girl with a round face, and it was blown by the wind. See the difference between roses and roses.

It is said that roses tend to bloom in the morning and fade in the evening, and have a short lifespan. The rose can bloom for up to ten days.

Live longer, I stretched out my hand to touch the crimson petals, it is the only vivid color in the dull and stalemate dilemma between the two.

The person who delivered the notice was the uncle of the post office. He pedaled a broken [-]th car that rang without ringing the bell. He had a beard on his chin, and he cocked it up when talking and laughing.The admission notice needs to be signed by the person with his ID card, and he is afraid that it will be taken by someone with malicious intentions.When he delivered it to our house, Chi Qian was at home alone, and I went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables.Carrying a pork rib, a piece of winter melon, and two pieces of tofu, I walked to the entrance of the corridor, just in time to see the postman coming downstairs.

He smiled as soon as he saw me: "Mr. Chen, good news, good news."

Usually he is also in charge of the newspapers in this area, and he can see him every day, say hello, and chat a few words, and now he is an old acquaintance.

I also laughed: "What good thing? Has ** been caught?"

"Hey, that's the troubles of the American boys. It has nothing to do with us." He smiled and stretched out his hand to pat me on the shoulder, "Isn't it a good thing that your son has been admitted to Shanghai No. [-] Middle School? I just sent the admission letter to him. .”

The smile on the corner of my mouth froze before I could take it back: "Really..."

"Of course, it's still fake. If you don't believe me, go up and read it." He smiled happier than anyone else, and his wrinkles were piled up together. "Your child is really up to date, he can study like that, unlike my grandson, that brat, I know how to fight and cause trouble all day long, and I don’t know how many girls I brought back without even growing my hair.”

I don't even know how to answer.

Fortunately, he still has work to do, so it was over after a few words. The postman stepped into the car and said in passing: "But your child has a lot of ambition, and he didn't look happy at such a good school. look."

I watched him go away in a daze, then turned and went upstairs with a hand of vegetables.

In the distance is the red glow of the sunset, and the iron railings are baked into a warm golden yellow by the summer dusk.

There was no light in the room, the light was a bit dim, and there was no one in the living room.I changed my shoes and went in. On the tea table lay a crumpled and smoothed admission letter.The blue Zhongding school badge of Yunshi No. [-] Middle School was printed on the beautiful stiff paper.

The door of Chi Qian's room was open, and when he took the vegetables to the refrigerator, he saw him standing on the balcony where he could see the sunset.

His back was facing me, with his elbows resting on the railing. He happened to be surrounded by the dusk, and the afterglow set off his straight-nosed side face particularly nicely.

But, for some reason, the solitary slanted shadow behind him made my heart ache.

I remembered reading him a bedtime story when I was a child, and after searching for a long time in front of the bookcase, I pulled out a copy of "The Little Prince" among various textbooks and obscure tomes.

I told him a passage every day, and one night I said that he was the only one on the planet of the little prince, and the planet was too small, so the setting sun was always so fleeting.

In one day, he watched the sunset 43 times.

The little prince said flatly: "You know, when people are very depressed, they always like sunsets."

The protagonist in the book asked him: "43 times a day, why are you so depressed?"

The little prince did not answer.

At that time Chi Qian was still a small and shy child, he lay in my arms and whispered, "Because parting is too painful."

I was taken aback by the words he said, something I hadn't expected to hear from a child.So much so that I still remember the expression on his eyes when he said this, which is exactly the same as Chi Qian standing there at the moment.

A certain part of my heart was touched, and I thought, maybe sometime I should apologize to him for regretting that sentence.

That sentence not only denied him, but also denied myself.

It was hot, and the door was open when we ate at night. The sky was wiped clean by the wind, showing a little indigo light, and a few thin silver stars were nailed to the sky. In summer, the days are long and the sky is not yet dark. The moon at that time was like a piece of crisp and thin ice, hanging obliquely on the willow branches.

Chi Qian and I are like this silent night, only the sound of bowls and chopsticks clashing.

I sincerely want to talk to him, after all, after all, he's going to be gone soon.Yunshi said whether it was far or not, and it would take an hour to get on the expressway.If he doesn't bother, maybe he will come back on the weekend, if the class is tight, maybe he won't come back until a long vacation.

So I coughed, and Chi Qian stopped his chopsticks to look at me.

"I saw the admission letter." I pretended to smile easily, "It's pretty good."

"Do you want me to go?" he asked me.

Although I was very reluctant, I didn't want him to think that I deliberately prevented him from studying outside because it was related to his future, so I quickly waved my hands: "No, it's great to be able to study in Yunshi, and not many people in Nanchuan can do that." It’s a bit far away for the entrance examination, but it doesn’t matter if the traffic is so convenient now, you may not get used to the accommodation at first, but…”

My voice weakened in his indifferent expression bit by bit, and I realized belatedly that maybe I... said the wrong thing again...

"Are...are you unhappy?" I asked cautiously.Wasn't it his own wish? I thought, I thought it was his wish. The wish has been fulfilled. Why is he not happy at all?

