dangerous road

01.

When Shen Huan was very old, he used to move a chair and sit in the shade of a quiet tree somewhere in the nursing home to read newspapers.She wore reading glasses, squinted her eyes, and looked serious and solemn, as if she was completing a holy ceremony.Shen Huan read the newspaper very carefully, even the pieces of tofu in the middle of the seam didn't fall off, but after reading it, he couldn't recall anything, his mind seemed to be clogged with a lot of damp old cotton wool.She had to think slowly to pick out the ones she was interested in from a pile of messy content.For example, the climate has become abnormal again. In summer, it is as hot as a steamer, making people feel flustered;Another example is which country started to have conflicts with which country again, and there was a military exercise here and a protest statement on the other side.There is never a single day of peace in this world, she thought.She felt that she should do something, like those hale and hearty old men in the courtyard, who talked all day long and published the five thousand words of the great old man before he left the customs.But she felt that she was old and frail after all, and the time for doing something had long passed, so she really regretted it.In such complicated emotions, her eyelids gradually drooped.She fell asleep with her head tilted to one side, snoring just right.

Shen Huan dreamed of peacocks and himself as a child.She dreamed that she went to the zoo with Ye Suqiu that day, and was fascinated by this beautiful big bird.It has a crown of flowers on its head, bright blue feathers, and long green tail feathers, shining colorful lights under the sun.Ye Suqiu leaned down and told her that peacocks would open their tails when they met someone prettier than themselves.Then she held a colorful silk scarf and waved it towards the peacock, with an unprecedented peaceful and beautiful expression on her face.Shen Huan saw his young self tightly clutching her trousers, staring obsessively at the big birds strolling in the enclosure, they didn't even look at the silk scarves dancing vigorously here, they still walked and pecked in a graceful manner.In the end, for some reason, everything around him slowly faded away, and he and Ye Suqiu also disappeared, leaving only a male peacock standing quietly.After a while, it moved suddenly, the feathers all over its body trembled, and then there was a crash—without warning, it opened its tail.The hundreds of thousands of eyes on the tail feathers are shining blue light in the middle of the blurred background, which is dazzling.

When Shen Huan was a child, she wanted to witness the peacock's tail unfolding, but it finally came true in her dream after a long, long time.Even though she had actually seen it many times on TV, it was not as impressive as this time in the dream.

After that, she suddenly trembled, startled all over, and woke up suddenly.Everything around has not changed, and the sky in the small area separated by the wall is still blue.The newspaper slid down to his knees, and the sunlight pierced through the clouds and fell on it like a golden drizzle.Only then did Shen Huan belatedly realize that he had fallen asleep.

As people get older, they gradually lose control over their own bodies.This is the old foolishness in the mouths of those young people.Although I don't want to obey the old, I have to obey the old.Now Shen Huan's memory is getting worse and worse, and his spirit is getting worse and worse. Every day, he is in a drowsy state, and there are indeed many times when he fell asleep without knowing it like today.She knew it was wrong.She should cheer up and walk around, or sit around and gossip with other old women, instead of sitting in an armchair alone and dozing uncontrollably.

But she just doesn't want to move.

She felt that she was resisting something, she had to resist something, but she was a little exhausted.Her body was like a dry well that was about to dry up, and she stayed there day after day, year after year, until the surrounding air drained the last drop of water from the bottom of the well.She also wanted to make a little contribution to the world instead of sitting here wasting resources, but her physical condition ruthlessly tore up all her fantasies: You are old and can’t even walk, so be quiet wait to die.

She quietly waited for death, the festival that would eventually come.It will be her last holiday, so what should she wear?

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02.

Shen Huan was born in an ordinary family.Although ordinary, but also happy.Her parents are very loving, and they naturally take great care of her.Especially her father, Shen Jialiang, spoiled her endlessly.After Shen Huan became sensible, she complained to Shen Jialiang about her name more than once.She felt that her name was unusually popular and uneducated. The specific manifestation was that whenever Shen Jialiang called her nickname Huanhuan during a walk, Shen Huan would often turn around with the dogs in the yard.After this situation happened many times, Shen Huan became furious, and ordered Shen Jialiang not to call her by her nickname in front of outsiders from now on.Shen Jialiang rubbed her head helplessly, facing his little daughter's unreasonable request, he had no choice but to agree with a wry smile.

