Straight man strategy

tease me.

"Yes, teacher." I satirized him angrily.

"Hehe, do I really look like a teacher that much? It seems that I have committed another occupational disease."

"Are you really a teacher!?" I was amazed, and observed the man in front of me. Although he was in such a place where dragons and snakes were mixed up, he always had an aura of righteousness wandering around.

"How? Can't the teacher be gay?"

"...It's just the first time I've seen you!" My head began to feel dizzy and painful, but my nerves were excited, and I jumped up, "Teacher, let's dance together!"

"What are you jumping for? A little brother like you should hold the doll in his bed right now, then sleep and dream!"

"You just go to sleep with the baby..."

My head became more and more dizzy. The first time I drank, I was too strong to drink. I drank so much in one breath. I didn't expect the strength of alcohol to be so terrible.

I stood up and ran towards the dance floor. It was a straight line, but for some reason, I turned a corner and fell right in front of the handsome teacher.

That handsome teacher didn't pull me, and laughed wildly "hahaha" at my embarrassing appearance.

[017] alone in the night

017. Alone in the dark night

I wanted to get up, but I couldn't use my limbs, so I could only yell at him vaguely: "Hey, you are a teacher! A little teacher's morality!"

"I don't want the teacher to care about students who don't study hard."

"That old Mouzi has a movie called "No One Left", no, it seems to be called "Everyone Wants to Help". Forget it, who cares about him, that's what it means anyway, you can't give up a single one!"

"Okay, okay! I really convinced you." The handsome teacher came over and pulled me, "Actually, I think you are acting, it is impossible to get drunk so quickly, you want to seduce me!"

"I seduce your sister!" I was dizzy.

He hugged my waist: "I'm too lazy to argue with my little brother, I'll take you home, where is your home?"

I struggled desperately: "I won't go back, I want to drink!"

"Keep drinking and drinking, you won't die if you drink it, just drink it like this in one sip." He spat.

I howled willfully: "I want to drink."

"Forget it, I'll get it out first," he sighed, not wanting to argue with me, "If I can't find your house, why don't I take you to open a room first."

My brain capacity can no longer take into account the surprised eyes of the people around me, and I can't distinguish the logical relationship between his words. When I heard the word "open room", I immediately yelled in fear:

"Open house? Indecent! Strong..."

The handsome teacher immediately blocked my mouth: "If you call me again, I will leave you alone!"

I answered him with my eyes: "Okay."

"..." He let go of his hand in relief.

I immediately yelled: "Rape! Someone raped me! He wants to take me to a house!"

I was really shocked at the moment, I thought the teacher was going to take me to open a room, although I am a little show tonight, I want to prove that I am attractive, and many people like me.

Even so, I didn't intend to send my first night just like this!

This handsome teacher is also considered a good person, with one hand on my shoulder and gagged my mouth, the other hand grabbed my hand that was scurrying around, making it look like kidnapping.I let him drag me away in a daze.

When I was about to walk through the door, I only heard a "let go!" from my side, and then, I felt as if a heavy fist had been punched on the handsome teacher.

I didn't feel any pain, and I didn't know how long it had been. I just felt the familiar fresh smell rushing towards my face in the complex and unpleasant air.

Is it his smell?

I struggled to open my eyes, half sat up, and then I saw his outline appearing in front of my eyes.

This is probably a dream.

I laughed at myself.

But I clearly felt that someone was holding my arms, shaking me, trying to wake me up, and the voice that I thought about day and night continued to linger in my ears.

"Yin Xiangyang! It's really you! Are you okay? What does this guy want to do to you? Do you want to call the police?" The man grabbed my waist, helped me to stand up, and continued to bombard my ears. "Why are you here? It's so late? Do you know where this place is? A bunch of horny male dicks walking around!"

It really is him!This is not a dream!

It's his voice, his smell, his tone, it's him I'm familiar with.

When I needed him the most, he showed up like a hero who knew my helplessness.

Without any strength, I hugged my male god tightly, trying to crush him into my body.

I can't lose him, can't live in the world without him!

"Cheng! It's really you! Cheng, I lied, I heard you, you said you couldn't possibly love me! But what should I do? I love you! I know this is paranoid hopeless love, but I can't control myself Don't think about you, don't pay attention to you, I fucking love you to death! I love you love you love you, love you to death!"

