Confession

Lin Xu originally thought that Jiang Yang said that going out to play was only near home, but in the end he packed his luggage and went to Nandu City. He had already bought the air ticket, and the plane flew at [-] o'clock that night.

Lin Xu stood at the door of the room and watched Jiang Yang pack his luggage. The smoke was coming up again. He twisted his fingers in panic, and asked uneasily, "How long are you going?"

"About a week." Jiang Yang was in high spirits and looked very happy.

This is what Zhao Xiwen taught him. Staying with a depressed person should not accompany the mourning, but affect him with a happy mood.

Although the patient can't get out of it in a short time, his emotions are contagious, and it's better than two people mourning together.

"I was in a hurry to come back from Nandu last time, so I didn't have a good time." Jiang Yang found Lin Xu's swimming trunks and folded them. "I have a lot of plans, and I can visit many places."

Lin Xu felt a sense of fear and uneasiness in his heart. He lowered his head and said nothing, wrinkling the corners of his clothes with his fingers.

Jiang Yang sensed Lin Xu's emotions, put down his clothes and walked over, gently touching Lin Xu's face, "Don't want to go? You promised to stay with me, don't you want me to calm down?"

"I...not." Lin Xu's heart tightened, and when he heard Jiang Yang was angry and ignored his own fear, he held the young man's hand tightly, "Don't be angry, I'll accompany you. It's just...I...I'm afraid I can't do well by myself..."

Jiang Yang kissed him on the forehead and encouraged him: "It's just to play with me, what can't be done?"

Lin Xu took a step forward, and kissed Jiang Yang's neck, "Kiss...kiss my mouth, I brushed my teeth, there is no smell of smoke."

Jiang Yang smiled helplessly, put Lin Xu's mouth in his mouth, fulfilled his wish and gave a fiery entanglement of lips and tongues, kissing him against the wall panting, his eyes were watery, his lips were red, panting From time to time, the pink and tender tip of the tongue was revealed, which was very attractive.

Jiang Yang couldn't hold back, pinched Lin Xu's chin again, and asked him to stick out his tongue, curling the tip of his tongue and kissing him, the kiss was hot and affectionate.

Lin Xu had just brushed his teeth, and his mouth still smelled of mint toothpaste, but Jiang Yang tasted the sweetness, soft and glutinous, like a fluffy steamed cake.

"Hmm... Huh..." Lin Xu hugged Jiang Yang's head and kissed him forgetfully.

He likes Jiang Yang kissing him so much, every hug and kiss is a feeling of being needed.

After kissing for a few minutes, Lin Xu's tongue was numb, and Jiang Yang let him go, breathing unsteadily, and said, "Are you trying to delay the time and not let me pack my luggage?"

Lin Xu buried himself in Jiang Yang's arms, "Not at all."

Jiang Yang patted his buttocks, "Okay, let go, I have to pack something."

Lin Xu reluctantly let go, squatted beside the bed and looked at Jiang Yang, hesitating to speak.

"What do you want to say?" Jiang Yang asked.

"I want to bring Lele's toys," Lin Xu asked for advice, "Is that okay?"

Ever since Lele was gone, Lin Xu couldn't do without the toys Lele played with. Jiang Yang was worried about unsanitary, so he washed them clean, and Lin Xu always took them to sleep.

Jiang Yang naturally agreed, put all Lele's toys into a box, and made one of the moderately sized balls into a pendant, hanging it on Lin Xu's bag.

Before leaving, Lin Xu hugged the porcelain jar of Lele's urn and talked for a while, about being good at home and that he would be back soon.

Jiang Yang pushed the box and stood quietly at the door waiting for him. He didn't urge him, but just looked at Lin Xu's reluctant and sad look, and felt a little distressed.

But he couldn't be soft-hearted, the more Lin Xu fell into such emotions, the more he couldn't get out, it was an endless loop.

Jiang Yang walked over, took Lin Xu's hand, and said softly, "We're going to be late."

"Is it really not allowed to bring it?" Lin Xu asked again without giving up.

