Straight man strategy

Surrounding you: "What's wrong with you?"

You looked up and looked at me, with tears in your eyes, shining brightly: "I don't know, I just hope this moment is eternal, I can be with you forever, laugh together, look at each other together I hold hands together and never let go, I don't want to continue to review my homework alone in the middle of the night alone, I really like the radio waves connecting you and me..."

"Yin Xiangyang!" I pushed away vigorously, and you were stunned, staring at the inexplicable me, I said, "How can you be so selfish? Don't love me! If you love me, it will only hurt you! Because I can't... "

"I don't want to listen. Don't!"

You covered your ears, shook your head constantly, and then you disappeared, leaving me alone in the empty white.

When I woke up, there were still water marks in the corners of my eyes, and my whole body was covered in sweat.

My brother, this guy who obviously has his own single bedroom, actually sleeps next to me.At this moment he was woken up by me, muttered: "Fuck!" Turned over and punched me.I was so sleepy from the pain, he wanted to punch again, but I blocked him, and then pushed him out of the bed with my strength, he got up in a rage, jumped onto the bed, and wrestled with me.

This is destined to be another sleepless night.

When our two friends were tired from beating and collapsed on the bed to rest, I suddenly remembered that during a class break, Teacher Han called me to the office and told me the reason why she wanted to separate our seats—because she knew that you love me .

Like a big sister, she said in a persuasive manner: "Don't ask the teacher how he knows, anyway, I know. But the teacher wants to tell you a very realistic thing, you two... Even if you love each other, even if you don't know each other until you die. Yu, even if you are in love with each other, it is impossible for the two of you in China, so you don't have anything to do with him, it's good for both of you."

"..." I lowered my head.

"The reason why the teacher persuaded you instead of Yin Xiangyang is because the teacher knows that you are more rational and considerate than him. The teacher is more experienced than you. Believe in the teacher's words, don't get bogged down. Before there is a deeper and more inextricable relationship, get out as soon as possible and save the two of you."

"Well. I know all this very well."

"you sure?"

"Yes, Teacher Han."

"Then promise the teacher not to push both of you into an irreversible abyss."

"I promise you..." I said word by word, "I, no, can, can, will, love, Yin Xiangyang."

"Okay..." She smiled as usual, and patted my head, "Very good."

After school that day, we ran into Teacher Han who was about to go home. She walked up to you and patted you on the shoulder.

"Yin Xiangyang, don't be too persistent."

You seem to have sensed something deep, and looked at Teacher Han in front of you in disbelief.

The distance is very close, and I see something flickering and flickering in your eyes.

At this time, Teacher Han turned to me. I tried to nod to her, but my head turned away from the other side uncontrollably.

Yin Xiangyang, listen to me!You can love Lu Simeng who always liked you, even though she is ugly; you can love your current tablemate Hu Jiaqi, even though I know she is a little fairy; you can also love Lin who you call your sister Wisdom, although she is a tomboy; you can even fall in love with Shao Yuwei's acting school, or a middle-aged beauty like Teacher Han...

And I, I can be your best, lifelong good friend, good brother, good buddy, be honest with each other, wear a pair of underwear for two people, if there is one dollar, I am willing to give you all one dollar, for me , you are closer than my own brother.

But you must remember, you can't love me!You fucking don't love me anymore!If you love me, you are committing a crime, you are taking drugs, you are in deep trouble, and you will be sent to the [-]th floor of hell!

To use a line of lyrics by Faye Wong:

You and I are two river banks, forever separated by a river.

I want you to know clearly and completely——

I, Gu Yaocheng, will never love you for the rest of my life.

I can't possibly love you.

【014】New Year's Eve blessing

014. New Year's Eve Blessings

"It is now 31 minutes on December 55. In the last few minutes of this year, my fractured left hand is almost healed. There is no serious problem. Fortunately, the bad luck has not been brought to the next year. My mother is still working overtime. And I was still bored waiting for Gu Yaocheng's call. For some reason, he hasn't called me yet. The matter of not being able to change seats really weakened our relationship, and he and his new friend Zhou Haitao got together?"

I have the habit of keeping a diary, and I like to record every day that needs to be remembered in words, and more importantly, record every day related to Gu Yaocheng.In this way, even if we are just friends, the time he spent with me will become the most beautiful memory, which will be kept alive in the diary.

