reborn stepfather

The night was already very deep, the sky was as dark as iron, without a trace of starlight.

Only the silent and dim street lights were on between me and Chi Qian.

The air seems to be condensed, turning into pressure and falling heavily on people's hearts, making people feel at a loss.

I don't know how long it took before I heard Chi Qian's voice as if nothing had happened: "Dad, it's so late, why are you standing here?"

That "Dad" made me feel irony that I had never felt before.

"Why, is it strange why I'm standing here?" I glanced mockingly at the stairwell, Lin Ziliang was still standing in the stairwell, the light was too dim, I couldn't see his expression clearly.

He turned his head and didn't look at anyone, just quietly watching the streets where vehicles occasionally passed by.

I withdrew my gaze, put my clenched fist in my pocket, and tried my best to maintain a decent smile: "Isn't this play specially directed for me? Someone asked me to come out to watch the show, so of course I ran out to join in." Let's have fun."

As expected of Chi Qian, but for a moment, he seemed to understand something, and turned his head to look at Lin Ziliang in disbelief.

At this time, a car happened to pass by, and its headlights on high beams illuminated the entire building. I saw Lin Ziliang's lips tightly pursed.

Do you think that my soft persimmon really won't fight back?

Don't bully the soft persimmon all the time, even if it is a soft persimmon, if you eat it too quickly, you can choke people to death.

I was copying my pockets, leaning leisurely against the railing, my smile unchanged: "Hey, son, how does it feel to be tricked?"

Chi Qian looked at me without saying a word, but tightened his lowered hands into fists little by little.

"The feeling of being deceived by someone who has always trusted and never defended, okay?" I walked over, raised my hand and lightly flicked the dust on his shoulders, and smiled, "Now, you can feel a little bit, my mood at the moment Yet?"

He still doesn't speak.

Forget it, the account with Chi Qian will be settled later.

I stared at Lin Ziliang coldly, and my smile faded little by little: "Have you watched enough of this scene? If you've seen enough, get out."

He raised his head slowly, his expression unexpectedly calm: "Teacher, why are you so angry, no matter what, you have won."

At this moment, he is like the young man standing on the stage in his previous life, his eyes are full of determination and recklessness.

"I, since today, have been struck out. Oh no, since Chi Qian said that he likes you that day, I know that I have no chance." He smiled lightly, "Just treat me as desperate The trapped beast, before dying, still wants to bite and struggle."

After speaking, he lowered his head and left.

I pursed my lips, watching his thin figure swaying out of the corridor entrance little by little, and then disappearing from my sight little by little.

Well, the insignificant outsiders are gone, and it's time to settle accounts.

I glanced at him, turned around and took two steps: "Come in."

Chi Qian followed in silently.

At the moment, he's quite obedient.

I let him stand in the living room, went to the bottom of the laundry sink and pulled out a washboard, and I walked out and handed it to him: "Kneel down."

Chi Qian held a washboard and looked at me in horror.

"What are you looking at, are you not satisfied? Oh, do you want me to buy you a durian from outside as a change? Or do you prefer pineapples?"

After hesitating for a while, he silently put the washboard on the ground, bent his legs, and knelt on it.

I felt less angry, but seeing him kneeling there with his head down and shoulders shrunk, another wave of anger rose again in my heart.I looked behind him for a long time, raised and lowered my hand, and after repeating it several times, I finally couldn't help but took a cushion from the sofa and threw it in front of him: "Get up, cushion yourself."

He didn't reach for it, but whispered, "Dad, I'm sorry."

When there is a flood, you think about repairing dams, when there is a fire, you think about storing water, and now you know that you are sorry after hurting people?

Really sincere.

I turned around and went back to the room, picked out a few sets of clothes from the closet, packed them in a small luggage bag, and took paper and pen from the desk.I walked out with my luggage bag, threw the paper and pen on the coffee table in front of him, and said, "Let's write a self-criticism, and get up when I reach [-] words."