People's desires are never satisfied. At first they just want to bring Lele's toys, and later they want to take Lele's ashes.

Lin Xu couldn't accept the separation, and didn't want Lele to leave him again.

Jiang Yang squatted down and said softly: "We are out to play, what if we spill it or lose it?"

Lin Xu hugged the porcelain jar tightly, "No, I will protect it well, and I won't lose it."

"Xuxu, can you let it wait at home for us to come back?" Jiang Yang said, "It won't be long, and you will see Lele again soon."

Lin Xu's eyes were red, but he finally compromised. He put the porcelain jar of rice on the bedside, kissed the cold jar, and then went out with Jiang Yang.

The plane was at nine o'clock in the evening, and they left two hours early to check in their luggage and go through the security check.

After leaving the house, Lin Xu didn't say another word. He was wearing a fisherman's hat and a mask, with the brim of the hat pulled down to cover his eyes, blocking all sight from the outside world.

He was afraid of the crowd, and held Jiang Yang's hand tightly, not leaving for a moment.

Lin Xu used to be afraid of other people's strange gazes, but now he doesn't care about them. He is like a drug addict. Jiang Yang is a drug and a drug. He cannot live without these two things. Only when you hold it in your hand will you feel at ease.

Jiang Yang knew that Lin Xu was very resistant to the outside world, so he specially booked the first class cabin to give him a relatively quiet and comfortable environment.

After boarding the plane, Lin Xu slept in Jiang Yang's arms, and the flight attendant didn't wake up while delivering water.

Zhao Xiwen said that the more sleepy Lin Xu was, the more he wanted to escape. He couldn't change the reality, so he could only find comfort in the virtual dream.

The air conditioner on the plane was turned on very cold, blowing Lin Xu's skin cool, Jiang Yang asked for a blanket, wrapped Lin Xu carefully, let him fall asleep peacefully, and kissed his soft lips.

It was twelve o'clock in the morning when they arrived in Nandu City, Lin Xu was in a drowsy sleep, rubbing his eyes and being dragged off the plane by Jiang Yang.

Nandu City is close to the seaside, the air is humid, and the night breeze is cool, blowing on the body has an obvious coolness.

Lin Xu was warmly hugged by Jiang Yang on the plane, but now he was jolted by the wind, most of his sleepiness was gone, and his body felt chilly.

"Is it cold?" Jiang Yang looked at Lin Xu.

He knew that there was a temperature difference between day and night in Nandu City, so he asked Lin Xu to take a coat before going out, but Lin Xu still felt a little cold.

Lin Xu wanted to say it was okay, but Jiang Yang had already taken off his coat and put it on him, "Don't catch a cold."

The young man's fiery breath enveloped Lin Xu layer by layer, he looked at Jiang Yang who was only wearing a short sleeve, "Aren't you cold?"

"It's not cold, look at how warm my hands are." Jiang Yang pushed the suitcase and hailed a taxi, "I'll be at my place in a while."

The streets in the early morning were quiet and peaceful, Lin Xu rolled down the car window, the cool wind blew the broken hair on his forehead, with a faint smell of sea salt, the cold air penetrated into the lungs, and his brain was much clearer.

The construction of the city is similar, the neon lights are always a brilliance under the night, the lights of viaducts, asphalt roads, and high-rise buildings are scattered everywhere, like stars falling from the sky.

Xu Shi left the familiar environment, Lin Xu really felt a little relaxed in this strange city.

The house he lived in for many years carried too many painful memories, like a box that was constantly filled with water, he stayed in it autistically and weakly, was submerged little by little, and finally died in suffocation.

Lin Xu closed his eyes and took a deep breath, feeling the long-lost refreshment.

Maybe Jiang Yang is right, leaving the familiar environment for a walk, although it can't change the reality, but at least it can temporarily forget the troubles.

Lin Xu clasped Jiang Yang's fingers tightly with one hand, and held the small ball pendant on the bag with the other. Feeling the cool breeze, he closed his eyes.