I don't want any face or dignity, I want to tell the whole world——

I, Yin Xiangyang, love Gu Yaocheng!

His body was stiff in my arms, and then he pushed me hard, I let go of my hand in surprise, and looked at his handsome face in shock.

"Yin Xiangyang, since you heard it, you should know my attitude. If you still don't know, I can tell you again..."

"Gu Yaocheng!" I stopped him, "Do you have to be so cruel? Don't listen, I won't listen!"

After finishing speaking, I don't know where the infinite power came from. I shook off his shackles, stood up, and ran outside without looking back. The whole world was spinning in my sight, with no sense of direction at all.

He really doesn't love me!

He doesn't love me because it's hard to accept being gay in this society, and I know that.

He doesn't love me because it's for the good of both of us, I know that.

He doesn't love me more because he doesn't love me in the first place, even if I'm a girl, he doesn't necessarily love me... right?

I don’t know how long I’ve been running, but I ran resolutely along the long bank, panting and breathing in the bitter cold air, and when my whole lungs were about to explode due to the cold air, I fell powerlessly and sat down. riverside.

The winter night wind blows on me, and the wine is already half awake.

Along the river, neon lights of various colors illuminate the river water of Hei Junjun, and the lighthouse in the distance flickers in the mist, as if everything is in a deep sleep.

I sat on the steps by the shore, looking at the rolling barrenness, the turmoil in my heart gradually calmed down.

He told me his true thoughts so resolutely and clearly, then I can delete the ambiguous little thoughts, and at the same time, I can simply be his best friend, isn't it good?

Why would I abuse myself so out of control?

But I am not reconciled, somewhere in my heart hides the hope that "he may love me", which is the driving force behind my love for him and my confession to him regardless of other people's eyes.This unrealistic hope was put into a crystal clear glass and hidden away, but I always knew it was there, and at certain moments, it was even more important to me than oxygen.

But today, the moment I heard Gu Yaocheng's words, the glass shattered, and the angular tip pierced my fragile heart, throwing me into the endless abyss.

【018】The Secret of the Tip of the Iceberg

018. The Secret of the Tip of the Iceberg

Suddenly someone patted my shoulder, I thought it was Gu Yaocheng, I turned my head in surprise and found that it was the handsome teacher I just met.He was punched by Gu Yaocheng in the bar. Fortunately, he didn't seem to be injured, but there was a layer of fine beads of sweat on his forehead. It seemed that he had been chasing me for a long time.

"How about it? Come and chase me to open a room?" I said.

"Hehe, you can still joke, it seems to be fine." He sat next to me, "I thought you were going to commit suicide by jumping into the river!"

"Suicide? I hate suicide the most in this world. Suicide can indeed end the suffering of life, but it leaves debts, responsibilities, and pain to relatives and friends. It is not responsible at all."

"You know quite a lot of reasoning! Then don't worry about me, go out of the room!" He put his coat on me.

"Open your sister!"

"..." He lowered his head lightly, "Love is a tormenting thing. It's like a tattoo. The more you love, the deeper it gets."

I looked at his thoughtful expression suspiciously, maybe he also has some hard-won stories.

"So, if you want to protect yourself, don't be honest," he said.

I don't agree, but I don't refute. I just look at the swaying river and silently settle.

Thinking quietly like this, I stood up in the middle of the night and planned to go home. The handsome teacher said he was worried that I would go home alone, so he called a taxi to take me back.I tiptoedly opened the door and walked into the house. I suddenly wanted to see my mother's sleeping face, so I walked into her bedroom.

She was still turning on the wall lamp, and the exhaustion of a day's work made her often fall asleep. Obviously, my return did not wake her up.I sat by the bed, under the dim light of the wall lamp, I watched my mother's sleeping face, she exhaled slowly, and slept extremely deeply, with a smile on the corner of her mouth, as if she had dreamed of something fun.

is it about meOr about the dead dad?

I gently stroked my mother's face along the hairline, and she seemed to be a little older after not seeing her for a few days.Yes, Gu Yaocheng and I are good friends. Although my mother is not an old-fashioned person, if I let my mother know that her son likes boys, I am afraid that there is no mother who will not be furious. Maybe she will use a feather duster to break my dick leg.

Just then, I caught a glimpse of an old photo on the bedside table next to me.Is it mom and dad?I am very curious.Because in this home, I almost never