Shen Jialiang said, there is no way, I was so happy when your mother gave birth to you, I would only be silly if my mind went blank, so I named it this.This is a true portrayal of my father's heart.

Shen Huan raised her head, she has always been ruthless when it comes to beating her father: that can only show that you are uneducated.

Then her mother, Ye Suqiu, would join in, pretending to be angry and saying, "Why are you talking to your father?"

Regarding the relationship between Shen Jialiang and Ye Suqiu, in Shen Huan's own words, the relationship between the two of them is as good as a fool.Although Shen Jialiang followed the principle of unconditional obedience to the two women in his family, one older and one younger, when the mother and daughter disagreed, he would often choose to obey the older one.With regard to this issue, Shen Huan gave Shen Jialiang a lot of embarrassment in private, and every time he started with "Dad, I think you don't like me anymore" without any originality.Shen Jialiang felt a headache when he heard this, rubbed his brows and sighed that this little girl is jealous and doesn't look at anyone, and then fooled it with a sentence "Dad doesn't like who you like".Later he found that it was useless to fool around like this, children are smart.So in order to prevent future troubles, one day when Shen Huan started to complain with this universal sentence pattern, Shen Jialiang knelt down and said a few words to his little daughter seriously.

He said Huanhuan, dad doesn't like mom more than you, you two can't be compared together, but dad likes both very much.The reason why Dad always obeys your mother is because he wants to treat her as well as possible. You don't know how much your mother has endured to marry me.He also said, Dad hopes that you can also treat your mother well. How painful your mother was when she gave birth to you, so painful that she couldn't even make a sound in the end.At that time, my father thought, this is the woman who put her life on me.Huanhuan, you will grow up slowly and become a beautiful little girl, and one day, you will get married and leave us to have your own life.But your mother won't.Your mother can only age slowly, her hair slowly turns white, and wrinkles gradually increase, and then stand still and watch her beloved little daughter get married, and spend her life with another brat who came out of nowhere tied together.At that time, your mother will only be left with your father again.From the time she married me to the time she finally closed her eyes and left, from the beginning to the end, the only person who accompanied her for most of her life was her father.You can accompany her for more than 30 years, or [-] years if it is longer, and then you will have to live your own life. It is impossible for us to keep you by our side forever.So, think about it, if your father is not good to your mother, who will be good to your mother.

When Shen Jialiang said this, his eyes were serious and focused, and his expression was unprecedentedly gentle, because he saw the shadow of the woman he loved so much through his daughter's immature face.And Shen Huan just nodded ignorantly.She still couldn't understand the meaning of Shen Jialiang's string of words, but she clearly remembered the conclusion he gave her at the end: Dad will definitely treat your mother well.

Later, when Shen Huan relayed this passage to Ye Suqiu in a messy word order, Ye Suqiu's eyes were slightly red.She was silent for a long time, and finally slowly burst into a sweet smile, like a little girl who has just fallen in love.This smile as sweet as cotton candy made Shen Huan dumbfounded, so much so that she almost didn't hear Ye Suqiu's last words.

Ye Suqiu said, marrying your father is really the proudest thing I have ever done in my life.

Then, when Shen Huan felt that no one in the world was happier than herself, when she was 15 years old, Shen Jialiang had a car accident while on a business trip.Five cars rear-ended one after another on the expressway, 3 dead and 5 injured, and Shen Jialiang died on the spot.

Shen Huan's sun only shone for 15 years in her life, and then fell away without warning.

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03.

When Ye Suqiu called Shen Huan, Shen Huan was in class.In the quiet classroom, the vibrating sound of the mobile phone suddenly sounded, attracting a group of students in the front row to look back.Shen Huan was stunned for two seconds before realizing that his phone was vibrating. He quickly flicked the pen, took out the phone from the drawer, and pressed reject.

She looked up at the blackboard and found that the teacher didn't pay attention to this side, so she secretly breathed a sigh of relief.Looking down at the screen of the phone, the caller ID only has one word: Mom.Shen Huan felt something was wrong.Ye Suqiu never called her when she was in school, it seems that there must be something important this time.

After finally getting out of class, she called back.Ye Suqiu didn't speak on the other end, only the sound of heavy breathing came from the receiver.Chen Huan tentatively opened his mouth to call Mom, but only heard the long ending of the word dissipated in the air.

Mom, talk to—

——Shen Huan.Ye Suqiu's voice was floating, like a dream: go home.