I went on to write:

"I have read Zhang Xiaoxian's "Love on the Bread Tree" and other works, and I often see Zhang Xiaoxian describe: a group of Hong Kong people gather together on the last day of each year, counting down the time, cheering at zero o'clock, and exchanging blessings. Only the person involved can fully understand. When I was reading, I was thinking, how I wish I had someone I love to accompany me through the last few minutes of the year, so that those ordinary minutes can become eternity."

Just then, the phone rang.You don't need to guess, but you know it's his call.

It's disgusting, I didn't sleep so late, I don't know if I will get acne!

I picked it up angrily, and his voice on the other end was warm, driving away the severe winter cold in an instant.

"Yin Xiangyang, are you asleep?"

I lied to him: "Sleep, sleep... I go to bed at eleven o'clock every day, otherwise I will have acne the next day."

He played hard to get: "Oh, then I'm dead, you can go back to sleep!"

"Hey, hey," I hurriedly called to him, "Are you a bit brainy, okay? You've already woken me up, and now I'm going to hang up again. I'm sick!"

"Hey, don't push yourself too hard, okay? You never dared to speak to me so rampantly in school. Why do you look like a different person every time you call?" His aggrieved look was really cute.

"It's the same sentence, you have a little brain, okay? I call the person who knows the current affairs as Junjie. If you say something like this in school, isn't that the same as finding a reason for you to beat me? I'm not that stupid! If you say something crazy, of course You have to save it on the phone and say it, and you don’t know how to teleport it.”

"Hey, try scolding me again and see how I will punish you tomorrow!" He threatened viciously.

"Idiot! Idiot! Big idiot!"

"Yin Xiangyang, do you know that there is a saying called 'I can't bear it, I don't need to bear it anymore'? I think you don't want to live."

I happily repeated: "I don't want to live! I don't want to live!"

"Hey... I give up, am I not your 'that' person? If I am a fool, then you are also a fool? Otherwise, how can a normal person like a fool?" He finally compromised.

I laughed at myself for no reason: "Okay, okay, I'm just an idiot. Otherwise, how could I become an unlucky boy who likes boys?"

"Huh? This atmosphere really makes me orz? Fuck." He felt a little embarrassed by my self-deprecating.

"It's fine!"

After a while, he suddenly yelled: "Yin Xiangyang, wait, don't talk, there are 30 seconds left."

"What? There are 30 seconds left for what." I was puzzled.

"Anyway, just stop talking!" His voice was a little flustered.

Could it be that there are thieves in his house, and he needs to ambush him secretly?

"Hey, half of what you said, really..."

"Ten, nine, eight..."

"What are you doing?" I really feel a little baffled.

"...four, three, two..."

"you think……"

His manly voice came from the other end, warm: "I wish you a happy New Year's Day."

The moment I heard this sentence, the blood in my body suddenly boiled, they rushed into my brain, rushed into my throat, I choked and was so surprised that I couldn't speak.

"..."

"Hey, Yin Xiangyang, what's wrong with you?" He didn't hear my reaction, so he yelled anxiously.

"I...I...I..."

This is not just joy, nor excitement, what should I use to describe it?I have no idea.However, I know that someone will understand how I feel. When someone with unrequited love calls at a few minutes to twelve in the evening on December 31, and unexpectedly counts down to the New Year together, how does it feel?

Probably happiness will be as sweet as honey to the point of getting tired, and the body will be as limp as cotton candy, as if it no longer belongs to me, but what about the ears?His words kept circling in my ears, those counting, those blessings, lingering in my ears for a long time.Of course, I don't want it to go away either.

that's nice!

but……

【015】He doesn't love me

015. He doesn't love me

"You 'I' shit, 'I'!" Gu Yaocheng said, "Where are your blessings for me?"

"Blessings! I'm going crazy, you... how could you do this!" I was a little incoherent.

He asked puzzledly: "What's wrong with me? Did I do something wrong?"

"Yes yes! How can you count down the new year with me?"

"Today is the last day of this year. I want to make this day meaningful and firmly in my mind, so..." he answered honestly.

I had a feeling that I was about to suffocate, which was more difficult to understand than happiness, so I blurted out without thinking: "Halo! When did you learn to say such nasty words! I'm about to collapse