Chi Qian just smiled faintly and didn't answer me.

He opened the stool and stood up, ready to put his bowls and chopsticks into the sink. I took the opportunity to reach out and grab him, and mustered up the most courage to ask him: "Don't you...don't you want to go?"

"No, I'm just tired." He whispered, "I just suddenly felt that this kind of endless and unresponsive pursuit is too tiring."

I was stunned, and slowly let go of my hand.

My heart doesn't know why, it hurts as if a piece has been forcibly dug out.

I don't know why the later days passed so quickly, and they disappeared in a blink of an eye. In the words of the second brother: "Damn, I only masturbated twice, and then I ejaculated."

The ticket was booked early in the morning, and there was no one in the bus station.

I was nagging all the way to the station.

"Be careful with your wallet when riding in the car. When studying outside by yourself, you should pay more attention to your body. Your body is the most important thing. You don't have to work so hard to study. It's hard work to be No. 1 all the time. We don't have to work so hard; You don’t need to save money, just call back when you have no money, and I’ll send you a remittance; remember to eat some green vegetables for every meal, because if you don’t eat green vegetables, you’ll get barbs on your hands and easy mouth ulcers; if a stranger looks for you on the road You don’t want to talk to him, and if you see someone stealing and robbing, don’t rush to help, we’ll just call the police, you know, you’re still a student, it’s too dangerous to act bravely..."

Upside down, long-winded, all trivial things, obviously there are still many things I want to tell him, obviously there are still many things to say, but I don’t know why, what I say are all unimportant things...

I always wanted to apologize to him, but every time I stuck in my throat and swallowed it again.

Just arrived at the station.

It was early, and the air was even a little cold. Chi Qian put his luggage away, but there were no people in the car, so the driver said, "Go up and sit down first."

He was sitting by the window, and I was watching him from the side of the car.

He pushed open the car window and called softly, "Dad."

I leaned over, and he suddenly leaned out and hugged me: "I don't know what to do, Dad."

His voice was more vulnerable than ever.

I wanted to reach up and touch his face.

"Don't move, I'll give you one last hug."

I was stunned there.

"I will never force you again, Dad, I will not force you anymore. You can do whatever you want and be with whomever you want. I will not interfere. You can marry a woman. I will never do those things again." Will do to you, I know, you may never love me as a man." He let me go slowly, "I let go, Dad, I let go."

"Dad, do you think it's funny?" His voice was still soft and weak, but the corners of his eyes were reddened, "I once had a very ridiculous dream, in which you smiled and said you would love me, As much as I love you."

When the car was about to start, he put his hand on my left chest and called my name for the first time.

"Chen Yan, is your heart made of iron and stone?"

The car drove away.

I was still standing there, feeling as if my heart was about to shatter as the car drove away.

I can't remember how long I stood there blankly, how I got home, and the moment I opened the door with the key, why I suddenly felt so sad when I saw the deserted house.

He quickly raised his arm and wiped his eyes vigorously. It's not like Chi Qian won't come back, the expression on the verge of crying is too exaggerated.

As soon as he comes back, I will apologize to him.I clenched my fists and secretly made up my mind to myself.

Continue to live step by step, but start looking forward to it every weekend.

Before Chi Qian got on the bus, I kept stuffing money in his pocket. There were four weeks in a month. Even if I came back every week, the round-trip ticket would be enough... But my expectations were repeatedly frustrated. Well, Chi Qian didn't come back, even during the National Day holiday, he didn't come back for seven days.

My mood became more and more depressed, as if I carried a low air pressure with me, not to mention my colleagues, even the students who had always looked down on me didn't dare to mess around in front of me.Once there was a lot of noise in the class, and Chi Qian hadn't called back for a long time. I got a headache from the noise, so I picked up the triangle board and slapped it hard on the podium: "If you don't want to read, get out of here!"

The broken half of the triangular board flew out with a "swoosh", and the students were stunned by me, with their tails between their legs for many days.

I think maybe the reason I'm so annoying is because of insomnia.

Recently, the symptoms of insomnia have become more serious. I couldn’t fall asleep in my own bed at all. I got up in the middle of the night and went to Chiqian’s room to sit there all night. Later, when it was almost dawn, I fell asleep hugging his pillow.

Chi Qian had only left for more than a month, and I was so annoyed that I didn't even want to go to work, so I simply took a week of sick leave.

Shrunk inside like a shell, not wanting to communicate with anyone.

Mom didn't know where she heard that when I asked for leave, she came to visit me specially.

At that time, I had been eating instant noodles for more than half a month. I got angry, my gums were swollen, and I couldn't eat anything. I didn't have to go to work and hid in Chiqian's room to sleep all day long. I covered him with his quilt and hugged him. As I lay on his pillow, my breath is full of his smell, and my restless heart seems to be calmed down by it.

But after a long time, the smell disappeared little by little.

I was like this when my mother came.