What are you doing? Wait for me after school——

--go home.Ye Suqiu bit each word very clearly, as if she would be speechless if she didn't bite so clearly.Go home, your dad was in a car accident.

Shen Huan only heard a buzzing sound in his head and became confused.The world fell silent within a second, the noise in the corridor, the collision of tables and chairs, and all other sounds disappeared.It was as if she was standing in a space surrounded by four high walls, unable to see or hear anything.

A second later, the wall collapsed, and the vivid images in front of her eyes and the huge sound waves swept over with overwhelming momentum, shaking her head with a roar.

Ye Suqiu hung up the phone without waiting for her answer, and when Shen Huan came to his senses, there was only a mechanical busy tone on the receiver.She sat on the seat with her mobile phone tightly and took a few deep breaths. She cleared her mind and thought: What does Mom want to do by herself?

oh, go home.

--go home.go home.go home.These two words fell into her chest like heavy drumbeats.With trembling hands, she began to sweep the things on the table into her schoolbag, her temples throbbing.In that short half minute of clearing her schoolbag, she thought a lot, made N assumptions and denied herself N+1 times.She thought no, her father wouldn't be so unlucky - that's Shen Jialiang, who was so strong that he could lift her up with one hand when he was a child.Besides, the current cars are so high-end, with good safety performance, there will definitely not be any major problems, definitely not, definitely not...

Half a minute later, Shen Huan packed everything up, including her bewildered mood.She picked up her schoolbag and rushed out of the school gate. She ran home like this crazily, not wanting a bus or a taxi.She desperately needed to do something to assuage the great fear that was growing inside her.In fact, she really wanted to tear this fear out of her body, shred it and throw it back as she ran, as if this would allow her to bravely face the unpredictable future ahead.She ran like a Molotov cocktail through several streets, dreaming of running like this forever, not listening to the ending that was already prepared.

Shen Huan's home is not far from the school, so when she arrived at the door dripping with sweat, only a quarter of an hour had passed since Ye Suqiu called her.She took a deep breath and pushed open the concealed door to enter the room, and saw Ye Suqiu sitting on the old sofa, her back was straight and her body was as stiff as a thin rock.

It has been a long, long time for Shen Huan, even when she was sitting in the old-fashioned bamboo and rattan chair and reading the newspaper with reading glasses, she did not forget the back that Ye Suqiu unknowingly left for her back then.It was thin and thin but extremely hard, as straight and sharp as a gleaming blade.It represents a gentle and quiet woman who has since been abandoned by her warm family life, and is forced to use her thin spine to carry the heavy years of her and her daughter for decades to come.

"Mom..." Shen Huan called her, and when she opened her mouth, she realized that her voice was hoarse and trembling.She swallowed a mouthful of saliva to moisten her throat, and wanted to say something light-hearted to strengthen her courage, but in the end she clenched her teeth and said nothing.A sense of tension in her heart strangled her neck, making her want to vomit.

"Mom." She called again, this time a little louder, with a hint of anxiety and urgency.

Ye Suqiu ignored her.In fact, she didn't have any movement, any vitality, she looked like a flesh sculpture.

"—Mom!" Shen Huan quickly walked around the sofa and walked to Ye Suqiu.Her downcast gaze bit Ye Suqiu's knee and she refused to let her go up to look at her face.Shen Huan was afraid.The tension and fear in her heart made her start to tremble nervously, she was afraid that the answer would be obvious once she saw Ye Suqiu's face, and it was the one she didn't even dare to think about.

At this time Ye Suqiu finally moved.She grabbed Shen Huan's hand.

Shen Huan exclaimed, because of this sudden movement, and because of Ye Suqiu's cold palm.She couldn't bear this uncomfortable silence any longer, and also lost to the soaring fear in her heart.All she wanted was to seek relief, so she hurriedly asked again: "Mom, my dad—"

Ye Suqiu's slender and warm hands in the past are now grabbing her daughter's wrist tightly like a bird's claws.She raised her head, and Shen Huan's eyes finally bumped into her mother's face unavoidably.The moment she saw this face, she knew that she was really relieved.When you are free, there is nothing left.nothing left.

Ye Suqiu looked at her 15-year-old daughter's face, her eyelids twitched crazily, and her body, which had just been solidified into a rock, began to tremble uncontrollably.When she blinked, a round teardrop fell straight down and hit the back of Shen Huan's hand with a slap, it was hot and cold.