Jiang Yang didn't book a hotel, but rented a homestay. The location was specially chosen. There was a balcony outside the living room, facing the sea, as did the floor-to-ceiling windows in the bedroom.

Lin Xu used to stay at home except for autograph signings and events, and even if he came out to autograph autographs, he would go back after work and would not stay to play.

So this is the first time Lin Xu saw the sea, he saw the lighthouse in the distance, he was attracted to the balcony, pushed open the glass door, a gust of wind blew towards him, almost blowing away Jiang Yang's clothes, Lin Xu Grab it.

The sea surface was tainted by the sky, and it was thick black. It was high tide at this time. Standing on the balcony, you could hear the whistling sound of the sea surface, mixed with the sound of the wind, and the sea water was beating against the reef violently, stirring up violent waves.

In fact, the seascape is only beautiful when viewed during the day, with blue sky, white clouds, water and sky, and flocks of seagulls flying under the sea level where the sky cannot be seen.

But Lin Xu has always preferred the night, so the seascape at night is what attracts him. It is mysterious, deep, and the tide is surging, with a natural tension. Add fuel to the flames.

Lin Xu stood on the balcony and looked into the distance to let himself go. He had been sleeping on the plane and car just now, and now he didn't feel sleepy, his mind was very clear, and it was also the most peaceful time since this period of time.

After a while, Lin Xu felt warmth on his back, and was embraced by Jiang Yang from behind. The next second, sparks reflected in Lin Xu's dark eyes, making his eyes light up.

Jiang Yang held two fairy wands in his hand, writing something quickly in the void in front of him.

"loveyou." Lin Xu stared at Huahuo and whispered these two words.

Jiang Yang lowered his head, pressed against Lin Xu's ear, and said in his magnetic and clean voice, "I love you too."

The corner of Lin Xu's mouth twitched, and he leaned back. With Jiang Yang protecting him from the wind, his body became warmer.

"Take it." Jiang Yang handed the fairy wand to Lin Xu.

Lin Xu took it and shook it lightly, watching the flower-like flames jumping in his hand, "Where did it come from?"

"I asked the landlord to buy it for me," Jiang Yang was very proud, "I wanted to take you to the beach, but the wind is too strong tonight, so I will find time to set off fireworks later."

"It seems that you have been planning for a long time," Lin Xu said, "You only found the opportunity through my smoking and drinking?"

Jiang Yang felt that Lin Xu's state was obviously different after coming to Nandu City, at least from now on, he was no longer as chaotic and fragile as at home, with great mood swings.

"I'm really angry that you don't care about your body," Jiang Yang shook the fairy wand, "You are a writer, you must have heard a famous quote from the famous writer Oscar Wilde, love..."

"Loving yourself is the beginning of a lifelong romance?" Lin Xu asked.

The south wind knows what I mean

"It seems you know," Jiang Yang held Lin Xu Weiliang's hand, and wrote this sentence in English with the flame of a fairy stick in the air, "Xu Xu, remember the definition of romance we discussed before?"

"Ah."

"I used to think that romance cannot be defined. It is an art and everyone's right to pursue beauty."

Lin Xu stared at the swaying flame of "Zizi", which gave him the illusion that his eyes were lit up, "What about now?"

"My romance is defined now," Jiang Yang said, "It's Lin Xu."

Lin Xu's eyes moved slightly.

"You are the romance I need to pursue for the rest of my life," Jiang Yang said slowly and softly, yet steadily and deeply, "So Xu Xu, love yourself more, only you make yourself romantic, I Romance will be beautiful."

Lin Xu didn't answer, and raised his head to look at the boundless night sky, where the stars came from far away.

"I might not be able to do it," Lin Xu said as the firework in Lin Xu's hand burned to the end and gradually lost its brilliance, "I love you more than I love myself."

Jiang Yang smiled, "Then for me, love yourself more."

He picked up another fairy wand from the side and lit it, making the fire in Lin Xu's eyes linger for a long time.

Lin Xu's world was dark, so Jiang Yang lit up his world with a fiery flame.