He reached out to take it, but the moment he lowered his head, he saw the bag in my hand. He suddenly raised his head, and stared at me surprisingly fiercely: "Where are you going?"

"Don't worry about adults' affairs and children." I walked out with my things on my own.

Living under the same roof with him at this time, maybe I would wake up in the middle of the night with fear.

Suddenly a force dragged me back, the duffel bag was pulled over, the straps were all broken, and the suits of clothes were scattered on the ground in a mess.

"Child? Do you still see me as a child?" His eyes were full of anger, "Every time you encounter trouble, you just run away. Every time you do this, you can't be with me well. Let's talk, understand my inner thoughts, and solve the matter?"

It's really rare that at this time I can still look at him calmly: "What's in your heart? What's your idea? How do you fuck me?"

Sometimes self-deprecation is really a good way, no matter how embarrassing you don't want to face, you can say it in a relaxed tone.

At least in this way, others will not know what kind of stabbing you have in your heart.

One of the two fluorescent lamps in the living room burned out, and the uneven light hit Chi Qian's face, making his expression look a bit obscure.

"Is that how you see me?" His voice softened, "Is this how I look in your eyes?"

He stared at me intently, as if something had disappeared from his eyes.

I've never seen him like this, not even in my previous life, never.At this time, his eyes are like knives, straight and straight, as if he wants to poke directly into your heart from the bottom of your eyes.The fists I kept in my pockets trembled again, as if the hard and indifferent arms I had finally armed were about to be pierced.

At this time, it is confrontation, questioning, and mutual game. I can't show weakness, let alone let him see my sadness.

I'm sad that he had such a big influence on me.

But he treated me like a plaything, playing with me wantonly between applause.

I look away a little stiffly.

"Do you know how scared I am?"

He came over and straightened my face, forcing me to look at him closely.

"You are so much older than me, do you know how much I want to grow up, how much I want you to see me as a man?" Chi Qian slowly pressed his forehead, "Just once , Dad, I'm really scared."

"I'm afraid that before I grow up, you will be snatched away by someone who appears out of nowhere." His voice was bitter like a sigh, "I live in such fear every day. If you are a little more enthusiastic, you can’t wait to drive them all away. Even if I live together every day, I still feel dissatisfied. In those days, I always wondered, if I can occupy you earlier, no one can take you away ?”

I kept silent, and my heart became even more twisted.

This is no reason, I said to myself, this is no reason to cheat.

It took me a while to figure out how to reply.

"I'm your dad and it's not normal for you to treat me like this," I repeated dryly. "It's not normal...not normal..."

"What's abnormal?" He asked me back, "We are not related by blood. Well, you can treat us as strangers. I am just your student and you are my teacher. Can't I like you?"

"Do you think that's normal?" I shook him off, "It's okay if I'm a female teacher, but I'm a man!"

"So what?" He raised his eyebrows, "Dad's body was obviously very active that day, why are you unwilling to face your heart?"

"Nonsense!" I blushed with anger, "Get out of the way, I want to get out!"

Chi Qian's face darkened again: "Father, I won't let you go."

I glared at him murderously.

"Don't try to get rid of me, I will hold you tightly and never let go." His words were like a boulder falling from the sky, "Dad, although I'm sorry for you, I don't regret what happened that day at all. "

He suddenly smiled: "Father, you are mine, and only mine."

I knelt down and stuffed the clothes back into the duffel bag one by one, and tied the broken straps with a knot.

After patting my clothes, I stood up: "Get out of the way."

Instead he took a step forward.

"Dad, don't leave me anymore, okay?" He lowered his eyes, "Didn't you promise me when you were a child that you would be with me forever? Didn't you promise me that no matter what I did, you would forgive me?" ? Why do you always leave me behind?"

I don't want to get entangled anymore, I just want to find a quiet place to hide.

After so long, I also started to doubt myself.

Am I really normal?

Am I really... different from everyone?

I am terrified of such things.