Shen Huan had never seen such a big teardrop.

This sudden drop of tears made her heart sink suddenly, and a sea of ​​soreness suddenly surged in her chest, so sore that she forcefully forced out her tears.She opened her arms, embraced Ye Suqiu tremblingly, and buried her head firmly in her arms.

Ye Suqiu's body still had that familiar saponin smell, which was faint but extraordinarily clean.

Shen Huan finally cried out of breath.She felt like her heart was bound by a red-hot iron wire, and the iron wire became tighter and tighter, until she finally squeezed out flesh and blood.Her mother held her tightly in her arms with unprecedented strength, with her head pressed against her neck, and her eyes were like two punctured water polo, gurgling water flowing out.

"...Mom..." Shen Huan said, his voice was unbearably hoarse.She tried to say something, but choked up and couldn't say anything.

"mom……"

"En." Ye Suqiu's arms tightened again, and she responded unconsciously: "Mom is here, here..."

Shen Huan was about to be strangled to suffocation, but he only wished that the force could be stronger and heavier.She felt like a plank floating in a sea of ​​bitterness, and this power was the only thing that could save her.

Many years later, when the old lady Shen Huan recalled the past under the gentle caress of the setting sun, time had taken away all the sad emotions, leaving only a dull pain in her chest.She let out a long sigh, and the unique wisdom of the elderly made her sigh.

It would be nice if one could see everything like a stone and be unharmed.

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04.

Shen Jialiang was buried on the third day in the ancestral grave on the mountain behind his hometown.

The ancestors of the Shen family were farmers. There was a two-story cement house in their hometown, and there was a three-acre land in front of the door to support the family.Shen Jialiang's parents died young, and the three brothers worked hard outside.He is the boss, and also the most promising, he just relied on reading to get out of it, working as a small civil servant in a first-tier city, living a simple but happy life.The second son of the Shen family inherited his father's ancestral business. In the spring, he returned to his hometown to fry tea. He cleaned up the old house that had been idle for a long time. After the season, he moved to the city again. He did everything with bricks and walls, which made the least money and suffered the most. of migrant workers.The third son of the Shen family lived in a second-tier city, and was in the business of long-distance delivery. He was so busy when he received a big order that he drove a big truck on the expressway for more than ten hours, all supported by cigarettes, but slowly drifted away. Came out and saved some money.The three brothers don't see each other until the holidays. They are busy with their own business. They only get together during the New Year and Qingming to burn some paper money for their parents.

The Shen family's old house is located in an excellent location, backed by a small wild mountain, with a large pond in front of the door, next to the pond are several acres of rice fields, and there are several ridges of tea trees on the slope.The ancestral grave of the Shen family is on the hillside of the hill.The mountain is lush and green all the year round, a small path goes up from the back door of the old house, and it turns seven turns to a man-made open space, where the tombstones of the three brothers, grandparents and parents of the Shen family stand.Looking down with your back to the stone tablet, you can see the dark red tiles on the Shen family's old roof under the cover of layers of branches and leaves.

On the day of Shen Jialiang's burial, everyone in the village was mobilized.Most of these people did not live in the village, and they all rushed back to see him off.The funeral in my hometown is also a bit particular.That morning, Shen Huan came out of the old house with the urn, and thanked the people outside the house who came to see him off.Ye Suqiu's eyes were swollen and she handed over a clay basin, which was used to worship the burnt paper for the first three days, Shen Huan took it with trembling hands, the heavy weight of the clay basin made her shoulders collapse.Her vision was blurred, she bit her lip, rounded her thin arm, and threw it to the ground, with a bang, several thick tiles bounced away.As soon as the crock pot falls, the funeral procession can start.When the mourning and joy began, the juniors pulled a piece of white cloth to cover their heads, and the long and wide cloth covered their bodies along their heads and dragged it to the ground; A white scarf was tied around his arm, and he wore linen and filial piety according to the old rules of his ancestors.

After a while, this magnificent team set off in a mighty way.The second and third sons of the Shen family walked at the front of the line carrying the soul-inducing banners, followed by two people throwing paper money along the road, and behind them were Shen Huan holding a spirit card and Ye Suqiu holding an urn.In the middle of the line was a large group of relatives dressed in sackcloth and filial piety. The juniors were quarreling with each other, stepping on the white cloth dragged by each other's feet while walking, and then raised their heads and smiled and were scolded by the elders twice.At the end of the procession was a group of native troupes beating, beating, and playing mourning music, with gongs and drums shaking the sky, and suona whimpering.There are also two special firecrackers. One walks far ahead and is responsible for setting off long hanging whips at every open space and intersection. He pays attention to the constant sound of whips during the funeral. One was responsible for dropping the detonators behind, and with a bang, every time one was released, it made a real earth-shattering sound.