My dejected appearance made the old man so angry that he jumped out of his body and ascended to heaven, and he lifted me out of the bedroom by pulling my ears.

I was so hungry that I had no energy in my body, and I had two huge dark circles under my eyes, and I was beaten and scolded.

My mother cursed and felt sad: "Why did you make yourself like this? You won't be dumped, right? If you want to be dumped, you have to have a partner first. You, a cook who can cook, can I am so hungry that I am pale and emaciated, which is also a kind of talent."

My mouth hurts badly, and I'm buzzing when I speak: "I hate eating alone."

My mother rolled my eyes at me, and poked my finger at the dark circles under my eyes caused by lack of sleep: "What about this? What's going on with this?"

I continued humming, "I hate sleeping alone."

"Didn't you sleep alone for so many years?" My mother was so angry that she took off her shoes and patted me.

I lowered my head and muttered, "I hate living alone."

My mother understood now, and sat beside me: "Miss your son?"

"Hmm." I bowed my head in grievance and muttered, "He doesn't even come back to see me."

"Tsk tsk tsk, you are such an adult. I have never seen you as a father. Who is the child? I think Chi Qian is much more sensible than you." My mother poked my forehead, "You are really good. No one will accompany you if your son is not around." I can make myself look like a ghost, I told you to have a good blind date and you refused, now you have suffered the bitter fruit?"

"That's not the same thing at all!"

"Your son hasn't come back, you can go to see him, is your brain squeezed by the door, you don't know how to change it? The cattle in the farmland in our hometown are smarter than you, and they know how to turn corners, tsk tsk tsk, you are really my own." Is it yours?" My mother likes to sneer at me the most.

Of course I know that I can go to him, but I have no excuse for rushing here.

"But I'm fine, Mom." I scratched my head, "If he asks me why I'm here, how should I answer?"

"I miss you."

"How can this work!" I hurriedly waved my hands.

"I don't need any reason to see my son. I want to see if my son is doing well, whether he is used to life, whether he can keep up with his studies, and give him some food and clothing. Is there any reason for this?" My mother scoffed at my IQ.

Yes, I am his father, I don't need a reason to visit him.

I laughed out loud.

I've been eating too much instant noodles recently, making people stupid.

My mother didn't want to talk to me anymore, she helped me tidy up the room, cooked a meal and then left, leaving me alone at home giggling.

Just before leaving, she asked me again very seriously: "Are you really broken in love?"

I froze for a moment, and she said again: "I thought you fell in love with someone."

So that night, I thought about these two words of my mother, and I thought about them all night, but I didn't fall asleep again.

Am I in love with... Chiqian?

The next day was the weekend, I thought Chi Qian didn’t have class right now, so it was just right to go to him, got up early in the morning, bought two big bags of things, and went to the supermarket to find a three-layer insulated box, which cost me It's 300 yuan less.

I made him three favorite dishes and a pot of soup, and I got on the bus bound for South Bus Station with excitement.

On the way, I sent a text message to ask Wei Heng, I seem to like someone I shouldn't like, what should I do.

He said, if you are a married woman, don't even think about it, just break it up.

"No," I said, "you might laugh at me if you say it, it's a man."

The phone quickly beeped: "What am I supposed to do? This is nothing. I just want to remind you. Don't provoke me. The lesson from the past is here. You know how bad the fall was."

"It's not straight." I shook my hand and sent it.

"Then what are you waiting for?"

I asked him, "But I'm worried that this road is too difficult, and maybe there will be no results."

"Don't be afraid, the road of life is not long. It's just a few decades, and it will be over soon." He said, "Maybe when you look back when you are old, you will be surprised that you still have someone in your life. When you try your best, even if the two of you fail, it's fine."

The artist speaks like a god anyway.

I just arrived in line, so I put my phone in my bag and shouted to the window: "Tickets to Yunshi."

It was such an unfortunate coincidence that there was no direct train to Yunshi, and there was only a detour from Yokozaki, which took more than three hours. I gritted my teeth and bought it.

Sitting made my butt hurt, and I walked out of the mountain and went in and out again. I hugged the insulation box in my arms tightly, kept a straight sitting posture, and my heartbeat never dropped.

I called Chi Qian on the way. It was the first time I dialed his number. His voice was trembling when he spoke, and I couldn't hear what he said clearly, whether he would come to pick it up, so I hung up in a panic.

I just feel stupid now, he doesn't come to see me, he doesn't call me, I can go to see him, I can call him.Anyway, the ticket is not very expensive, and the phone bill is not considered long-distance.

After bumping for a long time, it finally arrived.

As soon as he got out of the car, Chi Qian was seen running towards him with a smile. He had grown taller and his hair was cut short, revealing a beautiful forehead.

He flew over and hugged me, I touched his prickly hair with a little blush, and suddenly felt that it was worth it to go all out to like someone.

"Father" Chi Qian kissed my face, "I've been waiting for you for a long time."

The author has something to say: reconcile, let me be kind.

p: Choose one between sweet and greasy meat and sweet and greasy meat after a little trouble.