Straight man strategy

,do you know?I've wanted to tell you a long time ago, if you don't have any special feelings for me, if there's no tomorrow between us, if everything you're doing now is just playing around..."

"Yin Xiangyang!" He stopped loudly.

I continued: "Then, I hope you don't treat me so ambiguously again..."

"Yin Xiangyang!"

"Because, after I know the result, or after I foresee something, I will be more sad and sad than if you ignored me from the beginning..."

"Yin Xiangyang!"

"So, please don't..."

"Yin Xiangyang, listen to me! Listen to me quietly!" He threw the floor with a loud and forceful voice.

I'm silent.

Despite what I said, the joy in my heart is overflowing.It's just that I'm terrified of finding out until the end that it's just a show, a bad show where I'm all alone.

So, I hope he doesn't see me as someone who loves him, but just as his good friend and brother, although maybe he won't count down the new year with me and ask me to help him Massage, will not come to comfort me when I am sad, will not ask me to help him copy homework, will not ask me to help him hold his mobile phone and jacket when playing basketball in gym class, will not come to teach me long jump... no Do what you do when you treat me like someone who has an unrequited love for him.

However, even so I would like to.

I regret now why I solemnly told him my love in a flash of my head. If time could go back to two months ago, I think I would try my best to hold back and would not confess my love to him even if I died.

I order myself to calm down:

"Okay, you say."

Gu Yaocheng said slowly and seriously:

"Yin Xiangyang, I called you from the standpoint of a good friend from the very beginning. I hope you can count down the New Year with me. I hope I can bless you and get your blessings at the same time. That's all..."

"..." I remained silent.

He continued: "Whether you love me or not, I've always thought of you as my best friend. To be honest, until what you said just now, the only thing I could say about 'you love me' is 50.00% believe in the ingredients, but after you just finished speaking, I was almost [-]% sure, so I didn't deliberately do anything to please you before, everything was just a natural reaction out of concern for my good friend .”

"Is...is that so?" I asked suspiciously.

"It's true." He was sure, "Yin Xiangyang, you have to know that we are best friends, best buddies, best classmates, I..." He suddenly stopped.

I vaguely felt that he seemed to say something important, but I didn't dare to speculate, I was afraid, afraid of getting hurt.He could clearly hear his breathing over the phone, and the quiet night made the silence unbearable and complicated.

"Yin Xiangyang," he breathed out slowly, and continued, "Listen clearly and remember firmly, I..."

Suddenly there was the sound of firework cannons, and the gorgeous fireworks that rose suddenly outside the window bloomed in the sky, one after another, and the graceful radiance came in from the window, turning the bedroom into a transparent glazed castle so brightly.

I listened carefully to what he said, but couldn't hear it.

"Gu Yaocheng, I didn't hear what you said just now. There are fireworks here."

He was slightly taken aback, and said calmly: "...Didn't you hear it? Oh, it's nothing."

"Well, I wish you a happy New Year's Day."

After I finished the last sentence, I hung up the phone. At the same time, a hot tear fell on the diary, and small flowers bloomed.

Actually I heard it.How can I not hear?It was my male god who made me listen clearly and remember it firmly!How could I not hear clearly or remember?

He says--

"Yin Xiangyang, we can be best friends for the rest of our lives, but you have to remember that it is impossible for me to love you."

Don't worry, I didn't cry, but there was something moist in my eye sockets. I closed my eyes and let my mind go blank.

There's nothing to cry about. Before, I complained that he shouldn't treat me who loves him with that kind of ambiguous attitude. Now he has clearly expressed his attitude - he doesn't love me.Well, it's not his fault, it's my relief.

He regards me as your best friend, and I also regard him as my best friend, this is enough, I am very satisfied...

Fart!

I'm just kidding myself!

【016】The Adventures in G Major

016. Adventures in G Major

In the cold night, I felt the chill spread from my heart to my blood vessels, my brain, and my toes.I am cold.Those sour tears can't be stopped, once the gate is opened, it's like a flood.It was a drop at first, and then it kept hitting the diary, blurring the happiness I had written.In times of sadness, how ironic the former happiness seems.

I can't go on like this anymore, my mother is going to come home from get off work soon, and seeing me looking like I'm dying, I'm sure she'll ask all kinds of things again, and she won't be at peace.With tears in my eyes, I sent a text message to my mother saying that I would go to Gu Yaocheng's house for the New Year's Eve tonight, and I would not go home for the time being.