The team walked around the village and crossed the slopes of several small dirt hills before arriving at the burial place. They walked back and forth for an hour.Shen Huan stood at the front of the line holding the spirit card, and the white paper like copper coins was scattered over her head, and the soul-inducing flag was pulled up and down.She looked at everything in front of her in a daze, as if she was sleepwalking, and the continuous sound of firecrackers in her ears made her deaf.She walked and walked, feeling that the road was extremely long, and every time she took a step, there was an extra section of the road under her feet, and she would never walk to the end.

She looked back at her mother.Ye Suqiu wore a white dress, her back was straight, and there were tears in her eyes but she didn't let them flow.Chen Huan had been crying for three days, and all the moisture in his body was gone from crying. At this time, his eyes became blurred again.

Ye Suqiu took a few steps forward, blinked away the moisture in her eyes, and forced a smile, as stiff as if she stole someone's smile and put it on her face.

"Don't cry...your father is watching you."

Her usual calm and gentle voice came from her ears, and the sound of boiling firecrackers was isolated behind her.

Ye Suqiu did not expect that this comforting words would have an unpredictable effect on Shen Huan.In Shen Huan's later life, whenever she was hit by pain, despair, frustration and other negative emotions to the point of crying, she would think of Ye Suqiu's words, and what she saw was paper money falling from the sky, There seemed to be a choking smoke in his nose.As soon as Shen Huan thought of this sentence, she could grit her teeth and wipe away her tears, holding her breath to suppress her clamoring desire to cry.

She doesn't know how to cry, Shen Jialiang is looking at her.

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05.

During the six months after Shen Jialiang's death, mother and daughter lived their lives dependent on each other.

Ye Suqiu is 39 years old this year, almost 40 years old, her originally well-proportioned and clear eyebrows have dimmed like this.She seldom smiles now, most of the time she doesn't speak quietly, the fine lines at the corners of her eyes and the slack chin make Shen Huan feel distressed.

People really don't get old slowly, but get old in an instant.

Ye Suqiu has not gone out to do anything since she married Shen Jialiang, and has been staying at home as a full-time housewife.Shen Jialiang protected her very well, and rarely took her out to socialize, he couldn't bear to see her be toasted and teased with a bewildered expression.She just does housework at home, watches TV, chats with her neighbors, and doesn't even have to wash the dishes in winter, because Shen Jialiang thinks the tap water is too cold and is afraid of freezing her.That's why at Ye Suqiu's age, she doesn't have the philistine shrewdness that a 40-year-old woman should have.She is always gentle and tolerant, like a gust of warm wind, lightly subduing people.

But now that Shen Jialiang has left, Ye Suqiu has no reason to just sit at home like this.Shen Huan still had to go to school, and they couldn't rely on Shen Jialiang's accident compensation and pension for a lifetime.She found a job in a small supermarket not far from her home and was responsible for inventorying goods every day. A 40-year-old woman with little work experience and a reserved personality. If she can't handle interpersonal relationships well, she is often run over by a group of cashier girls in the supermarket.Fortunately, the manager of the supermarket was nice to her and taught her hand in hand. At the beginning, she didn't receive much scolding when the pallet was wrong twice, but only said a few words in a soft voice.

Ye Suqiu will never talk about the hard detours at work, and will never complain in front of Shen Huan.Before she was a wife and a mother; now there is only one center in her, and that is her child.For the sake of Shen Huan, her hands that never dipped in ice water are now lifting heavy cargo boxes, and it is common for her to bump into something accidentally.Half a year has passed, Ye Suqiu's hands seem to have changed, the skin is rough, the knuckles have become bigger, the once soft palms have formed a thin layer of calluses, which are a bit hard.

