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It was destined that the Mo family would not be able to sleep that night.Mo Liangyu and his wife lay in the bedroom for a long time, leaning against the head of the bed and sighing.

"Why are children so dark-hearted nowadays, aren't they afraid of being struck by lightning if they spread such rumors?" Zhang Xueying's voice was a little choked.

Mo Liangyu patted her on the shoulder.He had already recovered from the anger he had just heard. Although he was very reluctant, he still asked hesitantly, "Tell me, did Tongtong really do something wrong?"

"How is it possible!" Zhang Xueying sat up with her eyes wide open, trying to refute, but her words stuttered: "Tongtong...Tongtong..."

"Students today are not as innocent as we were then. They only know how to work and study, and want to benefit the society. But they are not like before, and they are not too bad. We should talk to Tongtong. If there is something wrong, just change it. Of course, as for the students who spread rumors in the school, we must also pursue them. If the rumors are spread, it will affect Tongtong's life."

Zhang Xueying was a little angry, distanced herself from Mo Liangyu, and looked at him with a frown, "I know my son, he can't do that kind of thing."

Mo Tong didn't sleep, he sat on the chair by the window with his knees hugged.In fact, because of the street lights, we couldn't see anything in the night sky outside. It was already dark and there were no pedestrians downstairs.After a long time, Mo Tong stood up and opened the door to go out. He stood at the door of the master bedroom for a long time, raised his hand to knock on the door, but finally retracted it, took a deep breath and went back to his room.

At breakfast the next day, Mo Tong still got up early to go to the cram school, as if nothing had happened.During the meal, when Mo Liangyu said to go to school together after class, Mo Tong put down his rice bowl and lowered his eyes and said, "Dad, I won't be able to go for a few days anyway, forget it."

"How can this be forgotten? Even if you don't go to study there, won't you go home in the future? Of course, such things that damage your reputation must be investigated." Zhang Xueying was angrily, "To live is to live under the tongues of others. Such rumors If it gets out, how will your father meet people at work?"

Mo Liangyu agreed, "Will rumors disappear if you don't care about them? When it's time to ask for your reputation to be restored and the facts clarified, you have to persist."

Mo Tong lowered his head and muttered, "You also said it was a rumor, of course you can't find anything, but going to school will make it known to everyone."

Mo Liangyu put down his chopsticks, stared at Mo Tong who kept his head down, and asked in a deep voice for a long time, "Tell me the truth, is there something you are hiding from me and your mother?"

The scene of being kissed under the streetlight suddenly appeared in Mo Tong's mind.Mo Liangyu slammed the table down, making Mo Tong tremble on the stool in fright.

"to be frank!"

Zhang Xueying pushed her husband and blamed: "What are you doing!"

When she turned to Mo Tong to say something, Mo Tong suddenly said: "Dad, Mom, I really like men, but I..."

The unfinished words were interrupted by a slap.Mo Liangyu slapped so hard that Mo Tong, who was defenseless, fell to the ground in an instant, staring at him with wide eyes, and stood there for a while.

"What did you just say? Have the guts to say it again!" Mo Liangyu roared angrily.

Zhang Xueying had never seen her husband, who had always been gentle, lose such a temper. She wanted to persuade her. She looked at the people on the ground and her husband whose fists were shaking, but finally sat back on the stool and began to cry.

Mo Tong recovered from Zhang Xueying's choking, lowered his head and said with some compromise: "I didn't do anything. Dad, don't go to school, I won't go either."

Mo Tong stood up in the silence of the room, and the feeling of dizziness slowly disappeared after a while.He lowered his head and went back to the room to get the drawing board, then closed the door quietly.While the door was closing, he heard a loud noise in the room and Zhang Xueying's exclamation.

A table of breakfast dishes shattered to pieces in the blink of an eye.

Mo Tong was absent-minded in class in the morning. The instructor saw that one of his cheeks was swollen and four finger prints were clearly visible, so he thoughtfully didn't ask any more questions. He only gave instructions on the homework last time and left him in a daze.It was already 10:30 in the morning when he walked out of the training class. If possible, Mo Tong would like to stay quietly in that room.

The sun was a bit poisonous, Mo Tong sat on the edge of the flower bed at the door for a long time, until a man with a cello on his back stopped in front of him.The man knelt down and asked him, "Unhappy?"

Mo Tong looked up at him, didn't recognize him, lowered his head again, didn't see the man leave for a long time, thought for a while and shook his head.