This reminds me of my childhood, when people wearing glasses were as rare as pandas, but I was short-sighted very early.

Every time the school organizes a physical examination to check eyesight, it is the moment I am most afraid of.

God knows how I did it, it took me a month to memorize the eye chart perfectly.The teacher pointed up and down with a small stick, and I waved my hands very calmly, up and down, left and right, one is not bad, the other is good.

The teacher nodded and said, "Very good, 1.5, next."

I turned my head and sat back in my seat calmly, fine, now I'm like everyone else again.

No one knew that I was short-sighted for so long in elementary school. In fact, I couldn't read the chalk on the blackboard at all.

Eyesight test, that is the scene I am still afraid of in my dreams.Now my worst nightmare is estimated to be Chi Qian telling me aggressively: "Your body is very willing to accept men, why won't you face your own heart?"

I walked around him and he immediately reached out and grabbed my arm.

"Dad, don't go, please."

I endured it silently, and shook off his hand fiercely.

"Dad, do you hate me?"

My heart trembled when I heard his words, I resisted the urge to turn back, and walked out.

Before he could take a step, he was pulled back violently by a force, and he fell heavily on the sofa.

Before I recovered, Chi Qian was already on top of me.

I can't remember what happened next. My eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of white mist. I seemed to be in an endless fog and couldn't find a way out.

The pain of j□j being stretched apart, the rough kiss, all these remind me of what happened.

"Dad, do you know? Do you know how I've survived alone in the dark since you died?" It was a dream that was too long, but no matter how much I deceived myself, I knew that the dream would not be so real, and I would not even predict the questions of my high school entrance examination clearly. I finally understood that it was not a dream, that It's another world, another self..."

I was already in a daze, he clearly spoke so clearly in my ear, but I couldn't understand a single word.

"Dad, you always say I'm a child, but I can see how hot and cold this world is, and I can see it more clearly than you." He said while biting my collarbone, "You want to know that in that world, you die? What happened after that? Do you know that I almost killed the driver who hit you? Everyone advised me to give up and told me not to appeal anymore. The person who hit you lost money and knelt down and was still in jail Eight months, even your family members have decided to end it, but I refuse, even if the court doesn't intend to listen to my appeal at all, I will not stop."

"I'm not reconciled. The bastard who took you away from me was obviously lowering his head and snickering when he knelt down. After he was released from prison, he was still bragging about how cool it was to hit someone to death with a car. That scumbag has no regrets at all." Heart...how can I let go of such a person!"

"I worked hard, and all the money I earned was spent on lawsuits. I ran outside every day, looking for lawyers, and looking for people to clear up the relationship. It's still nothing until the stomach bleeds and faints..."

He straightened up hard, and I trembled all over.

"Dad, the moment I lost consciousness due to stomach bleeding, I was still thinking, it's good to die like this, so that I can come to accompany you, and you won't be lonely down there."

What the hell is he talking about and why I can't seem to understand anything.

"Dad, do you understand? I will absolutely, absolutely never let you go again."

For the last time, Chi Qian leaned on my back and gasped slightly. I opened my eyes in a daze, and there was no strength in my whole body.

He hugged me: "Dad, don't leave me again."

After a long time, I was able to have the strength to speak, and my voice was so hoarse that it didn't sound like a human voice: "Chi Qian."

"Ok?"

"I'm terribly sorry."

The viscous liquid flowed down the base of my thighs, and the back hurt as if someone had cut it open with scissors.

I tried my best to bite my lip and hold back the tears.

"Bringing you back and being with you, I regret it to death."

The author has something to say: Sorry for being late again_(:3∠)_

There have been a lot of gatherings and weddings recently, and I can’t write during the day, I can only write at night, and the stupid author is a scumbag _(:3∠)_

p: Thank you Wei Xing for mine o(≧v≦)o~~

再pp:这几天就让我们把更新时间改成晚上“9:00——10:00”吧_(:3∠)_