In just half a year, Ye Suqiu completed her transformation.Now she has become an ordinary 40-year-old woman with a loud voice and quick hands and feet. She has to pay 40 cents when buying vegetables, and can mercilessly scold the porter when she goes to work.Under her severe criticism, such tall young lads were able to obediently stand in a line, neither fighting back nor annoyed.She abandoned the gentleness and dignity that have been with her for [-] years, and put on a rare firmness and toughness.Only at night, when she held Shen Jialiang's photo and whispered, the stable beauty that appeared on her face still carried the brilliance of being loved in the past.

Shen Huan saw these changes in her mother's eyes, said nothing, but felt extremely uncomfortable in her heart.She suddenly remembered the long words Shen Jialiang said to her when she was a child.Shen Jialiang said that he was the only person who accompanied Ye Suqiu for most of his life, and he also said that he would definitely treat her well.Who are you kidding? This is.Ye Suqiu has tossed herself like this now, how about Shen Jialiang.

So in order not to let her mother worry about it, Shen Huan studied like crazy in the past six months, and her grades skyrocketed.The homeroom teacher knew the situation of Shen Huan's family, and seeing her student like this was both gratified and distressed. On the one hand, she lamented that she was finally sensible, and on the other hand, she was worried that the child's health would not be able to bear it.During the parent meeting, she focused on praising Shen Huan.She didn't reveal a word about Shen Huan's family affairs, she only said that the child could endure hardships and was eager to learn, Ye Suqiu's eyes were shining brightly, and she was so proud that she never lowered her head.

Originally, Shen Huan thought that she and Ye Suqiu could rely on each other forever.Ye Suqiu earns money to support the family, and she works hard to grow up; when Ye Suqiu slowly ages, it will be replaced by her earning money to support the family, and Ye Suqiu stays at home for the elderly.Then one day, Ye Suqiu closed her eyes peacefully, Shen Huan took care of her funeral, and the things in this life were done.All her next task was to sit on a recliner and wait quietly to die.

After what happened to Shen Jialiang, Shen Huan was no longer afraid of growing old.Because when you are old, you can still wait for death, and when you die, you will lose everything.It's a pity that God didn't take care of her even with such a modest wish.

One day, half a year later, Ye Suqiu called her little daughter to her, and said with gentle eyes, but she said, "little girl, my mother told you something, so listen carefully."

Mom is going to marry your Uncle Zheng.

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06.

Ye Suqiu and Zheng Yuanyang are college classmates.Zheng Yuanyang chased Ye Suqiu for four years and waited for Ye Suqiu for 16 years, adding up to 20 years.If this period of time is placed on a couple, it can already be called a porcelain marriage.

After Ye Suqiu decided to marry Shen Jialiang, she approached him and had a very serious talk with him although it was gentle.Zheng Yuanyang looks like a frail scholar, wearing glasses with thick bottle bottoms, but he is very persistent in his heart, believing that Ye Suqiu will not let go.Ye Suqiu couldn't persuade her, she could only sigh and say Yuanyang, why bother.Zheng Yuanyang pushed his glasses, and replied calmly, Ye Suqiu, live your life well, don't worry about what I think, you don't care.

Later, Ye Suqiu got married, and the two kept in touch with each other as friends. They also made appointments several times a year to sit down and chat with each other about each other's recent situation.Zheng Yuanyang worked as a Chinese teacher in a college, and he was usually too busy to touch the ground, so he only came out during the rare vacation time to complain to Ye Suqiu about his disobedient students, and he was really proud of them.

Shen Jialiang knew about their relationship, and the two had met each other.He didn't say anything about Zheng Yuanyang's feelings, but instead thanked him for taking care of Ye Suqiu for four years in college.The two men talked for a few times, and gradually developed a sense of sympathy for each other. Their love for the same woman made them get acquainted, which sounds incredible.

Of course Shen Huan also knew her Uncle Zheng.Zheng Yuanyang dotes on her very much, he rarely sees her a few times a year, and brings her gifts every time he meets.That kind of Barbie doll that little girls like to play with, even the house and clothes, a set is not cheap.Others bought one set for their daughter, and it was fun to play with; Shen Huan had many sets in his small room, each set was different, and the little princess dresses shone in stacks.After growing up, Zheng Yuanyang would give her books, hardcover masterpieces, wrapped them in heavy bundles and brought them to her.She remembered all these good things from Zheng Yuanyang and was very grateful, but she only knew that Uncle Zheng was a friend of her mother, but she never knew how Uncle Zheng had feelings for her mother.