He thought the man would go, but he didn't expect the man to put the cello aside and sit beside him.Mo Tong looked at the dirty flower bed, and admired such a clean person willing to sit down even when he was in a normal state.

"If you are not happy, think more about happy things. If you don't understand, just put it aside and don't think about it. Maybe at some point, those who are unhappy and not smooth will suddenly become indifferent."

Mo Tong nodded, turned his head and looked at him again, feeling familiar, "Are you the teacher here?"

"Well, I often see you come to class during this period." Seeing that he was still depressed, Zhang Qile thought for a while and said, "Let me play a piece for you."

Mo Tong glanced at his cello and said with a smile, "Music lady."

"Yes, lady of music." Zhang Qile took out the cello, stood in front of him, smiled gently and started a diversionary song.

People from the cram school kept coming out, and passers-by kept passing by.Halfway through the performance, a sister who was learning the violin came out and was stunned for a moment and took her own violin to join in the performance.Citizens thought that this organization was doing some kind of propaganda, and those who had time stood by and watched, while those who had no time still hurried on their way.

When the Divertimento was over, the older sister shrugged her shoulders and smiled at Mo Tong, installed the instrument and continued on her way.Zhang Qile waited for the others to leave before asking with a smile, "How do you feel now?"

"Want to dance."

Zhang Qile chuckled, "That's right, just dance if you want. You are young, don't make yourself too sad. You have to believe that there are many beautiful things waiting for you."

Mo Tong nodded, "Thank you."

Mo Tong picked up his drawing board and continued walking.Looking at his back, Zhang Qile thought, no wonder He Dong likes him, such a smart and handsome boy.

Perhaps the shock of Mo Tong's admission that he likes boys was too great for Mo Liangyu and his wife. The two of them tacitly didn't bring up this matter again, and they didn't go to school to pursue it.But Mo Liangyu was holding back his energy. If he hadn't suppressed it, it would be very difficult for him to guarantee that he would not beat his precious son into a cripple.Even seeing him now, he feels that his brain is congested, and there is always a feeling of wanting to rush up and ask him what shameful things he has done, and then vent all his anger and disappointment

Mo Tong could feel the low air pressure from the silent dining table, every time he finished his meal obediently and quickly, and then went back to his room to study without restraint.He has to pass the exam successfully.Mo Liangyu applied for him the qualification to study abroad at public expense, and the review was very strict.Of course, Mo Liangyu and his wife did not put all their hopes on going abroad at public expense before. After all, the qualification review for studying abroad at their own expense was abolished in [-], and the procedures for self-financed study abroad were easier. However, if they could apply for public expense, they could save a fortune for their son. money.

But now it's different, Mo Tong knows that he must succeed, he has to leave, and it's time to leave.He really didn't know how to face it in the future, so he could only escape.

In [-] and [-], many great events and many small events happened.The Mo family's war failed in Mo Tong's public trial, and Mo Liangyu heard a colleague's comment that "I heard that Mo Tong is gay, and now they are all dropped out of school and locked up at home".That night was actually a normal dinner for a family of three, and Mo Tong kept his head down and ate quickly in silence.The heavy burden made him lose a lot of weight, and the hair curtains covered him, and the impact under the eyes was heavy, making him look very haggard.

Mo Tong felt that today's Mo Liangyu was unusually irritable. After eating half of the meal, he had to eat his rice bowl several times, so he shrank his body even more to reduce his sense of presence.When Mo Liangyu saw Mo Tong brushing his long hair with his index finger again, he finally put down his job again, and scolded: "Why don't you cut your hair when it grows? What else do you want to dress up like!"

Mo Tong stopped chewing without raising his eyes, and quickly continued to eat the porridge in his mouth.He knew that Mo Liangyu was throwing evil fire, if it was before, he would have jumped up and confronted him long ago.But it's different now, the atmosphere made Mo Tong feel that he really did something outrageous.

Under Mo Tong's silence, Mo Liangyu couldn't suppress the anger in his heart, and said angrily, "You still want to go abroad? The people doing the audit are not blind. How can you allow someone like you to go abroad?"

With a sore nose, Mo Tong put down his job and said, "Who is a person like me? Dad, what do you want to say?"

"What do you want to say? How dare you ask me that!" Mo Liangyu didn't know what she wanted to say, but she felt that her face was still hot.Before, it was others who flattered and said that the son of the director's family is just hardworking, good at studying and sensible.It's not like the one in our house, why is it not good.It's all right now, Director Mo's son likes men, that's a dirty problem, it's enough for everyone to see him as if they saw the source of infection.