Immediately afterwards I dressed, opened the door, and rushed out into the misty blackness of the night.

It was early in the morning, even if it was the first day of the new year, there was no one around my house at this time.The temperature was very low, and I didn't put on a down jacket when I came out, which made me shiver.I wandered around aimlessly, and the buildings immersed in the night were blurred, just like Gu Yaocheng's unpredictable black eyes, which made me feel so painful.

I gradually got tired from walking, and the tears flowed dry like this.Before I knew it, I had walked to the riverside, and the cold wind invaded my body unscrupulously.On the other side of the river, the lights are bright, and there are "lonely patients" enjoying the nightlife wandering around.I was attracted by the various neon lights, and walked there like a moth to a flame.

Among the many bars and ktvs, there was a bar called "G major" that was particularly prominent. Standing outside, I vaguely heard unknown foreign songs and some irritating voices being played inside.

I walked in by accident.It was found that the dim light was flickering above the head. Under the light, men of all colors were drinking wine, most of them smelled of alcohol, and some even had their limbs entangled. They did not avoid suspicion at all.There are also a group of men in brightly colored clothes swinging on the other side of the dance floor, and there are many figures.

Could this be the legendary gay?

At the age of 17, it was the first time I walked into a bar, and it was the first time I approached a place where all of them were of the same kind. A strange idea came to me——

This is my newborn day.

I stepped into the bar without hesitation, and the group of drunken men seemed to have discovered a fresh body in an instant, and their lustful eyes looked back and forth on my body.

I froze timidly, looked around, and walked towards the bar pretending to be calm.

I am a showbag today, I want to be the focus of the audience, I want to release all the radars on my body, search, search, and search again.

Gu Yaocheng is nothing!

I asked the handsome waiter in a tight uniform to give me a glass of wine, he glanced at me with some doubts, I smiled back at him, the curve of the corner of the mouth was calculated, sexy yet cute.

"Please." The man sitting next to him put the money on the bar.

Someone actually came to strike up a conversation with me.Gu Yaocheng, did you see that?I'm very hot!

The handsome guy didn't say anything, just looked at my body cautiously, and after a while, the waiter poured me a glass of orange.

I held the clean glass and turned to the man next to me, staring straight at his face.He is handsome, in his 20s by visual inspection, I don't know if it is because of the light, he has the same healthy wheat-colored skin as Gu Yaocheng, and he also has the same white teeth as him, and the corners of his mouth are slightly curved when he talks...

How nice it would be if he was him?

No, what is Gu Yaocheng!

"Hey, little handsome guy, 0?" he said, and the smell of mint mixed with alcohol came to his face.

I was noncommittal: "Please, it's too direct!"

"It's like this here. I see you coming for the first time!"

"how come!"

Is it that obvious?

I stared into his eyes, there was a slight disdain hidden there, as if to say "kid, you'd better go home", the fighting spirit was so aroused by his contempt.

"What about you? 0?"

"What do you think?" He approached me ambiguously, and smiled recklessly, "I don't think this wine is suitable for you, you should have a drink." After speaking, he gestured to let the handsome waiter serve a drink.

"Don't underestimate people!"

I picked up the glass angrily, and took a sip of the orange thing and poured it into my stomach.

Hot and hot!

For the sake of face, I swallowed it all abruptly.The tongue, throat, and internal organs were all so hot that I couldn't even breathe.I felt like throwing up and coughing, and I even wanted to put up with these "thoughts" forcefully, it was very sad.

I started coughing dizzily.

"Hahahaha!" The man sneered as if watching a good show.

Damn!

He brought the soda in front of me: "Let's drink this."

Ignoring the laughter of this fart watching the show, I grabbed the bubbly thing and started to drink it vigorously. I drank a glass, and the cold soda gradually made the hot feeling of the alcohol fade away.

"Thank you! Although it's obviously you who caused me to drink so much wine all at once."

He knowingly asked, "Didn't you say you come here often?"

I was stunned for half a second, indiscriminately: "orz... Anyway, it's your problem!"

"It's my kindness that let you drink with me! It's not like being at home outside, don't be brave in everything! You can, others are better than you! Little brother!" He said