Now, half a year after Shen Jialiang was buried in the ground, she finally found out.She finally understands why her steady Uncle Zheng hasn't married for many years, and finally understands why Zheng Yuanyang treats her so well.She was so angry at Ye Suqiu's betrayal and Zheng Yuanyang's deceit that she couldn't react for a long time, and then she was furious.

Shen Huan blushed and stared at her mother, shaking uncontrollably from excitement.She was going crazy.She couldn't believe how Ye Suqiu could forget about Shen Jialiang so quickly, and turned around to fall into someone else's embrace.She has seen too many women like this in newspapers and magazines, frivolous and cheap, with feelings like white pollution everywhere.She despises such women and thinks they are despicable.Now that Ye Suqiu is sitting in front of her quietly, and she has done such a despicable thing, she naturally cannot accept it, nor is she ready to accept it.

She gasped and tried to hold her breath, but the tears kept dripping down, more and more, as if a switch in her brain had broken.The mouth opened and closed like a drowning fish.

Shen Huan thought it was impossible, why should I cry, if you want to cry, it is you who cry, no matter how bad it is, it is Shen Jialiang who cry.Shen Jialiang, you see, your wife doesn't want you anymore, she's dating another man, she's dating Zheng Yuanyang.You've only been away for half a year, and she can share a bed with another man.She thought viciously that fantasies could stimulate Shen Jialiang who was far away in the sky, but she didn't realize that the only one stimulated by such viciousness was herself.

Tears blurred his vision, and Ye Suqiu's face was a mess.

After all, Ye Suqiu still felt sorry for her little daughter, she stretched out her hand to grab Shen Huan's arm, trying to draw her to her side.

Shen Huan waved his hands violently: "Don't touch me——!"

Tears splashed all over her and she didn't care about anything else, her voice was so hoarse that she broke the last word, which sounded like the neighing of some beast.

Ye Suqiu fell silent, retracted her hand, and then smiled unusually calmly.Shen Huan couldn't believe that she could still laugh.She was crying hysterically, Ye Suqiu could actually laugh.

"It's useless for you to cry. Mom has already decided to go through the formalities with your Uncle Zheng this weekend."

Ye Suqiu's voice was neither high nor low, every word was clear and crisp, but it was like a heavy hammer hitting her ear.Her heart turned cold instantly, and the tears that she hadn't had time to shed turned into ice and condensed in her body.

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07.

Shen Huan's temperament changed drastically.

The girl who used to like to chatter so much is now as silent as a stone.Wherever she went, she kept quiet and didn't speak. When asked her, she only answered a few short words, and then had nothing to say.

Zheng Yuanyang was very worried about Shen Huan, to the point where he could hardly sleep or eat.He is busy with work with high school students, and it is ten o'clock in the evening for self-study, and the thing he wants to do most when he comes back is to fall asleep.But seeing Shen Huan like this, he couldn't sleep at all, and spent the whole night thinking about how to change the original Shen Huan back.

Lying on the bedside, he asked Ye Suqiu worriedly: "The child hasn't taken the initiative to speak for so long, must he have autism? Do you want someone...to see?"

Ye Suqiu sat by the bed, using the light of the desk lamp to fasten the buttons.She sewed a button unhurriedly before raising her head and replying.

"No. Let her go, she'll be fine."

Shen Huan is the flesh that fell from her body, she naturally knows what her daughter is thinking.She just got angry and couldn't figure it out, so she started to engage in cold violence.Ye Suqiu herself was unwilling to explain anything to her.Some things are useless to explain, you have to figure it out slowly on your own, and when you think it through, you will grow up.

She remembered that Shen Huan liked to ask why when he was young.Those questions were all kinds of strange, asking Ye Suqiu a headache, she didn't know how to answer or how to stop her, so she could only let her ask endlessly.But now Shen Huan had a question in her heart, and this question made her become reticent and not like herself.

She just wanted to ask Ye Suqiu, why did you marry Zheng Yuanyang.

But Shen Huan was unwilling to speak.She was still angry with Ye Suqiu, and stubbornly believed that once she spoke to Ye Suqiu, it meant that she was willing to deal with her, she compromised, and she betrayed Shen Jialiang.She prefers to call her silent resistance a fight.She fought for Shen Jialiang.

Many nights Shen Huan hid under the quilt, staring at the ceiling intently, his head was empty and messy.She recalled many things, recalling their life when Shen Jialiang was still there.At that time she was Shen Jialiang's youngest daughter, Ye