Mo Liangyu only felt angina in his chest, and he held his chest and gasped, "You didn't pass the inspection, so you went abroad? What country! If you didn't engage in these messy things, you wouldn't even be able to study like you are now. That's a hooligan Do you know! Hooligan! Tell me, if you don’t get into a key high school, you have to go abroad. I said why you went abroad, so it turned out that these bad things happened.”

Mo Tong twitched the corner of his mouth, "I just like men, and I didn't do anything else they said except this. I don't have AIDS. Dad, I..."

"Don't call me dad." Tears welled up in Mo Liangyu's eyes suddenly, he raised his hand to cover his eyes to cover the moisture, and said harshly: "If you don't change your problem, don't call me dad."

Mo Tong slowly arched his back, covered his face and shook his head.Zhang Xueying cried and pushed him aside, "Hurry up and promise your father, look how angry your father is."

Mo Tong shook his head.Zhang Xueying couldn't help crying any longer, she thumped his back and said, "Tongtong, is there something wrong with mom that makes you feel disgusted by women? Ah? You are trying to piss off your father. Don't you I know how many people are waiting to see our jokes. When your dad and I went out, our spines were bent. Tongtong, we don't want to hear or not, your dad and I have to live."

Mo Tong's body became more and more bent, but he kept shaking his head.

Zhang Xueying wiped away her tears, pulled him up and pointed at Mo Liangyu, saying, "Apologize to Dad quickly, and say that we will change it in the future, so we won't be afraid of others saying it, and it's still the same as before, okay? Tongtong is the most obedient."

"Mom." Mo Tong shook his head, "I can't change it. But I'm not dirty, I didn't do anything, I just keep it in my heart, isn't that okay?"

"Do you still know what shame is? Dogs ate everything we taught you since childhood!?" Mo Liangyu grabbed his job bowl and threw it at Mo Tong, who raised his head to pray.The blood flowed down quickly, Zhang Xueying screamed, and hurriedly covered his forehead, Mo Tong cried and pushed away: "I didn't do anything, I just kept it in my heart, you, what are they doing? I'm going to die of pain, Don't push me, I'm going to die. I can't hold on to Dad, I don't want anyone to know, I don't want to make you feel bad. I'm going to die!"

Zhang Xueying grabbed Mo Tong who was screaming, and cried and persuaded repeatedly: "Tongtong, apologize to Dad quickly, say that it has been changed, let's change it, everything will be fine in the future."

"I'm right, let me go abroad, and I will never appear in front of you again to embarrass you."

Mo Liangyu was trembling all over, pointing at him for a while before saying: "You made up your mind? Your mother and I have raised you for more than ten years, and it was all for nothing?"

Mo Tong shook his head, "Let me go abroad."

The landline at home rang untimely, and the sharp ringing shocked several people.Mo Liangyu pointed to the door of the side sleeper after the phone insisted on ringing and stopping three times, "Get in. Don't think about going abroad, think about where to repeat your studies."

Zhang Xueying held Mo Tong to bandage him, but Mo Tong pushed him away several times.After Mo Tong entered the room, Mo Liangyu wiped his face and answered the phone that was still ringing.

The other end of the phone said, "Liangyu, the flood situation is a bit serious. Pingxiang called and said they wanted to flood a few villages to relieve the pressure on the river embankment. The staff there seemed to have conflicts with the villagers and it was very violent. The city I need to send a few people over to take a look, and you and Director Liu will rush over there today."

Mo Liangyu nodded, "Okay."

Zhang Xueying called: "Where are you going!"

Mo Tong had already arrived at the door with his backpack on his back, and Mo Liangyu scolded him before hanging up the phone: "You let him go!"

"Liangyu?" The person on the phone was puzzled.

"Tongtong!" Zhang Xueying was anxious.

Mo Liangyu dropped the phone and yelled, "Don't pull him, let him go!"

The moment Mo Tong opened the door, Mo Liangyu shouted: "If you step out of this door, don't come back."

Mo Tong froze there, choked for a long time before opening his mouth, "I just like someone, and I didn't do anything. You guys think I'm dirty too?"

"Shameless!" Mo Liangyu scolded.

Mo Tong resolutely stepped out of the door and rushed downstairs before the tears fell.

The author has something to say: 47 abuses one more chapter, and it's over.No matter how cruel and chopping hands are, there is nothing!