love too early

Shen Nanyu's resume is as clean as his person.The four-year-old's parents died in an accident, and they were sent to the orphanage by the local welfare agency, where they were brought up by the director.Both elementary school and junior high school attended local schools, high school was admitted to a key school in city A, and then the college entrance examination scored No.3 in the city and was admitted to university A, until now.

There is no doubt that he is excellent, whether it is his grades from childhood to adulthood, or various competition awards. Although he lost his parents, he has no lack of education.

I am even more curious about what kind of person his dean is.

Opening the second file, it was Shen Nanyu's social circle, which was still very simple, with almost no living relatives.

Just looking at the content on the screen makes people feel that he grew up alone, and maybe he is.

I scrolled down one by one, and finally found the dean's information.The first thing that came into view was a black and white photo. The old man on the screen had a kind face, his silver hair was combed meticulously, and even though he was very old, his eyes were not cloudy.He was sitting upright on a sofa, wearing a well-fitting four-piece suit, leaning on a cane in his hand, and next to him was eleven or twelve-year-old Shen Nanyu, holding a violin in one hand and a trophy in the other , It looks like I took a commemorative photo because I won an award.

At that time, Shen Nanyu was much more childish than now, with soft hair, round and dark eyes, and a little baby fat on his face, not as thin as now.I don't know why, but I always feel that I have seen this kid somewhere, and the old man next to him also looks a little familiar.

I remember that in Shen Nanyu's description, the dean is a "retired musician". I continued to scroll down, but I found more than that.

——At the age of 20, he became the principal violinist of the world's best symphony orchestra. At the age of 30, he entered the Royal Danish Academy of Music to teach. After that, he devoted himself to music education for 35 years, until he retired at the age of 65 and returned to China to live in seclusion. By chance, he took over from an old friend. Orphanage.

After staring at the name on the screen for a long time, I finally remembered where I had seen this old gentleman.

——At my grandfather's house.At the last funeral with my grandfather.

Other than that, I thought of something else...

"Little Lu, today is your 12th birthday. Grandpa funded an orphanage in your name to help children without parents. Grandpa hopes that you will grow up safely and healthily, and also hopes that no matter what achievements you will make in the future, Don't forget to help those in need."

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"Little Lu, come here, this is your Grandpa Shu, an old friend of Grandpa. Grandpa Shu used to be a very good musician, and now he is the dean of the orphanage. Look at this photo, it is the people you are helping The children of the orphanage."

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"Little Lu, grandpa Shu brought the children to visit this afternoon. You have to get along well with your younger brothers and sisters. I heard that there is a little brother who plays the violin very well. It is amazing that you can be praised by your grandpa Shu at such a young age. .”

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"Xiao Lu, this is Xiao Yu's younger brother, you can take him to play."

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My memory stays at my grandfather's funeral. The clouds were so low that I couldn't breathe. It was the first time I faced the departure of my relatives. After the crowd dispersed, I stood alone in front of the tombstone for a long time.

The last one to arrive was an old man with full head of silver hair, accompanied by an eleven or twelve-year-old boy.They put down a bunch of flowers in silence and stood beside me without saying anything.

It wasn't until before leaving that the young boy handed me a clean old handkerchief and said softly, "Brother, don't cry," that I realized that I didn't know when I shed tears.

I was 20 years old that year, and Shen Nanyu who handed me the handkerchief was 12 years old.

I never saw them again afterward.

That handkerchief was also forgotten in a corner of my memory, together with its owner.If Shen Nanyu hadn't walked in front of me again, maybe they would have disappeared without a sound, as if they had never appeared before.

I will never know that the "Xiaoyu" who once had a few encounters is actually "Xiaoyu".

I turned off the computer and couldn't describe what it was like in my heart for a while.

It is also difficult for me to put myself in the shoes and imagine what kind of weight I occupy in Shen Nanyu's life.

I continued to support the orphanage after my grandfather passed away, but it was just one of many charitable projects to my name, nothing special to me.I seem to be listening to my grandfather's words to be a person who helps others, but I don't seem to be, because these things are just my habits, not like the dean who dedicated his life to caring for others with sincerity.

If Shen Nanyu's liking for me comes from gratitude, then I'm not sure if the real me is worthy of his liking.

I closed my eyes and leaned back on the chair. The memories of the past were like a slowly rising sea, rushing towards me and engulfing me until a cell phone ring broke the silence.

It is Shen Nanyu.

I picked up the phone and stared at the screen for a long time, then swiped up and hung up.A few seconds later, there was a message: "Are you busy, did I disturb you?"

"Yeah." I replied.

"Then I'll wait for you." Shen Nanyu said.

If there is one thing about him that is the same as Fu Zhiheng, it may be that he has endless patience for me.Sometimes I can't help but wonder how people can be so quiet at his age.

I leaned back on the chair, let it go for ten minutes, and dialed the phone back.

Shen Nanyu's voice was as gentle as usual, and he answered the phone almost instantly, "Hey, are you done?"

"Well, sorry." I said.

"It's okay." After he finished speaking, he paused for a moment, with a little more worry and concern in his tone, "You sound a little listless, are you too tired from work?"

I didn't know how to explain it to him, so I had to follow his words: "There have been too many things recently."

Shen Nanyu thought for a while and asked, "Do you want to see the rabbit? I'll carry it for you to play with."

I suddenly remembered the rabbit he raised. I haven’t seen him for a long time, and he probably gained weight again.

"Okay." I said.

Ten minutes later, Shen Nanyu came over on his bicycle.The temperature has dropped continuously recently. He is wearing a high-necked black sweater and a loose thick coat, which make his face thinner.Probably running on the road in a hurry, when he opened the door, his breathing was not steady, and the tip of his nose was a little red, and he looked at me with a smile, and his eyes were bright.

The mist that had shrouded my heart was brushed away by his smile, and I also smiled unconsciously and asked, "Where is the rabbit?"

Shen Nanyu came over, unzipped his jacket, and a furry light brown head poked out.

"Here." He smiled.

Sure enough, the rabbit hiding in his arms had grown fat again, and was looking around with round black eyes at the moment, wanting to come out again, but was too timid to move.

I stretched out my hand and touched it. The temperature of the rabbit is a little higher than that of a human, and it is soft and warm.Shen Nanyu took it out and said, "I made it too fat, it's so heavy in my arms."

I took the rabbit, picked it up and weighed it, "It's a bit fat."

In my impression, rabbits are shy of strangers, but this rabbit has been obediently let me hug since the first time we met, and it doesn't get annoyed when I say it is fat.

"Shilu..." Shen Nanyu suddenly called me.

I turned my head away, "Huh?"

His hand touched my face very lightly, the fingertips still carried the coolness outside, "Why are your eyes red, are you crying?"